Countdown.. PH next week

On this night 31072012 in my little room.. i decided to write after reviewing my past entries accumulation since 2005... thats 7 long years of my journey and my memories. Past events from 22-29..... Single jog hopping.. hop bf..lover. partying.. lousy men. jobs. miserable w sch results,bla bla.. YR 2013 30... 29.9.13 Sign on dotted line.. Upgrade Ms Sng to Mrs Wang Eng Pheng.. 31...32..many many yrs.... to be updated.. in my marriage life complaining series.. 2011 was a big jump of commitments.. Finish degree. complete assig. exams 2012 is rosy.. while not for first quarter.. find job. Second half focus on complexion, weight loss. get settled with GE. Yes CSO is a challenging role but to able to help ppl when they need help most lost of loved ones.. painful memories.. money relief.. is meangingful kinda happy with the colleagues now.. hope this would be long term career for me or to internally hope within organisation... Did a wedding online blog..http://pandanporkie.perfectweddings.sg/wedding-story/ well lots to go.. wat to do customary chinese wedding if only we can just sign on the dotted line . have a simple buffet. renovate the house .. buy furniture n shift in.. wishful thinking... 2309hrs.. at my little table little hill house..

Py's wedding over ..Kluang,,,

To summarise the first quarter of 2012, finally found some purpose in my career. tried direct sales after completing my part time studies.. Problems encountered in 2012 sick of DP CS role initially Found Reed Elsevier.. Eguide as a account manager but realise I m not pushy enough as a direct sales. After 3 weeks found a CSO role with Great Eastern Life.. One big round and viola back to financial institution, this time poorer arm of the Bank cousin.. Mother co of OCBC. The culture is similar to OCBC, systems and people managing. Thoughts after 1 month in the call centre compared to Citi, DP and OCBC SA Role GEL more work life balance. slightly higher pay but not the best. Nice colleagues so far within the same floor.. Supportive bosses as I can tell as of current. Quite a stable environment, proven with many working mothers. Cons. Difficult to take leave. MC and AL is controlled tightly with min manpower. Younger colleagues tend to have higher turnover rate. After a week of gorging, its time to revert back to reality. Back to the call centre, this time picking up independently.. Upcoming goals.. Still struggling with weight issues Action Plan, increasing intensity, motivation to go Amore for classes to tone up Counting down to Dec 2012 -> Get GEL confirmation Jan 2013 - May 2013 -> Secure AL for days to settle with studio Finalise wedding vendors to work with April- May 2013 -> Settle bridal photo taking June - Sept 2013 - > Intensive Planning ( u name it.. all the small little tasks which may not b my forte, but still has to be done eventually.. ) RSVP Guest List 25- 32 tables. approximately 250- 300 guests Objectives to achieve From what i view as a 3rd party perspective being jie mei for 2011 n 2012 appro 4 frens n beyond.. Marriage to me after attending X no of weddings so far.. is like going through the motion on that day, and the real deal starts when you start it rolling after the wedding night and beyond.... Try to strike balance of $, ambience and key things Quality Pics Memorable Event Funny video to remember Fun moments with Jie Meis Value for $ vendors Mutual blessings and happy event with the future Wangs Family Oct 2013 - Dec 2014 period To pend for Parkview to be completed Finalise a theme Source for Contractors Get quality furniture lowest cost Shift in with Panda to start a new section of life.. Timeline 2015 & beyond.. Plan C... Children by 35... hopefully second one latest by 36.. fulfil Pig mother n piglet theme.. by then... So much of planning.. by 2018... i wonder how much has these above been achieved.. at the cost evaluated.

