0856 221208 mon with no mon blues

finally 8 hrs of uniterrupted sleep last nite. waking up super high today
kids r so exhuasting. the monkeys are really very hyper last nite at ah ma's place
her bed "zamp" until it looks like we got to changethe covers for her man.. she is still gigggling..
leng ah.. mui la.. no kia shng..... bui la.. in teochew.. while she was cleaning at her dentures at the dressing table
my ah ma 's image a bit different. it was straight hair normally is in qq hair one.. so suddenly .. ma. u go n rebond ur hair issit. how come e hair looks so little and small now

she was talking to me last nite. at the couch..
leng ah.. find a gd man n settle down.. nt young anymore must learn to take care of yourself and ur family next time. start to learn to cook first. taking care of a house is not easy.. mothers a re always giving.. e endless chatter in the family cars almost make me deaf
2 boys . 1 gal is bad enough..
4 boys 3 gals. omg its war...
lately i find kids amusing oso.. the way they talk. hahahha maybe its the bio clock ticking maybe i m just a bit more paternal these days with the influx of so much kids in the house.. i should probabbly go candy empire later to get more candies to bian the xiao hai.. wahhahahhahahahha ^_^
i woke up today still very mentally challenged because i yell too much last nite
these days kids r really different, they dun keep things,. express themselves freely
i got a nephew who brush past me.. gugu.. skiuse hor.. dun block the door.
wa.......... i never used tat kind of my tone on my elders before.
i was asking my bro. was i so " hyper" when i was younger
no leh i dun recall . i remember watching sesame streeet and pinky and the brain on tv.. while my mum went out for appointments for her property agent clients
proabbly tats how i got my sales genees from her
she always like wahahahahhahahahah in the middle of the conversation . jovial n fun
like me
today is a happy and high day for me.. mon with no mon blues
DON'T CALL ME BABY MADISON_AVENUE in the background with the flying dutchman

all i want for xmas is a shapely hips and healthy abs.. oto 's tag line. kinda funny
tml is branch luncheon. xmas lunch another chance to makan again
tonite i got to go jogging to reduce less sinfulness
enjoy everyday... life is so uncertain these days.. i wanna be happy yeahhhhhh
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cooked myself breakfast.some blur king forgot his phone so my bergin bf goes to papa together with old town kopi

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long day in town shopping .. for the kids. having joanne to choose with me was a wise decisoin coz she has got the popular card
i asked her what she wanted for xmas this year because i have gave her any
jokingly asked her .. u need a man
n her reply was she need a lot of $ and time..
as i was paying for the stuff,, i told her i have not much money for you, but i will give you some of my time n love to you . just as i bought gifts to amuse the kids
i tink my dad felt my "love " for him as well when i made coffee for him today and breakfast
something that i've never done for the past 25yrs or so
although hes usually a subtle person who doesnt talk much in the house. he felt great i guess so
carrying chunks of heavy things. a veri sickening cabbie . lady driver who rattles on n on about erp which i had to rush for time
in the end after the 3rd time she mention abt the extra cost. i lost my cool and told her that i will pay whatever costs it takes to get me home
carrfour is not exactly a good place to shop because it is too huge
it is too crowded.viv is being very nice to me today
i m also very accomodating as well
luckily something good happened.. twilight is a nice movie
there was a line in the movie that says
i will love you unconditionally ,i wonder how many people will do that
a vampire in love with a a human who the guy has to keep his urge from biting his gf
and his family of vampire to keep other bad vampires from harming the pretty lady in the movie
so in order to accomodate my friends i did a most stupid thing today. take cab from town back home with all the barang and back to town for dinner n viv's place later ..
maybe it was not dumb of me afterall
i still feel a little rage in me
the many things that i did .. was out of concern but was mistaken as an act of being overly naggy or critical
i can feel my blood pumping more quickly now..
i need to calm down and think calmly
still got to town to have a little steamboat dinner with the js ppl
may is back from shenzhen n shes got some things to pass to me . n i havent met them for like some time..
the things that i did.. maybe was too over
well we all want the best for someone we care aint it.
so we bother to do certain things and we give special privileges .. like for rick i gave him the advantage of choosing his own xmas gift. while xavier , andre, rena, n esmond didnt had that sort of advantage
i bother to make time for him , make him a happier boy although his dad doesnt.i tink hes happy .. that i do small things for him
he is a nice kid who appreciates his gugu love for him
n after sitting here ranting.. my rage " simmer " down
i begin to see things from a different point of perspective
and if my kind deeds r not being appreciated. i dunnno how much more things i need to do to amuse ppl i love
really ..

a little rage in me that needs to simmer down.. nt healthy to be angry all the time
my hands r now still sore from the shoping earlier .. my mind is still in a little twirl . i dunno whether m i being rational enough for all this
at the end of the day.. i m still human.. a woman .. a simple lady who needs to be pampered with and loved

if accomodating n giving in too much is really a wrong thing to do
maybe i should stop giving in so much n let it be
y should i even bother
n the reason is becoz i care
and because i care it makes me do silly things sometimes
things that i never bother to do in the past
it was never worth doing it anyway for the rest of the guys i dated
i was like thrash to some of them anyway
n at the end of the day , what do i get anyway
i get more disappointment sadness n resentment only
and when things dun work out . which they never do . n i move on eventually faster as i thought
i m a tough gal when it comes to difficult situations and its never easy making good decisions when i m challenged with a lot of other better solutions
i m critical of myself.. while i m easy going to other people
they never c the other side of me when i m sad or even depressed because i try not to show that out. but today i seem to experience a little of everything, this is life
conflicts are everywhere. theres a lot of tension going on..

joanne asked me today can i bear all with his shit and live amicably in the long run
because its just the begining we are seeing the flaws of each other and how mature i am to overcome all the difficulties i face possibly even more ..
i have great confidence in my self but i dunno abt him

time to wrap the gifts and head out to town with them.. yeahhh.... screw the diet tonite.. i had enough.. i need a gd meal to recharge.. zero meat or little meat .. best pals to chill with cheers to friendship... its a long way to xmas.. 3 days
hohohohohohoho merry xmas

1834hrs