realize i didntwrite for a long time 220808 1656hrs

i been in this little dark tunnel recently which i have been so unsure of myself. whether the things that i ve done so far are worth doing it
luckily i got a few friends who manage to knock my sense to me
life is about ups n down. sometimes u gain,sometimes u lose. my negativity energy seems to be growing more these days with the up pent apprehension i faced with work , coming results and the "investment" done so far with UOL.
so much about the past abusive spending habits. time to cut down on certain extravagances , living humbly and simply , luckily this short term pauperness is going to last for a few months till i clear off my " little debt"
most people are spending more wisely than before since this is the downturn of the economy , even earning as a middle class income with post secondary education doesnt really help.i can literally feel the pinch as prices of food and other goods and services goes up . afterall the government can only subsidise or help to a certain level.
a little update on the little 2008 bejing olympics. the singapore won a silver medal earlier on last sun on 17/8/08 against china n korea.. and is looking forward to a bronze medal again this weekend on sun.. although they are foriegn talents frm china. we respect their passion and professionalism towards the sports , certain sacrfices in terms of personal life , family to be in singapore , leaving their home ground.. although also for a different reason for more prospects instead of remaining on whereby there are fewer opportunities due to the many even more talented atheletes and competitors out there in the home ground.table tennis female team.. yeah ! i was watching this little video clip with li jia wei and feng tian wei.. realize how not easy this professional athelete path was to be.. especially when everyone pinning on high hopes on you , as well as the coach and the whole nation. sounds to me a huge level of stress level. with all the training to bag an award back especially playing against world no one when this person used to be ur training mate in your younger days.
i was reading about the world no 1. zhang yin nin whereby she joined this military team while they have to march and train as early as 6am to train depsite the snow.
i just gone through some friendster pics and and within 2.5yrs , a lot of things changed , one of my ex colleague whom i know who was very skeptical about marriage and kids is now wonderfully married earlier in april and is now happily expecting her first child on her way .. wow.. its good news ..
despite the efforts to promote birth rates among married couples as well as encouraging swinging singles to meet other individuals and to settle down, its afterall quite a personal decision. some people might never get to know that special someone in their lifetime , n seriously i met some of my clients who are rich happy but lonely maybe . or they find other priorities more important than setting up a family of their own
between the group of already married, attached friends .. and the other single, still looking and dating around. well these 2 groups share different ideals on how they want to lead themselves and their goals .
theres always pros and cons being happily married , with kids and family verses an independent , free spirited single.. both of these groups have in common, they are enjoying this little stage of their lifecycle.. either with option A or B
and while i m blogging i m also having this msn chat with a girl friend of mine who has never dated, and her conclusion, she wont follow the government agenda blindly until she found the right person to date with and settle with, on yeah shes still believe in true love.. haha
while i wast trying to sort out all the little mind bugging thoughts of mine, i was behaving a little less sociable than usual.
back to reality is to save up . hopefully cut on the possible expenses and to get by..
another 2 weeks to know the verdictwhether the yr 2007 academic year was properly utilised or yet another round of setback, and later on theres another social function with my new group of colleagues .. jiak together for our get together session..
since july 1 2008 n meeting them on 23/6/08 these 2 months have come and go and we have a better understanding of this new group of co-workers .. its like knowing them again in a deeper level on each other's expectations, etc working habits and certain characteristics which we found out gradually
although is my off day and originally i had a dinner outing with a friend but had to postphone due to the priority of the first jiak dinner gathering with my colleagues
we have staggered lunch hours as such normally we dont have the luxury of gossipping on the latest news together or have 12-2 lunch hours like the ones in headoffice people do. so no choice, we are the front liners and we accept certain opportunity costs in order to be on operating function.
and besides i was on the verge of finding another more suitable position rather the current one but due to certain chain of events , this has to be put aside for my priorities like $.. prospects or developing can come later. have to solve the major event on my bank loan.. clear it n pass exams n be a happy girl once again. n plannning to spend wisely as well.. its quite a bitter lesson learnt about the chain of point of no return but to be more discplined next time
bankingline can be quite regimental and realistic,sometimes i find some of the borrowing policies towards customers. criteria too rigid for lower income group especially in approval of some loans.. usually as an organisation, its to the interest to the company not to the consumer.sad but true. however the operations is more of doing things the same everyday but different events happening everyday as a front liner
todays a friday. and outside is raining cats and dogs since 3pm.. drizzling and pouring. although it might seem as good idea to curl up at home watching table tennis or the telly .. might as well use this opportunity to mingle with the ubians instead.1745