24 June 2012 ... another jie mei into ren qi club. was a long day but hapi n fulfiling..

一辈子的含义

一辈子的含义意义很沉重，包含了担当，责任和守在的承诺。。
有了担当 让人要更坚强和朴实。。婚姻建立的共同信念， 患难与共应该就是着这个定义。
担当让人顿时逐渐成长， 对另一个人的坚持和期待。。
我做了确定， 为我规划的人生充满憧憬。离开现任的状况， 无论会成。 我会依然接受。。

矢志不渝

一段矢志不渝的感情总需要面对多多波折和考验。可成事必经历千辛万苦。结了婚待多了解维系微妙的夫妻和婆媳关系！
With the dilution of the 80s and below getting married n now facebook is flooded with warm family and baby and children pics. It s no wonder in 5 years time the next patch of the 90s would soon have the next patch of proposal ring pics , boyfriend , galfriend travel pics and so forth.
I read n borrowed some book on how to communicate and embrace differences in partners n in time point in time i reckon like me with people like Panda who are more amicable and yet analytical would have to rough out certain issues to smoothen conflicts.
Merrill-Wilson
The profiles of the Merrill-Wilson system overlap closely with the Personality Plus system:
Driver: Choleric
Analytical: Melancholy
Expressive: Sanguine
Amiable: Phlegmatic

I pluck off my proposal ring today and question myself if i make the right decision to agree to get married.

while waiting for our house to be ready we decide to get married in Q3 2013 before the house instead of after renovation as it would delay 2 years. Our quarrel was on staying separately for about 6 months because his family has poor hygiene habits.This issue then become a bugging issue as my parent believe i should accommodate as the future da shao. I am the youngest so through this preparation got to train myself to switch my mindset to achieve a harmony equilibrium. For some lame reason we argue in the car, I dunno wat came into me today. I pluck off my proposal & return back to Panda..
N shortly while Panda was driving he broke into sobs.. n was truly heart broken.. I was beri guilty but didnt like the fact that he was also yelling at me for missing out my bro 's car while following them to Mt Vernon to pray to my mum.
And while i took off my ring today didnt expect Panda to be so sad. But recalling the few moments. I didnt expect myself to react equally violently as well today. Its the result of other people who has that control obsession..
a total of 8 cockroaches killed. After this weekend i m constantly questioning myself if i have the capacity to really accommodate to such differences in our personal hygiene values. The wedding prep is really giving me a toil and there were times i want to walk out of his house. Today I kill a cockroach when i saw it walk pass me at the kitchen wall. bread was exposed and a lot of food items were left unattended. Even after the cockroach posion was spread, Md Bong stil did not bother to clear off the carcass. it seriously dawned upon me what were her values.

Must have been the day i yell at panda for the worst and good reason

After much contemplation.. cleaned the sty w good dettol mr muscle and all the essential cleaning tools..
I yell at him reason being army of cockroach clan..
well i guess it was good coz i could not longer contain my wrath and fear
indeed Panda proved me wrong. He solved my fears
We bought cockroach poison and despite me throwing my tanturms... Panda equally as scared of cockroach decide to clear up the mess and calm the Pork down..

leap yr 2012Feb 29

Should i take the papers . should i bravely take the step to break from a basic pay n walk towards a recurring income...hiak hiak

事事得成 得遇贵人 若问前程 终久相逢 远望行人..解签
可作老来翁行人可口笑向西又向东柳簌笑春风

Before my interview for Power seraya

Still 2 hours before my visit with Sam, my VP i m meeting for my round 3 interview.
was still saddened that my iphone4 is lost when i drop it along the roadside when Panda drop me off after i kiss him. what a memorable V day to end it off.
Its been a ride. preparing for round 1 with HR. round 2 sales pitch & now
havent been focusing in DP for the daily follow ups & sales calls.in short i lost my passion for Senior RE there.

Dad's zz walking syndrome has been worsening. he zz walk last fri & tried to hit bro2 by doing zombie stunt. will bring him to the doc at 2pm later.. n i hope my interview would be smooth to impress sam san with my " drive"

1st post in 2012

7 years since my last blog. to recap 2011.. it was a busy year with studies assignment. juggling with work and examinations.

