its been a day of socialising . my frens pop by my place for pizza. lsb helped me on my nails n thereafter we went to town for pool playing n a short la teh session since its a sun. some of them have to work on monoriginal plan was to meet up with jan n bro 3 for dinner. however last min they decided to stay home for a simple dinner instead so the family bonding session was cancelled
after e iced yuan yang, time to hit the books n enjoy some private time alone at home reading. memorising.practising past yr exam questions.its a long cycle. when can i ever graduate... wat a long n tiring graduate route path
fang wei ku shang ku.. one day when i blog again . it will be a scenario of ku jing gan lai.
i was thinking if they didnt pop by. i would be a lonely oyster in my own shell n corner of my little room. having canned food on the study table n mugging endlessly during the weekend ..
many mothers' day come n go. its with much regret that mum left us earlier if nt she would have live to c the glory of each n every of her child n grandchildren
its oso one of my personal regret that she would never live to c me happily married with my own kids n shopping with me , those kind of mother-daughter bonding that you always c on the streets.this yr is the 14th yr of her annivesary n i would say she would have been so proud of me, all my achievements so far. her watching right from above , c my blunders n know my fears .
if i ever become a mother, i would like to share this kind of bonding with my daughter instead n pass on this affection to her.which is "if" i become one.
it would really be a great bonus having a mum on ur side to support u emotionally.but through the years so far, its not always an ideal scenario. things change. people come n go. there will be transitional parts to every path.
i have come to a realization ,fate is so cruel, reality bites.some ppl get all they want mainly becoz their family background is gd.4 to them is nothing in fact effortless or they r borned so intelligent, knowledge comes to them easily without much difficulties. others might have to fight for it.be it opportunities, luck, career progression or struggle for their material needs n wants
all these yrs managing on my own has become part of my life, to be strong , confident,outspoken,mature in every step i tread. becoz i know with every careful step i go, the nearer i m to reaching my goal
even if u dun wish to, u r forced to grow up one day. not many things come by so easily so its with much efforts u take to maintain to keep it going
for e.g ur weight, ur appearance, complexion . figure n also ur brain, health , overall well being
once u neglect any of the above , things, system start to deteriorate n the morale level goes down.
everyone 's got a side of the obession of conquering the impossible or even challenging ur own personal weakness. u feel good knowing that u evolved . u have overcomes urself n this is the kind of satisfaction level that i m seeking oso . telling myself. sam u have stretched urself to e max.. kudos n well done , u deserve a reward
i cannot be a compassionate lover, u know it when u have a specific range of expectation of an individual whichu want to spend probabbly the next 40-50 yrs together . sleeping beside u n living with u in the same house. its nt going to work out the way u want it ideally
so Cn is tat sort of person u can be as a gd buddy relationship
it can never cross beyond a line
i cant bring myself to harm another person 's feelings n toy ard with them . its so sinful to even think it this way
so its true the good men can never get the gals. such contradictory the pretty gals love to stick with the baddie.." bad guy"
0018hrs
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