F"""ked up with life sometimes

its been 2 long weeks since i have been decently online or even staying up late on a weeknite.. coz i was so stressed up with work. $$ n sch academic stuff. for the last weekend i spent like 14hrs sleeping on a decent saat nite n spend sun working out accounting which took me like a lot of concentration to focus. a lot of uncertainty n ambigous try to clog my head n my brain starts to malfunction n fall apart . as though some heavy weight crushes on me n forces me to stay still there n hang on to there. e load sometimes suffocates me. last weekend was one of the rarest break with no mini event to spoil my break.
there is a lot of work n reviision to b done.. n i m only @ 20% capacity tis is indeed a worrying sign of "progress" n its making me depressed n less confident tat i wont b able to make it. mock exam is on the first week of dec.. now @ chapter 10 or so.. i have no idea how to solve frm chapter 5 onwards.. after e inital intensive revision.. i realize my own capability.. i need help.... spirtually... pray to the confusius.. as some classmate proposed to boost up the morale ...
hopefully a study group helps. i wont want to be caught dead in the last min craming of information .. tis will cause me to age faster n disintegrate at a rapid rate ...
lately at work is a picture of confusion sometimes with ocassional idiots to try to disrupt ur pace.
high demands , lack of accurate information , have to act wisely in the favourable postion in terms of organisation n personal..
its a fast pace environment .
like today i had an unreasonable request, n tat client is trying to propose someting which cant b done logically.. n its a an art of rejecting someone right on the face.. n yet preserving some dignity in tat person. weekend,, how beautiful but short lived... there r 2 extra reports to b done .. total of 4 to b submitted..
i have to tink of a gift.. its always a pain to shop for gifts . e emotional attachement as well is involved n esp its someone endearing although its a terrible shame tat i dunno wat he truly likes or needs.. so near n yet so far. 4 more days to decide n i settled some of the programs installed. time to zzzz