back home

same computer difference place
today is my first nite back
miss those days when we gossip in the nite with landlord , drinking in the kitchen and smoking at the balcony..
she used to reminisce abt the good old days, how she wished her marriage would turn out to be better
panda and i had a brief outing in ikea where he took up some time after his test to meet up with me
i dislike his jokes sometimes,it challenges my ego and i m not happy about it
at times hes crude and he think its funny
i guess tis is how couple works. irritate each other occasionally and this is how couples spend the rest of their lives together bickering, complaining abt each other. seeing their flaws.. condemn a bit and the n move on.
the moving out and the moving back episode was definitely not fun
the joys of staying out is fantastic
i had a nice family dinner with bro 2 n family. its been such a long time i seen so much dishes on the table
however homecooked food can never be compromised to outside dishes
saw bro 2 's new domestic helper
her inital is bk.. funny person , bro jokes that she remind him of liang po po .. always walk with a hunch back to prevent from blocking us while we watch tv. tats so bad of bro to tease his own helper in the house
just like bro3 n jan were arguing some small issue n it can go on n on in the car..
i have seen myself how a gamer works.
theres only more room for compromising and trying to strike some balance here and there
i cant fool myself that theres no problem about this, thankfully hes someone who exercise some discretion over certain addiction
theres only so much that time can tell for itself

countdown to 2 nites before heading home

its been a good old 4 months away from home. i decided not to regret in future had i not been so wilful with my inital decision to enjoy and embrace freedom.
freedom comes with an expensive price and if i were to abuse it, it comes with inconsiderable consequences as well
just came back from panda ' s place. hes having his lab test this week and i decided not to bother him much . however he offer for me chill in at his place. i ended up catching a little nap at his place in order not to disrupt his revision
i dunno explain either. i enjoy his presence but then somehow i get uneasy when he does something funny
an ex is an ex for a reason i believe, n i hold the same values that exs can be good friends as well
if i were to sort it out this way there should be an easier way to solve this issue
i miss my old bed , sometimes the cranky neigbour at times
gb is a area of mature estates. community club services and some cats and dogs freaking out occassionally
last nite there was a big wind blowing around 11 odd and it was very strong winds caused from sumatra , indonesia
sometimes i hope my dad appreciates me better now that he knew living alone at this old age can be rather torturing
this sun will be my 5 th month with eng pheng and hes been there to fix my occasionaly computer defacts, my outburst of emotional outbreaks be it for work or family or with him.
a yogi bear, a panda or even my bolster..
he s someone i look forward to in the near future building together hopefully , although he irritates me like a love-hate relationship
some things happen for a reason n when it dwell to you that maybe it is a blessing afterall.

block leave at home and some shopping & errands

i got a super long break from apr9 till now. its 17april.. almost 10days of break
did some errands. shopping. movies . spent quite a bit of money for entertainment .. once in a while , i think its still acceptable . dads still as stubborn as usual
hes a big spender but hes stil caught in the dilenma of working or nanny for my brother. i hope he dun need to stay alone.
ideally hes get a regular steam of rental income. or even if he doesnt he can opt for some part time to occupy his hours..
if not he end up more n more senile.. i hope things will get better when the baby niece arrives .. dad has something to occupy himself
if he still continue to help my useless bro at his own expense, he will be worse off than him and we cant help to cushion these in the long run
maybe parents r like that. they worry all the time for their kids
hopefully one day my dad will be happy staying with the grandkids.. or doing some part time free of those worries n distraction from the ever troublemaker..

a new logitech zebra mouse

so cute n tiny.. handy also.
i been a nanny for the past 2 days in the house.. bringing the didi for breakfast.. being disturbed by him in the morning by waking me up so to get him out of the house for food n so forth
i got a new mouse at the megatech fair at expo last evening with mr panda..
hes also too tired to hang out for too long either.
had a fairly good breakfast with my family dad n kids @ sims drive. even panda joined me ..
mushroom pot with my colleagues and then dinner back at bro 3 place..

