take tings as they come

putting in effort, n hope things will turn out fine

gd start

wake up @ 5. 50 am today . hope its a gd sign n oso a gd start

i made a decision to take a chance

take a chance first.

i tink i still cant get over him

ya.. i cannot tink properly
give myself more time..
i cant force myself

getting back to work after a 3wk break

make a wise decision
evaluate choices.
accept someone new or rekindle fond memories with the old flame.

fucking confussed again .similar episode

its bee n averi long weekend. after e luxurious massage.. e gals.. e gathering . soccer watch ex fling episode.. i dunno if i m in the correct state of mind to think.
i didnt know i got e mental strength to push him away
seriously i was happy tat i met up with him, but @ e same time when he pop up abt patching up. i got e jitters.i hate losing. really hate it
veri confused.. we did it,, yes... i was visualising a welcome hug. i missed e bear .e bear hug my lost n found love.
time....think carefully

first day of summer holiday

its a fresh start . ending of an academic yr.

last paper was quite a painful process

i missed out an important acc statement. B/S i pray i will pass...

never want to go t through e same round on the same topic again..

finally.. reaching e finishing line soon..so close

exactly 12hrs frm now
so much anxiety n formula to squeeze in//
infor overload
i need a cold shower to wake myself up.. its been ages since i stay up whole nite just to revise..

1 more to go n more struggling.. no more theory ..pscheydelical

yeah... last paper...
psychedelical indeed
too much theory will make u nuts
for the first time i loved my calculator..
lookinf forward to massage again..
pa is flying off tml nite.. haiz...
stock up on lots groceries so i dun have to go out a lot but still get food
formulas...

15/5/07 start of e battle

in another 12 hrs it another gruelling round once again .. after e power maggi mee n soon to gulp nescafe,,, life i so much rosier..having a nap..lots of tea during the day n by focusing your thoughts nt to sleep helps..speed reading has been a knack of skilln e more determined you r to pursue someting it just gets the better of u
i overheard a short slip of a story n radio about a clever jockey,

the story revolves about this jockey. in fact a few jockeys were trying to tame a wild horse but was unable to. they tried means n ways .. but once they forced it n try to ride it, it would run loose . however this particular jockey took a long n good look at his wild horse.. examined it throughly and discovered a pointed metal object on one of the horse' hooves. so the morale of the story was simply not to jump in to problem straight away before finding the root of the issue.
veri often even myself, failed to be sharp in noticing errors or the " real problem" this causes distress among urself when u cant keep your cool to ration out your thoughts,
so after knowing the story. tis brings me to applying in my upcoming's exams or other matters be it personal or work. to observe carefully before coming to a rash conclusion without a thought for the rest. n it takes just extra few more mins or time to come to a better conseus and understanding
it has been a rough n long day. memorising concepts & sociological theories
count down. again to the last paper.. FRI>>>>>

f***king pissed with some colleague

sun call me today call me. email her oso like no use for a stupid pic..
email her fine cannot receive. ok reply her say will pass her on sat still not happy
spoiler . spoil my nap call me for such nonsense.
si bei bui zhi dong..
so irritating !!
email her already./ reply her still nt enough sun received her call already bui song. today still test my patience, KNN.. i veri bek jek already lack of sleep still come n call me on such nonsense
i must calm down !!looking forward to sat.. SPA....

f***king pissed with some colleague

sun call me today call me. email her oso like no use for a stupid pic..
email her fine cannot receive. ok reply her say will pass her on sat still not happy
spoiler . spoil my nap call me for such nonsense.
si bei bui zhi dong..
so irritating !!
email her already./ reply her still nt enough sun received her call already bui song. today still test my patience, KNN.. i veri bek jek already lack of sleep still come n call me on such nonsense
i must calm down !!looking forward to sat.. SPA....

afraid of letting go to accept something new

if love can bring 2 people together, y is tat it also leads them away

one had to go thru separation, heart broken, moving on, and a cycle of accepting someone else

a normal bgr revolves the various stages.. like team forming from inital awkwardness to total blissfulness & at ease..

i m seeking someone who i can rely on.. a sort of brotherly love that prolongs even when i m in a relationship

but its so difficult . might take a whole lifetime to get to know tat someone.. SO..

n when incidents happen .it might strike to u separation is inevitable

after wolfing down 2 donuts. it feels like heaven , while listening to dylan guo's heart wrenching tunes.its recuperating forcing myself to concentrate on a relatively warm afternoon. can only absorb 40% of the content. so i m nw.ritually bloggin out of habit again.
a well deserved break on next sat with a full 2 hrs of massage, body scrub & jaquzzi, but before that is another7 days of gruellingn heavy intensive revision.
after all. only 1chance to show what we can prove our understanding. miss this n we got to redo all this agonising process on the same lousy units again
it took me while to decide if i would want to include him in this well deserved retreat.
e objective is a test to me to get over it and convince myself its not possible between us
telling myself n e actual thinking process does not correlate
soft heartedness wont work this time. face it ! sam dun ly to urself believing everthing is going 2 be okay. apparently its not.
but stubbornly i would like to know the outcome afterall we only live once
anyting is possible..when we know we try hard enough
2nd lower class....

