260508 1924hrs blissfully pampered @ true spa today

25/5/08-met up with lsb to do a pedicure @ blink blink nails. a sense of achievement because throughout the course of the 25yrs of my life i havent really had long toe nails or finger nails so i guess the manicure n pedicure is good grooming to me afterall
from the inital condemn from those ppl who did my nails usually complain i have veru short nails n this is veri unhealthy for the nails to grow beneath the skin close to the nail to the later part of the compliemnts.feels gd to know that its has did me good
24/5/08
sat i met up with xy n jj for dinner @ geylang for frog leg n this black pepper hor fun with them. seriously jj has a problem , she kept me waiting for almost 1 hr @ kallang mrt. n shes gots this problem keepin to the designated time. as usual i m the easy going gal but if this is goin to be happening again. then i will reconsider my choice of outing frens
小胖 is too indecisive sometimes, so he does piss my frens big time. in fact i have this impulse to tell him off which i normally dun because hes just a normal fren , not worth my effort to "educate " him
really not 'man" enough for me. i really cant stand the wishy washy personality because i find them freaking wimps. lacking the initative n drive to create & make things happen
25/5/08
孙先生 n lsb @ cafe cartel @ hougang. nice friendly chap. belive he has veri determined person oso coz he used to be super big sized from 100kg-80kg..
26/5/08 2005
i feel well served today @ true spa. went for this greentea hydro spa n a balinese traditional massage to soothe e backaches n this hard ting somemwhere in the middle of your shoulder blade.this common backache for most ppl who are sedentary n seated most of the time
the hydro spa is totally amazingly good.. relieves all ur possible trace of stress n leaves ur skin sparkling clean n smooth
after which i walked ard takashimaya n saw this donation box so i decided that i should at least contribute a small amt to help the victim of the sichuan earthquake n the mynmmar nagis cyclone..
woke up at ard 8.30 to prepare n meet zhenlong n germaine for breakfast in office first before we study together in kallang mac.
we c this group of guys playing those " cards" in mac. they look like my age but oh gosh they r throwing dice n playing those " shiny cards" those that u c among primary or secondary school children during weekends. each card is definitely not cheap n these group of 3-4 men are happily playing in mac. gosh shouldnt they be working or something
zl , germ gave me this crooked grin.. yes...there r such ppl ard
there is this securities paper.. M6 by institute banking which is a paper for bankers to take before they are certified to sell customers' shares n how to determine whether its a gd buy in terms of its risk standing n the returns in warrants, par value, call option n put option . sounds chim n its already my RM's
4th attempt. because of this paper , it has been hindering them for 1-2 week sales.. another 5 more days to month n the sale is not running. quite worrying for the branch target indeed.this morning ard 10am, zl is really veri unlucky he was stopped by the tp along the nicole highway for speeding. tink veri sway 8 pts deducted for only driving around 100km/hr seems the economy isnt doing veri well so these "ppl" need to earn more commission..
another 4 more days. e days of holiday are drawing near.
we got to organise a jap dinner outing for ms heng
its really been a long time since i contacted ms chong. i tink almost 2 months odd ..
while typing this entry, i m listening to class 95 FOREVER LOVE GARY BARLOW quite a sweet song , n the background is my neighbour's kid again @ level 5 i tink. e kid that doesnt stop crying in the toliet

四川地震慈善义演 媒体艺人齐心赈灾 .. e mediacorp artiste managed to raise
三个小时的义演共筹得$6,850,024。捐款热线将开放至6月1日午夜12点。

tis is a touching scene as well i watched it on the bus during my ride back from hougang . the artiste n their children singing " guan liang"s "tong hua "

SICHUAN: China said 69 dams are in danger of bursting, while hundreds of others are in a dangerous situation. The warning came as another strong aftershock measuring 6.4 magnitude rocked Sichuan province
Strong aftershocks and rain could raise the water levels of quake lakes, and the more water the lakes shore up, the more dangerous they would be as the barriers could burst and unleash serious flooding.
This would mean things could go further downhill for quake survivors who are trying to put pieces of their homes and lives back together

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爱与希望[四川抗震] 林俊杰 大合唱 一起飞 (39)[四川抗震歌曲]
this morning when i tune to the radio & i listen to this song by jj, quite a sad song written for the victims during the earthquake. touched by the melodies & the lyrics
ya xy n i walked home together n he sent me right to my doorstep
sincere person but unfortunately not my cup of tea
he did try his best but he does has this pair of eyes thats quite nice. bright & clear somewhat expressive. this is one ting i like about big eyes people
dont have to talk a lot but they have this "communication"
begining my essay preparation for HR.. its a lot of chunk to memorise n in 6 days my exam will be over

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branch just closed . today quite a easy day. stll sneezing n runny nose today
boss is at one corner explaing the M6 questions to germ n lim zhen long. coz they hace not cleared this banking paper . they cant sell it
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just went for a facial nice.. but i was like having this cold sweat n i was so warm lying on the bed..
managed to get a chinese cold medicine from the medical hall coz the clinic is closed but the mixture stinks.. i hope it will make me better
meeting xy n jj for dinner @ geylang.. i need some light food so as nt to aggravate my cold..

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i tink i m catching a cold soon, all thanks to lim zhen long. my nice colleague who was sneezing non stop in front of me yesterday, he was supposed to be on mc to study for his M6 some financial paper for insurance. his virus really spreads around.. deadly.. without any further delay i m poping a lot of possible pills to keep myself from catching the cold. because reason being sick during exam period can be so lugi.. runny nose can be very irritating. especially blocked nose..
i have drink eno. lem sip to make sure i dun really fall sick.. n oso tis chinese conconut hai di ye for the cold n cough
again i tooK a nice warm shower coz earlier in the theatre watching indiana jones with jj & lsb was caught in a rain suddenly so luckily i got a jacket n it become my "umbrella"
so when i wore it during the movie, it was damn n cold n after i came out it was a little humid. so my nose become very blocked.
there were a few funny incident . on the train we c this interesting character whos got these oddly shaped boobs . perhaps a bit too "fake looking" for this person 's frame because shes small built but suddenly shes got this really " attention looking " big humps in front of her
they looked so hard so there are 2 possibilities, its either she went for a surgery for those " boobs" or she wore a wrong bra which increase maybe 3 cups her sizes bigger coz they looked unnatural n stiff looking like 2 stones hanging there. haha evil us.. so in order to confirm . i took a side glance to quickly scan it ...
before we reached e mrt. we saw a few tp on the road. guess what, i tink they are expecting a big shot for the road along the cathay. nathan was on the car. so e tp had to clear passage way. we saw a singapore flag on the car. so most probabbly the president decided to take a spin ride from instana to somewhere ..
hopefully my i dun have to take mc for tml...

