study.. read ..regurgitate... in exam n forget

its been stressful living with 2 problemactic men in the house . putting up with all their nonsense, getting some sanity so i wont get mental problems as well

get away with these family soap opera n move out on my own, watever ....it is...tat if e last resort

nt enough of sleep n long hours facing such problems. with e problem child n e senile father.

family issues r always present always a case to give n take until to a pt cannot make it then alternatives to solve e issues

time to retaliate n show my colors n my capabilities of wat i can do. tink i m tat easily bullied.. no way..
its been so unfair, everyone in e family dun seem to care for my pt of view.
i detest n despise men like e rotten one who stays under e same roof as myself. its a challenge to me at my struggling years .
y should such tings happen to me when i should be happily enjoying my prime years.really begining to lose faith n confidence in the next relationship that comes along. its been shitty n theres nothinh to salvage such situation , i wonder if my mum thought tat way when she was my age.
like some tings, i got to face reality n face it alone when e odds come on n crash me on my mental state of mind. reminding me to be stronger n tougher than i imagined i could possibily can b.
some aspects can b fixed like career , self development can b changed if i make effort to
others like a nt so condusive family environment , fucked up loved life cant b helped. continues to b messed up.
like of my fren advised me since it cant b changed, i got to change myself instead. in order to b flexible.
men r nothing. i dun need a man. however i just need one good man .
many characters. types ... e good one doesnt come along easily. n i cant be tat easily swayed just to get out of a troublemaker n risk my future happines for the potential golden years which is approximately like at least 30-40yrs to face n live with tat "someone"
on the other hand, the unhappiness accumulated inside has weathered me till i tink i cant pick n choose like some junk on the street
looking forward to tat person on next weekend on what sort of advice she has installed for me for this pig yr.. in fact i get so affected tat watever i read n study doesnt get in my head. i shouldnt.. but i cant seem to relax

overcoming all odds n hurdles no matter how difficult it takes to achieve

its again another day.. day 3 of CNY
again problem child cannot wake up for work.. use the family car n me , the poor innocent party has to fetch the older lad back..
veri stressed .. have to by hook or by crook complete the UOL program these 2 yrs hopefully next yr due to the following reasons

• Time
• money
• Age
• potential bread winner for the family since pa doesnt have many years to slog already.. puts on a strain on me.. to b able to contribute since rotten worm cant b trusted

testing our patience... well i shall have my strategy on such idiots. since talking sense doesnt help already . i will deal it my own method.. take into consideration my buddy's suggestions

mock exam ...6 days exactly to my 1st paper .. no preparation.

I 've gambling n i lost like $50 during my 3 day intensive gambling session after home visiting..my poor luck probabbly due to i havent pay my fine hahahaha. so its bad luck for gambling

every yr's the same to socialise with those few relatives

talking abt some common topics to catch up

listening to some of the latest gossip frm various uncles n aunties abt their own nuclear family group. each family has their share of issues

overcoming all odds n hurdles no matter how difficult it takes to achieve

i tink when i look back this entry again .. 2 yrs frm now. i would tink tat everyting tat i forgone now is all worth it..

11 days of my bro 3 nt in town, i realized 3 key tings

1. i have been really reliant on my elder bros.. tat i havent been able to b on e road on my own since they r always guiding me n i didnt have the chance to explore so its an eye opener.. after being lost on the road n navigating on my own , as i have poor sense of direction n i m a idiot in reading maps
2. its a skill to fend on my own. whether its on e road or in the society n some tings tat appear to b glamorous like being a proud car owner is nt at all.so many hidden cost to the expenses .. stressed on the safety of your loved ones n careful planning on the road so as nt to miss the way n waste time n petrol
3. i realize e importance of family bonding.. now tat i m approaching my mid twenties soon. tis yr i ate reunion dinner alone beside the tv eating tabao chicken rice frm auntie may . it was so miserable in a way.. started to tink too much whether e family will disperse if pa is nt ard to supervise or pull the family together. e rotten worm continues to give trouble n much worries until his own sad history adds on a precedent of his own broken marriage that i cant afford another disappointment in this family to add on my father 's woes.. selection of the "right " candidate becomes another form of stress to me..someone who can take care of me since i m so used to b taken care of.. till that happens i m on my own to stick on n continue my "struggle" since its a battle with the rotten worm who seems to act stupid is a cunning one in disguise

