Sunday, February 10, 2008

Day 3 or day 4 of cny

its been quite a while since i updated on a lengthy entry
been over to stone man's place for dinner juz realized how expressive kids can be these days with their marvelous acheivements n fantastic personalised blogs.. check these out http://www.jialebeliefs.blogspot.com
these kid is 12 yrs my junior seemingly my mother's sister's daughter
kids of these era are so savy with the web n games . this is one area which i cant be inclined in whereas the rest of my frens excels in this area

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

2 nites before CNY ' 08

its been really a busy 2 weeks in the branch which i happen to omit as this is the first year i m writing about the work scene in 3 yrs, this is the my 3rd year with the bank.
busy days passes by like a whirl
rude & unreasonable people arguing over lack of new notes. no more free gift
hes been in thailand for the past 3 weeks or so .we were supposed to meet up for a drink before his business trip , however for some reason or so the meetup was delayed
that day i was just not in the mood to get out
ironically one of friend also asked me out to the same place
i wonder on the next outing would it be another awkward setting again
to be continued

Sunday, January 06, 2008

060108

went steamboat last nite
china zone
@ geylang lor 1
ambience poor. war zone

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

fresh start for 2008

Unknowingly i m approaching my mid 20s marking 25 this yr in 2008
After reading year 2007 & 2006 its been a rocky 2 yrs in service line. Hopefully my 1st email this year is not a complaint letter again, i have enjoyed 1/1/2008 , went shopping with dad, bought pair of jeans from samuel n kelvin.cheap one @ 29 bucks while my dad had a bargain as well orginally 49 , reduced to 26bucks
countdown @ merry's place in the landed property
now i have a second opinion of residents who r rich. they stay in big hollow houses who keep to themselves most of the time nt interacting much with their neighbours. i find it terribly quiet to be in the room on my own if i were merry
we played taboo a card game with the gang again this time countdown @ merry's place , ordered canadian pizza n had some coke , blue berry tea to go along with the dinner which we had a late one ard 9pm coz lu n viv n i went cycling @ ecp earlier. however viv was quite unlucky landed on her butt o nthe last day of 2007 31/12/07 and had to c a doc today
lu n viv had a sleepover at my place this morning , we slept at about 4am today watched some lousy scareless thai horror movie which we all ended up dozing in front of my tv set
i was quite r n r today lazing at home taking my own sweet time to rest as well had a power 1 hr nap
2/1/07
sch reopen day
3 important dates
8th May 2008 econs
16th May 2008 poa
30th May 2008. hr

this little blog has recorded all my pleasant n the unpleasant memories , going forward 2008 is my 3rd yr updating in this online diary
the first date was on Monday, February 21, 2005
wow oh mine i have gone a long way n today calls for good occasion for some nostalgia memories

first day of 2008, prayed at the rochor temple as well for gd well being
evon sms me to go ecp to cycle which i rejected , as well as a buffet dinner @ parkway , however its juz against my principle of dieting again

its weird now it s 2330 i m still not in bed yet.haha i would try rereading my entries
hope tml would be a gd start of the first day for work in 2008

Friday, December 28, 2007

281207 2321

25/12/07 11.30
my computer was in a mess & despite many attempts to on my pc previously & despite many attempts to on it, it still doesnt work therefore i know i wont sleep if i knew i didnt pen down my thoughts so i wrote it on a diary first
so here i was with that black organiser
i am thankful that i have such wonderful family & friends all this while by my side
24/12/07
Bitching with " lesibian" birthday @ her place with her family members & with lu,maureen,"merry"also william, tb.nice colleagues . i have wonderful memories for the 2 short days i have for 24-12-07 - 25-12-07
Although my mind is sometimes torn between pb,whirling within my tiny brain on how he is doing now. Just couldnt resist sending him those greeting sms thoe prank ones , n here he was calling me, so we exchanged a few sms & i gathered information that most of his clique was either married or attached, from there i couldnt but help feel sorry for him that his reply was to stay home to play psp while the rest of the world were like busy celebrating . but on the other hand, i was with my own gang of frens. n so i ponder on the decision of asking him to join or suggestive of joining him. in the end i chosed to stick with the gals
nevertheless playing taboo with the gals n merry was just as fun as we straddle. tearing betwee nthe ideas of playing bowling @ kallang leisure park & playing board games at birthday gal's place, with merry's chauffeuring around. All i can conclude is we enjoyed 2007 xmas as wekk as viv's bdae
last xmas was kinda memorable as i hada bad row with joe shortly we broke off followed by a long weekend alone, as i was too upset to entertain, i still got the blog entry to certify.
recalculating.. i had gone through 3 relationship altogether so far as long as from 4 years . 1 yr and lastly 4 months didnt take long to realize how wilful n immature i can get at times. looking back i hope to achieve more for the 5 yrs to come
23/12/07
Auntie may organised a xmas family gathering collaborating her family,as well as dennis n family, my family , joanna , rick , auntie moon,altogether 10 kids