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yeah .. i did a french manicure.. express @ only 10 bucks n i m such a "rough" gal n the nails got chipped when i try to wear my shoes n button my uniform . so the manicurist was no nice, judy help me redo it foc.. yeah!!
ah ma.. bought me a aloe vera gel from xiamen. china n dad gave me a funny loOking polo tee. white polo tee base with orange stripes. lOOks funny .. n tight fit. maybe after a wash it will shrink even more.
when i went back to office. i was busy reading the endless email . typical when u go on leave. n some of the collaterals on ebanking materials on how to assist the people in sichuan.. as well as the myannmar cyclone victims
so yesterday i did a gd deed . coz on this cafe was offering to donate their sales proceeds to the victims so i donated more that lunch
some of the many firms are offering one for one so the amount will be double so according to my customers. its good response but recently i tried to avoid seeing the tv news on screen coz its too saddening. so in order to prevent crying in front of the tv set. i tink i better stick to the hard copy news or online version
tml will be the launch of the baby bonus scheme. i should be anticapating a lot of parents rushing in @ the branch
again i went to peggy's n bought more skincare products. a new sunblock n a better liquid foundation which wont clog the pores. so from one credit card i clear. i chalk up on the other.. but grooming expenses is afterall long term..
finally can wear jeans tml n for a month..e coporate uniform is so bulky n is torn n tattered .. always find it a burden on my shoulder coz e material is so heavy n it LoOks so ugly . adds age to me.. n doesnt flatter my figure
my fav tudou channel is suspended due to the recent disaster in china . for 3 days.. cannot even watch my fav epsiodes .
tml will be busy..
another week before summer holiday.. looking forward.. 9 more days

unhappy with some ppl

bro jan n dad belong to e same category
finding excuses to accept wild behavior from a 3yr old boy
n siding him because he is still young
my frens n colleagues were being hit n smacked @ e chalet last nite mayb kids r really difficult to teach n nurture these days
my fire in me stil hasnt subsided n i find it difficult to smile @ my customers. my smiles is just so forced n hard.
just because ur son behaves differenly from other kid. more active, violent & rude u can tolerate such nonsense. u should be able t o control the kid n nt the kids controlling the parent or adult instead
whenever i c those faces again in my head. i get so agitated that this kid is not taught a gd lesson n will never learn
he bullies the weak n fears those bigger n more fearsome looking ones. he should ought to be taught a lesson n get hit badly outside in school
dad is another character who acts as a catalyst n promotes such behavior with the kid
even teachers in school can only put him with the older kids to prevent him from doing any further attacks to the younger ones. i tink its an insult to the parents that they cannot even educate a 3 yr old boy properly . n tis is e parents' fault.
i was so pissed off thati had to get a manicure done earlier n did a haircut. a cut different from usual
had a long chat one the telephone with my ex sister in law joanne. n i told her about the recent irritating ppl i m unhappy with. e list includes bro worm n elephant as well.
i had this planing if these couple really moves n dad agrees to let them stay . i will wash my hands of this family n i will rent a room n stay outside on my own.
in fact joanne commented that i m a strong headed character like my mum
i even had this thinking . if i cant stay in the house. i burn it or sell it . i also wont let u get the house in the end.
n i haunt u as a fierce ghost if u try to get the house in the end
i hate ppl who tink so highly of themselves but r nothing but a piece of shit to me in my eyes
for ppl who r incapable of producing results must put on a brave front n tink they r really good but they are actually nothing
i wont waste time on people not worth my effort. n i have only 2 alternatives. if i like this person. fine. but if i really hate u i wont waste time to entertain u
i select my social circle carefully n i dun really bother ppl not worth my time n concern
during my heated conversation i tink i sound like a bitch. n e tone was so nasty. i didnt even bother to call dad for dinner coz i didnt want to join the family bonding sessiona again becoz i cant stand how the show runs
ideally things that r not worth my concern i should just chuck one side n be happier this way

190508 changi safra.. bro 3 's 32th bdae

its been a veri fun weekend @ changi safra with my family.frens n colleagues
dad is back frm china. hes gd n recharged, bought me polo tee but at least 2 sizes smaller. but ok la. at least hes nt angry with me anymore
jiao n lsb came over but unforunately was bullied by rascal.. xavier.. ming yao. e king. smacked by tis terror kid so have to be act fierce in order not to get slammed
my handphone as smashed to the floor at least 3 times by this rascal as well
all in all, i had a 3hr cycling session from changi to east coast n back to the end.. my butt n thighs is so sore now, reach home ard 11. just finished to sort out the videos n the picutures taken
in summary. kinship. friendship n love is priceless
i should be veri exhausted now . but i m still @ my computer
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wild nite ahead
after i knock off. i camped at home to charge my hp n then proceed cycling activites @ecp n then dinner @ old airport rd
subsequently i oso joined ms heng. for ktv @ party world. hrt guy fren picked me up along e way..my first time singing @ the hall as well .. pretty gd to train ur guts
then e crazy idea of st james mono ktv pub . coz of the fren erik still had some henessy left over so we reach there ard 2.30 n we chill there until abt 5. reached home ard 0530 when i settled down.

i wonder hw tb can manage to adapt to nite life. its so ugly now with sugar mummy n daddy conquering the major consumer mkt
we witness a gal trying to beat up a man.. n ok the security went over to stop this man frm bashing up this gal . shes a drunk bitch herself
kinda ugly scene i seen.. a poor bf believed to carry his gf who was flat.. concussed no more
to begin with st james has a lot of babes n hunks
but there are oso many pitiful prcs there ..
men can be so disgusting as well. there is a scene on it whereby they just touch the gals anywhere they like.. n they start to laugh like a witch n live for the moment

watched a movie after exam

ironman. fantastic show was hesitant to watch these show initially but was highly recommended by a fren of mine
went out with xy n jj..
i should feel happy now that poa is over n my last paper is just 14 days away..kinda miss work, had wanted to feel useful again cozthe study exam is making me very lazy. lazing around
maybe i miss my dad a little . e house is too quiet to start with . without some nagging haha.
as usual i m @ e study table. today is stress free because the 2 most difficult paper is over n the last unit is mere memorising work n practising of essays
earlier @ expo . it was a picture of chaos. i wonder why uol is not improving this system . there is a huge cohort n there are many people rushing to check their examination seat no.. its worse than 4D n the mob is enough to crush any small person with small build. luckily i can withstand this little push n squeeze scenario. if only they can improvise because this part of the exam is sickening. i panic like crazy when i couldnt find my name on the bulletin board
so for my last paper i decide to go earlier to check on my seat. hahah
xy is someone i cant fall for . for some reason. i tink is the character differences
n certain outlook n values. we dun c eye to eye for some issues
he s better off ur buddy than a partner
n i dun have a strong inclination or impulse towards him because i just tend to behave cautiously n also guarded not to everyone at not towards the closer frens
tat gal is out drinking . so drunk that i tink she cant sms me properly . let her be. she deserves a break anyway
looking forward to a family gathering . i havent had any family bonding for the past 2 weeks. everyday was just like a daily routine to study. eat n sleep n go for exam.
i miss hanging in the office, my lovely colleagues, my boss who sulk a lot coz hes a little emotional
n some crazy customers as well
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bad start of the day

my neighbour.. e child has been crying n this episode has been playing for at least 2 months
baby starts crying non stop for abt half an hr almost everyday
n my unit is just diagonal to this neighbour
maybe its due to the oppression i 've accumulated, i actually retaliate by yelling at them to shut up because i have no more patience for such nonsense. if the child is adapting to go to child care , i tink i have gave in long enough
i really suspect if they are child abusing , thats y the child cry in such a manner . its so bad its a long chain , n this kid has good stamina. tis kid really yell in such a rebellious tone that you have this impulse to slap this child.
just call lsb to complain about this that i havent had much sleep n this kid must spoil by my day by waking me up from sleep everyday
i ve decided to investigate , tomorrow i will be really nice n visit this neighbour to find out what is wrong with them because they have been way too disturbing . i m sure other neighbours are oso nt happy about this.

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heheh i just got to orchard to buy my galleria.. so happy today.. hehehe

a moody day.. 20hrs before POA paper

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i have at least 30 formulas to memorise before i go the hall tomorrow
at least the confidence as compared to 2006 was definitely differently coz the attitude was also different .
dinner was chunks canned potato soup
lunch was left over rice with baked beans n fried eggs
last nite dinner was bread with some cheese
one of fren was worse 2 killer papers 2 days in a row . i should feel fortunate
i m at the last phase of the revision part. so with the internet radio by my side n msn accompanying me , the sense of loneliness will depreciate a little
my gd frens r enjoying themselves. watching movie. dinner at fancy restaurants
e rest of the world is like enjoying themselves whereas i m still @ my study table. havent step out of the neighbourhood in 2 days. feels gd in my little comfortable zone
although i m nt out physically i make sure i m still in touch with the news outside. i periodically check out xin.sg or omy.sg. i still have this habit of reading my daily financial news

四川大地震之后，上海股市猛挫1.84%。由于市场担心地震和通货膨胀对经济造成影响，对股价构成下跌压力。
以死亡人数计算，这相信是中国近20年来，最严重的一次大地震
一名有8个月身孕的34岁女子，被困50小时后，成功被救。

The worst has been watching people die, knowing you could not do anything for them. these kind of headline in the papers brings a shudder down your spine.

