preparation for GE run

zk was so motivating. didnt had dinner today
dinner was juz strawberry yogurt
he was like encouraging me to shed those extra pounds
should start for today... no more sucumbing to those fishball noddle

hehe stillcouldnt resist decided on those tomyam maggi n meatball

so after the supper its good

got to prepare for the GE run
last evening was talking about past love with viv n there was this nite while i remember with pb at the marina park . under the stars we gazed at each other.. kissing slowly . gentle n tenderly on the lips, in each other's arms .. close proximity staring straight deeply in each other's gaze
& that was how we started going out together. it was a veri warm hug n a firm grip , his palms were so smooth & warm
its a nice n sweet memory which i like to keep it with me
n that was someting which i didnt hold any grudges with me just yet
indeed sweet thoughts
till now i still cant let go some of the happy memories. this has ditered me from knowing or progressing further with other potential candidates. it does get a little lonely being one sided late in the night thinking about him, missing him , wondering if hes doing fine.. whether hes getting on happily , found someone better for himself , enjoying his work & everything about him. it all seems to impossible to explore
the fear of getting closer taunts me