2011 has just ended 50 mins ago. It was a year which I witness a few of my good frens settling down and having their house ready. Also for me personally, panda n i committed to a matrimonial asset followed by a little diamond ring from him. Also in 2011 I had my promotion and my share of agony at work. come 2012, hopefully I would be happier in my job and find a nicer boss with better pay and environment.
to end the 2011, i was happy to be the jie mei of my friends, completed my part time studies with Kaplan, committed with more disciplined savings to see it grow. Towards the end of the year Oct, also started a jogging regime with Panda at Bedok reservoir my haunt for morning jogs.This year also marks a year staying in Pasir Ris, waking up earlier and used to the longer ride back home from town. Things seem to be flowing somewhat the way I planned .come 2012, the emphasis would be on career, switch from the entry level to some thing specialised. More time to spend with lau pei as he shows signs of ageing and dementia when he deciphers things more slowly.
and since next year would be my wedding year.. i hope to spend more time with my family and my dad while i m still staying in Pasir Ris.. while i got time lim kopi with dad..n try to acc him as often as i could.
also if i got pay rise in my next job. hope can give him more pocket $$$ and also save more $$ to build on my house.

this should be the most stressful 1 month since my last assignment

last 2 assignments due Nov 4 2011 SMPP2 --> Zouk Singapore

Due Nov 11 2011 IMC 2-- > Citibank

SMPP Reflection Paper --> last last assig.


going nuts soon with all these research....

NOV 19 2011 --> pls come soon as well as dec 17 the results.... to determine if i can job hop

29/9/2013 Thurs

2 yrs from this date would be panda & my 大喜之日.. Hehehe
Wonder by then maybe Maureen, py, Ms Heng may have junior by then hahahha

Its quite a funny thought of the projected budget to allocate and the endless list of task just to get 1 big task done.

Today I take bus 81 frm loyang to kovan.. In future as a hougang
Nang I would just need walk 10 min to hougang mrt to take train to town n instead of 45-75 min should take half e $ & time..

This weekend is a wedding weekend ahead sat& sun!!!

Finished project brief 1 already Heng ah.. Find tat Jane quite bossy n I kinda snap at her last nite.

So looking forward to weekend today's monthly meeting & if possible feel like take mc tml extended weened..

done with media budgeting

really hate to do budgeting..
pissed today.

process of planning a wedding

0112hrs... 24 months to wedding with Panda..29.9.2013.. 20kg to lose
current weight : 70kg lost about 3 kg over about the past month or so..
cutting back on snacks..trying hard to lesser rice during dinner and less fried food for a start.. lesser fastfood.. no stress eating sweet drinks.. hopefully stress w make me slimer.. after which next big ticket item is to confirm wedding venue..
Peony Jade
Miramar Hotel Peach Garden
Furama river front..
Hotel Park Royal
Budget $1k per table..max 20 tables.. 200 guests..list of tasks can all this be fulfiled by june 30 2012 to look back..wat a list of things fulfiled in 24 months..

For a 24mth schedule.. i agree i been thinking ahead too far.. more immediate goals..complete swinburne's final 2 units SMPP N IMC..

Find another stable career after CNY 2012..secure bonus DP2011

List of scheduled tasks
deadline 30sept 2011 IMC project brief 1
Dealine 14 Oct 2011 IMC project brief 2
Major assig deadline IMC deadline 11 Nov 2011.

Complete IMC exam on Nov 19 2011

Await results on Dec 17 2011 8am..

SMPP non exam.. case study 1
major assign
reflection reportSMPP

Oct 1 Jane& Kee's wedding

Oct 2 Hui shan &pei wei 's wedding

Dec 3 2011 DP D&D nite..

NoV 24 2011 Suyi's wedding

Dec 132011 Sinyi's wedding

Jan 14 2012 Maureen's wedding

Timeline aft cny.. during cny period to compare rates..

June 2012 30 hopefully to finalise the venue...n $3k deposit paid..

July 15 2012 Vivien's wedding

Mar 2013 - Jun 2013 to start preparing on the targeted task to prepare for big day
hopefully target weight to reach 55-60kg by then...

