hada haircut . attended sinyi 's farewell steamboat @ golden mile

steamboat lunch with germ. fun. pig n the gals

its been very happy today with the gathering with germaine, pui fun, siew ping and another session with lsb, sinyi, maureen and william..
although the wait at puggol was long but it was well worth it..
lala mentioned i look fresh for today.. i tink its becozi slept on my own bed

fri nite @ my own bed .. gb home

爱永远都是难题
失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜
伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急
需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许
并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱
连未来也没有我
爱着你
仍是我的执着
让你哭泣对不起
为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺
其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系
愈是相处不容易
伤害了你
我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许
并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱
连未来也没有我
爱着你
仍是我的执着
走到感情关键时候
却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口
让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话
我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧
如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱
连未来也没有我
爱着你
仍是我的执着
爱着你唯一的解脱

2nd day of my valentine day's scrap book

took me a while to gather all these materials
bought some glitter glue for the decorative items ...
from bishan to bedok to get it done. was supposed to get the scrap book from maureen but since we were meeting on sat, so i reckon its more cost effective to collect it on sat at vivien 's place
fri. sat . fri nite. enterprise star award nite @ 50th floor ocbc
sat.. vivien / germaine's place for steamboat
sun clear cupboard. meet sinyi for steamboat
pheng promised to clear for me .. hehehehehe
next sat will be Vday , sigh panda has to go for class on 14/2/09
so he can only pick me up after work for lunch and then go for class.saD SAD.. : (
its been some time since i got into the mood to write.. last nite i was conceptualising the theme for my scrapbook and had to run here and there .. was @ bro 2 place
had t o bring rick from bedok south to sengkang// (^=^)so crowded..
today one guy wanted to take a no from me and ask me to be his friend.. hehhe i had to tell him i was in a hurry to go home n got to reject him tactfully hahaha.
on fri nite and sat nite i decide to sleep in my own bed.. how nice
with my own computer available to play with also.
landlord is still having branch dinner with her colleagues..
i forsee it will be a fun weekend compared to last week,, yeah...............
xoxoxoxooxoxoxoooooooooooooooxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoo

halfday off work

manage to run my errands, fetch my nephew go to sk for home visiting..
realize how nice home cooked food is. sister jo's cooking is not that fantastic really .mostly fried food and leftover food ..
ppl ask me why i m still so nice to him, i really dunno well
he asked me today if i liked kids. my answer to him is i m not ready for kids. not that i dun like them..

a lousy day

today i got a series of cb ppl i met. among some is bad loan , loan default,
angry customers. even had a loss of usd $120 earlier due to some misrepresentation. how lousy . shouldnt have commit such a mistake ..3 yrs in the bank n this should not happen at all

sad and dissapointed today alone in my room at the landlord 's room

met up with panda earlier at hougang mall . he was supposed to have a cool conversation with him
but after we settled at cafe cartel, n when he was just about to have a proper conversation , he burst in tears and we couldnt continue the conversation and then i got more and more impatient when he couldnt explain himself and that really tested my patience
after taking my barang from his car, i decided to take a cab back home myself..
the kids were veri cute. it did manage to make my day .. i manage to get myself some angbaos.. and socialise a bit with landlord 's sisters ..

VERY ANGRY

WHY SHOULD I BE ANGRY.
WATEVER WATEVER WATEVER WATEVER WATEVER WATEVER
I DUN FUCKING CARE NOW
i should enjoy afterall its sat night tonight
earlier went to viv 's auntie 's place @ cck
my feet is sore man after wearing aldo the whole day
after seeing the text , i m very pissed
after keeping a cool mind the whole day and peace about it. i dun feel good at all
we cut cake earlier at viv 's auntie place coz one of her cousin is 19 today
i dunno wat to say
hes confused afte rmeeting her
n he wants to meet , i dun c the point at all
still thought of buying a gift for him for vday
i m disappointed in him
which gal out there can be so magnanimous like me unlike my good fren whos upset for me. things he said to me when i didnt dress up on a occassion
i dun understand at all . are all men like that
its a gd ting my dad;s out of town.
2 weeks alone in my old house sounds good also. everything smells the same at the old house
dun like such entangled baggages..
implications .....
its just lunch n its freaking all of us out
so my last text was to ask him to think through it and then find me to talk when hes more level headed then
time to sleep early
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was too tired after posting the pics last nite. so i slept fairly early
fetch jhao after tuition today. did an express manicure , had dinner visited ah ma n back home with caocao
dad told me softly if i wanted to go back to sleep its ok..
hahahah n he walked away to smoke as usual
ok time to head back to my room
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day n ox yr..