i came back frm the makan , jiak dinner and the drinking session , n one of the colleagues XXX advised me to be more proactive as a word of kind advice to me becoz they have seen and compared other staff from other places and they tend to make comparisons. its a good chance for me to improve on
her boyfriend came over the club and i manage to hitch a ride from her
and after a good dinner with the ubians and some silly games. its like a wind down from boring ubi. where the food is not so fantastic. i dont want to term it as lousy as it will demoralise me all over again.. tml linda will talk to me maybee its someting about work.. thomoas comments that i m too serious even when i m playing . its the kind the image that you want to maintain when you are out in a gathering with your bosses..maybe the part of me expecting my results and $ is making me seemingly like a person whos like a block even on outing. i was dragging myself out of the house to attend the gathering. i enjoyed the session. the drinks did loosen me out a little n the silly jokes thomas cracked.
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2 off days 12/08/08-13/08/08

today is my second consecutive off day and after much cordination with the inital contact with the plumber, maintainence and town council we managed to get an experienced plumber with the town council and after much discussion, we managed to find the root of the problem to the blockage of the flush system.
one of my shorts and a clothes peg was stuck on one of the pipes which then have to be sawed and taken out.
so this is the time whereby the people who are not inclined in technical field are most disadvantaged.
afterall people who are in the white collar field would not know how to deal with a leaking tape, spoilt toilet bowl, this type of expenses cannot be avoided one for sure, but at least a spoilt toilet bowl is quite a hazard also. now settled in case if one of the family member has serious diahorrea , it wont pose as another form of problem .
8/8/08 marks the beijing olympics hosted in asian country, the swimmers broke the world record and michael phelps was the talk of the show in channel 5 , hes only 23 but he has won numerous gold medals for the 2008 olympics
the locals who competed are part time atheletes unlike other countries whereby they train from young and is doing it full time professionally.
i did i seriously did put on more weight during the weekend trip, time to get more strict with my diet..

back to work on 040808 2217

after one month in eb. things have started to be turning more rosy except occasional debates on the style of resolving conflicts
there is still a lot of room for improvement and international trade remains quite an interesting aspect with eb

030808 1028

i finally found courage to @#*&$%^ that irritating neighbour who lives directly above my unit
today is sun.. ur kid has been screaming for months. i will report to police if u continue to cry like that everyday .. u understand !
strangely my idiotic neighbour answered back .. understand
had planned to sleep through breakfast. nevetheless// however still spoilt
but last nite's family dinner was fun with the kids
had initally planned to sleep through lunch. haiz
latest update on some frens..
frens getting married
frens planning a no 2 in their family
frens preparing to get married
n myself still in the stage of carving out my career
at least by 2013. to lead a little team of my own. rank frm mangager 7- avp.
the trend is most BH- business heads r mainly singles . married to their job
i heard of one guy who s yr 70, wakes up at 5 to go for gym . take extreme good care of himself and after the gym reach office by 7 to start work. that is a bit good"
speechless..

relax day 020808 2329

nice day went for a good massage after one month of struggling in ubi and then a nice foot spa.
followed by hans in town with the monkeys & my family

red bomb 020808 0017

catching up with shanty. nelly . madam lim and puihong @ the soup spoon in town was an enjoyable session. nothing beats having dinner with a bunch of close frens instead of complete strangers when you go on a date with a guy or rahter potential candidate

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290708 eve before opening

i had dinner with the XXX and then i begin to c a different shade in her perspective and her style of handling difficult customers, the problem of being nice and also being assertive in our point of view as a service provider
i begin to learn from her point of view and i realize it is but another approach instead of being nice n saying yes all the time
people who are borned leaders but not sales ppl, as well as nice boss but when it comes to nasty people have to be equally firm so as not to bow down to unreasonable requests to get bullied or abused by cb ppl..
hahah she shared a few of her stories n although shes a tough person n so have i know of her dark side of her. i still find her a gd co worker to be valued although she uses a harsh approach sometimes just to get things done in along the way