25/12/07 lunch at Ajizen @ marine parade
cycling @ east coast park. happen to bump into jessica , my uni classmate from stansfield, made some small talk
played some arcade games with the kids, from the interaction can understand how n why some kids behave in a certain manner, i read from today paper previously n i tink this is quite true n now i understand. kids are like a shadow of the parents. boys as of father n gals to their mothers
i can see it when i focus on their features physically n their facial expression they display
was watching this channel u, there was this yu dan professor. on the public speaking n the topics was on the art of making friends & the 3 stages
although it was a fairly short episode about 30minm i believe i benefited
young stage, middle age, n old age
the main points was the meaning of true friendship, how to cultivate & the techniques of holding a proper conversation without offending the other party . in case i forget, those were the following advice she provided to avoid on the pitfalls of the 3 stages
young. abstain from sex
middle .. not to be scheming . to plot or fight against others
old.. avoid materialistic..complain probabbly at that age already acheive a lot so must discount some material wealth
currently i would say i m still between young & middle age. my pay now is considered stable. in the process of acquiring more material wealth

benevolence is important in a person's cultivation . modesty is also essential in a person's sucess n the conclusion is the more cultivated you are, most probabbly the chances of getting good friends who truly care for you

there are 3 main character in a frienship
the outspoken people- expressive , leading the conversation
follower - neutral in their stand
quiet ones- those who just listen in a corner quietly

technique
keeping your mouth shut at the appropriate timing. friends are your mirror image of an individual. respect for one another goes a long way. not forcing other people to act on your own set of values.stop advising your fren when they simply dun accept your advice

i found her recommendation quite useful. oriental thinking is confusing with those confusicus teachings n chinese idiom seriouslybeing english educated i find myself mentally challenged when i try to recall those lengthy proverbs. All i can visualise is those bamboo strips of books and long lines. therefore yudan's advice was what i can consolidate with the help of english subtitles on the tv screen
after the series of UOL revision, my general grasp of hidden meaning and gradually becomes stronger as i get used to the thick readings & long lectures i get ffrom my lecturers . my absorption just gets better after the gruelling in bukit panjang. the interaction, although was tough helped built endurance, patience & the sensitivity to work, higher expectation of myself m the keen sharpness as well to be more meticulous, so it was a fruitful experience

thinkinh forward what jianhao told me on a cab back ride strikes a deep impression, my daddy doesnt wants me n my mother anymore coz he found himself a new gf,, after hearing this , i cant help but feel heavy hearted for this little boy in which ever way u name it. this yr i bought rick an expensive bdae gift a pokemon game as i thought he was deprived of his fatherly love for him n joanne'sbro , 4 yrs of suport emotionally as he was like the acting fatherly figure for him
he held to her as she had to shoulder the responsibility . as an elder bro
if my younger sis was treated badly by her husband n leading an unhappy marriage tolerating all sorts of nonsense
sometimes parent love cant be replaced by someone else
this yr i also bought some candies , chocolate from candy empire to my frens n some of the kids
taking a step back, my softer side, emphatetic side of me i stiill harbour is no kids policy
occasionally i do enjoy the company of kids maybe at his stage of me. at 24 still want to enjoy life as we only live once so we got to truly enjoy who knows what will happen tml

2612/07
met up with siew ping, germ. n fun @ a dinner in defu
the crab stung me, before i can taste the butter crab i bled. as the sharp spike pierce through my gums.. i bled before i can eat it..