"People can survive up to 15 days, but that is when you are talking about miracles, and miracles do not happen very often

Many people are wealthier now than they were 5 years ago, and there are many more millionaires in Asia than there were 5 years ago. So, even if they don't like that fact that gas and food prices are higher, they are generally doing better and spending more than they were at the beginning of this decade

Merill Lynch says US in recession, but Asia to remain strong on consumer spending
more work to be done when i return to office on sat .although i took leave, i still have this habit of reading financial news to start my day with so i can "tell story" to my customer
the earthquake not takes away human lives as well as economical blow because sichuan has been a position where they produce pigs farms. domestic farming n agricultural activities, inevitably this will cause food prices to rise even further since the province has been so badly destructed
one ting to note is y is that most of the schools , hospitals are affected by the earthquake. why are these buildings not able to withstand these shocks
its a little angry to see victims losing in their lives.
one of the analysts pointed if the earthquake happened at night the magitude of the damage would have been worse than current situation

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managed to clear the card bills . feel more an xing.. after doing the necessary transfers.. signing the card is ok. but paying for it is really heart pain.. nevertheless the first ting i do is still to make saving to esaver. at least make some interest
my china funds r finally reaping some profit finally 5k more to break even
my shares acc is being set up . well done . all ready to trade for shares investment
1 more day to super long weekend
i m feeling happier now..
just 2 more cards to clear the payment tml.. n 2 more big tickets items i can lie low for more savings
my galleria pm n
hk travel tickets.

grocery shopping on a rainy day

i just realize hw empty my fridge was considering the hunger pangs late at night n there was nothing edible except instant noodles n i been eating it for almost a week n i had to make a decision to change this boring diet
so in e end i bought a lot of drinks instead. n i couldnt even use my umbrella to shield myself from the rain. even now its still raining heavily outside since morning abt 9 . was considering lazing in bed but i reckon its nt good for the health
after taking care of myself for the past week or so. it can be a form of freedom but it comes with a slight price of boredom
but with such a cool weather its really comfortable to slouch at home n do nothing
i did my laundry managed to fold the clothes n [pack it nicely in the cupboard. household chores. like it a nt. if i m staying alone , i got to clear my own shit n rubbish if nt i will end up in a sty.
i manage to stock up some canned supplies on those rainy days where u dun even feel like steping out of the house. on a personal record i tink i can stay indoors max at 2 days.
dads' back on sun, hopefully he did enjoy himself over there n dun scare off my relatives while he sleep talks at nite.
my bro still pops by my place occassionally to settle off n clear the altar which is kinda ritualistic coz he knows i wont touch the altar. i did bother to water the plants till last week then i found out that i grew pandan outside my house. n also some other root plants like onion n ginger. didnt know my dad had such hobby
another 3 more days i got to return to office for abt a week n counting down i still have about 16days before my last paper which is about 2 weeks, then it will be a 3 month holiday summer break. till then e books r so torturing

decided to do some online novel reading coz i had no mood to accounting past yr questions anyway
came back these zhang xiao xian website
her slogan :

她相信承诺，喜欢一切美好的东西：漂亮的衣服、美味的食物、男人的诺言。

她找寻幸福，然后发现，失望，有时候，也是一种幸福。

因为有所期待，才会失望。遗憾，也是一种幸福。因为还有令你遗憾的事情。

她追寻爱情，然后发现，爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。

http://www.crown.com.tw/book/amy/
http://www.crown.com.tw/book/amy/art.htm
http://www.geocities.com/tatkean/xuanfu.htm

當你很想很想的時候，不一定會遇到一個同樣很想很想的人。當你不想不想的時候，卻遇到一個很想很想的人。愛情和婚姻有時就像飛越了半個地球，難免會出現時差。
i find these quite true

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elephant n bro worm just left my place. i dunno wats with them . them love to pop by my place . wats wrong with her mentality. y does she like to drive ppl nuts
. no way i can accept living with them n accepting 3 strangers 1 adult n 2 kids.
to thick skinnned ppl i have learnt to even more thick skinned than them. for those uninvited guests. i have my own style of dealing with them
in fact in my mind. i had tis evil sister role who can be damn nasty but i choosed to be more rational this whole episode.
i m afterall an educated adult whos not a babaric in nature. so i believe i can settle things amicably without much violence, disputes or unhappiness
if i dislike this person, i cannot hide this n tolerate blindly n hide in my own little room. i just haveto step out of this comfort zone n confront this "situation"
dad is as usual a veri "kind" person like me who doesnt like to drive ppl up to their wall.
its nt veri ethical n nice to be treated in such a manner as well
xian li hou ping..
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i was veri sad, cant help but shed a few tears when i watched the evening news . just 2 days ago on mon the china earthquake has caused so many innocent lives lost. families torn apart n many school children buried alive because many schools cannot withstand the magnitude of the disaster.
there was a clip about an orphan refuge camp whereby this chinese premier wen jiabao was talking to a little gal.
n he told tis little gal that the governemnt will take care of her n told her nt to be sad as she would be well taken care of. u can c the look of devastation n despair on the this little gal.
i m seldom so saddened by such news
zhi yao you yi xian si wang,jiu you wan quan de chun bian.
i cant help but express some sympathy for those kids who become orphans all out their own fending for themselves as well as the parents who lost their kids in this tragedy. i tink its a very painful picture digging up the bodies to realize ur own child is buried alive.
those soldiers are like working non stop to rescue those stuck under the rubble n dishing out all possible signs of survival n survivors.
its indeed heart warming to know that there are so many people. chinese helping these people to bridge over this castastrophe,rich ppl doing their part to donate to the people over there
the massive distruction n the many lives n familes torn apart
without shelter, food, family support, i tink that is really pitiful. perhaps i could do a small contribution to the red cross society as well.

turbulence times

i watched e news today . there r a couple of natural disaster happening in different parts of the world
frm the myanmmar cyclone
china earthquake @ sichuan province, chengdu
n US tornado
seems like the world has been so gloomy
watched CNA. PM lee with the various business leaders discussing about the major issues . rising oil prices , global inflation, rising food prices for stable food like rice, maize, wheat n so forth
the possible measures to counter the problems
was quite surprised to c david conner , my ceo on national tv asking about the rising food prices n how other governments will intervene n react to such phenomenon
its indeed a new trend
most of the replies were divided into short term n long term
immediate reaction is to help the poorer income group but eventually with rising middle class in india n china . the consumption rate for more rice. more meat will eventually be resolved
dad' still in china n after carefully reading up the geographical reigon between the distance of sichuan province n xiamen. there is really not much worries since e epicentre is in southwestern china whereeas my dad is in western part of china .
i m happy to just slack at home for the next couple days , just to get some bread. or joggin within a certain perimeters of my neighbourhood
dinner juz now was just a apple . some bread n a packet of vitasoy rather simple meal. instant noddles is just getting too bored n i m sick of it
staying on my own isnt really veri difficult after all . its been abt 10days since i been on my own. occassionally my frens popping by to eat hw i m doing. accompanying me for dinners

