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its almost 3 in the morning... my ex bf tried to reconcile with me... but hes passive bitch who is veri bo chap// so after 6 months .. he suddenly wanted to meet up out of e blue , n silly me still met up with him after exam foolishly thinking that hes going to change but sad to say hes not sincere at all n sstill treats me like part time .. i flare up after 10 days of consideration .. n i msg him in MSN veri harsh language.. e.g to ask him to FUCK OFF MY LIFE, ! n DUN WASTE MY TIME.
right now there is another guy who is nice to me caring n all but i cant accept him yet although hes a better choice..
i ahven been mentally tired managing my sales team when there is no boss n i have this stupid problem which afffects my sleep.. n tis must happen during my term break
anyway i have finally convinced myself to let go of such a lousy ex . n it was pointless to carry on anyway..
but 1 hr later i was veri guilty that i flare up at someone i still have feelings for although he such a bastard. i wonder y in work i can be so decisive .. for work i can firmly reject HR n tell them i will defer my transfer till my team is stable when the new manager come inbut y in such case i cannot make a clean decision instead

Sam