aftermath 270708

its a long night after 2 consecutive nights of late nights.. we ordered 2 bottlesof premium vodka and made merry at the boiler room at st james
8 of us and someone in the group couldnt make it at 1am.. n we had to drag her out.. literally one of them had to hold her by the pants and carry her while she cling on to one of the guys
omg.. my fren was being forced upon , she tried to kiss him. wat a a funny episode
when you r being pin under a situation, how do you get out of the situation then
its so awkward then
i was wondering when the lights go off, and when the cluber realize the person who he/she is standing beside with flirting all along n he recognise the wild fact.. omg horrendous truth..
one of my frens went overthis thai pub in geylang whereby they have to pay the gals to drink when they can touch anywhere they like as long as they pay for it

fantastic day with a perfect ending

i cant simply describe.. indescriptable
the bad sides of the weeek, an extremely stressful week with lots of scrutiny and criticism going on . some issues to be solved and its eventually resolved.managed to pacify the difficult ones and tada.. reputation is saved
generally the feedback gathered was positive , but yet room for improvement
with the list of things for repair and rework . everything is going on just fine
met with 2 different individuals the geek and the fun loving type , it was interesting
met up with mq and mike for a short dinner .
some matters were seen with a different sort of perspective when there are different mindset set to it
i m embracing activities as it comes along to me. enjoying life as it goes
tml is yet another new begining and excitement in ubin with ms heng. simon n gang and the upcoming Pengerang short getaway during the national day holiday with a new gang of travel buddies , the idea is just too good to start with. coz it totally relieves any possible form of stress in daily work
banking can be rather serious business and being in the industry requires me to be extra sensitive and masked so as in order to blend in with the trade .
i m begining to sense the travel bug runing in my blood.. how nice it is to be free and freedom . carefree from the mundane matters going on every day/ from waking up to freshen up. the fresh makeup everday just to look presentable to face the rest and the pretentious self to impress the rest. to look the best everyday.how nice to dress in short s and singlet and tats it for work..dream on..
starting to get sleepy... fatigue sets in...
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another day has passed , today is such a slow day
天空下着长命雨，时间仿佛停顿着，太慢太慢
office来了两个卧底，headoffice, project chic 的左右手。两位 eyecandy for a week..
我渐渐熟悉ubi的一切，交通的繁忙，客户群的要求还有一些无理的闲人。还有一个超爱讲话的大叔。越来越反感，我真的太好了，忍了他一个星期。。决定发标。。得寸进尺的人，我往往都不客气，为何还要默默忍受人渣
可是又不可以太过分，同事之间要有双方的谅解，和谐的相处才会擦出火花，默契。
这位话是很多，但心地不错可交之友，不过废话多了一点。
倒数offical opening 还有9天，一切还算顺利，很高兴可以在这个project 吸收经验,跟很多资深的前辈切磋，在工作上自我提升，无形中也在此成长,获益不浅，在事业当中得到一个好评，很荣幸，不过还是要保持谦虚谨慎的态度才会有更多的进步。人都要经得起考验就会变强，变坚强之后就不轻易放弃自己也更了解自己想要的。拥有一个倔强的脾气也不是我要的，是岁月的累积带来的后遗症，是好是坏?主观性 ， 不过虽然我不属于tthe typical cute cute eyecandy type, well at least i am independent and i know of my rights and values to abide to, i might not be a 绝世美女but then i think i have my own market and niche. some guy today commented that i looked like i got character an aura of independence.. 时代女性。 yeah man..他总算识货。。 hahahahaha
要积极面对每一天，重新出发！
男人是奢侈的货物，带来了太多包袱，还有失望
习惯性失望就会绝望，之后就不会想太多。
时间还有矢志不渝的爱情吗? 少之又少 ！ 如果是这样就没人离婚又重婚，费事费力，浪费时间，有何苦
我好偏激，好不浪漫，我一向来都不吃这一套。。。 太没有保障的感情带来只是更多后来的感伤，悔之不及。当一旦悔悟，一切就显得更清晰
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shape run 10km 1147 200708

