Saturday, June 02, 2007

sober @ 6 in the morning

last nite @ cini ktv was like a roller coaster ride

i cried like free n made everyone worried

i was drunk

but i could still make it home

without anyone sendind me up

however i puke like free flow oso

now my throat is like tastless n dry

my jaws hurts a lot now coz in order to wake myself up i slap myself really hard . several times i slap myself but i didnt have any feel or any pain

dunno y i self torture myself like this

its like a complete fool

i completely lost myself in rational thinking

n started to sob half way nonstop when i was drunk

which i guess tat was my true self... tat i was truly veri sad over the past few events which happened recently

e ending was like no one had seen me like this before

i was never so depressed openly before

i caused a lot of inconvenience for e working staff there n oso to my colleagues

it was just incontrollable.. n it was great venting off some negative feelings but in a veri stressful manner

tinking back i tink it was rather embarassing act

have to avoid cinileisure for a while

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