warm sun

its been a long time since i got settled down in front of a tv without much disturbances.. with tokyo drift in the background its like a hip hop setting
e week has gone by in a flash. unknowingly its the nth day since i last communicated with PB its about 120 days now..
on the 15th day of the lunar month which is consequently also mid autumn festival that day.. last tuesday during lunch i went to the temple near my office n drew a divination lot . guess it did boast my ego coz it kinda nice n motivating
time can rob a person of its senses , as the days pass , my sensory glands just go numb towards emotions. n the remnants of what it remains does nt sting now
the past 120 days i had is like a whirlwind another 100 days or so would be 2008.
slowly it corrodes my mind. erroding my memories that i vaguely remember still , selected scenes of what ought to be ,
i had a early nite for sat last evening . approximately sleeping abt 12 hrs . n waking up early for a morning jog

星期六晚上 哪都不想去 也无法入睡 看着电视机 持续...星期六深夜 我想起了你 没什么特别 只是回忆 你让我自由 我很感激 星期六深夜 永远不会有任何人能代替你 星期六.

星期六的深夜
星期六晚上
哪都不想去
也无法入睡
看着电视机
持续在发呆
喝了七分醉
闭上了眼睛
试着不想你
但已来不及
忘了如何
让眼泪停止流下
还好没人看见
没人会说话
星期六深夜
我想起了你
没什么特别
只是回忆
你让我自由
我很感激
星期六深夜
永远不会有任何人
能代替你
星期六晚上
哪都不想去
也无法入睡
看着电视机
持续在发呆
喝了七分醉
闭上了眼睛
试着不想你
但已来不及
忘了如何
让眼泪停止流下
还好没人看到
没人会说话
星期六深夜
我想起了你
没什么特别
只是回忆
你让我自由
我很感激
星期六深夜
永远不会有任何人
能代替你
这就是遗憾的滋味
陪着我形影不离
明天我会面带微笑
但无法忘记你

li hom ' ssongs is just so emotional enaging...
still remember this song 第一個清晨
entangling those scenes that i cant forget that easily
forgeting is gd therapy
at least it gets out of your chest n u stop brooding all the possible outcome n possibilities
been busy preparing the for upcoming run n mentoring my new colleague. jiao ( x2)
was watching lim hom's you tube for his 我们的歌]庆功演唱会.:.
impressive. quite a stunner
however i find that rain'es new hairdo horrendous.. jelly look a alike
terrible image consultant but a bold change afterall it has created a impression remembering that jellyfish head.

n also occasionally doing stretches , crunches to slim those problem areas

saw a man whose face was swollen from face to the bottom
kinda pititful


& theres another bitch whos so blur ,, feel like slapping her hard on her bloody yaya face

sulky tuesday as well

had a bad rub last evening after leaving the office ard 8
rough time getting out of bed ,seems like a long time since i had a good massage
the therapy resulted me feeling more sore n the outcome was i couldnt sleep well as usual
woke up ard 7 n i still dont feel fresh coz i was having weird dreams all night
i still got a lump in my throat which i dun feel ok with it.
need to shout my lungs out or go on a holiday spree to curb such a sulkyattitude syndrome
enough of those 2 who i dunno is up to which sleeve
pissing me off to end my day as if my monday is nt bad enough
my dad is the victim as usual when i asked him if hes homel ast evening coz theres no way i can rush back in time coz i was stil rushing my work to boss
gave him a scolding over the phone which shocked my crew
they all thought that i was quite a fierce gal on the phone
as usual veri angry with the 2 sales staff i got.. simply pushing me products.simply nt treating me like a customer
freaking pissed off!

lousy monday

about 20 mins ago i had this heated argument with this bitch relief boss of mine who was like openly challenging me whereas i rebuked her for being bitchy as well which was simply a case of someone whos not co-operative the again the similar type of entry which i had previously posted also known as ccb colleague which still holds this title till this day
i was damn pissed off which i simply jsut talked back to her because i no longer can stand the way she speaks to us .
the open fire lasted for about 10 secs but i can sense that i am about to yell at her any moment n that wouldnt be nice to any colleague for a short stay
i can imagine if shes my mum then it will be ended in chaos & fights as usual
forget about that bitch sam, shes always like that as despicable as usual usually attack me when the boss is not around
the examination of my door that creaks so often reveals that i have been slamming too much of my door
btw my taiwan's trip has been confirmed & i m just about to log on to apply for my annual leave , 8 more days n it will be forfeited if i do not use up all these leave
was about to log in and submit to black face for approval when hes back on tues another 1 more day of tolerance