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its been a day of socialising . my frens pop by my place for pizza. lsb helped me on my nails n thereafter we went to town for pool playing n a short la teh session since its a sun. some of them have to work on monoriginal plan was to meet up with jan n bro 3 for dinner. however last min they decided to stay home for a simple dinner instead so the family bonding session was cancelled
after e iced yuan yang, time to hit the books n enjoy some private time alone at home reading. memorising.practising past yr exam questions.its a long cycle. when can i ever graduate... wat a long n tiring graduate route path
fang wei ku shang ku.. one day when i blog again . it will be a scenario of ku jing gan lai.
i was thinking if they didnt pop by. i would be a lonely oyster in my own shell n corner of my little room. having canned food on the study table n mugging endlessly during the weekend ..
many mothers' day come n go. its with much regret that mum left us earlier if nt she would have live to c the glory of each n every of her child n grandchildren
its oso one of my personal regret that she would never live to c me happily married with my own kids n shopping with me , those kind of mother-daughter bonding that you always c on the streets.this yr is the 14th yr of her annivesary n i would say she would have been so proud of me, all my achievements so far. her watching right from above , c my blunders n know my fears .
if i ever become a mother, i would like to share this kind of bonding with my daughter instead n pass on this affection to her.which is "if" i become one.
it would really be a great bonus having a mum on ur side to support u emotionally.but through the years so far, its not always an ideal scenario. things change. people come n go. there will be transitional parts to every path.
i have come to a realization ,fate is so cruel, reality bites.some ppl get all they want mainly becoz their family background is gd.4 to them is nothing in fact effortless or they r borned so intelligent, knowledge comes to them easily without much difficulties. others might have to fight for it.be it opportunities, luck, career progression or struggle for their material needs n wants
all these yrs managing on my own has become part of my life, to be strong , confident,outspoken,mature in every step i tread. becoz i know with every careful step i go, the nearer i m to reaching my goal
even if u dun wish to, u r forced to grow up one day. not many things come by so easily so its with much efforts u take to maintain to keep it going
for e.g ur weight, ur appearance, complexion . figure n also ur brain, health , overall well being
once u neglect any of the above , things, system start to deteriorate n the morale level goes down.
everyone 's got a side of the obession of conquering the impossible or even challenging ur own personal weakness. u feel good knowing that u evolved . u have overcomes urself n this is the kind of satisfaction level that i m seeking oso . telling myself. sam u have stretched urself to e max.. kudos n well done , u deserve a reward
i cannot be a compassionate lover, u know it when u have a specific range of expectation of an individual whichu want to spend probabbly the next 40-50 yrs together . sleeping beside u n living with u in the same house. its nt going to work out the way u want it ideally
so Cn is tat sort of person u can be as a gd buddy relationship
it can never cross beyond a line
i cant bring myself to harm another person 's feelings n toy ard with them . its so sinful to even think it this way
so its true the good men can never get the gals. such contradictory the pretty gals love to stick with the baddie.." bad guy"
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a long calculation on mtd 's assets & liabilities

omg. i was spending way too fierce since i got my cards.. unknowingly i got 5 cards .. 3 diff banks
uob,ocbc,citibank ,posb
another one upcoming dbs ladys card
with a power vb ,this month's expenses was like water
no way i will swipe my card..
my expenses was close to 1k .. i m really good in spending.
will get it all back in the month of june coz may was exam month so surely my commission , variable income will be affected. no more 0% interest instalment to get myself entangled in all those debt
n rule no 1 , which is what i figure . never offer to use ur card to pay with a dinner with ur colleagues.. coz some just fail to pay u n treat u like some idiot n @ the end of the day got to absorb the cost for such expenses which is after that when u get the cash from ur colleagues or frens as such when there is too much cash hanging ard. eventually will just spend it. tis is one lesson encountered. do not used credit unless there is no choice
i will double it up by earning n saving more
yeah e theory. can earn the $ back so just spend happily. pay the card bills on time without incuring any form of late fee or interest n use the credit to your best advantage
motivated to sell more in june since i spent so much. yeah before i go to bb ..
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
can never get sick staring at it. thinking abt it
oh man i m so bloody materialistic .

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its veri early tonite. earlier abt 5 in the morning it started to pour. rain really heavily so i woke up to close the windows. its been abt a week, n living alone can be quite lonely i realize i m happy that i invited my frens over last nite for dinner n cook up a storm for them personally . sometimes its the personal touch that gives other people this "special groove " just like i apply this to work , always the humble sam whos every ready to help in any manner to anybody lately i been thinking should i just chuck everything here n roam ard . also known as lang ji tian ya, fulfil the travelling dream i promise myself n go forward the sia interview after exams this yr n should i flunk the units again , i will go forward n pack my bags n set forth this long awaited ambition but years back . i c my self the small gal n so freakingshy, i screw the 2nd interview the other time by looking down@ the floor allthe time. n all i could mutter was sheer rubbish coz i was so terribly nervous then perhaps i would nt regret after my prime years that i finally did something for myself besides coopingmyself at home to study for exam n wild partying
tml is mothers day . since ages since i had a woman in the house. wonder if lau pei 's gonna get a new wife in china
its now 0737 . spent abt half an hr here in my own little space so called
got to prepare to go office liao..

090508 1130 after preparation for coOkingtonite for lsb. jiao n tb

hehehe its really a lot of prepration for food to be bought prepared n cooked. n i understand y mum goes to great pains just to cook food for the family

finally say gdbye to intro to econs

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well done i watched a movie earlier with jiao jiao. my tu di , lsb n cute cute gal . yee pei mei mei.
lunch was great @ key point
finally i decided to whip up a few home cooked food . some dishes for my pals for tml's dinner
i m listening to class 95 's love confidential
what happens when u have this love at first sight with another person n then suddenly u realize this partner is married. love triangle.
time heals. its true
i m glad for the yr of 2008, i 've gone through drastic measures to ensure my well being n also finally less guarded with my choice of suitors n more open to new options n greener trees
2007 had been a yr of low self-esteem . low morale
n fortunately in the first quarter now . it has been a yr of many possibilities n many efforts to make things happen as well .
with a slimmer figure. my positivity never fails to shine each day
ok after exam is a few rounds of blind dates carefully arranged. who cares. gals out to have fun first priority. yeah :P

countdown to exam in 13hrs

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i tink without memorising the Cb formula. not determined to sleep so early for tml 's i consider my personal tough paper for me
tb just pop by my place to study coz his mum was nagging at him so he couldnt take it
these few days' lifestyle : waking up @ 7 plus in the morning n run
its a refreshing start of the day
i had a power 3hr nap earlier frm 12-3 after my run
its quite gd in the sense that after the run , can focus better
looking forward to completing my first paper
list of things to do after exam
buy my bag
watch a lot of movie & taiwanese n hk drama
sports
party .. let loose myself n partyy.. yeah

2 days before a tough paper

its been about 3 days since i enjoyed being a hermit @home
came back from a morning jog . fresh.. had vegetarian bee hoon earlier
how life's always so ironic. coz i used to tink living alone is so freedom. but it comes with tinge of loneliness that crepts to u late in the nite.

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i can finally enjoy peace at home. bro worm n his gf n the troupe of kids finally left my place. i hate it when they visit n pop by n create some form of noise
luckily they can read my "hint" when i told my bro i will be having exam.
woke up at abt 7 this morning for a morning jog with lsb n tb. breakfast @ long johns
bought a philips epilator .. smooth legs.. yeah
pop by lsb 's auntie 's place.
weather was again scorching hot. too warm to study anyway
nap was a bit spoilt , but this time round i will remember to lock the main door, the first line of defence to prevent unwanted intruders from entering my premises
although i do pity , a little empathy for this elephant n bro worm " family "
but their sudden appearances do make me feel "weird" in my own house
dad flew off to china in the morning already. 2 weeks of home alone .. preparing my own meals n taking care of myself
back to my gd nap.. my long n awaited one.. yeah.. cheers ..