Task of check list to complete the small task

May 2013 to have task to complete bridal pics from La belle..

Jun 2013- Sept- 2013 hopefully has reached 50kg...

Panda's Bing li-->14.9.2013 Sat 8am sharp to deliver the bing li 10th day Aug lunar calendar.. important note.. both parties to not b present.. panda to send a representative
BIG DAY---> 29.9.2013 SUn 25th lunar Aug wedding date 25th day Aug lunar.. important no dragon jie mei xiong di..pregnant jie mei not to be jie mei..
bro3, moi jan to siam abit as well as hao hao.. dragons to lim kopi for the ceremony.. to check with Dannywhen the date draws near..

0140hrs.... time to watch ppstv.. letv on iphone..

qw

Strategic business research pending grade..
Service marketing.. pending.. released by 17092011.. another 5 hrs of waiting..
my stomach is growling.. n i m telling my brain that although i am 80% unreplenished for supper earlier @ G7 frog porridge store at lor 3 geylang..
A few milestone since my last updates.
6 months since 31 Mar.. today's 17 Sept 2011.. i am just so close to completion my marketing degree which i been harping for since 2003.. 8 yrs.. just 2 months away from it.. n every day continues to be a challenge to juggle so many things happening in my life now..so far grades was fine.. for the past 4 units.. which was halfway past. i remember i was so scared that i would fail n waste my $2996 course fee on 3 months ago..
today i face the same type of feat although i bear a certain confidence in myself..
updates since mar.. promoted to senior RE in DP group.. holding on to top tier package plan for platinum,telco & casino port for both macau,aust & sg..
cover the maternity lady and manage to juggle sch work fairly well.. decent grades.
fixed my wedding date to be 29 September 2013 which is about 24 months from today..
got my proposal ring from Panda bui bui in July 2011..
2011 & 2012 I will see my jie mei men all getting hitched while I remain still "single" while the rest become Mrs XXXXXX... n plus i get to collect 2 more years of ang bao and enjoy being served at home with soup...
the next task is to quality the guest list RSVP.. my least favourite task of wedding planning..
Now that the guan yin has given the theme of low profile wedding. its good for me as both Panda & i have a tight budget... everything item is a cost and sunk expenses. the process of planning this lifetime event is stressful .exciting and mentally, financially draining & fascinating..
From a young gal to a wife.. would be the my next transition stage n as much as i detest this change, it is like the natural process for a belonging and another identity to our relationship from stranger to man & wife
try as i might, the idea of setting up a family n home is so foriegn n things are as bleary and the route ahead is just so blurry with no clear direction.
With the help of modern technology like singapore brides reviews , we seen more testimonials and experiences of other people going through this route and here i m now hating the mafan part but also proud that i make this very decision to settle down with someone i know is worth all this while.
Both Panda & I signed the agreement lease to our very own matrimonial asset. A 112 sq ft in Parkview and it would be my home in 2014. Yes forsee more bickers, quarrels, disagreements, fights and arguments. which couple doesnt quarrel.. n it would also be home to our kids . little panda n pork chop juniors.
N i got to leave the radar screen of chwee poh and my hounding bossy brothers who boss their kid sister around.
I would make use of this time to self practise my profound existing EQ skills to collaborate well with Panda as well as to build strong bonding with my future mother and bro in law who i call them my family in existing to my own clan.
Things which i know my weakness needs to be brushen up like stubbornness. wilfulness and ego which need to be further refined. n my ability to see things more broadbased and more tolerance to dumb nosy n insensitive ppl are some areas of concern in terms of my style of communication.
after all we are all but different n would need to learn to live together in harmony till we part. n this is part of the vow signed for aint it. N this is the ties which all couples commonly share to build a family, in the name of love, while love aint tat enough. n how to fall in love with the same bui kia over n over again.. lovey doey doesnt last a life time.. having common goals does n the level of commitment should not have the law of diminishing return.. hahah as wat i remember wat my econs lecturer quoted. love should b enduring, n it should stand periods of down sides for the good & bad times. n with this in mind, builds a strong foundation for a loving cultured family.