my timing for 10km for 2008 has improved compared to 1hr39min. this year my record is 1hr21min , a significant improvement of 18mins.. hahahha
meeting brian for a lunch date.. jiao has been bugging me to eat hotpot with her.. still considering . the sun is scorching outside and its so nice to be chilling indoors now. i probabbly give the impression of the more masuline appearance , when i was ordering my mac breakfast earlier, the person addressed me as ..gd morning "
sir" can i have your order pls? it shocked me . i looked like a man in my cap and my shades and sports attire. even linda commented that i got this jaded look in me that i should leave my hair long to soften my hard features .the cat on top is quite cute taken in one of the kopitiam @ ubi . the store is ampang yong taufoo. it shows a family of 3 cats moving their head side by side.. damn cute... hahahahha
today super happy , maybe is i did a bit of sports today so i m execeptionally happy
.there are too many pleasant things happening around me. my team mates are so warm. i meet a whole of new people this week as well as new corporate accounts to handle
the cisco continues to be a bit weird but i dun fucking care abt him at all. boss as usual keep tracks of our performance. its a nice environement , however i m posed with more difficult people and challenges to undertake one by one.. eventually i tink i will make friends with my customer and build excellent rapport with them . we will reach our objectives and the n continue to deliver fantastic results and wow our customers. because we want to be the best.. get it ..WE WANT IT ! EVEN I WANT IT MYSELF! The first and the only n only the best is yet to come. i tink everyday if i continue to pyscho myself into believing it , gradually it will become a fact.
yeah .. cheers ! the best opening is yet to be on 30/7/08
i will throw away my pride and try to pr n mingle to be a gd host
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在社会工作5年，学会了一笑置之，有些不如意的小事过了就算。毋须耿耿于怀给自己带来无畏的烦恼。
象今天有个朋友我觉得礼貌上爽约或临时有事应该事先通知我。。。这样默默无闻的行为让我觉得反感，恶心。太没有时间观念，根本对我没有基本的尊重。他可以去吃大便！首先要尊重别人先，才可受到尊重。
对那些没有必要关注的人， 简直是浪费我的时间！没有别的理由， 小小事看得出一些人格上的瑕疵，我不禁感叹。。没有所谓的完美，存有的不切实只让我顿时觉悟，明白一切的所以然。
有太多的不公平的定义造成不必要的困扰。
简单就是幸福。。。
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a quite stuffy night 200708 0004hrs

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i went for a good manicure the usual friendly and chatty grace n annie @ blink nails far east
tb n i went to kfc for lunch,had a bitching session with him, havent seen him for almost 2 weeks and as compared to the last time i saw him, his face looked less chubby as before....
as much as i gather, since i cant beat her.. u know who la.. n i decided to join her. besides shes a capable person only the weakness is too blunt and straightforward and a bit scheming.. also known as 讲一套，作一套. so in order to counter these people is to act blur so as not to get into unnecessary trouble.
relive the days of secondary school after my manicure, i met the 2 gals in toa payohcentre,the usual 泡泡茶馆 which we have faithfully patronised for the past 10years so far , since our peidao days after school,it remains a much familiar hangout for 3 of us. besides long john silver and macdonalds.. how we reminisce over the past events. maureen even mention about the $0.50 panties which we bought 10 yrs ago. wat a joke.. n we laugh about it now.. hahahhahahahaha
有志者事竟成,有努力才有收获，辛苦了这阵子，无非是想要实现梦想！达成目的，不辜负别人对我的期待，我重视自己，更热爱身边疼爱我的人
有过之无不及。
recently theres been the series of natural disasters which has made human more vulnerable as compared to the past, earthquakes( china, japan), tsunamis as well as the typhoon in taiwan, the earth is going through the series of changes, some commented i read through flowerpod forum that it is the nature's way of punishing mankind for polluting the earth's natural habitat .
as well as that we have news recently such as a murder case in chai chee. some lady found naked half body , killed and rotting in a flat which comes across me as beingtragic coz she was still quite young.. n living alone .. tragic case.
as usual dad is sleep talking in his sleep. yelling in his little corner in his room so i decided to pluck in my ear phones and listen to heavy metal music n igore his yells .. heheheh a good way to tackle all noise interrupted..
tml is the 10km run.. didnt prepare for it . so get prepared to pant n walk through if the worst case scenario happens..
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something abt sagis 1201 190708

SAGITTARIUS WOMAN
A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a
beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely
covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step.
She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively,
so her face always seem so happy. She will not get up set easily.

Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow
fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She i s a very
open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never try to
cause troubles for any one.

She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something
so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you could make more money,
so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money
you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and
make you wonder if you should get up set or love her more.

