review from 2006- current 2007 301107

back frm 13/1/06 when i joined the bank n till now 30/11/07 its about 22 months down the road now.. from someone whos veri goon du & careless.for my first 3 months , the thought of resignation is constantly on my head. wonder how i got through it for the past 2 yrs, coming Jan 08 would be my third year in this bank. Thankfully the end result after going through series of the hardships & difficult periods, I have challenged myself to be more proactive, tactful & meticulous somehow or rather n also sensitive to my customers' body language n needs. although i have my fair share of complaints , i m rather surprised to be getting awards n recognition consecutively for last year as well as this year. the Group business banking award as well as the top YTD compliments for Sept 2007 for yr 2007
recalling the days of being a newbie , being bullied , difficult boss & mean colleagues who did not really bother to teach me some of the things which iwas unsure of .
my inital days of the work was like some lost lamb trying to fish my way out of the dark tunnnel. on some instances , i got to call an old fren of mine for help.. J without her guidance i believe i will not be able to achieve some skills that i have till today
my new boss has been giving me a lot of support as well. refering me n encouraging to take on more tasks n challenges.
but then again i am not very eager yet to take on the challenge, mainly due to the fact that my academic achievement has not been achieved or completed.
Since the series of bad turns & more exposure to foriegners , chinese speaking clients , also partly due to a new assistant or colleague from china . my level of chinese has greatly improved because consciously i have been reminding myself to read chinese novels , newspapers n practise speaking better chinese without the local singlish chinese terms which we commonly used that are not widely understood by other overseas chinese.
my tour to tw has brought me a deeper understanding in terms of superb service, the visit to other banks also broaden my concept of receiving excellent service from a customer point of view and as a service provider, service excellence
these days, i tend to refer sales not only with the product benefit but also a genuine concern on growing customers' wealth
therefore when my clients can sense my sincerity on their portfolio, they are more open to my suggestions & not just blindly following our recommendations.
the mass banking portfolio has led me more insight of the living condition of the lower income group.
The personal touch to deliver a lost client's wallet to her place gave me whole new perspective of the older generation these days, not only she stayed in a small n cramped area. i realize how strong she was as a 90yr old folk to take care of her daugher in her 50s who was mentally less inclined . Beneath that iron steel n determined look of hers lies such strong character that i couldnt comprehend much.
there was a elderly gentleman who described my organisation as the "junk bank" due to logo which was shaped like a chinese junk.
He mentioned that in his younger days, he came from the rival company known as the match stick bank.
regardless of whether he meant it as " junk" or not "junk" i should relate it as an insulting term to myself as well as the organisation. Simply mean
Colleagues come & go, better ones can chat up. nt so close one . just maintain an amicable terms with a hi bye relationship n some occasional greeting
next week would be a new week covering some new branch. bukit panjang is a far far away place from friendly eastie, anticapating the new yet political environment. heard a lot from them especially a strict superior does not help to ease my mind , the uneasiness which will land on me.
despite the prempt difficulties ahead of me, the determination to survive well in hostile n foriegn environment is always in my head to stay calm & to be able to adapt well in anykind of tough situation that i m in. which will better prepare me in the next battlefield
i m grateful to those who have lent me a hand as well as those who mocked at me. without their efforts to lecture at me or to smirk at me , i wont be able to stand on my own feet to face the troubles . currently as the so called more senior personnel , i constantly face a lot of new n strange enquires n possible difficult questions , maintaining a cool mind is tough without being offended n taking in more personal remarks
my fellow colleague is nominated & undergoing some form of tasks for the eligible bacherotte, hopefully everyting goes well smoothly for her & my covering of the relief work.
the recent case of the dragon boat accident is like some tragic incident on 5 youths. such a waste fated though. such is life when some events had to happen

si bei tulan with the unexpected guest in my house

i flare up real big time.
at least i said my piece to him. recent unhappiness that was bottled up. tink if i dun explode feel veri imbalanced

below r some the messages which i convey to my lesbian buddy
i just told my bro off