28/12/07
n now at work more peaceful everyting 's getting better nw. bettter in handling nasty ppl n the correct technique n the PR in the interaction

Thursday, December 20, 2007

holiday

yeah... i manage to spend my 11 days in bukit panjang

gd day to slack at home.. after shopping yesterday

bought some gifts for the kids .. toys.. lucky clover for my colleagues ...
upcoming event is e xmas family gathering

........... tml got to go back office.. wat a drag. but at least is a familar place.. at js..

Monday, December 17, 2007

171207

how i recall last yr today which was my birthday's celebration which i had was in maureen's place having steamboat with polar bear n the gals n william. gals out night while her parents were overseas when we played a bit of mahjong n watched dvd. we stayed over night at her place as a common practise when her family went overseas while shes alone here in sg
i m glad this yr's christmas would be an enjoyable compared to last yr's when i was in complete agony , i just happen to write finish today's entry n then i just casually browsed through 2006 dec's blog onwards to 2007's entry
i juz realized how unhappy i was n obstinate i were then
there was a new theory revolving my head , if there was no hope there would be dissappointment
so y bother with stuff which i would nt be able to control then
the right man would come crawling to me sooner or later
then perhaps the days of spinsterhood would be over soon

4 days has passed . n tml will be a long day
enjoyed my family outing with the kids
had a memorable 24th birthday
i guess some things got to be let go
this yr birthday wish is more $$ & gd smooth work flow. less difficult customers . more sales
more $ equates more security and confidence
losing weight n sheding the excess .. to boast up confidence level
i tink i still the eligibility to take my time for the time being
if i got the luck to meet someone better . it would be a bonus
after meetin him on fri
i can tell myself truthfully i moved on, thankfully after such a long time recovering
when can i stop kissing the frogs n spot the prince
the family's outing emerged with more kids. with the addition of inviting joanne n rick
planning the next family gathering on 30th dec which is rick's 8th birthday
east coast park. aracade with e family
cycling . blading. dinner
upcoming programs. xmas with the gals n birthday celebrating with lesibian buddy 0104hrs

Sunday, December 16, 2007

i m 24 today

its been a wild 4 days i had for my annual break
my frens celebrated my 24th birthday for me
been going out for fancy dinner. met up with my ex n this time againe the feel was not like how we met up previously, it was more like friends catching up. hardly feel any sparks 2 days ago when i went out on a dinner date with him n later part we went to alley bar to chill . he gaveme atreat for dinner
then rationality begin to fill up. Hes really a bore. i was the one contributing more to the conversation n as usual hes the passive one trying to keep up with it n dun really like it
i kept it from the gals n i tink its juz as well that i can sort thing out this way
hes really not the one
i invitedx my frens to riverside indo for a birthday treat. maureen gave me 3 pairs of earings for a gift n i spulge a bit for birthday, had my hair straightened , went for facial n later today on my actual day i m goin for another dinneer with my family at meng hiong restaurant
tomorrow back again. i got to go back for relief n attend class after work till 10, tinkinh at this point , its a bit xian

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

4 more days

days of suffering. y is it so slow..
looking forward to AL 13-15 dec
next mon will c tat bitch again..
xian..
will enjoy the 4 off days away from work

