getting out of the nutshell n coming to terms with reality

went for a nice dinne r @ din tai feng with lsb..



chill out at clarke quay at one of tis pub which reminds me of a clinic



quite a nice cozy environment



these days n nite i still miss him so much



another guy has been trying to ask me out havent want to reply him



in a daze. still cant get over it completely



although i m n my most normal mode. laughinh happily in office. performing my best



when nite falls its like my as usual down mode after a while it becomes a routine for me



when i on my way to work. i recall all the happy events i do with him till now..71days...



its been like this...



i cannot let go of him



i m reluctant to move on



i dunno wats so gd abt him. some times i wish theres was such tings known as wang qing sui so i wont get so agonised over him



sometimes when i c him online . i have the urge to pm him. but then i realize nothinh tat ican do more now to smoothen between us



i can no t treat him like transparent



yet both of us have this unanimous tension which is like a .. pls dun mess with me again or bother with my affairs

hes a nice man . but i cant break within my own zone

he asked me out for fireworks n e movies

i wonder if hes also havingsleping problem.

does he even miss me or hesreally moving on fine on his own

these days i dun cry easily now..

im thankful for the gd things thati shappening to me now

i thank him for being my shadow for me n the shade thatprovides me shelter to seek refuge

i want to completely juz erase him..can i .