She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be
protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If
she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to
control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if
she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I
will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is
thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this
matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love
life as another funny story.

She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for
some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can
easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths,
good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac
will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if
she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of
let her borrow money, think again.

She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about
getting marry and lost her freedo m and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves
sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dre ss like a tomboy. She has more
guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about
rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor
will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself ,
so you should not bother what people think.

Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurts from love, but
never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one
more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will
not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say
something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will
admire you.

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oh no .. i lOoked like a hag.. someone whos married probabbly with a few kids
such was acomment from a fellow colleague.. oh no..
plan-- to lose another 10kg in 5 months counting down ...

i have 2 pics which is like an old hag n an young executive
conclusion is.. its a matter of choice.. omg.. i look terrible months ago . the picture was taken in feb'08 when i havent had a neck yet. how irony now..
i had 2 BUbble tea earlier today which lead to a case of insonmia again at 1.24am 17/7/08
today i m meeting panda n meiyan in town later after work to check on the the very nice pictures we took in hongkong.. shes a magician. she can really work wonders
i was reading this from a novel which i borrowed from nlb , this writer is quite a cute one oso
没错！ 过去都已经过去，人总要迈步向前。
in find this sentence kinda motivating
determined to break through my personal record and set a record high of being thin lean and toned. which is an extra criteria in fitness standard. met a new friend , wyane who was a like doc, a friend as well as
a personal trainer to me. he told me something which made my day..

7/16/2008 11:26:22 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed do i LoOk fat.. to u
7/16/2008 11:27:42 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam nope
7/16/2008 11:27:51 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam i think ur body can be turned into a hot machine
7/16/2008 11:27:53 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed nt toned..
7/16/2008 11:27:57 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam let me tone u up
7/16/2008 11:27:58 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed isssit
7/16/2008 11:28:03 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam turn u into a pornstar
7/16/2008 11:28:09 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed i m so skeptical of myself
7/16/2008 11:28:15 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed can i ??
7/16/2008 11:28:31 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam yes if u trust me, i will make u a pornstar
7/16/2008 11:28:46 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed pls la.. nt a porn star la
7/16/2008 11:28:52 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed tats too exagerating
7/16/2008 11:28:59 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam we do it together, so in the end we both get our best body possible
7/16/2008 11:29:09 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam its not extegrating
7/16/2008 11:29:13 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam can be done
7/16/2008 11:29:16 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam dun cost money
7/16/2008 11:29:19 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam well not much
7/16/2008 11:29:38 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed i know
7/16/2008 11:29:40 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed cannot be lazy
7/16/2008 11:30:46 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam yup
7/16/2008 11:30:57 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam trust me, i did it and now i can be lazy but still maintain
7/16/2008 11:31:07 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam once u reach ur target u can relax
7/16/2008 11:31:14 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed so hw to slim thighs
7/16/2008 11:31:15 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam start is the only diffuiuclt part
7/16/2008 11:51:48 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam well i think u're hot if u dress and style urself in a gd way
7/16/2008 11:52:46 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed tats a compliment rite
7/16/2008 11:52:55 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam yes
7/16/2008 11:52:58 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam i liek what i see
7/16/2008 11:52:59 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed when i m in the mood. will dress up a nit then
7/16/2008 11:53:02 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed bit
7/16/2008 11:53:11 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed depends on my mood


7/16/2008 11:53:13 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam in fact i wuld liek to help u
7/16/2008 11:53:21 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam turn u into somethign power
7/16/2008 11:53:32 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed u sound like a doc
7/16/2008 11:53:33 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed hahah
7/16/2008 11:55:44 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed i tink e motivation is gd..
7/16/2008 11:55:49 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed should run together
7/16/2008 11:56:25 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam yes
7/16/2008 11:59:02 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed will start by losing 5kg first then another 5
7/16/2008 11:59:05 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam i'm ur personal doc and life couch
7/16/2008 11:59:11 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam all i want in return is
7/16/2008 11:59:16 PM Tine Eye Bleed sam fo ru to be happy with urself
7/16/2008 11:59:26 PM sam Tine Eye Bleed thanks

a fren whos willing to train with me and keep me in good shape.. no more eating those junk n bubble tea.. haizz.. for 5 months and after that i have a " hot" body to begin with..