Sunday, December 09, 2007

the heartbreaker kid

story plot for this comedy revolves with a single indecisive guy who marries the wrong gal after a short courtship. he was influenced by his dad n friend to get married n ends up meeting the soulmate of his life when he goes on a honeymoon with his wife .his wife turns out to be a indescriptable character who is too wild for this man.duringhis trip, he tries to pursue the new soulmate while trying hard to keep the truth that hes newly wed from the both of the women. morale of the story is such that we should never be influenced by other people in making the first step for personal happines , not to rush into a marriage & assume the current partner is as though the last n confirmed candidate
it depicts how modern relationship can happen such episodes as described in the movie but however in a more exagerated manner. such is tat when it comes to relationship. people often do not rationalise n jump into the relationship n fail to understand each other which leads to other problems later in the relationship
i seen how wq n viv is still entangled in the love lorn problemactic vicious cycle when hes still to obstinate in his thinking. believing that there is still hope of reconcilationm but the root of the problem lies that because of his naive n childish behavior , being together is short lived , knowing my old pal's character, her tolerance for his tantrums would be limited as well
as for myself knowing carefully that pb is a passive person whos always been this manner , would also continue this way. so there is no room for negotation for reconcilation either, the cycle of waiting n waiting , n the feeling of being unwanted is such a pathetic n miserable past of the previous failed relationship
since there is no room for compromising to another person. the conclusion is such tat hes a selfish person n there wont be any happines in the long run if i choose to shoulder all the unhapiness n later recognise there is no reciprocal in the end. finally its going to be much more painful than expected . knowing that there is no outcome . possibilites in an impossible character
i m glad i thought past this point n i n living happily on my own. finding my own happiness in every way, i have my close frens to count on when i have my bad day, n nt bitter about being unappreciated which is y i made the right choice although i do still have some feelings . after all i m still human.opening my options n taking some of the prevoius remarks seriously n bracing my myself up. grilling up for better phsyique n stamina does oso boast my personal ego n confidence
when i saw lila in the character , with her loud n wild character. it reminded me of who i was a couple of years ago while i was with the veri first relationship
nice plot made me thought deeper than usual
this was some review frm a fellow patron who left his remark on the net
If you think thru deep enuff, you really can learn a great deal about yr relationship thru the show......"do we really know and understand the person together w/ you, be it for 6 weeks, 6 yrs, or even 60 yrs? how far would you go to accommodate, compromise, tolerate etc, for the sake of the r/s? What is trust, and what is lying in a r/s? giving in to temptations? or stay faithful?............enjoy moments of laughter while "learning" abt r/s frm this movie......enjoy.........

Thursday, December 06, 2007

finally i pulled through the 4th day in bukit panjang

currently trying to get used to a perfectionist boss for the time being another 7 more days to go.

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

freaking tired after travelling daily for 3hrs

today's my 3rd day in bp branch
shes damn lame
damn bloody strict
almost blow up
another 2 more days.. n she will be on holiday
shes domineering n stringent
another 8 more days back to host branch .
how i miss my dear sweet boss..in js

Sunday, December 02, 2007

finishing 21.1km for stancharted run in 3hr15min

sat was a disaster.. moey is such a terrible co worker & colleague to work with
the run.. went there at abt 6am this morning n now 7hrs later
6.15pm ended e run abt 9.30am
guess who i bump into consectively pb who is so unexpected , we had intended to participate the run together when we were discussing abt it last yr this time
n i cut him which is quite an achievement