Amidst the wedding plan and the process, on this very day i tend to miss my late mum .. hw did i get pass this 17 yrs with my years of schooling.. my fears, my anxiety and my worries.

n 26 nov 2009.. we shared our love and it is blossomed till current with all our little housing commitments and planning going on . I wish sometimes I had more of mum's past memories n its a shame on how little memories i could rely on. Mum was a jovial lady who is always friendly and generous with the ppl she met, n she had a gd network. I must have been truly blessed to inherit her sales genes and manage with my "hao suang" character to land up with Panda..
In 2 yrs time, my salutation would be revised n my late nite drinking sessions with my lim qiu khaki would then revise to late nite feeding sessions.. Its horrifying, dictative and directives to be virtuous, caring and supportive role of what wives ought to be. Perhaps its time to revise the ruling that since now women could bring bread on the table, isnt it also fair to raise standards for modern, contemporary husbands, new age penguin dads to behave, and contribute their fair share to the home which would make wives' task less daunting, routine and manipulative as to the term of supermums termed as..
Men should also exercise some efforts and care to ensure the marriage works for both with constructive feedback , actions plans to be carried out consistently to maintain a healthy, loving relationship as Man n wife.
n concurrently, a almost finished degree, a rewarding career with lotsa $, a healthy body to procreate n produce kids , juniors, a systematic plan to carry out and follow up on for a happy, simple and unforgetable low profile wedding. next would be a cozy home with reasonable furnishing and renovation, accompanying a cute little car to carry all the Panda family in a lovely home in Hougang... a place i call it home ...
its perhaps rather simplistics.. n the short medium goals is to lose 15-20kg by May 2013.. n perhaps 10kg by 2012 Dec n hopefully by my 29th birthday i m halfway complete with it.. n before my 30th birthday.. i m a proud wife n bride to be 2013...

Rampant spree in watson.. sasha n 2 nites of jap food.

Its been a month since i last wrote.. been busy rushing.. rushing.. and more rushing everyday.. day in and out.. just settled in 1 hr ago.. with about 1 hr travelling from bugis to tampines n then loyang ave.
good news is I been promoted.. to senior .. within 1 year and 4 months with DPI..
next best months for the month of April.. bonus month..
and following come would be increment..

Tml auntie may is going for surgery

tml is Auntie May's surgery
i suppose. shes worried. n i m afraid if we can cope well too without Auntie Vk in the house helping out. another week for week 1 for product management n market research methods starts again,
Panda applied for bto again. tis time in sengkang fernvale flora or fernvale garden, so high chance that I may be neighbours with Mdm Lim.

We had a fruitful fb conversation catch up during my exam week. seems like ages since i catch up with her.

Well i m still a little angry that ppl ask me how much iearn for a living which is sensitive.
CIMB is hiring.. well if i finish the degree. maybe its worth the hop.

成功的人生十句話

第一句："人都是逼出來的"。

每個人都是有潛能的，生於安樂，死於憂患，所以，當面對壓力的時候，不要焦燥，也許這只是生活對你的一點小考驗，相信自己，一切都能處理好，逼急了好漢可以上梁山，時世造英雄，窮則變，變則靈，人有了壓力才會有動力。





第二句："如果你簡單，這個世界就對你簡單"。

簡單生活才能幸福生活，人要知足常樂，寬容大度，什麼事情都不能想繁雜，心靈的負荷重了，就會怨天尤人。要定期的對記憶進行一次刪除，把不愉快的人和事從記憶中擯棄，人生苦短，財富地位都是附加的，生不帶來死不帶去，簡簡單單的生活就是快快樂樂的生活。





第三句："人生沒有彩排，每一天都是現場直播"。

偶爾會想，如果人生真如一場電子遊戲，玩壞了可以選擇重來，生活會變成什麼樣子？正因為時光流逝一去不復返，每一天都不可追回，所以更要珍惜每一寸光陰，孝敬父母、疼愛孩子、體貼愛人、善待朋友。





