Sunday, December 14, 2008

a 2 hr thrashing session on fri with boss

regardless of work or personal.. i tink since my boss already talked to me regarding my job scope. i dun tink there is much to comment or to "talk it our with her "
i just didnt have a head on with her
i just gave a 2 word response . ok fine after the nth time she barked at me in public
she seriously doesnt have much EQ and all i could do is keep my cool and continue to be calm and composed in the office
she gave me a private msg to talk
December 13 at 3:33am Sam We need to talk. Are you up to it?
n one of the reason she was so bitchy was becoz she had a row with her bf. n i thought she was rather nasty in her tone at the banking hall . n she doesnt treat pppl with respect sometimes by barking at ppl
n my boss talk to me in an objective manner
she has admited she is a dynamite
my female boss was very harsh to me.. she told me to buck up . n they had high expectation on me
shortly after our thrashing session. i got a little emo.. i felt so wronged so misunderstood that the 3 of them were bombarding with a lot of questions to challenge my so called " appropriate behavior " and KPI
and their remark to me is they really need someone committed to the project
and for the nth time i hesisated when roland asked me if i love my job. it was tough tryin to keep my cool as well because of people telling tales and not seeing the other picture of my point to do certain things
n hwee leng 's point of view is we all have our flaws and we should try to work things out as a team
but clearly if someone crosses the line and doesnt treat you with respect , why is is that i have to allow myself to be continously abused or mistreated in a manner which i dont deserve of.
n i have choosed nt to argue with her . which is also my strategy
they talked to me on KPI
n roland asked me how do i feel as a SA.. do i love my job
at some point in time. i hesistated. i almost had the impulse to tell him i already typed my resignation letter in my email draft
if i get a better offer. i dun mind quiting from sa also since this is wat i get.. they had this thrashing session to ask me questions on my difficulties in the bb centre. and my so called weaknesses to improve on n other areas they find i m nt gd at .. n to improve on certain areas
i think although i did not directly tell them i was really unhappy with sharleen. i also did tell my point about . work is work n we should behave like mature individuals or adults becoz sharleen 's rudeness has been going on for quite a while n seriously i been really patient with her n she has flared up on me on several occasions at least 3 times now.. so i told them if we were to work togetheer
we would respect each other n if someone abuses and crosses the line i would not bother to be nice to that someone as well . i have stated my point as well so its a matter of time . i will flare up at her as welll if i choose to crudely
precisely . so i decided that this time as a rational . mature lady . i should control certain emotions becoz bb centre has lot of towkay n i didnt want to spoil the working relationship as welll
i try to avoid talkin to her on personal stuff unti l i find that its really necessary i tink she can sense my hostilty if i choose to be
there was once . i got almost mad tat i cup at her phone at my csm 's phone. i tink my csm oso know i also lun her as well
although she is a nice friend. i cant stand of her rudeness to anyone when shes impatient no doubt she is really good in sales. meticulous in her work
the areas
precisely . so i decided that this time as a rational . mature lady . i should control certain emotions becoz bb centre has lot of towkay n i didnt want to spoil the working relationship as well
n frankly i told my bosses. i have high EQ and i m educated so i didnt have a head on with her. if seriously i wanted to , i would have juding the fat that i dont have much patience as well
i just want to have a happy weekend and not think further about fri or even bb ..
it was a difficult session and i dun really want to go through it again
my performance has been questioned and even if i want to resign eventually. i would want to leave in glory
n as a result . i got to be so tough on the outside. i couldnt really focus on work aft e meeting
i was in the toilet cubicle for abt 20 mins .. reapply makeup then i can continue my work on fri
shortly aft tat i left office on e dot to meet my bf
was really a bad day
they were consistenly telling me abt the high expectation on me
n i must say my level of eq greatly increased.
i didnt have the mood to mingle with my team.. althoug someting gd happend as welll .. one of my regular customer shoved me some money to order pizza for the branch. but seriously i was just too moody to eat pizza
its thhose days that you want to get out of work n focus on weekend..
i finalised a venue for the breakfast get together with my folks.. crystal jade cafe @ liang seah
hope everything turns out fine tml

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