finally.. my broadband mobile works normally

resuming my nocturnal lifestyle of sleeping at 3am.. went to maharaja in cuppage with the gals for dinner.. n they were encouraging me to switch to department instead..will give it some thought. havent been wearing corporate wear for the past 3yrs or so. i dun feel like i m working in a bank sometimes since i m so unglam with dressing these days..
sharleen has been under the non performing matrix which is quite a sad thing.. her corporate secretaries are having some legal issue n her source of contacts for leads has been affected for a few months under performing while the rest r delivering beyond the target..she might be asked to leave if she still cant deliver the numbers..
i had this mocktail @ alley bar.. which consists of choya green apple juice,apple, grape and some other concoctions.. its a sweet drink which looks like red bean soup after the ice cubes melted.
dinner @ maharajah was nice, it Indian cuisine. with curries , masala. nann.. n this smashed spinach with tomato .. looks like some baby food which u see in a Heinz bottle.. dark green n chalky.. reminds me of chlorophyll..
the service was good.. n food was relatively nice compared the one i ate 10 yrs ago in little india was far better.
i havent had much plans for my block while some of my colleague havent planned their trip. one of them is going to perth to visit her friend whereby lodging will be provided..
as for me. my fren whos in hk, worth considering but i dunno if i m willing to burn my pocket then.
tml will be the last working day for me for this week
unless boss ask me to cancel my leave for saturday.. which i m unwilling to do so..
hopefully tml ends early and everyone can knock off on time ..
been wanting to get some new tops since i dispose some to ubi lodge some nfp org..
n also nice comfy scandals .. to go along with a cute pedicure..
my feet r so neglected.. they look terrible..
also my plans to cook for panda. i bet hes sore over his grades. perhap gd food will cheer him up .

April 7 2009 2254

its been a couple of weeks since i wrote anyting decent .. i manage to sort out my finances after vb and i decided to have a clean bill free of debts for this year now. time to sort out my finances and save up. hopefully to c a 5 digit figure soon..
2 weeks ago i followed panda to machap baru.. a small village area in malacca. met up with his ah po.. yiyi.. jiu jiu.
makan trip feast
came back with mango. jam bu lak ( jackfruit ) the trip was quite rushed sat afternoon n we came back on sun nite..
pheng n myself have been going together for the past 4 months going to 5 or so.. and coming 15th april will be my 4th month of rental to landlord. after a while things get accustomed. staying in bedok away from town is also no big deal although most of my friends still stay in the east with one or two staying more to the west or north area.. but who cares.
the cycle of dating
from singlehood---> attached--> marriage---> kids----> parenthood---> retirement
its all in a cycle from being someone 's daughter, wife. mother. and so forth.
with so many frens dashing to be hitched .. becoming mothers and also hearing stories of unhappy marriages. its like a bet.. some who choose the rite one is happily ever after . some who didnt jsut ended not that blissful afterall
my dad sort of accepted that i was not going to move back home afterall after 4 months apart and occasionally seeing each other for dinner. coming weel i think i will try to spend some time back at my dad 's place to clear the remaining lot of my old lecture notes ..
going back to uni seems tough now.. with expense staying outside being a huge chunk of expenses.
hoohoo... 2 more days to a long weekend.. yippeee..
craving for a nice pedicure. havent did it since cny.. maybe i can check out the one in my neighbourhood.