第四句："懷才就像懷孕，時間久了會讓人看出來"。

人，切莫自以為是，地球離開了誰都會轉，古往今來，恃才傲物的人都沒有好下場。所以，即便再能幹，也一定要保持謙虛謹慎，做好自己的事情，是金子總會發光。





第五句："過去酒逢知己千杯少，現在酒逢千杯知己少"。

不勝酒力，體會不了酒的美味，但卻能感受知己的妙處。沒有朋友的人生是孤獨的，不完整的，可是，因為生活的忙碌，漸漸少了聯絡，友誼就變的淡了，所以，抽點時間，聯絡朋友一起聊聊天，讓情誼在笑聲中升騰，當朋友遇到了難題的時候，一定要記得挺身而出，即便幫不了忙，安慰也是最大的支持。





第六句："人生如果錯了方向，停止就是進步"。

人，總是很難改正自己的缺點，人，也總是很難發現自己的錯誤，有時，明知錯了，卻欲罷不能，一錯再錯，把握正確的方向，堅守自己的原則，世界上的誘惑很多，天上永遠不會掉餡餅，不要因為貪圖一時的快樂而付出慘痛的代價，如果發現錯了，一定要止步。





第七句："人生兩大悲劇：一是萬念俱灰，一是躊躇滿志"。

現代的人好像特別脆弱，報紙上天天報導眾多名人得抑鬱症，這些人一定是從一個極端走向別一個極端。正因為躊躇滿志，才堅信自己是完美的，是無所不能的，如果受到一點挫折，就會變得極度自卑，甚至失去繼續生活的勇氣。為自己找一個準確的定位，享受生活樂趣。





第八句："人生和愛情一樣，錯過了愛情就錯過了人生"。

愛情是什麼？讓人無所適從，讓人神魂顛倒，面對愛情的時候，勇敢一點，大膽說出自己的愛。人，總會生老病死，怎麼過都是一生，錯過了愛情就錯過了生命的精彩。





第九句："天下有錢人終成眷屬"。

現代社會的人變得越來越勢利，愛情也越來越無足輕重，於是我不得不相信"天下有錢人終成眷屬"就對現代愛情的最確切的描述。





第十句："要成功，需要朋友，要取得巨大的成功，需要敵人"。

有競爭才有發展，因為有了敵人的存在，因為有了不服輸的決心，才會努力的做好自己的事，所以，有時候，敵人比朋友的力量更大，天下沒有永遠的敵人，卻有永遠的朋友，有些時候，敵人也可以變成朋友。

actually wanting to settle n the process of settling can be so frustrating

at times. i wonder . its frustrating to find someone worth settling down n when i do come across. it seems that there are so many obstacles to do it too.
Tat old woman gives me some dirty look. ask me sensitive questions like hw much i earn every month which i tink is equally insensitive. my own dad dun even ask me how much i earn.
so i been thinking
do i want to get married becoz i tink i should
hes the right one.
or i just need a house
or its just the age
had tis suggestion from a fren that perhaps i should just share a house with dad.. to act as a backup plan . stop those ppl frm eyeing old man's assets.
well all these acts as catalyst or its the underlying reasons or the norm of a lady whos approaching 30 in 2 yrs..

just nw dad n bro argue over the fact that my niece was taking her own sweet time to prepare for art class due at 3.45pm where shes still in the bathroom combing hair at 3.30pm. there was an earlier debate with dad n bro.. well common. 2 astro clashes.

before i knew it. i just hide int he kitchen with the maid.. auntie vk n focus on frying batang fishes.

if marriage is such a complex issue between 2 famiies. then i should nt just go for the diamond and forsake my own happiness.
issit really worth it for a family.
i really doubt so now.
i wonder if hes the kind that i can entrust myself with or he would just continue to be a tyrant n side with his mum no matter wat happens.