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25/12/07 11.30
my computer was in a mess & despite many attempts to on my pc previously & despite many attempts to on it, it still doesnt work therefore i know i wont sleep if i knew i didnt pen down my thoughts so i wrote it on a diary first
so here i was with that black organiser
i am thankful that i have such wonderful family & friends all this while by my side
24/12/07
Bitching with " lesibian" birthday @ her place with her family members & with lu,maureen,"merry"also william, tb.nice colleagues . i have wonderful memories for the 2 short days i have for 24-12-07 - 25-12-07
Although my mind is sometimes torn between pb,whirling within my tiny brain on how he is doing now. Just couldnt resist sending him those greeting sms thoe prank ones , n here he was calling me, so we exchanged a few sms & i gathered information that most of his clique was either married or attached, from there i couldnt but help feel sorry for him that his reply was to stay home to play psp while the rest of the world were like busy celebrating . but on the other hand, i was with my own gang of frens. n so i ponder on the decision of asking him to join or suggestive of joining him. in the end i chosed to stick with the gals
nevertheless playing taboo with the gals n merry was just as fun as we straddle. tearing betwee nthe ideas of playing bowling @ kallang leisure park & playing board games at birthday gal's place, with merry's chauffeuring around. All i can conclude is we enjoyed 2007 xmas as wekk as viv's bdae
last xmas was kinda memorable as i hada bad row with joe shortly we broke off followed by a long weekend alone, as i was too upset to entertain, i still got the blog entry to certify.
recalculating.. i had gone through 3 relationship altogether so far as long as from 4 years . 1 yr and lastly 4 months didnt take long to realize how wilful n immature i can get at times. looking back i hope to achieve more for the 5 yrs to come
23/12/07
Auntie may organised a xmas family gathering collaborating her family,as well as dennis n family, my family , joanna , rick , auntie moon,altogether 10 kids

25/12/07 lunch at Ajizen @ marine parade
cycling @ east coast park. happen to bump into jessica , my uni classmate from stansfield, made some small talk
played some arcade games with the kids, from the interaction can understand how n why some kids behave in a certain manner, i read from today paper previously n i tink this is quite true n now i understand. kids are like a shadow of the parents. boys as of father n gals to their mothers
i can see it when i focus on their features physically n their facial expression they display
was watching this channel u, there was this yu dan professor. on the public speaking n the topics was on the art of making friends & the 3 stages
although it was a fairly short episode about 30minm i believe i benefited
young stage, middle age, n old age
the main points was the meaning of true friendship, how to cultivate & the techniques of holding a proper conversation without offending the other party . in case i forget, those were the following advice she provided to avoid on the pitfalls of the 3 stages
young. abstain from sex
middle .. not to be scheming . to plot or fight against others
old.. avoid materialistic..complain probabbly at that age already acheive a lot so must discount some material wealth
currently i would say i m still between young & middle age. my pay now is considered stable. in the process of acquiring more material wealth

benevolence is important in a person's cultivation . modesty is also essential in a person's sucess n the conclusion is the more cultivated you are, most probabbly the chances of getting good friends who truly care for you

there are 3 main character in a frienship
the outspoken people- expressive , leading the conversation
follower - neutral in their stand
quiet ones- those who just listen in a corner quietly

technique
keeping your mouth shut at the appropriate timing. friends are your mirror image of an individual. respect for one another goes a long way. not forcing other people to act on your own set of values.stop advising your fren when they simply dun accept your advice

i found her recommendation quite useful. oriental thinking is confusing with those confusicus teachings n chinese idiom seriouslybeing english educated i find myself mentally challenged when i try to recall those lengthy proverbs. All i can visualise is those bamboo strips of books and long lines. therefore yudan's advice was what i can consolidate with the help of english subtitles on the tv screen
after the series of UOL revision, my general grasp of hidden meaning and gradually becomes stronger as i get used to the thick readings & long lectures i get ffrom my lecturers . my absorption just gets better after the gruelling in bukit panjang. the interaction, although was tough helped built endurance, patience & the sensitivity to work, higher expectation of myself m the keen sharpness as well to be more meticulous, so it was a fruitful experience

thinkinh forward what jianhao told me on a cab back ride strikes a deep impression, my daddy doesnt wants me n my mother anymore coz he found himself a new gf,, after hearing this , i cant help but feel heavy hearted for this little boy in which ever way u name it. this yr i bought rick an expensive bdae gift a pokemon game as i thought he was deprived of his fatherly love for him n joanne'sbro , 4 yrs of suport emotionally as he was like the acting fatherly figure for him
he held to her as she had to shoulder the responsibility . as an elder bro
if my younger sis was treated badly by her husband n leading an unhappy marriage tolerating all sorts of nonsense
sometimes parent love cant be replaced by someone else
this yr i also bought some candies , chocolate from candy empire to my frens n some of the kids
taking a step back, my softer side, emphatetic side of me i stiill harbour is no kids policy
occasionally i do enjoy the company of kids maybe at his stage of me. at 24 still want to enjoy life as we only live once so we got to truly enjoy who knows what will happen tml

2612/07
met up with siew ping, germ. n fun @ a dinner in defu
the crab stung me, before i can taste the butter crab i bled. as the sharp spike pierce through my gums.. i bled before i can eat it..

28/12/07
n now at work more peaceful everyting 's getting better nw. bettter in handling nasty ppl n the correct technique n the PR in the interaction