fruitful sunday

its been really fruitful today having the company of my fellow classmates in our focused study group.. revising each on our own n ocassionally asking constructive questions , yesterday was like my recuperating day n i missed , forgone a hip hop performance to attend a family dinner. as usual sat nite was spent on the study table.. soaking in knowledge preparing for mock exam.
begining to get the hang out of it .. endless readings n references .. manage to create some interest in accounting.
so here m i now.. feeling a little sense of achievement tat i finally pluck up.. reduce my " nuaism" to attempt the past yr exam questions at least for tutorial 1.. not a bad start .

last nite he came over especially to find me.. a mere 3 hr but i guess it was ingratiating..esp when there was some occasionables showers in the middle of the nite facing the peaceful river infront of us.although i dunno y whats hindering him frm going further, but i reckon this is a sign of respect for me .although i do harbour some " evil intention" towards him.. its kinda cute seeing him blush hehehe..tis indeed proves tat hes a rookie ...
my classmates have been discussing if we should fly over to london to attend our graduation ..n at the same time spend a little holiday there as a form of reward for our hard work n effort to attaining our well awaited external degree.
he surely has great determination n discipline by nt answering calls ... surely he has been deeply engrossed himself to excel n put in great effort to achieve his kind of desired grades for his assignments.
nevertheless . i should also adopt such learning attitude , n been more critical of my own studying environment n habits.. to start packing on my notes after revisioion n start some mini planning on the allocation of time to better preparation in my weaker units.
there r so many chapters but in order to make tings more effective , n smart studying its better to start early than to cramp everyting last min, my brain is just so saturated cramming all the information n knowlege. i feel drained although its a sunday

after some chat with joe , it seems tat my endless chatter is giving him some form of stress as well.. hahaha i never really quite understand y his behavior is so devoid of all emotions , tat s due to hes too bogged down with assignments, n his pace is far more fast as i thought, i should b more understanding tat its nt easy to consistenly produce scoring assignments with the interruptions of full time work as well as fatigue sets in . it becomes a challenge of nt sucumbing to sleep, being a part time student myself , i tink i knew it well oso but yet i was so damn irrational n childish.. oh man... time to wake up liao.. almost a educated promising young lady , n i still commit such level .. ahhhhhhhhhh... so paiseh

so today's considered fruitful afterall... i gained a better insight of my man n how much he cares for me as well ... tis type of feeling is good enough knowing tat someone is there for me but e only factor seems to b the lack of time n some form of decent communication that hes willing to fork out.. n to me, my initiative has to capped of a certain level so that i wont appear as pushy or childish.. however what lacks behind is his little mystery as to why of his resistance sometimes .. or hes just too reserved for certain reasons tat i have to find out myself. sometimes its good to understand a person not just at face value & nt to jump in bed with him without understanding if he should be right one to be with. or having more intimate moments with this special significant other . nontheless i do find that hes of similar characteristic traits ,nt all but predominantly like easy going n forgiving seems to b the "click" , the mere difference is that hes more cool n i belong to e hot n quick tempered category.

there must b a tip as to how he can hold his gentlemaness.. or perhaps there is a dark side of him which has nt been explored.
its rather unfair that i impose certain demands on this chap or any promises that i cannot fulfil it myself at this stage.
love can make someone insane, or even lose their ability to reason & i believe tis is wat happens to me..
so i have to cope , n behave logically in order to stay focused in this run ... e run with joe n my studies
family do play a important role , seeing those kids do bring a smile to me n a simple homecooked dinner is far more tasty than the famous food out there. there is a element of bonding n kinship involved . just to commit some time n at least once in a week to catch up is definitely condusive . really amazed the tings kids blurt out , really funny sometimes .. my neice n nephew made me relive the days back in primary school
by telling me e story of 3 little pigs.. huff n puff .. e big bad wolf n the chinmey ...
i m glad my knot has been loosened , its better to c tings from a more objective pt of view. brings less worries.. n finally i can close my epsiode of my grouchiness n b normal again.. yeahhh.. a good way to close this week..