030508 lazy afternoon

dunno wats with me these days . my patience is limited maybe the weather is too hot
had a row with dad.thrash out some things with him
had a longchat with tb over e phone
my lau pei n i had a sort of heated argument in the morning earlier today. e main topic is he locked e main door again. haiz n i sort of talked back at him telling him i m a human n not an animal.. he can lock all he wants
he always can only do that. so he was so mad that he smashed an ash tray luckily my door was closed so the damage was minimised n i just yell back. .well u always know how to smash stuff n in the end i m the one whos replacing it thats it. after u smashed my bed , i had to use my own $ to fix this damn shit . sibei hot today.. my mood super lousy
think abt it. i been quite a model daughter . acc him to go ntuc for the groceries, buying him a hp last yr i got my gov bonus $ n i acc him to go out for lunch, go n shop for his watch , give him allowance to spend. n in then end still not happy
omg i m 25 not 15 . if he wants to latch the door . until i 30 or 40 still so it lah..
e weather has been very humid recently.. highest 34 degrees , lowest 26 so my mood is like the weather
even my pc was a bit cranky like my mood today

top 1 ktv .. wat a long fri nite . dinner with germ n e gang
ktv frm 1plus -5 today with Cline n lsb
afte sleeping @ 5 tis morning. seems zombie. had to sleep over @ lsb. dad latched e door again .
this time i confronted him . nt like me.
nap first for longer revision tonite

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i review these clip again. was the ending of the it all started with a kiss2. really touching scene of the family & zhi shu to xiang qin

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/7GVroFmr6sM/
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/KmUxro2PJGs/
i got news that bro worms intends to move back probabbly with the elephant family
its another round of headache for the family..

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lsb made my day.she knew that i was nt having a gd day so she pop by my place n buy me mac coffee.simple gesture to show she cares. haizz was so down today all by myself. eating tabao dinner at my study table n then suddenly i got a visitor in e house. dad should overnite @ bro 's place who will then send him to the airport tml. in the middle of the nite. i thought back over today's epsiode, was a little hot headed with dad.
n so we chatted abt ms chong. she as usual the happy go lucky dreamy gal who doesnt cares abt her future. chalking up unnecessary bills n expenses. there is only so much we can do for a fren. n eventually each to their own destiny ."ren zhi yi jin" if she wants to carry on to be a nuaster, we can only advise her to an extent n if shes doesnt heed our honest advice. we can only give up on her n let it be. its quite sad to know a fren u know to continue to deteriorate.
recently i had my fair share of those ai mei ppl ard me. time really flies its been almost 2 yrs that i got serious with anybody
i havent had those human touch for a long time i cant remember. sometimes its kinda comforting to hug someone u love or be wanted.those gone were the days where someone will be there for u when u need someone. n unfortunately i've been so guarded that i forgot about romance , another apspect of being human. too bad fate always had a strange way of communicating.

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Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)[?]
The Bottom Line
Greet this day ready for action -- otherwise, it'll be tough to get revved up later.
In Detail
It's going to feel a little bit like a tough challenge, but you will have to get going as early as you possibly can today. Go for a morning job or brisk walk around the block. You need to greet this day ready for action -- otherwise, it could be very difficult for you to get revved up later in the day. Physical movement will not only keep you energized, but it will also help keep you feeling positive about where you are in life -- and positive about where you are going. its true.. my mood is better aft the jog
Summary of activities
earlier was little rascal. ming yao was so mischievous
wanted to catch a nap but was disturbed by bro worm n elephant
Dad's phone had some problems as well. bugging me to do the deactivation of barring to external calls, outgoing ones. i also have no idea how he manage to activate such function n so bro worm took the initative to call the call centre n while he try to figure out the phone, i also couldnt take it already since 2 of them . dad n bro were like a little kids trying to figure out hw to solve it. n as usual dad wont solve problem , will keep on harping n harping over the little details n end up in square one . so poor me was having such a nice nap n i had to unpluck myself frm my bed to fix things up
quite pissed off.. i hissed them off. get out. i will solve it n indeed i took the trouble to call the call centre again n i got it after the 2nd time i called in. before i left my house for jogging, nt forgetting to suan elephant. well what to do , my ph is spoilt , i cant nap at home peacefully so i got to get a jog , no choice
Just took a shower, walked n jogged a while earlier i the evening. feels gd.
fresh, today's dinner is just pocari sweat. simply eager to drop to another 3 kg to ideal.. 55kg..
then another 2 months left to 50kg.. hehhehe
feeling a bit guilty that i yell @ my family earlier , weather was so humid, volatile mood today as hot as the sun today,maybe tml i should make it up to dad . some breakfast with him , perhaps lim kopi or wat. coz hes a oso a bit moody that bro worm n elephant n her kids r so pestering. i would say labour day for me today had been a little spoilt . was expecting some private time for myself. tml morning early @ 6 i hope my neighbour;s baby would finish crying sooner so i can catch a gd sleep as well. fri blues.. for the fellow ppl who r working.hehe
meeting fun, germ. pig ping for dinner tml.. fun 's gonna fetch us frm js br.. so gd
i really got to thank for js 's headphone was so useful when i went joggin earlier some quiet moments while u brisk walk through the park. the river was so peaceful n so comforting . its as though it knows that you are having a bad day & consoling you quietly by ur side.saw a few hunks while joggin.. was motivated further.
self motivation. i really came a long way. drop from a 68kg to a 58kg n another 8 more kg.. nu li.. jia you.. HK trip.. more leng sum.. pretty clothes to select from
facial oso.. to freshen up my tired neglectedcomplexion as well

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its ph today finally, had lunch with lsb n jie mei.. @ ichiban boshi. some half udon n some sushi
bought my pilot G2 refills.
slowly sinking i the exam fever less than 7 days would be intro to econs. my most hated unit of all units taken in sch
jan is lying on my bed while im comfortably sitting on the study table . msn offline strictly out of bounds.wearing my comfy hello kitty pyjamas.. yeah n cao cao by my side. yeah..!!
UOL is raising standards , oh no getting difficult to ace the exams once again. the ppl that i know started part time with me have all graduateed , n here i m still slogging like some pathetic idiot.

Bonding nite.. kampung @ sembawang ava seafood centre with e CFS folks

it was a malek kampung nite theme. i chosed to wear my sports gear coz its the most comfortable out fit to attend this event

it was a nite of fun. n more excitement

day time was really super busy . people rushing in to do transaction n encashments. with the ers payout. tough day. e queue was ongong n there r a whole more weirdos today

but the 10 coursemeal was nice. starting with lobster salad, shark fin,n many other goodies.

nice to c serious ppl like manager loosening out, letting out the hair n perform on stage. performing sketches, singing n dancing.afterall today is ph eve time to let some wilderness out

e much awaited exam break is nw again.Orchard cluster rocks..!! we won the best cheerleading team among . east cluster, north, northeast, west n CBD

e grand champion goes to CBD cluster. if u observe theres tis whistle hanging on my neck , n i m among one the wild cheer leading team to cheer for the cluster.afte all slogging so hard all day the meal was worth coming for

the best table dressed was the one seated in front of my br.. from causeway pt all qing yi se dressed in pyjamas. dad is unusually nt home

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once again all in a day's work. decided to write something before the coporate event. since e rest r still balancing their work.well , germ asked me a question which was quite funny, did i c any cute guys during her wedding . turns out that one of the best men was quite charming. i did notice him when i reached e reception that day. hes the best man. of the gang with the bridegroom. should be one of the bridegroom.