你說：「想像假如我現在已經沒有什麼想愛的人，那該多好？不用受牽掛之苦，也不用傷心。」

不用受牽掛之苦，可也沒有牽掛的甜蜜。

有一個可以牽掛的人，畢竟是幸福的。

愛上一個人，也就是從今開始有了一個牽掛的人，也被人牽掛著。他的身影總是盤踞在你心頭，你會每天想起他很多遍，想著他這一刻正在做什麼，你會等他的電話，你會想聽到他的聲音，想挨著他的肩膀，想見到他的臉，想伸手摸摸他的鼻子，想知道他今天過得好不好。

當他不在身邊，在另一個城市，你總是時時刻刻惦著你和他之間的時差，用思念把時差補滿。

愛情，就是彼此永不止息的思念，是永遠放不下的牽掛，是心甘情願的牽絆。

你問：「可不可以不要牽掛一個人？那種滋味太苦了。」

苦的，不是牽掛，而是沒有應答的牽掛。當你牽掛他的時候，他並沒有牽掛你。他從來不像你牽掛他那樣牽掛著你。

苦的，是沒有歸途的牽掛，從此以後，他牽掛的是另一個人。後來的一天，你牽掛的，也將是另一個人。

曾經眷戀的身影已然遠去，但我們永遠不會忘記牽掛著一個人的那份深情，不會忘記當時的自己。

愛裡的甜蜜與苦楚，說的往往是同一句話。

一起的時候，你甜絲絲地問他：「你有沒有想我？」



他微笑回你：「你說呢？我怎麼會沒有想你？」

分手的時候，你流著淚問：「你有沒有想我？」

有？沒有？有又怎樣？沒有又怎樣？是不是如果有的話，會沒那麼苦？


hahaha panda has been away since mon..tml hes coming back...just back from cinileisure with martin & zhiwei
all 3 of us are in different fields .. i m in banking. martin is studying n planning for scholarship in australia for PHD in molecular science specialising in bacteria an viruses ,, possibly being a researcher. whereas zhiwei 's a chef ..
day 2, covered 3 places . n the main topic this yr during home visiting revolves around bro worm bringing his elephant "gf", lewis sng, and "kids".
had some catch up session with my cousin, aunties and uncle. my sec classmates , had wanted to watch love matters but it seems that a dinner n lim kopi session is a more practical n cheaper option n after which i returned to my bedok residence ,tikme to sleep and avoid using the com for too long
280109 1201am

first day of OX yr

ok i woke up sleepy head when xavier knock at my main door
visited first uncle , went over to bro 2 place for lunch.. auntie may's curry chicken is good. n homemade hakka yon tau foo.
we played black jack earlier among my family while waiting for baby andre to wake up from his nap
my bro 3 really Mr Ban LUck .. at least 8-10 times
even when i got 21 , 20 i oso lost to 5 cards to bro 3. we ban him from being banker liao.. hahahah gamble until TL .. full points 21 still lost to him
so finally i become the banker. he put a stake $4 to make me win back but ended i paid $8 back to him coz he ban luck again.. kao we tried a test whether it was the seat then again when i swop
whilst i got one time ban luck and ban ban once
pop over to ah ma 's place.. heee bro worm was still in ah ma 's place so no choice got to shake hand with her n wish her happy new year .. manage to carry lewis sng the latest family member or rather being pushed to. tat little boy looks really like his mother. elephant..
back from my grandmother 's place .
there was this auntie who love to pinch my cheek when i was a kid. she wanted to do that earlier also.. omg. shes my mother 's cousin. she had 3 sons.. all boys no daughters so hehhe she sat beside me and keep bombarding me questions on like if i got a bf, what is my bf doing. when i want to get married . aiyoh imagine at my age still kenna pinched wa lau.. so pai seh in front of other cousins earlier
asked mq when hes going zhida 's place. n mike will also be bringing his wife along later.
1730hrs
hehe my cousin just came
brought along an ang moh bf along

went back to grandma 's place for dinner . chill out at her place then zhida 's palce
another round of akwardness in the air as i stay to introduce some topics