wyane is someone whos very health conscious and "hiao" makes a good trainer.. hes simple obsessed in getting tone and lean as well. the whole msn chat was kinda funny hahahahah

i was listening to class 95 as usual to ward off the jam and keep myself occupied and that there was a report who revealed that singapore is one of the lowest birth rates in asia and the reasons behind it is that locals are not enticed to get married, giving birth to more children. more are delaying marriage and many young couples are not obliged to start a family , factors are that the baby bonus are no longer attractive, the caregiving , caregivers and childcare centres are not so affordable and there are no suitable people to fill up the roles of caregiving and care for the children , respondents somehowfind the facilities are not adequate enough to entice them. one of the likely reason was the work commitment was too much to give up for parenthood which indeed is a worrying trend .coz the current solution is to import ready made families such as encouraging foriegners to migrate to singapore with their ready talents. and national day is one of such agenda and opportunity as a form of promotional methods to "lure"people to stay in singapore with our " ever structured form of standard of living"
everything about here is just so orderly and systemactic. there are rules abiding to every criteria and locals are just abiding to it dutifully which is something i couldnt observe when i was overseas earlier.
when i board mtr in hongkong .old habits die hard, i will still imagine a imaginery yellow line and stand behind the yellow line at the side and wait for passengers to alight before bashing in for the most available seats. when i out there i realize how miss the 4 languages. english, chinese, malay n indian language used predominently apart the inaudible english and some occasional cantonese which i can barely undestand in the hk mtr station and macau port.. i love being close to home..
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very normal today.
the cisco did try to instill some values to me to convince me to try it out again. however i am so totally not convinced.
shaun n gang came over for their daily cluster in ubi br today
eb is bloody big with many different teams. i m seeing different folks almost everyday. the scene is a very skillful one whereby the new cars are being driven down the slope outside automobile megamart.the person drove relatively fast..