That was my last piece before he left
GET LOST ! I HAVE NO MORE PATIENCE FOR U. N IF U WANT TO BRING UR GF UP . I HAVE A BROOM READY N I WILL USE E BROOM TO CHASE HER OUT,, N I HATE HER


life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
wat can i say
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
its all s fault mah
sam says:
tat is me rite
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
then wat he say
sam says:
he mumbered something ., i will move out anyway
sam says:
i ask him to get lost then. dun give trouble to e family

tat woman didnt come to my house then but i have been wanting to tell my bro off
i already told him i have warned him if he still doesnt get it i will personally tell tat woman off. i told him straight that you dun respect our father or the family because all the tings that you have done is just not giving respect to him as the owner of the house. but all along we only keep quiet if not would have just chased her away

sam says:
i ask him to watch out. continue on . n u better be careful tat our late mother will surely not let u off !@
sam says:
tis is quit e intimidating rite.. tis is wat my bro2 teach me one . as a last resort
sam says:
hahaha

my fire has subsided a bit.

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i have 3 ppl which i know who is their birthdays
2 of my frens & my dad
one of which is someone whom i celebrated with in ikoi restuarant last yr today
so fast one yr liao.. 4yrs since i split with ed, 2 yrs with goose n almost coming to 1 yr with pb
everyone seems to be blissfully attached with their significant other
no mood to start revising
all resit units. when i start to flip the first page.. i get deep down demoralised wondering why i didnt clear in the first place

ending.. back to home sweet home tw trip 5/11/07- 13/11/7

day 1 : taipei, qiu fen,yeh liu nice scenary,yangming shan,min zhu ji nian tang,some castle theme resturant,shilin night market,
day 2 :Tai chung,feng jia Night market,xi men ding. taipei 101
Day 3 : tainan,anping lao jie
Day 4 : kaoshiung
Day 5 : Kenting, visited the zhuoying hospital
Day 6:southern part. cat head nose , er luan pi
Day 7: Liu fu chun amusement
wu fen pu.. remember this most coz i was pick pocketed at this place
Rou he Night market

