Sunday, December 14, 2008

bringing my man home to meet my folks for breakfast today.. memorable & pleasant family outing although planning it was a challenge










i brought my panda back home for breakfast. hes approved by my folks..
i havent been so delighted for so long ..
n i spend a lot of $ today.. hehehehehhe
its been a long time since i bought any gifts for someone i love
hopefully hes the last man i will bring home for my folks to know..
this morning has been a series of cordinated calls..
how stressful it can get to organise 9 adults m 5 kids with a constraint of e timing available 10-12
finally after changing places .. we settled at lor 9 geylang mongkok kopitiam for tim sum
when u buy things for someone u love. it feels blissful that someone took effort and time to decide what is best for him or her
i think with this thought in mind . it feels great
to know that
to work with constraints overcome it and do it better next time
i m glad and happy that my family likes him accepts him . it was like a breather to me even auntie may commented i go for family man now. nt the handsome and playful ones
maybe i think more now that a relationship can be slowly nurtured and cultivated with mutual respect n genuine love for each other

a 2 hr thrashing session on fri with boss

regardless of work or personal.. i tink since my boss already talked to me regarding my job scope. i dun tink there is much to comment or to "talk it our with her "
i just didnt have a head on with her
i just gave a 2 word response . ok fine after the nth time she barked at me in public
she seriously doesnt have much EQ and all i could do is keep my cool and continue to be calm and composed in the office
she gave me a private msg to talk
December 13 at 3:33am Sam We need to talk. Are you up to it?
n one of the reason she was so bitchy was becoz she had a row with her bf. n i thought she was rather nasty in her tone at the banking hall . n she doesnt treat pppl with respect sometimes by barking at ppl
n my boss talk to me in an objective manner
she has admited she is a dynamite
my female boss was very harsh to me.. she told me to buck up . n they had high expectation on me
shortly after our thrashing session. i got a little emo.. i felt so wronged so misunderstood that the 3 of them were bombarding with a lot of questions to challenge my so called " appropriate behavior " and KPI
and their remark to me is they really need someone committed to the project
and for the nth time i hesisated when roland asked me if i love my job. it was tough tryin to keep my cool as well because of people telling tales and not seeing the other picture of my point to do certain things
n hwee leng 's point of view is we all have our flaws and we should try to work things out as a team
but clearly if someone crosses the line and doesnt treat you with respect , why is is that i have to allow myself to be continously abused or mistreated in a manner which i dont deserve of.
n i have choosed nt to argue with her . which is also my strategy
they talked to me on KPI
n roland asked me how do i feel as a SA.. do i love my job
at some point in time. i hesistated. i almost had the impulse to tell him i already typed my resignation letter in my email draft
if i get a better offer. i dun mind quiting from sa also since this is wat i get.. they had this thrashing session to ask me questions on my difficulties in the bb centre. and my so called weaknesses to improve on n other areas they find i m nt gd at .. n to improve on certain areas
i think although i did not directly tell them i was really unhappy with sharleen. i also did tell my point about . work is work n we should behave like mature individuals or adults becoz sharleen 's rudeness has been going on for quite a while n seriously i been really patient with her n she has flared up on me on several occasions at least 3 times now.. so i told them if we were to work togetheer
we would respect each other n if someone abuses and crosses the line i would not bother to be nice to that someone as well . i have stated my point as well so its a matter of time . i will flare up at her as welll if i choose to crudely
precisely . so i decided that this time as a rational . mature lady . i should control certain emotions becoz bb centre has lot of towkay n i didnt want to spoil the working relationship as welll
i try to avoid talkin to her on personal stuff unti l i find that its really necessary i tink she can sense my hostilty if i choose to be
there was once . i got almost mad tat i cup at her phone at my csm 's phone. i tink my csm oso know i also lun her as well
although she is a nice friend. i cant stand of her rudeness to anyone when shes impatient no doubt she is really good in sales. meticulous in her work
the areas
precisely . so i decided that this time as a rational . mature lady . i should control certain emotions becoz bb centre has lot of towkay n i didnt want to spoil the working relationship as well
n frankly i told my bosses. i have high EQ and i m educated so i didnt have a head on with her. if seriously i wanted to , i would have juding the fat that i dont have much patience as well
i just want to have a happy weekend and not think further about fri or even bb ..
it was a difficult session and i dun really want to go through it again
my performance has been questioned and even if i want to resign eventually. i would want to leave in glory
n as a result . i got to be so tough on the outside. i couldnt really focus on work aft e meeting
i was in the toilet cubicle for abt 20 mins .. reapply makeup then i can continue my work on fri
shortly aft tat i left office on e dot to meet my bf
was really a bad day
they were consistenly telling me abt the high expectation on me
n i must say my level of eq greatly increased.
i didnt have the mood to mingle with my team.. althoug someting gd happend as welll .. one of my regular customer shoved me some money to order pizza for the branch. but seriously i was just too moody to eat pizza
its thhose days that you want to get out of work n focus on weekend..
i finalised a venue for the breakfast get together with my folks.. crystal jade cafe @ liang seah
hope everything turns out fine tml