Friday, November 30, 2007

review from 2006- current 2007 301107

back frm 13/1/06 when i joined the bank n till now 30/11/07 its about 22 months down the road now.. from someone whos veri goon du & careless.for my first 3 months , the thought of resignation is constantly on my head. wonder how i got through it for the past 2 yrs, coming Jan 08 would be my third year in this bank. Thankfully the end result after going through series of the hardships & difficult periods, I have challenged myself to be more proactive, tactful & meticulous somehow or rather n also sensitive to my customers' body language n needs. although i have my fair share of complaints , i m rather surprised to be getting awards n recognition consecutively for last year as well as this year. the Group business banking award as well as the top YTD compliments for Sept 2007 for yr 2007
recalling the days of being a newbie , being bullied , difficult boss & mean colleagues who did not really bother to teach me some of the things which iwas unsure of .
my inital days of the work was like some lost lamb trying to fish my way out of the dark tunnnel. on some instances , i got to call an old fren of mine for help.. J without her guidance i believe i will not be able to achieve some skills that i have till today
my new boss has been giving me a lot of support as well. refering me n encouraging to take on more tasks n challenges.
but then again i am not very eager yet to take on the challenge, mainly due to the fact that my academic achievement has not been achieved or completed.
Since the series of bad turns & more exposure to foriegners , chinese speaking clients , also partly due to a new assistant or colleague from china . my level of chinese has greatly improved because consciously i have been reminding myself to read chinese novels , newspapers n practise speaking better chinese without the local singlish chinese terms which we commonly used that are not widely understood by other overseas chinese.
my tour to tw has brought me a deeper understanding in terms of superb service, the visit to other banks also broaden my concept of receiving excellent service from a customer point of view and as a service provider, service excellence
these days, i tend to refer sales not only with the product benefit but also a genuine concern on growing customers' wealth
therefore when my clients can sense my sincerity on their portfolio, they are more open to my suggestions & not just blindly following our recommendations.
the mass banking portfolio has led me more insight of the living condition of the lower income group.
The personal touch to deliver a lost client's wallet to her place gave me whole new perspective of the older generation these days, not only she stayed in a small n cramped area. i realize how strong she was as a 90yr old folk to take care of her daugher in her 50s who was mentally less inclined . Beneath that iron steel n determined look of hers lies such strong character that i couldnt comprehend much.
there was a elderly gentleman who described my organisation as the "junk bank" due to logo which was shaped like a chinese junk.
He mentioned that in his younger days, he came from the rival company known as the match stick bank.
regardless of whether he meant it as " junk" or not "junk" i should relate it as an insulting term to myself as well as the organisation. Simply mean
Colleagues come & go, better ones can chat up. nt so close one . just maintain an amicable terms with a hi bye relationship n some occasional greeting
next week would be a new week covering some new branch. bukit panjang is a far far away place from friendly eastie, anticapating the new yet political environment. heard a lot from them especially a strict superior does not help to ease my mind , the uneasiness which will land on me.
despite the prempt difficulties ahead of me, the determination to survive well in hostile n foriegn environment is always in my head to stay calm & to be able to adapt well in anykind of tough situation that i m in. which will better prepare me in the next battlefield
i m grateful to those who have lent me a hand as well as those who mocked at me. without their efforts to lecture at me or to smirk at me , i wont be able to stand on my own feet to face the troubles . currently as the so called more senior personnel , i constantly face a lot of new n strange enquires n possible difficult questions , maintaining a cool mind is tough without being offended n taking in more personal remarks
my fellow colleague is nominated & undergoing some form of tasks for the eligible bacherotte, hopefully everyting goes well smoothly for her & my covering of the relief work.
the recent case of the dragon boat accident is like some tragic incident on 5 youths. such a waste fated though. such is life when some events had to happen

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

si bei tulan with the unexpected guest in my house

i flare up real big time.
at least i said my piece to him. recent unhappiness that was bottled up. tink if i dun explode feel veri imbalanced

below r some the messages which i convey to my lesbian buddy
i just told my bro off

That was my last piece before he left
GET LOST ! I HAVE NO MORE PATIENCE FOR U. N IF U WANT TO BRING UR GF UP . I HAVE A BROOM READY N I WILL USE E BROOM TO CHASE HER OUT,, N I HATE HER


life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
wat can i say
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
its all s fault mah
sam says:
tat is me rite
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
then wat he say
sam says:
he mumbered something ., i will move out anyway
sam says:
i ask him to get lost then. dun give trouble to e family

tat woman didnt come to my house then but i have been wanting to tell my bro off
i already told him i have warned him if he still doesnt get it i will personally tell tat woman off. i told him straight that you dun respect our father or the family because all the tings that you have done is just not giving respect to him as the owner of the house. but all along we only keep quiet if not would have just chased her away

sam says:
i ask him to watch out. continue on . n u better be careful tat our late mother will surely not let u off !@
sam says:
tis is quit e intimidating rite.. tis is wat my bro2 teach me one . as a last resort
sam says:
hahaha

my fire has subsided a bit.