Day 8 : Back home to Singapore
things i really miss taiwan: the climate.nt the cold or rainy one. 20-23 degrees or sothe windy cooling one.. the xiao chi.. wholesale in wu fen pu; cheap clothes n nice design the veri cute taiwanese who helped me during my trip.. liao dao.. my guide who was such a humourous n knowledgable man. a retail staff by the name of xiao ting who was such a big help in her professional in her recommendation which made me look slimer. of course, by maintaining my diet, n not adapting to the climate n food there n unhealthy sleeping schedule did contribute for sliming. the 8 day trip did pull my family bond closer as a result my little nephew sticks to me at times. the young butler at this fu jun hotel in taipei looks charming who bears a slight resemblance like one of the singer in fei lun hai. yan ya lun . hes quite a nice smile n directed me to the police station near the hotel i stayed n provided much assistance. the tour group which i joined were all nice n jovial people..especially sharon who lent me a hand when i slipped n fell in qiu fen
carrying the baby pram around is no joke especially travelling for long hours & changing hotels everyday like 6 hotelsin 8 days
back to singapore brings me to the things which i have taken for granted like the political stability ,cleanliness, toilet, safety, multi language heritage n the unique singlish , fellow singaporeans share.
the close proximity from one place to another is only a mere 30mins or so latest by cab, car, no natural disasters. strong currency . n some of the efficiency i c among most services in most companies
being bilingual with the basic language of english n chinese brings me certain advantages especially among the asian countries , with not much difficulties , its easy to blend in with the 2 most prodominent languages used widely.
however during the taiwan trip, obviously i was not used to the primary language , chinese. pu tong hua as the main communication mode , besides i was educated using english so initally the switch to communicate with some of the locals there was quite a challenge.
the transport system is quite chaotic , during my first day of the 8-day trip in taiwan, i was totally bewildered n bizzared by some of their methods adopted, the style of the english n some of the jargon used . sometimes when i listen to their radio channels or watch tv , there are bound to be some chinese which i dont quite get it
i learnt to be more polite towards my customers during this trip n picked up some dressing etiqutte. oh mine, all of them are so well dressed n groomed in the service n retail industry, if they could improve in their english standards i tink this will bring them further in the region.
I met up with this ntu lecturer who is sitting beside me on the way back frm tw to sg on a sq flight, just had this instant instinct that she looked like a teacher to me .. n most importantly was a english teacher. call it my sixth sense or wat. she was on a 4day business trip in taipei for some conference to help the taiwanese to improve on the standard of the language efficiency
the trip back frm kaoshiung back to the capital taipei can take abt 5 hrs.. most of the time.. we can be dozing off from time to time which is someting that i m not used to it back to cozy home town over here
this entry is procastinated much long n delayed about 1 week or so . was much in holiday mood didnt have a lot of focus when i returned to work on 14/11/07
17/11/07 ocbc family day -- lousy event
18/11/07
met up with the gals coz one of them was back frm a japan trip/ nice bitching session
went for a facial juz now.. attended a family dinner @ tony roma's at suntec to celebrate my old bean's birthday which is currently today 19/11/07
it is also pb's n bro zane's birthday was contemplating whether to send a birthday sms to them. in the end decided nt to anyway .. with which pondering in my mind was 3 words that sprung up.. whats e point ?
i c more friends getting married.. pregnant with their child.. some which i heard getting married at a young age n then divorced first, second time which i ponder if i can really belive in marriage n seein my own bro in his all messed up love life with someone so complicated. 2 kids of 2 different fathers n now with my bro whos also someone nt suitable marrigable candidate.
the one for me seems far n unreachable. able to stay carefree n free spirted is such a luxury . singlehood can also be fun as well.. with some spinsterhood fellow jie mei.. last min travel plans..
able to focus on my personal goals
splurging on my own expenses without having much worries.its perhaps i have totally lost confidence in the men which i dated... having gained n lost is such agony.
the mixed emotions that contantly runs in my mind still strikes a terror deep within me. of course nowadays i do still keep an open mind . casually browsing around but i c no suitable candidate.
besides i dun wanna settle for second best
i was tinking long n deep that with such character i portray, i cannot be a good homemaker n some times i can get so wilful n short tempered n capricious i guess not much men can get along with me
pb is a nice fren but not a gd lover to maintain long relationship
the secretivness n freedom he gives doesnt justify the seriousness in his part
now almost 6 months apart.. i tend to give myself space to digest the unhappines n put it aside n live day to day happily. simply appreciating all the happy things i have now n all the good news i share
of course bro worm's plight did create an impact in my selection n my view point in relationship on how men n women can change so drastically over a decade n how married people can also continue to indulge in infidity while they already have such a happy family scene
i also observe the couples in my family bicker non stop n i find it a bore sometimes
till the day i can seek my own happines.. wish me luck in my career now.. getting even better n better .smooth transition n more sales n compliments many more good tings to come for me..
good grades for exam in 2008
good men r hard to come by.. really...
completed the 10km run in sept. 21km for stanchart run in dec.. hope my stamina is good.
next month is my bdae month as well as christmas run should plan for a 3 day break for my birthday n relax.. pamper myself well
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19/11/07

tw..tw

guess wat i m online at tw,at silver river hotel lobby using their internet to log in , todays e 8th nov been in tw for abt 3 days
the weather has been wet in taipei & the trip has been enjoyable so far
last nite i was juz so much in insonmia that i couldnt sleep in taipei , maybe due to too much caffeine n food at nite. slept abt 3 hrs so far on average
wake up at abt 6-7am daily n i sleep ard 2 or 3 in the morning. to top it up i was thinking or rather remicsing the past in my room tryin my best to get to sleep . with the help of the local channels. in a foriegn place. e last thing on my mind , well cant be helped too
besides the good place to write is oso during the trip
taipei alone is a city that never sleeps with endless nite market n food all over..
stinky tofu, fried sotong, chicken .. hao da chi pie , theme cave restuarant
cute ah bing gege at the memorial hall
n oso the people here is juz so polite. their bazzar is endless
ximeng ting.. i blow abt 7000Nt.. which is like i spend over S$300 plus in a shop which is impressive... i dont do this often though
at tis hr,, at a rundown or rather nt so developed taichung. e hotel is old reminds me of the run in bencoolen..
red carpet.. chinese setting.
tml is the 4th day.. hot spring
tainan
kaoshiung
n then back to taipei & friendly singapore in another 4 more days
8/11/07
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bro worm n his funny moves

its so disgusted.. an intruder in the house who i dunno is in ..
my bro worm's latest squeeze
i cant imagine after e tw trip back . wat would it be like