210907 jsb

finally its fri mooncake festival is just round the corner for this yr i didnt buy too much of the fancy branded mooncakes from the branded eateries like raffles the plaza, goodwoodpark etc in order to cut cost
everything is still the same
going on everyday
i posted my bank draft just now
another $800 is blown away
the laughing from the meeting room is just so atrocious
the pfc from the thomson branch is so flirtatious, her laughter reminds me of a slut from moulin rouge
haiz
now i only can blog during office hours as my com is down wata sad fact
but the good thing is i can focus on my studies without loggin on the com

another day has gone

today's yumi's last day

when will it be mine

numb with life. going with the flow

i havent been writing for a while , updating on my progress recently i got a new assistant who can assist me in work n cover me while i go on eat snake break like now bloggin coz my com is down n there hasnt been any incentive to be online as well . after recovering on a recent setback of the 2 units which i flunked. i decided to be a good student for a start by studiously reading up journals which i threw somewhere in a charles n keith paperbag at some corner of my room
updates which oso imply i m spending more sundays at home with my family . tinking lesser of someone who is no longer important. i do hope he is getting on fine as well in his studies
anyway its a nice feeling . nt overly worried sad or happy . so called empty window zone
e trip to taiwan in nov 07 with my dad n bro would b a nice period to recuperate n also a best time to chill with my family
i havent thought so far on getting to know someone new as for now. kinda happy with now
that i have no one to look forward to go out with . that someone is waiting for me
i guess the recent case just cracked me up. finding a reliable man is still e better option out there or taking good care of my self on my own works just as well
i m in the meeting room with the survillence around me but i dun care . since i got someone to take care of the branch

spaced out.its been quite a difficult weekend after reading the result slip. 2 retakes paper to sit next yr

timeto get out of the couch potato lifestyle

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好多好多的话想对你说

突然发现为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说有没有想过我

想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落要怎么附和舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我

对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多懂我的人就你一个

想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说许多话题关于我就连我也有听过

我想我宁可都沉默

其实反而显得做作夜

把心洋葱般剥落拿掉防卫剩下什么

为什么脆弱时候

想你更多

如果你也听说

有没有想过我

想普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落要怎么附和舍不得

又无可奈何

so tis song speaks a lot of emotions..

i manage to know about this songn was listening halfway when i realize the lyrics somewat looked familar from somewhere

1230 300807

its been almost 2 weeks since i last blogged
n after listening to one ofmy close buddy's problem i find myself lossening up
at work still got room for improvement
to minimise those elementary mistakes
still the anxiety continues to bug on. e agony of nt clearing the unit results in retake n e repeat agony episode

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 好多好多的话想对你说 .. i dunno wat this means frm him but it doesnt matter anymore
exam result to be released all the suspense is too much man. today is the 30th..
everytime resut come out since o level its been like tat

family car smashed on 19/8/07

at abt 6.. bro2 's car was smashed by this SMRt cab. shb 1928L without much time to react coz we were at this junction.. luckily we got put hand brake if nt our car might be pushed forward more. close shave with such an experience. nw we realize the importance of seat belt in the car
my chest suffered a blow with an impact. juz nw.
esmond's jaw got a cut while aunite may got a little bump on her head. while bro 2 had a backache. spent abt 2 hrs at SGH A&E before going for dinner
they are so many ppl at the A & E on a sunday evening.pretty bad .. maybe singaporeans r quite careless haha
wat a so memorable chinese valentine's day
7th day of 7th month
qi qiao jie
junction opp pearl centre, passenger in the cab was also injured poor gal.. victimised.on e way to meet her client able to put on seat belt oso hit her leg n left arm. wat a jinx...
e cabby got a male spokes person to represent her.. goodness he was so rude didnt even bother to ask if we are all rite. seeing all the kids cry..
didnt even had the decency to apologise either .
wat a shame
luckily we were ok only minor scratches here n there
if e whole car of us were injured. then wat would have been the ending then
our lives would have been at her mercy then
commit mistake still not repentent at all.. tat kind of behavior is disgusting

health is wealth

visited a fren today. suddenly a gurge of emotion rose upon me . seeing me fren so frail n weak . first i time i c my fren so weak in bed
he used to be such a arrogant person. nw his movement is small now hes like i feel so sorry fo him.dependent for the nurse for the most basic tings like going to the toilet
its so sudden when i receive sms frm him tat he got admitted n had to be bedridden .
as long as we lead a balanced n guilt free lifestyle i tink even if we leave this worlkl we wont regret that much

catch a movie todayn had a nice haircut n shunji.. friendly stylist..n met up with nelly n miss cool
hehe
slowly i seem to forget all about polar bear. with other frens in the social circle. jp is like a fren. close pal who always jio me out for dinner on sun n also a sports khaki..
but i guess after a bad turn in life we can c the gd tings we ahve an appreciate the better tings in life
so comparing to the hectic lifestyle . sch n worj n prvious breakup its like y situation is nothing as compared
its a interesting fact tat lifes of ups n downs does create a balanced port folio. when lifes too perfect, its either too perfect or usually short lived
i m glad that after many mis fortune oi m fondo f thebetter luck recently.. nice boss. improved relationshp with lzl
my dad.. help him to settle his mobile phone gadget problem c him always play with phone c liaio oso get a bit irritated coz hes always seen figeting with his handset
tml anyway i will spend some time with papa since sun only day to relax