ehehe so germ called this " cousin " n he wanted to know me more as a fren as well .hehehe

but too bad now is exam period so i wont be entertaining any walk in dates

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Off day activities summary for 290408
amoy for the teochew fishball
Shopping @ brash basah , new watch for my dad a guess watch @ prestige n since i was buying for him. guess wat uncle jack , the boss gave me quite a gd discount so i tink was worth patronising his shop again. since i bought my chrono seiko from him last weekthe teochew fishball was yummy, bouncy n big . didnt regret making a trip just to go there n eat pop by europa . my first company shun bian bought some dougnuts @ bugis since i was going traffic police to do replacement for my driving license. it was good exercise just now.. must be more tanned since the sun was so strong today
i went to ubi cdc @ 5 to replace license then turn out is have to go traffic police n the instructor told me tp close at 5 .had to walk all the way there because there r simply no cabs on the street .. weather was like super hot for these few days. my top was so sticky n my heels actually give way after jogging for abt 15 mins, never m i going to lose my documents, really too much trouble to get it all fixed n done. i realize after 3-5 yrs of absence the little xiao mei mei that they know initally become a young exe when i pop by the studio just now. the design/ furnishing firm which I worked for 2 yrs there, even e cleaner auntie remembered me, i m so touched.. so many compliements . my head is getting bigger n lighter when i left.i had a 2hr lunch with joe n we catched up a bit since every time i go there is always quite rushed. tml should be going sentosa with the gang.. cfs group some teambuilding activities to be updated. since tml is a holiday eve, there should be the usual madness coporate customer crowd. i m lucky i m off today. my bro just sms me this morning n inform me abt the ERS which is crediting today.yipee i checked my acc through internet banking. YIPeee.. the ers $ is in.. woooo. shiok ah..shortlisted another bag again.between tivoli or galleria.. joe is going italy next week.. hehehe can ask him to buy for me yeah...coz i went to dfs on sun..when i carry palermo doesnt look nice as it does online when u look at it.gd day today..

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i only manage to sleep after 4.30.. after watching kiss 2 ( er zhou qu) touching ending.. xiang jin had this incurable eye disease which will slowly make her vision worse n worse n eventually she will be blind..this illness is herditary n will pass to the 2nd generation. zhi shu told her, he will never let her leave her . n will take care of her. n be her eyes.intially xiang jin thought that she will be a burden to her husband n the family
they were planning to have kids then n the jiang family was so supportive ,moderately sad ending so sad that this drama must end. the scenes were so touching , i ended up crying like a bitch infront of my computer. the whole family was like so worried for her that she tried to hide alone n feel sick because of her illness. n that the line was the family will never forsake her
xiang jin made a decision finally , no matter wat even if she had to live in darkness , she will still rely on zhi shu, sounds like an ideal scenario but in reality does this really happen
how can i ever meet such a man who can be like him. accept for who i m. be it the gd or bad, ugly or pretty. healthy or sick.

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its past 2am plus in the morning. e weather yesterday had been so humid n unbearably hot . should be due to the chinese tea n e spa tea ginger tea which i had altogether = insonmia
i was packing some stuff n i saw all the pics i had starting from my childhood pics , primary sch. teenager, poly days. first company with my colleagues. my current pics , those taken 5 yrs ago when i just started work n some of the gatherings i had with the various groups, colleagues, friends, family , ex bfs n the prom nite i had in 2003
brings back a lot of memories n its so precious. i m worried in another 40-50 yrs time i might forget about it..
frm the pimply ignorant brat.. to a smarter sensible lady. its been a new me. n different life stages gone thru from a mei mei to ppl i know becoming mother. wife n daughter in law
people on earth live day by day in search of a lot of wants n needs to fulfil their inner ego however some times they didnt stop to reflect or whether they can contribute back to society
i do feel something whenever i c pedlers on the street trying to earn a living by selling some tissues to fend for their own
n the caste of different levels in the society, people tend to compare against one another be it demographics, wealth, power , authority, status quo n so forth. so when i walk past those less prviliged group. in side u cant help by feel slighly more compassion
but then there is only so much u can do for them, i m nt the humanitarian group , however i can sense that this is going to be a difficult year for them
today will b a gd day

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i tink pictures speak a thousand words, n i m very happy that i was able to witness a gd fren /coworker/buddy n c her happily walking down the red carpet . pouring champagne, saying those veri touching speech especially to her parents, mother n frens ard her.
it was exceptionally moving, looking at the pics from the above, throughout my stay with the bank, i really got to know a lot of people who help me along, lend me a hand when i had a bad fall so i m truly grateful to them for all they had taught me.some of the colleagues i havent seen them for almost one yr plus. n plaster boss/patrick came back chengdu/ china especially to attend this function. n although he like to suan me. i oso know its for my own good, he shared his experience n i was able to gain a lot of new knowledge as well as techiques to talk to customers, to refer more sales n how to build a stronger crm- customer relationship. n although he used a harsh manner to force me to be meticulous, perfectionist n " ngiao" with my own work. n his tips were quite useful after i realize when he left my branch as my branch manager. hes oso doing well in china . serving the china premier group . setting up new sales team there n also developing his side of his career over there. i tink he has done enough for a mamasan or babysitter to this small gal like me. when i knew him as a manager i was only 23 then.. hw time really flies. n i was still in contact with my first boss who hired me abt 5years ago. when i was fresh from poly.. 19-25.. so many things happen within these 5 yrs

sometimes its really amazing n i m thankful for all the wonderful n good things happening to me , truly blessed

i hope my dad's sleeping disorder problem can improve. ialso wonder y is he stil talking in his sleep n nt able to relax. hes nt working.. happily retired n with wonderful grandchildren. fillal sons n daughter to him. sometimes i get a bit fedup sometimes wondering whats wrong with him n after seeking the doctor y he refuse to take the medication.. its been abt 14yrs since my mum passed away. it should be a time frame for him to get over the grieve , i dun understand y he still so worried abt brother worm. the useless firstborn who always bring trouble back home. which explains y .. i m nt in the right mind for any form of romance .. that part about men really turns me off. that byatch gf of my bro is simply thick skinned.such people who come with mess with my family n then no one is supportive of them n they continue to bug us like sunday.. i m totally disgusted by her lies n her clever deception. i dun tink she can really convince me to accept her . coz i find my ex sister in law totally too nice . n she juz some nobody to me . n i cant bring myself to entertain her especially on myoffdays when i have a choice nt to entertain people

started off by jogging with lsb coz recently i seem to be very much awake by 7.30am n in order to diffuse certain hyper energy in me i decide to vent the energy out

breakfast was as usual mc griddle thisweek again

after e wedding lunch. went true spa for a gd body rub / massage while jiao jiao did a foot spa. its super relaxing. n i sign up a 2yr package with them

another gd way of rewarding myself.. for e nonsense i put up with those nasty n unreasonable ppl during my work

exam leave will be coming.. from 1th may onwards. wat a load of shit coursework to go thru .haiz

looking forward to a gd holiday aft exam.. 30th may... yeah ^_^
once again i have proven myself that determination to complete a task can change someone..

e new sam . but the characte remains intact- e same old sam in a different shell

goals to achieve

pass UOL

Career projection..
Buy a car

Get a own apartment of my own

Get a man

$ really perks me up.. n the dream of being financially independent spurs me on to my new challenge in the new project which i m embarking on in july when e new branch is set up. it will be a sucess i believe , as the pionner team in ubi its gonna be a big bang..

kudos to my new team.. n i believe i can build this rapport with the new coporate clients, cross selling my coporate products n services equally as well as in mass banking

next coporate event is the teambuilding. malek kampung team on 30/4/08 , after that i can safely handover to jiao jiao n totally focus on exam preparation..