E DONUT CRAZE..

after craving for the lovely donuts for about a few weeks i decided to try it myself on how nice it tasted. n in the end here i was queueing it for 3.5 hrs today@ the shopping mall.. THis instance just goes to show how passionate n singaporeans can be about having good food.. n i m commenting really nice n crispy ones.
Donut factory is really a huge sucess with as long as 3 barricades..as early as 11 to have customers waiting outside the store.
its really yummy n crunchy well.. worth the wait
i waited from 12noon-3.30pm for 2 dozen donuts
with 15 assorted flavors i m so spoilt for choice. but @ the same time i also can sense that i am going to fall sick if i do not stop those sinful indulgences , my body feels hot n my head was spining on the way back. coz after e 3.5hrs i waited another 2 hrs @ sim lim coz my buddy was buying tis LCD monitor screen that fails to work every time the sales promoter do the testing.so i resolved to take e cab back myself first before i really fall sick
AS expected i shared my well deserved snacks with my buddies n family..ah pa did loved those ..although earlier this morning he said that it was nonsense n complete waste of time to queue. n haha i did changed his perception after he tasted it..!! YUMMY...
Just as i tot i m going to fall sick, i give myself no chance by poping in panadol extra again n this time with an added extra booze . i armed myself with herbal tea " just in case "gulped lots of water to make sure i m in pink of health for the exam next week
my face feels a little warm now.. n i m starting to get a little giddy n tats e price for being a little sweet tooth..
zk was being a nice pal by coming over my place to guide me on my accounts the evening before.. today i had a nice break n i havent start on my notes n books yet.. e chocolate!!!.. double chocolate.. oh yeah! . so high! after consumption helps to keep me awake for tonite.. heavy reading.. before that need to load myself with sugar to be active n alert.chocolate keeps peoply happy beaming with delight . quite true but dont know how long the effect lasts.

battle @ expo hall 7

after 4 yrs grad in poly, first attempt of many years in tertiay education , i manage to have a taste what it was like in a huge exam hall with countless candidates like me waiting to submit our scripts up for marking.
the anticipation, fear & a total mixed emotions evoked through my brain. like a flash , i had to pull myself together n focus on the completion of my paper in the stipulated period of time in 3 hrs
The exam hall @ expo was huge as the rows is endless.
we c a lot of weary faces n worried expression. all ready to "charge" for exam n aim straight home.
luckily there was a break. grace period of 6 days for me before my next battle if nt i would not know how to prepare for exam
i always thought i wont be able to sit through a 3 hr paper but then i was wrong. in the middle of my exam i tot of leaving n not persisting further. instead i pop in my usual pandadol extra n decide to brave through it. no time to be scared n worried. be calm n perfom my usual self. n tings should be easy tosolve
it is intimidating but nt as daunting as i perceived it to be
i got to perserve on n hang on its jsut another 9 more days n my days of agony for exam fever would be over for this yr.

050507 1403hrs

hahahha now in bro3 place again . brought along my barang barang POA n marketing text, refernce & past yr papers to study here.. heehehehehe

muster all efforts to wake up @ 6 to revise

i m a weird bitch who refuse to sleep a lot..hahahah

rain big big.. weather damn shiok

haiyah cannot go out coz e foul weather
so before it started raining. i actually convinced my dad to play badminton with me before i started my revison coz my head was so bogged down with figures since last evening for my POA paper. head was throbbing n i had 2 panadol extra to calm myself down
n i figured well. since i had a bit of time. i can play some sports to calm myself down
theres abt 5000 candidates for exam for the 1st marketing paper. n i got 6 more days
thank god. office has stopped their nonsense calls by now.
HRM.. FW taylor. federick winslow taylor.
kelly twin track model.job redesign
POA. P &L . BS. cashflow. ratio analysis
sociogy, marx , weber. durkheim
its really a lot to digest. n i feel pressured to succumb to lazines & slumber
ok ok serious serious.. essay preparation

battle begins frm 1/5 - 18/5/07

labour day but indeed laborious nite ahead for me and the weeks to come. a lot of focus & effort to make things happen. nt letting anyone to ruin my well deserved break.
enough of socialising now is not the time to play already. if i do not want to risk failing anyunit or waste another more yr of mine.
watched wild hogs. veri enjoyable but have to start long nites at the study table n decline kind dinner offers frm my frens or any form of group date if possible..
coz will get distracted n waste more time on unnessary activites.
i tink have to tabao for most of my meals so as to maximise the hours possible.
hope to c the light after the dark tunnel to c my efforts paid off, fruits of my labour
with all my hectic schedule put in ..
ok adios. have to start revision . serious revision.