all refreshed after MC

it seems a long while since i wrote a long blog
which is perhaps i have learnt to flow with the wind, all my sorrows dumped in the rubbish bin after work,, relaxing after a nice meal or even a tasty dessert to neutralise the bitterness in reality
its s a nice feeling .. calm after work. nice shower , gathering with the frens earlier outside
.eventually i came to a consensus life can be happier n simplier without a special someone as well
its the company that counts
pretty relaxed being a swinging bachorettte. with many choices to date many other ppl, which is oso nt a bad idea also.
listening to sad songs while bloggin g is also quite a therapy
penning down random musings
recall about happy n unpleasant events . pondering over them for a while .. while trying to figure whats the best solution to best handle each situation
todays the 15th.. already 1 yr since we first met at city hall..
last yr in 2006, the first movie we watched was "click" . which turned out we didnt really click
i learnt to let go the hatred i harbour for him
the unwillingness
slowly going in other dates with other frens
enjoying my self with each individual
like going steamboat with zk n the rest of the gang. attending the evita opening with them
accepting his running dates
time cant heal
its the individual
whether u can convince ur previous mistake
hes is kinda subtle approach
caring person
known him for abt 1 yr perhaps close to 2
exceptfor a little naggy n crappy . guess hes quite nice afterall

down with flu

6 days since i log on to blog. miss the feel of writing. went to watch fireworks with zk @ swissotel at @ the 64th level
one word to describe = spectecular
attended the evita opening as well
after tat i been sneezing like a cow
planning to report sick tml

getting out of the nutshell n coming to terms with reality

went for a nice dinne r @ din tai feng with lsb..



chill out at clarke quay at one of tis pub which reminds me of a clinic



quite a nice cozy environment



these days n nite i still miss him so much



another guy has been trying to ask me out havent want to reply him



in a daze. still cant get over it completely



although i m n my most normal mode. laughinh happily in office. performing my best



when nite falls its like my as usual down mode after a while it becomes a routine for me



when i on my way to work. i recall all the happy events i do with him till now..71days...



its been like this...



i cannot let go of him



i m reluctant to move on



i dunno wats so gd abt him. some times i wish theres was such tings known as wang qing sui so i wont get so agonised over him



sometimes when i c him online . i have the urge to pm him. but then i realize nothinh tat ican do more now to smoothen between us



i can no t treat him like transparent



yet both of us have this unanimous tension which is like a .. pls dun mess with me again or bother with my affairs

hes a nice man . but i cant break within my own zone

he asked me out for fireworks n e movies

i wonder if hes also havingsleping problem.

does he even miss me or hesreally moving on fine on his own

these days i dun cry easily now..

im thankful for the gd things thati shappening to me now

i thank him for being my shadow for me n the shade thatprovides me shelter to seek refuge

i want to completely juz erase him..can i .

family dinner

spend some time with family some time alone. @ the library lazing at the couch

quite relaxing.. bowlling challenge next weekend
sounds good. looking forward to that

dad is off to babysit xavier coz e nanny s not available

so hes off .. not home today

after 2 days of stayin at hom e for family . feels a bit weird

if we had still bee n together 12/8/07 would be our first yr anniversary

unfortunately tings did not happen this way

went to this posh lounge @ hotel continental



with live piano n saxophone music.. nice ambience

whens its time to move on its is.. juz like birds who leave their mothers to fly south

i . decided for the leap
its a gd opportunity
i will seize the chance to prove myself otherwise i can be a gd n meticulous workers which i have beenworking towards sinc the first day i started working.
ehehe

will have to find time to inform the arrangement for the transfer.

later in the evening i got attend MSm @ SAA. pay the sch fees n act like a studetn once again
the routine lifestyle of student n a full time working adult

its been quite a no of hectic working culture back here since posb last launched last month

& also some updates like changing of the new coporate uniform oso

its a yet refreshing banking experience in amk hub since my first visit @


the sunday banking branch

went to SAA for class..nt bad environment small class of 10 . focus is gd

第一个清晨

tis song was like a first song we listen together while we go dating the first time by lee hom

quite memrable as he held on the waist n hug me frm the back while this little singer at the stage while we watchedfrm level 2 at this out door performance

mathemactics is quite an interesting unit in UOL

on the 12/08. it s the first date i went out with him n now 2008 . no longer together . can never watch such live performance frm above in each other's arms

its a pity.

how i wish wat if i had continued on. wat if he were nt such a character would he be of acceptable standard to me

its during those late nights. my brain continue to work backwards. rewinding the sweet old past memories i cling on
its 1247 in the morning now.. hope to get a gd nite sleep n wonderful dreams of those sweet memories

................

¿ says:
cash officer
SAMmie says:
SAMmie says:
can go up to AM rank if i do gd enough
SAMmie says:
e max rank is CSM
SAMmie says:
customer service manager
¿ says:
wat so of going tat gh
SAMmie says:
or foriegn bank.. as in credit control.. risk management
¿ says:
its the title tat make u feel glam
SAMmie says:
its a kind of satisfaction
SAMmie says:
progression/
¿ says:
no life
SAMmie says:
cant be stagnent


quite interesting to discover fraud n investigate e possible errors n problem n the solution to such complex financial problem

dilenma again

was put up for another position // cash officer

have to reply boss by thursday. dunno le like veri fast have to progress to the next level
Sometimes the best opportunities are the ones you create by simply asking for them."