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its e morning after a late nite zouk outing. my throat feels dry. woke up at abt 7 plus despite collapsing in bed when i reach home ard 2.30am this morning.
there r really a lot of gorgeous babes n hunks out there. its a gd 2 yrs since i really went pubbing to unwind n "bio" nan ren
its amazing.. i mean.. its like a line of electric oozing through within u.. i call it e incredible magneto attraction.
its like lsb n i n tb took a lot of crappy pics using out handphone, u name it . e slutty duo bitch look ,, the come n F*** me look, the gila ones.n while i m updatingthis blog..e background is some korean hip hop music n recently this2 songs happen to b my favourite..e first one is my alram t.especially the lyrics one by lin you jia n e other is valene hsu ru yun , a another mongolian guy ah sa long

我爱的人作词:施人诚作曲:周杰伦编曲:吴庆隆林宥嘉-我爱的人http://www.feiyes.net/

我知道故事不会太曲折我总会遇见一个什么人陪我过没有了她的人生成家立业之类的等等她做了她觉得对的选择我只好祝福她真的对了爱不到我最想要爱的人谁还能要我怎样呢我爱的人不是我的爱人她心里每一寸都属于另一个人她真幸福幸福得真残忍让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深我爱的人她已有了爱人从他们的眼神说明了我不可能每当听见她或他说"我们"就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

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爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回我却还在等待着谁能出现伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈我却还是学不会狠心对谁男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回我却还在等待着谁能出现伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情好人总比坏人狼狈我却还是学不会狠心对谁男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等你就是我等的那个人男人男人女人女人多么希望你是对的人

作词:阿信(五月天)作曲:陈忠义演唱:刘若英

沙发上睡着孤单冷醒的破晓冷的面条热的泪痕啤酒在苦笑当时的煎熬当时的心痛如绞天终于亮了遗憾终于退潮终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒丢掉电影票删掉信件跟合照洗了床单剪了头发清空了烦恼恨可以很小小到眼泪能冲掉我现在很好可以重新起跑终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒地铁涌出了人潮幸福涌出了预兆我会找回当初对爱天真的霸道谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒.

i tink those lyrics r veri engaging. they happen to reflect some of my emotions at that particular moment in time n i tink e best way to record it is to name it in some part of your life.

i tink the alchohol effect hasnt wear off yet.. i have this spilting headache which i cant roll back to sleep, its like a super alert catalyst which force u to be widely awake n active, a rush of adrenaline which is indescribable, tml i will be going marriot to attend a wedding lunch. seeing another close buddy,best co-worker married, really happy for her. I really enjoyed this 2yrs ++ working with her , always bugging her to submit her completed paperwork to me.getting angry with her when shes a bit " off her mind "yah.. salesppl sometimes they get cranky when their sales is down.. drinking n making merry with the rest of the defunt sales team we had back in 2006-2007.always suan each other at her cubicle,a lot of mixed emotions surging within. there is this chinese word. yi jie jin zai bu yan zhongalso a gd fren personally , during my most darkest period in my life, i tink she sms me , n this text i can still remember vividly. aft reading it , i start n try to digest n feel happier but at that time it was nothing but absolute bitterness inside me

all i recall what i was, was a sad gal who once lost her all her confidence n herself. n e frens ard her were by her side to accompany this lonely path she once treaded on.a lost soul in search of her true self

walked past sukothai last evening n now standing before carrie is a mature young lady n nt the pimply . tanned , curly .. QQ hair xiaomei.10yrs flew by. when lsb n me worked parttime after our o levels .. we were really kids , ignorant n ru chou wei gan. arrogant then tinking that we were really adults at that time.

第一个清晨 - a song which brings back gd/sweet memories with pb. we walked past this ming ge zhang ting n we happen to listen to this singer sing really well while we hugged each other while watching this performance, i wonder how is he coping now. i also know there is no pt in harping on the past. women sometimes r borned "jian"

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hehehe today is a great day . tgif.
shi er fu de.. i lost an important document yesterday , no matter how i find . i couldnt find it
today my assistant found it.. so happy
tml i wont be working so tonite meeting up nelly , ms tan for dinner @ central mall n a drink later in clarke quay. so nice n i just did a nice manicure ..red sia color. so happy. my nails r well shaped n nicely trimmed.. its a disaster to do it myself coz i have wobbly fingers.
another 40 mins or so.. br will be closing. everyone wants to ko early today including the backroom officers.
my boss has just left for kl to represent the bank against the one in msia.. in a yearly bowling competition
jiao is as usual today oso in her cranky mood. n here i m blogging in the meeting room
may is oso going for her shenzhen birthday trip with her husband,, so tian mi mi.. sweet act of him to plan a birthday trip..
hw many of such couples still do that ..

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its been raining quite heavily since br open abt 40 mins ago. operations remains quiet,this kind of weather is good for ma la huo guo , napping or curling yourself in bed , lazing on it.. or watching dvds on the sofa , not moving any inch
my assistant is on off today so today i m on my own coz she went for some team building, cheer leading activities the previous evening
Recently after the first quarter , there is a series of new reforms, new management teams , & new blood joining the organisation as such there are fresh ideas. However some of which may not be widely accepted by the peoply nt within the management level.
There was a new circular which concludes which ever that affects branding have to be dealt with IMMEDIATELY
one of my colleague commented it is good because which ever that cannot be resolved can be escalated upwards
well what to to , in order to progress change is inevitable in this contemporary society in this modern context
later this evening will plan to have this makan session with my team members
today feels odd coz when i look out the glass panel , i couldnt nt even c the plaza building , i can only see trees swaying n the merciless rain , thunder claps in the background as well
feels odd that my sales team strength has shrunk today, from the original strength of 6 to 3 today
how the weather is so unpredictable just like the stock market or even feelings between couples. for this moment maybe u can tell him.her you r the one i love, e one i m going to marry n the next moment, there r probabbly a dozen or hundred n one reasons y u choose to leave a person leaving might be a gd indicator, coz maybe when u r not together its an indicator ya how much u want to take a person back or not,
but some memories r best kept inside
after watching harold(south korean, US citizen) n kumar (indian ethnic, US citizen) , e male lead, kumar was so remorseful aft he left his ex gf of 2 yrs who he bump into soon to be married to someone more capable than him
hes still the same punk who still smokes weed . nt serious in anyting in life at all.
n the truth is tis gal Vanessa was moulding into someone whos nt herself , the guai guai lady who doesnt smoke weed coz her future husband is in politician career
e part which strikes me when harold n kumar goes to a brothel n then they seek solace n comfort with the whores on how much they love their gals.. especially kumar's part when he cried on one of their shoulders
n the line was
I never shouldnt have left her, i thought she would have been happier with this nice guy
but in fact i m not happy at all, now they r getting married
harold is the quiet, typical shy guy ( prudent accoutant )who will secretly daydream n imagine those scenes with her dream gal , a latino , a young mariah carey look alike . he had been in love with her gal but had not been able to profess his love coz she was a model . photoshoot in amsterdam . harold flew to amsterdam just to be able to c her n nt waiting 10days for her to be back coz she was his neighbour.. her doggey dreamy eyes..
hes such a charming person.. the typical south korean look . handsome... my type. those enaging.. "dian ren yan "
a scene whereby 2 frens were abt to die in their adventure. while they fall off a plane .. n harold ask kumar to swim towards him in air coz hes got parachutte ,
a line .. hey bro/harold, i tink i m going to die..
these 2 close brothes ( close buddies )
e bonding in the scene can move someone. especially if u were be caught in a situation whereby if you have ur close fren then n if only one of u can survive in a ordeal. how would u react in that situation.
fortunately they meet the president when they crashed n landed in his house . n clears off being accused a terrorist coz on their way to amterdam,he was caught smoking weed but was misunderstood as a hijacker due to these 2 ethnics.. south korean & al-queda
e plot is a bit lame but entertaining .
it has got a mix of comedy , slapstick, friendship n romance
sometimes rainy days , do stir up the emo side or the emotional side of a human
just recently there r a couple of more cases of "songka" funerals being held at my neighbourhood, n everyday i walk past on my way to work, i c more wreaths n flower stands n i quietly sigh to myself such is the cruelty of true reality
so i must embrace each day with zest , hope n possibilities
a ability to make things happen
when e tough gets going ,it gets tougher , it can literally train up a person's resistance against intense stress n trials
juz 2 mins ago, my colleague shared a piece of gd news to me..
sam.. shanghai indices up by 7.98 %. wow wow time to make some profit again
i 've got the intention to pump in $ for the IR- Genting share allocation.. n to make things simpler we got some frens who work in the stock exchange so setting up the trading account is not that complicated afterall , its abt some research on the most potential share to start with the most minium cost damage
e ipo issue rate is only @ 0.60 per lot so 1000 of it should be roughly 600 bucks so i guess its quite a gd catch
recently with this new cut, one of my male buddy that i look chic in it.
that i should give those act cool look.. in order to match this image,, but i tink i m nt that kind of LJ face look those of some of the artistes that u c on tv .. one such example is taypinghui resembles somewhat of those cool scuba instructor look alike. but then in reality it works the opposite, i dun do extreme sports n the natural inclinity of nt being in deep waters like diving scares me off.. when i imagine baracuda swimming side by side with me or baby sharks near me
but it sounds pretty interesting checking out the cute suba diver on the same boat.. hohohoho
something which u wont c everyday besides , sales targets, nasty people, $ , stock indices n sales reports.
so this golden sentence i almost will repeat myself ... so you got to invest your wealth to guard ur assets against inflation n other forms of complexities
now everyday is a struggle, with rising inflation going up to almost 6.7% in the next quarter , the people in the lower income group would once again have to cope with rising living expenses
i cant imagine had i still stayed in logistics line would i have been able to enjoy the material needs n demands which i desire n crave for
e people who u care for , u hope that they will be also improving with u each day but the truth is that some people r borned more stubborn than the rest n one such example is ms chong still living in her dreamland, cmmon here is singapore nt some other village . my theory which applies until today.. if u r stupid u can be trained , but if u have serious attitude problems then u r a goner.. hopeless case.
if ms chong still doesnt buck up , improve on her gromming , dressing style to suit the common average or to improve on her sales , e likely outcome would be still "yuan di da bu" still e same old ms chong. no "tu po" in herself
that i always tink to myself when i c myself in the mirror first thing in the morning, you have got to overcome "urself" that you would come out of the shell
things that you tink you would never achieve or never do it, y nt conquer the fear n do it
win win situation , in the end u will gain someting out of it, if u dun take any calculated risks at all chances r u will still remain the nutshell forever like a hermit crab.. nt ready to face the world
with great power comes great responsibilites like what is always show in harrypotter or those movies
e sky has cleared now.. aft 1 hr of ranting. i can c plaza building again. no time to skive.. get cracking to work again..
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Have you eaten your yummy doughnut?