13/03/09

was so moody recently. cant describe why either.. coping with the extra expenses has been challenging..
the recent counselling session has left me unsure of my confidence
surely my appraisal was affected...
these few days i should try to just relax and enjoy.. too much negative energy is not healthy
after elena asked me out for coffee, her moody energy also spread to me.. maybe thats y.
i should just go and visit dad later. visit the bank to settle the last payment and spend some time with him and have a gd dinner with my buddies tonite

a new friend on board

sister jo was asked to pack n leave on fri 6/3/09
guess landlord was also in a dilenma after 2 yrs of the working relationship with her.
well we look forward with a new friend.. ms chui..
so far her cooking was better than sis jo.. hainanese chicken rice . taste good.. n her soup was far better than mine as well
nothinh much for this weekend. just slack at home. met up with viv for dinner...
thought panda wa sso obessesd with his gaming streaks . guess hes still a man who cares ..

paid my bills..

received the Balance transfer from posb..
cleared almost all the outstanding
one more week to pay day to clear cash plus
went to ntuc to stock up on groceries..
took a cab home.. phew.. nice .. later a warm shower
counting down to next fri for off day
planing on a spa with landlord
last nite pheng drove all the way from nee soon camp to find me.. well tats nice of him
i cooked udon soup for him today.. n pack it for him
tml planning on sandwiches for breakfast.. bought milk. cheese. sphagetti.. fishballls. cp wanton. n some instant noodles n chunkie.. yeah.. nice weekend to chill
so far so gd in work

buffet dinner at RP

royal park royal buffet.. internatinal buffet..
nice dinner with ubi cfs team//
it was raining heavily today again. nothing new to write.. the day just ended as it is. continue to cross sell loan and personal line..

10 mins before 9

a break has got to end.. i got to brusht my teeth and go to work..
its 8.50
had a little session with panda last evening.
hes tired but he came over my place and we went out for a short while . thats just panda.our usual hangout mall at parkway and cartel at siglap
while things start to get a little stagnated , i could forsee it coming but i guess its part n parcel while hes still in school
hopefully whens he finish class. it would be better.
time to work. earth to sam....
shoo shoo for work..
bleah

first attempt in the wet market.

after a series of cordination , my house is finally free from the kiddo...
i had so much patience for him on sat. its a gd thing i am hibernating alone at home after 2 hrs of preparation. from the replacement of atm card in the bank. the wet market , preparation and cooking and walking back all the way from bedok central. done the 4 dishes..
i hope i did ok for a first attempt. although i forgotten the dried chilli for the gongbao chicken
rick is really a stubborn kid who refuses a lot of conformity in the house. it has been very difficult caught in between my friends and my little nephew.
yesterday 's cycling trip was a terror and was my first time bringing him out with all my other friends
come today he had wanted to tag along with me while i ran my errands today n i was pretty firm about my decision that i wont babysit him today
n today sure enough the moon auntie or his godma came all the way from sembawang to bring him out
n jh 's cordination with my 3rd bro is really lousy.
n godma was already here and he didnt want to go out with her .. although godma was reluctant to bring him to tampines. in the end she had to . coz i was already running out of patience for the both of them n i had wanted to proceed to do my stuff regardless of the cordination and outcome to settle for this michievious boy
supposely i had enough of this boy and i took off to rest not to babysit this boy
moreover i already babysit him and took him out one whole day. i think its only fair i get to rest on my last off day of this week,i hope panda will like the cooking.. got to bath and clean up the kitchen...
bleah.....
=P

280209 1230

while lsb is cooking..
i decide to key in an entry
it was nice of her to want to cook a little snack for the kid n myself.hahaha its going to be a fun day ahead..
whilst panda is busy in school. i had enjoyed myself. truly looking forward to the break off work
i managed to have some peace to myself without a kid at my side harping at me to use the computer.
later we will be meeting the rest of the people at abt 3 in the afternoon..
i wonder hows the discussion going on with landlord and her siblings.