Monday, November 19, 2007

191107

i have 3 ppl which i know who is their birthdays
2 of my frens & my dad
one of which is someone whom i celebrated with in ikoi restuarant last yr today
so fast one yr liao.. 4yrs since i split with ed, 2 yrs with goose n almost coming to 1 yr with pb
everyone seems to be blissfully attached with their significant other
no mood to start revising
all resit units. when i start to flip the first page.. i get deep down demoralised wondering why i didnt clear in the first place

Monday, November 12, 2007

ending.. back to home sweet home tw trip 5/11/07- 13/11/7

day 1 : taipei, qiu fen,yeh liu nice scenary,yangming shan,min zhu ji nian tang,some castle theme resturant,shilin night market,
day 2 :Tai chung,feng jia Night market,xi men ding. taipei 101
Day 3 : tainan,anping lao jie
Day 4 : kaoshiung
Day 5 : Kenting, visited the zhuoying hospital
Day 6:southern part. cat head nose , er luan pi
Day 7: Liu fu chun amusement
wu fen pu.. remember this most coz i was pick pocketed at this place
Rou he Night market

Day 8 : Back home to Singapore
things i really miss taiwan: the climate.nt the cold or rainy one. 20-23 degrees or sothe windy cooling one.. the xiao chi.. wholesale in wu fen pu; cheap clothes n nice design the veri cute taiwanese who helped me during my trip.. liao dao.. my guide who was such a humourous n knowledgable man. a retail staff by the name of xiao ting who was such a big help in her professional in her recommendation which made me look slimer. of course, by maintaining my diet, n not adapting to the climate n food there n unhealthy sleeping schedule did contribute for sliming. the 8 day trip did pull my family bond closer as a result my little nephew sticks to me at times. the young butler at this fu jun hotel in taipei looks charming who bears a slight resemblance like one of the singer in fei lun hai. yan ya lun . hes quite a nice smile n directed me to the police station near the hotel i stayed n provided much assistance. the tour group which i joined were all nice n jovial people..especially sharon who lent me a hand when i slipped n fell in qiu fen
carrying the baby pram around is no joke especially travelling for long hours & changing hotels everyday like 6 hotelsin 8 days
back to singapore brings me to the things which i have taken for granted like the political stability ,cleanliness, toilet, safety, multi language heritage n the unique singlish , fellow singaporeans share.
the close proximity from one place to another is only a mere 30mins or so latest by cab, car, no natural disasters. strong currency . n some of the efficiency i c among most services in most companies
being bilingual with the basic language of english n chinese brings me certain advantages especially among the asian countries , with not much difficulties , its easy to blend in with the 2 most prodominent languages used widely.
however during the taiwan trip, obviously i was not used to the primary language , chinese. pu tong hua as the main communication mode , besides i was educated using english so initally the switch to communicate with some of the locals there was quite a challenge.
the transport system is quite chaotic , during my first day of the 8-day trip in taiwan, i was totally bewildered n bizzared by some of their methods adopted, the style of the english n some of the jargon used . sometimes when i listen to their radio channels or watch tv , there are bound to be some chinese which i dont quite get it
i learnt to be more polite towards my customers during this trip n picked up some dressing etiqutte. oh mine, all of them are so well dressed n groomed in the service n retail industry, if they could improve in their english standards i tink this will bring them further in the region.
I met up with this ntu lecturer who is sitting beside me on the way back frm tw to sg on a sq flight, just had this instant instinct that she looked like a teacher to me .. n most importantly was a english teacher. call it my sixth sense or wat. she was on a 4day business trip in taipei for some conference to help the taiwanese to improve on the standard of the language efficiency
the trip back frm kaoshiung back to the capital taipei can take abt 5 hrs.. most of the time.. we can be dozing off from time to time which is someting that i m not used to it back to cozy home town over here
this entry is procastinated much long n delayed about 1 week or so . was much in holiday mood didnt have a lot of focus when i returned to work on 14/11/07
17/11/07 ocbc family day -- lousy event
18/11/07
met up with the gals coz one of them was back frm a japan trip/ nice bitching session
went for a facial juz now.. attended a family dinner @ tony roma's at suntec to celebrate my old bean's birthday which is currently today 19/11/07
it is also pb's n bro zane's birthday was contemplating whether to send a birthday sms to them. in the end decided nt to anyway .. with which pondering in my mind was 3 words that sprung up.. whats e point ?
i c more friends getting married.. pregnant with their child.. some which i heard getting married at a young age n then divorced first, second time which i ponder if i can really belive in marriage n seein my own bro in his all messed up love life with someone so complicated. 2 kids of 2 different fathers n now with my bro whos also someone nt suitable marrigable candidate.
the one for me seems far n unreachable. able to stay carefree n free spirted is such a luxury . singlehood can also be fun as well.. with some spinsterhood fellow jie mei.. last min travel plans..
able to focus on my personal goals
splurging on my own expenses without having much worries.its perhaps i have totally lost confidence in the men which i dated... having gained n lost is such agony.
the mixed emotions that contantly runs in my mind still strikes a terror deep within me. of course nowadays i do still keep an open mind . casually browsing around but i c no suitable candidate.
besides i dun wanna settle for second best
i was tinking long n deep that with such character i portray, i cannot be a good homemaker n some times i can get so wilful n short tempered n capricious i guess not much men can get along with me
pb is a nice fren but not a gd lover to maintain long relationship
the secretivness n freedom he gives doesnt justify the seriousness in his part
now almost 6 months apart.. i tend to give myself space to digest the unhappines n put it aside n live day to day happily. simply appreciating all the happy things i have now n all the good news i share
of course bro worm's plight did create an impact in my selection n my view point in relationship on how men n women can change so drastically over a decade n how married people can also continue to indulge in infidity while they already have such a happy family scene
i also observe the couples in my family bicker non stop n i find it a bore sometimes
till the day i can seek my own happines.. wish me luck in my career now.. getting even better n better .smooth transition n more sales n compliments many more good tings to come for me..
good grades for exam in 2008
good men r hard to come by.. really...
completed the 10km run in sept. 21km for stanchart run in dec.. hope my stamina is good.
next month is my bdae month as well as christmas run should plan for a 3 day break for my birthday n relax.. pamper myself well
1.03
19/11/07