Work hard, work fast and no play,
Strive so hard for the entire day,
Bleed and sweat for a monthly pay,
Big plump donuts rolls your way,
A bite will surely brighten your day,
And everything will turn out okay!

some poem sent by bb.. heheheheehe munchy donuts doesnt come easy

was at amirah grill. a gd sessio bitching abt my clients...
gd time spent today

^_^

slacking again .. 3 plus another 35 mins to br close
germbought this pyjamas nice. hello kittyones
tink i will check it out later after work
plan to catch a movie or run.. harold n kumar 2 seems like a nt bad show for entertainment aft work
its those nites again where you thought after a nice shower , u can gaze in air staring in the dark , n behave n act more slower after a long day in town
a typical working day starts when you try to squeeze in a smrt bus, cab or train with the rest of he 3.5-4m fellow singaporeans.. n u sigh .. y must everyday be such a drag when you can arrive in style or slack nicely in a corner of a seat
mkt today as usual was not in the up zone so operation was quiet. but ironically i feel more tired than ever trying to find things to get it done, sales was also slow , slower as expected
was in town to watch harold n kumar 2. as usual was the slap stick sexual jokes. seen to many of the "crooked couples",
germ came along to complete the rest of the paperwork. happily getting married on sun
while trying to complete tis love. i m oso tuning in to love confidential @ class 95
first experience is always unforgetable, some reader wrote in when her fiance told this lady a little secret that a little side of his past that he had another past. some" intimate relationship" with a ex gf before they r getting married
well e solution is to let it go , no use harping on it. nt gd to e current relationship
so e tagline on air was ..
how do u define a perfect partner
but in the first place , is there such thing as a perfect partner ?
one colleague shared with someting on way home after work that some person told her that she will have 2 men in her life
a man who will really pamper her but is short n chubby
n someone who is tall n lanky but will pamper her lesser but capable person
so my colleague is someone who prefer the first option but ended up the other one , she was telling me this guy was someone they mutually was attracted to however in the end didnt make it coz they were cousin n if now if she was not married with kids , she would consider the fat n chubby person . so there is this tin she commented .. you yuan wu fen. how true can tis be.

really really happy today

its a shopping spee i bought a new seiko watch

retail @ citychain was abt 548 , went to bras basah @ one those small shoes m n i got it at a steal 350, another shop quoted me 348, nevertheless since i promise the shop owner that i will get it from him so i decided to go back to that shop we sold me @ 350

afterwhich lsb n i went shopping @lver . its amazing i shrunk at least 2 sizes. n my jeans when i saw lsb. i gasped ,, tat idiot actually is a size 27 liao while i m still 28 comparing when we were still 32 , its a gd achievement . her jeans r dropping down..

n for the past 6 months really put in effort to make it happen. n lsb once made a pact that we must slim down until ppl envy us. i tink we did it.

i bought a top which shows off my shoulder well maybe one day i take a pic n post it in here n a 3 quarter which accentuates my curves well.. sun.. i will outshine n prove to those that i have emerged , nt the fei mei mei 2 yrs ago n the " gemok" big ass gal.

i feel relieved all my efforts r finally paid off n rewarded as a result of my sheer determination

awake before dawn

yah before 7, the kid at this block starts screaming again.. for the past 2 weeks n i havent had a good sleep n i got to drag myself out of bed, i decided to change my study strategy, which is not burning mid nite oil before my study leave.. the alternative is to sleep early n treat that series of brawling like my wake up call.
finally i came to a conclusion why this kid / baby / toddler next to my block is doing. he/she should be terrified of waking up to shower while his/her parent drags him.her out of bed.which is oso gd.. i had a gd 8 hrs of sleep last nite so it is no problem i treat that i have a early revison before work today
today the sky is pouring @ 7.21am while i imagine the rest of fellow working adults should be thinking the same way... how nice if i can roll back n sleep

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tried to finish work early today. had dinner with dad. seems to be a few days since i last saw him, everytime i reach home , he should be asleep n i seem only to catch up abt 10 mins with him before i go to work in the morning such is the case , tink hes getting older these days n the msia trip to tis island called
shi yuan dao" seems to bring more smiles to him
juz nw when i had dinner with him @ our friendly neighbourhood , there r more laughter in his conversation something which i havent notice for a while
they were having seafood. lobster, prawn , crabs , fish ( value for $ cheap n gd ) n they were happily exploring this little kampung 3 times the size of my neighbour approximately 25min ferry ride from changi.maybe oneday i should c for myself
my assistant seems to be distant in her work, she was busy doing this sms n was so distracted from work , the reason being she quarreled with her beau which i tink was quite unprofessional . in the end i had to rush my work once she was doing some nonsense . there is this upcoming teambuilding event.. called the kampung days @ 30/4 , should c many ppl frm different branches coming together
my eyelids r so heavy nw after a long day. n i m so reluctant to flip thru my books n notes.. if i could slough in bed. n sleep hw nice...