well ,everyone's learning curve is different. a break is wat i need frm the wrong ppl ... the cert tat i been yearning for the past few yrs is the most important task to complete. it has been a impossible task so far since attempting driving for my 6th attempt i achieved.. n after intensive driving n bumping in the wrong turns . i got e hang of it n i grown to appreciate my family chauffeurs more than ever..

no one can predict tomorrow but i hope to make the best out of today.

always uncertain. many possibilities

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march of e pig yr

wow wow. i m suddenly a blooming 24 yr old lass .. how time flies for e past 12 yrs since my previous pig yr at 12, while i was still a kid.
now i have the financial needs to carry myself ard oso to drive myself ard although with much loss of direction.. lousy sense of direction. n it feels scary to be all alone stranded on some dark lane tryiing to fish my way back to my destination..
a nite of roller coaster , while i was so close to my way to fetch my ah pa.. on e eve.. memorable 2007 lunar new yr eve
luckily my ah lu was ard to guide me. was a bundle of wrecked nerves.. after missing my way in the newly estate in sengkang .. hougang..
now i can proudly declare i can strandle with the paths of SLE ,CTE & PIE
yesterday it was a whole day of missing myway n finding my way.
movie , nite rider with my pals n rushing to airport t2 to fetch dad
n it ended with mahjong with my frens...
sleeping at abt 4.. n waking up .. 9 today teary... n i lapse in slumber for a nap of abt 45 mins before setting off to home visiting.
after cny,, will have to focus on studies.. 2 more day to enjoy..

v day 2007

Summary of events on Vday2007

• Fun & Germ's futile efforts to cheer me up on V day by surprising me with a stalk of rose
• Having a celebration with JEssica @ Sakae's PM.. before HRM's lecture
• COuldnt really eat much due to a outburst of a series of events , domestic issues , academic & work
• Attending M's last le cture on the exam format for HRm
• Attending to weird,erratic situation during operations @ work which turns out more problemactic than usual
• Stressful & tiring evening to focus. yawning throughout my class
• Finally retreating 2 slumber n relaxing

do u agree ?

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Because reality sets in!Actually its because there are stages to a relationship. The first stage is teh falling in love stage. Then reality sets in, thats stage 2, its where you see your partners flaws. This is the time when most couples split, because you see ther person for who they are not what you think they are when you are in love. Stage 3 is the decision to love stage. It's realizing that your partner is human and then making the decision to love them despite the fact that it feels like you are no longer in love.

wat a so "lucky"day

notice no reads 736700586V
its my first summon since i started driving.. a mere 10min walk to e wet market to get those marketing items leads me to $30 poorer.. shit... 1018am....haizz pay lor
its nt a easy task rememebering routes & finding car park lots ...i seem to have so much trouble finding my way ard .. ..still feels better being the passenger

the operations at work seems to be better now since i have an assistant for me this festive season.

never i have felt so humilatedwhen "he gloated at my presence " when i was doing my work as a front line staff, distributing some new yr sweets . he displays such a childish behavior.
as if depising me on my work.
its none of his business oso..

veri vexed......

so angry...

no choice LL . blame it on my "luck"

begining of a busy work schedule

list of tings on my mind.. sat. sun . mon
no fullrest.. longer working hours to prepare for lunar new yr operation work, event on sun, traiining on mon. nt forgeting mon its e first day of battle ... n 2 weeks of peak human traffic in front line...n finding time to revise on e weekends.. time to pack my room.. spring cleaning.. some time to relax ... sleep n revise for sch work... all tis is so packed....