Thursday, November 08, 2007

tw..tw

guess wat i m online at tw,at silver river hotel lobby using their internet to log in , todays e 8th nov been in tw for abt 3 days
the weather has been wet in taipei & the trip has been enjoyable so far
last nite i was juz so much in insonmia that i couldnt sleep in taipei , maybe due to too much caffeine n food at nite. slept abt 3 hrs so far on average
wake up at abt 6-7am daily n i sleep ard 2 or 3 in the morning. to top it up i was thinking or rather remicsing the past in my room tryin my best to get to sleep . with the help of the local channels. in a foriegn place. e last thing on my mind , well cant be helped too
besides the good place to write is oso during the trip
taipei alone is a city that never sleeps with endless nite market n food all over..
stinky tofu, fried sotong, chicken .. hao da chi pie , theme cave restuarant
cute ah bing gege at the memorial hall
n oso the people here is juz so polite. their bazzar is endless
ximeng ting.. i blow abt 7000Nt.. which is like i spend over S$300 plus in a shop which is impressive... i dont do this often though
at tis hr,, at a rundown or rather nt so developed taichung. e hotel is old reminds me of the run in bencoolen..
red carpet.. chinese setting.
tml is the 4th day.. hot spring
tainan
kaoshiung
n then back to taipei & friendly singapore in another 4 more days
8/11/07
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Saturday, November 03, 2007

bro worm n his funny moves

its so disgusted.. an intruder in the house who i dunno is in ..
my bro worm's latest squeeze
i cant imagine after e tw trip back . wat would it be like

Thursday, October 18, 2007

181007

140 days in a flash
i didnt give up on myself
dieting. havent been eating much for dinner
runninh preparing for GE run
burryinh myself in work
less gossip during work
sleeping more like 10 pm..
68 down to 63..
50 is the ideal..
try 60 first.. 55 then 50
7kg.. i can do it.. 5kg is gone especially the butt area
improvise various methods to slim down without harming my body
221007 10km GE>>> YEAHHhhhhhhh