a gd weekend out from work

its been a good weekend starting on sat with a bitching session with germ followed by a nice facial. family dinner and also a nice hair color @ hairjournal. mahognang base with red streaks. brings out the shine with the coporate uniform.
although there is nothing to be unhappy about, but i am still a bit angry over the matter.
men r alike.
well........
needless to say the market for good people is always lesser than demand.
some of my girl friends also comment , we met a few n some include the petty men category and we gave them some nicknames. one of which includes yogi bear , the pushover and many more..
time to look at the bright side. romance doesnt come by easily neither can it continue perpetually. so single gals or ppl out there. y should i settle for second best when i can have the best.
the morale is up. people crush me. n i tell them out there , hey i wont be crushed . i can bended n stronger than ever. the more you depise me the better i want to be. thats e way aha aha.. i like it! yeah ^_^
i met an interesting lady in the morning who was out on evangelism, she pop by my house and asked me a few questions to break the ice.
lady : gd morning i m XXX, do u think singapore is safe place to live in ?
so the conversation revolves around the news whereby a gal was being stabbed by the boyfriend, we actually discuss what constitutes a character or the morality of being righteous and how can a person be cultivated over time and who should be responsible and how to do it , its quite an interesting topic
and my view towards it , is that the news was jut a subjective case and it does not represent the majority, the character of an individual depends on many factors like upbringing, moral values n the degree and the extend of abiding to certain unwritten norms and moral values attached to it. so how to determine whether this person can be good largely depends on certain criteria, we even covered areas like even intelligent people commit intelligent crimes. however if everybody is orderly . good , and kind it wouldnt be realistic as well
so religion can be a good method to curb and modify behaviour however this is also part of the inner nature to be good then the effects wil be fully absorbed
not all the people think like this. n we should not just instigate certain values on anyone, furthermore behavior cannot be forced. enforced on anyone in fact. so it really takes time to be a gracious society.
some people are easier to mould others maybe not , they prefer to stick in their own rosy and familiar environment where everything comes in smoothly to them. they are resilient to changes just like a stone.my father is one of such an example , borned in the post war period where there is disorder and disharmony and the only right thing that comes in place is a super stable job with a monotone lifestyle to make things work.Unfortunately things do not work this way for me, i prefer variety with an injected feel of new things changing and happening everyday. fastpaced and challenges spur me up which is why i strive in this type of environment
i met up ms chong earlier to pass her the gift, shes happy in her own manner, n i mok with it as long as shes happy. shes a little chubby now.
i got my shape tshirt. and i m working towards an even more leaner figure to get back things that i have lost in order to gain back the least of the self respect i have for myself. i respect my body so i have to work hard to get it back.. 50kg.. not far from target but i must make it work. so sinful eating kenny chicken chop and satay earlier. i do have some craving for certain local delights coz although hongkong offers many choices but in certain perspective nothing beats home. the place when u grow up eating.. n wanting it..
making things happen has always been one my personal motto. i must do it , then it will happen which i firmly believe in cause n effect theory. grow apple .. sow apple
besides setting objectives the positive mindset is a powerful tool to motivte oneself towardsa certain direction to pursue certain goals.
great determination n to be really focused in a field.. nt many can achieve and those who can do that are high in IQ..
although i do have my own set backs. tb mention tat over the phone that i am like the weed.. 杂草的生命力超强！不容易死！只要我肯做一定能成功。。。
天下无难事，只怕有新人
要成功肯定不是偶然。要经过很多障碍，辛苦才会从中体会很珍惜得来的一切，并非运气。。
刷卡花钱很开心，买到自己开心的物品谁不开心，还钱时内心复杂。。一方面快乐，另一方面矛盾
辛苦赚钱花。。。hahahhahahaha
今天看到镜子里的我， 格外陌生。。 太累了。。。竟然出现明显的双眼皮
我并不喜欢夜生活，觉得这样过得太放纵，没有次序， 很迷茫。 这样的过真的好吗?年轻的一代可能和我的想法大有不同，那又如何?大家不是过得好好。。
简单就是幸福吗?
不停得追求物质享受难道不好，还是给自更多不必要的麻烦?。
求上进是好，给自己太多压力不好。
有竞争才有挑战性。。得来的不容易。好怀念读书。。没有顾虑。。
长大了就知道。。大人以前在小时候常常说。。现在大了就明白这一切。。
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one tough week has gone by.. many tough weeks to come by. the new environement is ever dynamic with everychanging conditions
coporate people have a different set of needs & demands. especially to car dealers, special negotiation skills is needed to have a win-win situation.
my strategy against crooks is to plan my every step carefully and guard myself against xiao ren.the more they want to crush me, the stronger i emerge so as to ward myself against more trouble and also not be scared & fearful of such opponents. the stronger they come against , the more i have to fight back, thats e real sam. in the long run those who stand wrong will win the ever changing battle with the right tactics and equipped with the right mindset against crooks
one thing i realize towards contractors, we have to stand firm n assertive to get what we want. during the course of the opening, i had a cupboard which needed to be lifted up in order to get it closed. of course when i feedback to thomas, his first instant reaction was to tell me to feedback to the carpenter to get it fixed.
however the first time round, i was given some "excuse from the contractors" that it cant be changed due to some concept transformation given by the top management.entirely bullshit.. he was simply bo chap to get it fixed for me.. after another round of complain n feedback given by the other boss . my cupboard was fixed. n this gave me a lesson to be learnt which is to get what you want no matter what it takes to since the item was new, n we've already paid for it.. so " no excuses ! just get it done !
today baby boy arrived to earth.. new memember.. my aunt status is upgraded once again
we went to rangoon road for the fish steamboat, n i distributed the hk gifts to my family, niece n nephews.
mos is a place of many hidden buayas ready to prey on the innocent & the non alert ones.. going to smoove is a price to give.. top 40 music in exchanged of getting groped n to groove there.. its a place fitted and designed just for the youngsters. after a long process of planning n decision , decided to join the gang for the nite there. i would say the outing is half hearted enjoyed coz half of the time is spent looking for each other n the other queuing for drinks for the coupon n otheres squeezing in n out of various outlets to move around the compound.most ladies are at a common disvantage n like many of my friends , some of them were being touched here n there.conclusion men r borned somewhat alike, for those invitation to be groped would then be ......
decided to give it a pass..
vegetarian lifestyle is not what i want.. i desire more money and recognition in work so the progress with him is not recommended after a few days of consideration.
icant imagine the life in the long term... i cant even have a decent meal with him let alone my family n him, there is too much issues that are forseeable to be potential problems in future
best to concentrate on career and studies for the moment
men r all after one thing towards women after carefully obeserving thorughout the 20odd yrs of my life..
things that happen too suddenly aint too good in a way.
hongkong trip has indeed been memorable.. i grown to appreciate thingsin my own home ground which i would not have experienced otherwise in the other country
the air condition, living environment, quality of life, the laughter and joy that i have , hearing the birds chirping beside my window in the morning.. the tachi from the community centre as wellas the morning express in class 95.
things which i have taken for granted in daily life has dawned on me in another shade of light of perspective.
in another 2 yrs time , it would be another round of test to test on my immediate reaction to sudden scenarios. the flexible and fast service recovery would be a test of capability to pacify the "impossible people " to say yes, smile and walk out of the bb centre meeting room
till then.. have to continue to slog everyday for maximum results.0427

