staying focused for maximum results

earlier on sat morning was a pedicure session with my sister in law @ blink blink
was happy with the treatment i had for enduring difficult n nonsense clients during this week
last nite was a chain of social events, having dinner @ crystal jade with tb ,
met up with tb n nelly n viv @ lunar bar for a couple of drinks, as well as listening to some of the songs. bar hopping to rumours tis bar which viv's bro works there
conclusion would be
i would stop clubing/ pubing @ canto bar , it would be my first n last time there, because it was horrendous. the songs , ambience n crowd, totally disastrous , infested with many china chicks hooking up potential customers
e rich e slightly plump n touchy men
i guess he is nt the one either , decided that for my exam preparation this year i will be totally commited to it , no more other distractions to affect. that includes being in the pink of health , staying cool n balanced in my diet, emotions n accuracy , neatness to ensure everyting goes all fine for all 3 units, come may 8,16 & may 30 it would mark the total freedom in academic year 2008
today the n tb n viv came along my place for revision , i finally muster all efforts to at least pack my room n arrange my notes in order so as to make sure there is enough space for 3 ppl in my cozy little bedroom,
we eshop in the screen, browsing lv, gucci, as tis will pose as a greatest source of motivation to ensure good grades so we can satisfy our material needs
my spoted buy. palermo gm series.. to be taken after VB.. nextweekend
we went to ntuc to shop for some snacks , nongsin ( korean maggi mee was my dinner )some simple indulgences like keno bueno, potato chips , hello panda to make our day
nevertheless our study group session was quite entertaining while my bestie try to dig out some of my latest gossip in my love life
anyway currently , i dun c the need for relationship , maybe i personally find it exhausting to maintain one or perhaps i m so happy with singlehood that i dun mind , in order nt to let e other party be leaded , i decide to make it clear
v was so nt focused n keep commenting shes sick of her lifestyle n i had to nag her to make her wake up n realize that hey tis is your final semester already, pass e final 4 units n you've able to make a difference in your life, giving up now equates to all efforts for e past 3 yrs all down to the drain
well i hope this helps her in her focus, being her bestie for the past decade has enabled us to develop a certain affinity to bond with each n care for each other
afterall frens r for life,we want each other to excel in life mentally as well as academically so that when we grow all gray n toothless, we dun live to regret for e undone things left unfinished.
anway my social life is all filled up now, n its with much honour that once in a lifetime you have one such buddy who you can always count on
die with no regrets oso
i got ready my set of coporate wear ready to c my potential new business head
tml would be new start , i havent been wearing coporate wear for the past 2 yrs or so, having said so , unplucking n starting fresh anew in another department n br would be a great start , acquiring new experiences to further enhance my career in the portfolio
with a strong determined mindset all set to succeed , this will embark me in another chapter to start again
how i wonder another 5-10yrs from now , would i be a high flying manageress in the near future upon completion of UOL , tis is yet another question mark
after meeting with my former sm, sitting in her comforable mini cooper, so envious of her lifestyle
may- exams to clear
june- reportin g with business banking
july- e long anticipated hongkong trip

2 yrs is indeed a long n difficult journey coming along , having to be coping on your own in work n studies, in another 2 yrs this tough route of having to juggle work n uni would be soon over, n i hope by then i can afford all my material needs , possible a little car , a nice apartment of my own , maybe a family perhaps if i m lucky enough
i tink j has definitely moved on well enough, hes too self contained in his little world n i tink he s stil l a little chubby ass whos well comfortable in his comfort zone
n i believe i should live for myself as well , expanding my little own social circle
since last sept , its been a long process , trying to regain my own confidence of myself, slimming down , knowing new frens , dating with other men to c how it goes, but unfortunately there is no " e one" yet but i m yet so happy though
the ideal of 50kgis so near yet so far, with the build up gradual effort hopefully before i turn 25 this year , i would emerge a new me, a slimer n more well rounder person , packed with all those wisdom n intelligence that a young aspiring executive should possess