Saturday, December 13, 2008

happily in love
































its been a whirlwind ride with a 2 hr thrashing and butter sessin with 3 of my bosses frm 12 - 2
staying in @ panda residence again on a fri nite
inviting my frens over fora steamboat session tml
gd time to bitch ard

big bang... yeah...
breakfast in eunos market
cartel;s half price cheese cake

using vivien's name i pop by his place. couldnt take it so i decided to clean his little common toilet bowl..

so now while waiting for lsb to bath and get ready to maureen 's place my frens behind me r chatting about naked women and women who appear to be very chio but when they are naked ,, they look like shit when they are off makeup..and how tiong boon got a shock with gals without or zero makeup.. they jumped.. coz its so buang until the flaws come out . the bad experience of one nite stand and here i m bloging quietly while they made their small conversation
like how things change after the relationship after sex
viv made me a cheesecake for me. so sweet of her. its the first time i received a homemade birthday cake for myself.. taste good.. yummy
its her effort of one nite.. 2-3 hours in the wee hours
panda drove me back . we had breakfast in eunos market. theres really lots nice food there
his mum was really efficient, took her barely 1 night to fiz my uniform
went over maureen 's place to chill for dvd.. rusell lee 's horror movie in 4 discs.
n i was totally unamused. slept throught most of the 2hr dvd
dinner was simple salad bought from the ntuc in junction 8

Friday, December 12, 2008

shoppingwith sinyi...




she told me about her singlehood of 3 yrs and maybe she cant find her mr right perhaps
got up at abt 7 today. bought him breakfast. took a cab and sent it to his place
aftermath was tiring.
met with some difficult people today
retail therapy . short listed 2 items but decide to get in on mon since mon is pay day hehhe

4 more days yeah.. looking forward to a luxurious back scrub and massage.. n my beau got arranging . taking effort to make his little gal happy

Thursday, December 11, 2008

fun nite out
















happy tonight....simply good
he made plans to book a table next tues at 7pm.. so excited..
hehe.for someone who hates to go orchard went shopping just to pick me a gift.
i am appreciative small things people do to make other people's day

its copied from raccon aka panda 's blog...
i still find it disturbing whenever i read the below 's extract but i know this is part of a memory that cannot be erased that easily from someone.
call it petty a nt .. it stings my eyes. i m really a mature lady who knows what i want and the goals to achieve as well as the methods to achieve it and how best to maintain it
earlier he wrote me a letter to pacify me. i stick it at a prominent spot where i place my fattest pic of the 25 yrs of my life


Friday, August 8, 2008
Re-Constuction of new me...

Everything have ended for us. 15 months of relationship gone like this. Its not long nor short but most importantly of all, I got to experience totally being love from someone during that journey. I know it will be hard to move on like this but I know I have to do it. I treasure the fun moment, romantic times together.

I hope you too work hard on your dreams. I know you can do it de.

I am sad that both of us are loving each other but still then have to end this relationship. Mabbie its good for us bah. I shall not be a hinder to your success anymore.

No one can replace you in my heart and never will be...
Posted by raccon at 2:13 AM 0 comments


Tuesday, December 2, 2008
So sweet of baby to travel down to PS to find me after her dinner in Novena. We wondering around at there and eventually share a cup of ice blend coffee before we head off. Didnt drove to work today and therefore we have to travel home by bus. Haha.. Kinda like the experience of taking bus ride home with her wor. Can laugh and smile throughout the journey. Overall its a tiring but enjoyable experience. =)

Well, it has been a wonderful time for me ever since I met her. It has been awhile since I've been so delightful.
Posted by raccon at 1:26 AM 0 comments
delightful in english oxford dictionary means "great pleasure " its flattering to know that
i should be very tired as well but my body doesnt allow me to rest, there was too much excitement to begin with
got to wake up earlier to get panda baby his favourite porridge from my neighbourhood. i guess its sweet to buy breakfast for people u love to see everyday
tonite 's dinner had been so sinful.. back to a stricter diet for tml 's
SHopping with ms heng . get the tings i want ..
looking forward to sat . bitching with the gals. steamboat @ my place.
trying to tidy up my little wardrobe. barely 1 month it will be chinese new year. 2 more weeks to 2009
finalised venue for breakfast / lor 27 geylang to meet the folks.. bringin panda .. he s scared . but then he s still got to face them
poor panda is going to have a long day.. i m gonna cheer him up..
i m totally convinced .. cant be that unlucky to meet all the bad men out there rite..
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