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XXX is someone who i really detest in ubi becaouse of her obnoxious attitude. she tink she fucking gd n she can just say anyting she want to demoralise my morale,, 孙伟玲 not so easily defeated n bullied by a small fry like her. i have awards to back up my capability as the top referral for coporate sales.. i dun give a shit abt her
要报仇， 时日可待
我必须步步为营，真的要小心这种人
actually i jsut no need to talk much to her.. a piece of shit
i m nt a pushover either,i m just tolerating her n her straightforwardness only
she hint to me tat certain things i do so often but ca be complacent, after i hear tis sentence,, i feel instantly offended
maybe they .. e ubians havent seen my true colors as well . on how nasty n hostile i can behave. but its a matter of choice whether i want to behave like that. its no point behaving like that as colleagues .i can jolly well refer business to other colleagues. in fact i was quite calm. i walked away my face still smilling but i was boiling inside.n i even suan her back. next time i go on leave n ask the relief to cover fo me since shes so " good n efficient " she even lecture on abt the fitness survive theory.i tink tats becoz she really dunno me well yet.. i can be equally be nasty n hostile .no worries . .i met a lot of such person. know how to handle such a bitch.when i know everything including all the sai kang.. then its e time i show my true colors when i dun need her help
if i had hold my tongue n walk away i might have just snap back at her today.tat is usualy my style. bu t ididnt want to stir tings up so i choose to laugh a bit n walk away
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Back frm Hongkong 3/7/08 - 7/7/08 9/7/08 0012 hrs

i have to get this off my chest quickly to illustrate the joys and agony of travelling with people whom i know n people whom i just met.
Day 1
touch down in hk at abt 2.15pm met a nice couple. panda & meiyan... e guy's name is yue quan which i always cant remember well..
meiyan is a nice n simple contented person who clicks well with the both of us. the only drawback is his panda, not so sporty. lacks stamina but a great guy who dotes on his wife . similar trait is .. hes a also an accomodating person in a group
jordan,mongkok,ladies market.flower market,temple st, xu liu shan
day 2
tsim sha tsui ,repulse bay beach,sakae sushi.espirt outlet. g2000
day 3
the peak, central-- 1 hr
Day 4
wang tai xin, causeway bay- hancock , kfc,
rainy day
day 5
macau.back to hotel to rest.. giodarno @ mongkok
day 6- rainy day
mongkok. had a haircut.. last min shopping ...

today when i went back to office.. i m exhausted. took a cab this morning

one thing i realize .. hongkong is a nice superb place for nice bargains, shopping n some nite scene .. but to stay there in long term is a pain.. i hate rude people. hk ppl r so obsessed with making $ n stay in a highly stressful environment.
the theory = no $ no talk// no sense of belonging.. n the service they render is just service for the sake of transactional purpose
macau noisiest foodcourt i 've eaten in my entire 25yrs in history
espirt warehouse was so much madness , we almost went crazt grabbing for about 1.5hrs stay in the factory outlet
tst.. wow place for branded
causeway- cinema reminds me of the cathay. they are so contraint for space even the small corners can squeeze out a toilet
home is the best
nice n compliant. prim n proper
free n easy tour is adventurous trying out new food, new places ,new people we meet
a lot of little quarrels along the trip, focus on our objectives n we are happy

back to office today- the aloof attitude cool n composed. met linus goh the big boss of our team.. emb 1.. Aquistion team for new corporate business.. loans n trade services
lion dance .. gala opening to be firm up on fri 25/7/08// so exciting
although there was enough damage to pay off the debts next month .. its worth the effort spent..
have to give it my best shot at work....
BE MY BEST!
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