how i recall the last time i relief in BP branch when e csm commented that i was all so listless in br that i lost all the shine , the vitality m the energy that a young lady like me should have,
i m determined that i will get it all back, n i should do this for myself , that i should nt let myself down , all the $ , effort invested since then should have returns generated twice or many times the amount for the opportunity cost s that i have exchanged for return for a more colorful n glamourous "future"
tonite i seem to have a lot of thoughts running thorough my brain, as i really started to think for myself for a start,
n lately i been receiving more compliments frm my old frens when i go gathering, from my regular clients , oh well, sam u definitely look better now, n my colleagues sense the new me, more cheerful, energetic, refreshing after i chop off that haggard long hair of mine, n clients joke n flirt with me more
having seen the results shown n proven, i can wear those old clothes i couldnt squeeze in before,
e yoga stretches is amazing n my consistency in keeping away with those junkies, i know i can do it n i can be better than before
n for j its his loss
proven as a real life example from fat to flab, c is also starting to exercise n i m a great source of motivation to him as well n he oso exchange some pointers to me . like some cherry tomato meal
to act as some healthy meal enchancement to curb the hunger pangs
its a type of mixed emotion when u know leaving some place is gd for your own career development but yet you will miss those co workes who have been working hard side by side with you for all the challenges spent together so far
i had tis male colleague which in my previous entry that we had a huge quarrel n i was so angry that i slam the meeting room n the knob came out n we had to as k some technican to fix the door ,
n after 1yrs coming to 2, we r quite on close terms , we even intended to go for outings with the rest of the sales team
i tink it is a fate that i should treasure n cherish that people who go in n out of your life does leave some mark n memory n some of their gd values that we should learn from
i m nt usualy an emotional person , well i do shed some tears occasionally when it comes for it.
its a kind of reaction to certain circumstances , a kind of release that should occur,
for someone chatty n talkative like me, i do resort to extreme meaures to stay in equlibrium
like forcing my self to entertain n click with e societal elites in my customer base
n when i go back my little room , sulk n imerse my self in solitude n reflect properly so that tomorrow would always be fresh n new
front line can be interesting , it could also be a disaster my primary nature is still quite receptive to strangers but once in a while if i can have someone who can entertain me n make my day , i would jolly welcome that
the serenity of the nite , with the combined soft music playing in the background by yiruma , kiss the rain is certainly a gd companion to cleanse the mind , coz its quite a sad song but veri touching
u cant stop yourself from the bad events that will occur , but you can protect yourself safely from forseen outcomes n i know no matter what happens i can always brave through it
recently i watched the 3 kindgom , n andy lau 's character, zhao zhi long is one strong person who has in history never lost any battles n although e ending in real history was he died of old age, this story on theatre depicts that he stood strongly in his values to wait for reinforcement with cao ying , cao cao's grand daughter , hes truly a warrior who is fearless against his oponents. n despite the harsh conditions , he maage to emerge a champion
guan yu - righteous man, zhangfei a loyal brother
zhukeliang, a smart n intelligent advisor for tactis in war management, a commander that does not be present in war but yet know the exact sequence that the predicament or rather the outcome that the battle would be in
hopefuly i could also be like zhukeliang , always clear in my goals n strategizing the possible resources for optimum results
i dunno but for some reason when i manage to pen down all these i can have a sense of relief running through that i have not wasted today. that i m truly happy that i have a bunch of friends always supporting whe n i m nt in my best shape n mind
when i m a boar , when i yell at them over the phone, when i throw my tantrums with them
that they truly appreciated my presence all these years
the part which i created a positive impact to c, he just sent me an sms thanking me about that . as a fren i tink i have helped his initial progression to improve on himself for himself . it is good , i m glad for him
a young boy lost in his own little world , unable to unpluck himself from the past
he deserves a better someone , but first he has to do somethings in order to freed himself from all the negative feelings in order to be happier