Marley

hes such a cute labrador.
touching movie. the love for your own dog goes a long way
dogs will return the same amount of love if the owners devotes himself to them.
its a sad ending. most of the patrons who watched it tear a bit including myself and lsb
for every pet lover. i think its a loss n pain when you lose something which u loved a long time .
its heart wrenching as the pet owner has to c his own dog die to be put to sleep to reduce his last breath. laying there staring at you. begging u to end its life..
they painted a picture of couple, marriage, parenting and kids
heart warming movie which makes the ending so sweet while the kids had feelings for their dog while they drew pictures of the dog and burry it with it .
last evening. pop over to dempsy 's for italian dinner and wine. we orders moscato some fruit wine . athough the price was a little steep . the overall ambience was good.
germaine leaving the bank to be a salesmanager for financial systems.. selling some it solution to institutions.. well a great start for everyone

finally a long weekend.

i have finally waited for my long weekend
was counting down in office since 2 in the afternoon
i have 3 days of break altogether.. yeah
fri sat and sun
tml at 9 i will meet up vivien. sinyi n maureen to see ms heng off to hongkong who will be outstation there for at least a yr
as usual today was raining like almost the whole day as well..
i just got myself a warm shower n now it feels fantastic now.
looking forward to watching marleen and me with vivien tml and also later on dinner with germ fun and siew ping at the timbre in orchard.. yeah yeah n also cycling on saturday
tomorrow also will visit lan yi in red hill for her consultation on this yr forecast for me..
need some guidance from her.. today stanchart called me but however germaine was on the line so the line got cut off n that person didnt call me back again
later on i will pick up the boy n yeah i will stock up on some canned food.. the dinner was again terrible today only the carrot . corn n onion soup looks edible . the rest looks like shit again today
had wanted to visit the library but decided not to coz i miss the bus stop n its a long walk.
boss had to go to pasir ris. client ;s house to fix my error for me .. didnt want to face him so in the end once cash is balanced decided to head for the exit straight away
so looking forward to having fun for the weekend.. yeah.....
=)

rainy rainy day

it was raining the whole day.. really bad weather and chilly in office..
bad weather makes me miss home. my mum and how long my day was at work
下雨天只是让我觉得无限的惆怅
阴阴的天空挂着一个窒息的气息

dinner was lousy.. sister jo has this steamed egg with brocoli that looks like vomit to me..
the cabbage looks weak as well
in the end i cooked some korean instant noodeles as it seems to be the best choice out in the food cabinet
freezer was filled with junk processed food if not the rest are lousy canned food
regreted not tabaoing the nice food at the food centre
after rushing from brex international.
the walk to office was endless.
it simply made me more depressed for work then i m now counting down to thurs evenig 5.30pm for a long weekend..
the sky was like grey for the whole day. as it persists on to rain mercilessly for the whole day. everywhere is wet wet wet n only wet and mouldy
i had a late lunch at about 2 today coz i came in later in office at about 10.30am so i decided to skip lunch however i took a quick lunch at abt 2 in 10 minutes
banana has these intention to talk to me or sound me out but waking up at 7 today just made me more exhausted to care about anything now.
i dun really care if my interview pulls through. although i guess the intervier i think had a general quite positive overall impression with me
their products belong to some high end user whereby only top notch companies would adopt , and they got to pay a premium for it to cover the design costs and all . cost me quite a bomb to take a cab to the industrial area and then back to ubi.
overall rating today.. i m better off curling up in bed reading..

a nite out in town.

tonite i m out in town shopping for phones to find that i cant debundle mio as a whole another 1 more month before i can cancel the useless mio plan that i have.
its kinda sad . currently planning on an Iphone or htc phone if possible but i m not too sure whether i will be able to get used to the phone functions
i finished printing out the resume i needed for my interview tomorrow morning. tomorrow will be long day as i got to be out of the house latest by 7.45am in the morning in order not to be late for the interview with brex international at 8.30am i hope i can end early ...

iron scar behind my hand

sleeping @ my house for the last nite

managed to clear my room within 3 hours .. its an achievement. my room is now ready for rental
so while panda is busy playing street fighter . i will forward my resume to the hr @ job plus
while my dad is reluctant to shift over to sengkang which is expected.
well nothing new changes .

a tiring day after a few nites of inadequate sleep hours

home cooked food taste yummy
even using my own computer is great.
dad's shifting to sengkang offically tml..
i got lots to throw tomorrow..