Saturday, May 03, 2008

030508 lazy afternoon

dunno wats with me these days . my patience is limited maybe the weather is too hot
had a row with dad.thrash out some things with him
had a longchat with tb over e phone
my lau pei n i had a sort of heated argument in the morning earlier today. e main topic is he locked e main door again. haiz n i sort of talked back at him telling him i m a human n not an animal.. he can lock all he wants
he always can only do that. so he was so mad that he smashed an ash tray luckily my door was closed so the damage was minimised n i just yell back. .well u always know how to smash stuff n in the end i m the one whos replacing it thats it. after u smashed my bed , i had to use my own $ to fix this damn shit . sibei hot today.. my mood super lousy
think abt it. i been quite a model daughter . acc him to go ntuc for the groceries, buying him a hp last yr i got my gov bonus $ n i acc him to go out for lunch, go n shop for his watch , give him allowance to spend. n in then end still not happy
omg i m 25 not 15 . if he wants to latch the door . until i 30 or 40 still so it lah..
e weather has been very humid recently.. highest 34 degrees , lowest 26 so my mood is like the weather
even my pc was a bit cranky like my mood today

top 1 ktv .. wat a long fri nite . dinner with germ n e gang
ktv frm 1plus -5 today with Cline n lsb
afte sleeping @ 5 tis morning. seems zombie. had to sleep over @ lsb. dad latched e door again .
this time i confronted him . nt like me.
nap first for longer revision tonite

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i review these clip again. was the ending of the it all started with a kiss2. really touching scene of the family & zhi shu to xiang qin

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/7GVroFmr6sM/
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/KmUxro2PJGs/
i got news that bro worms intends to move back probabbly with the elephant family
its another round of headache for the family..

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lsb made my day.she knew that i was nt having a gd day so she pop by my place n buy me mac coffee.simple gesture to show she cares. haizz was so down today all by myself. eating tabao dinner at my study table n then suddenly i got a visitor in e house. dad should overnite @ bro 's place who will then send him to the airport tml. in the middle of the nite. i thought back over today's epsiode, was a little hot headed with dad.
n so we chatted abt ms chong. she as usual the happy go lucky dreamy gal who doesnt cares abt her future. chalking up unnecessary bills n expenses. there is only so much we can do for a fren. n eventually each to their own destiny ."ren zhi yi jin" if she wants to carry on to be a nuaster, we can only advise her to an extent n if shes doesnt heed our honest advice. we can only give up on her n let it be. its quite sad to know a fren u know to continue to deteriorate.
recently i had my fair share of those ai mei ppl ard me. time really flies its been almost 2 yrs that i got serious with anybody
i havent had those human touch for a long time i cant remember. sometimes its kinda comforting to hug someone u love or be wanted.those gone were the days where someone will be there for u when u need someone. n unfortunately i've been so guarded that i forgot about romance , another apspect of being human. too bad fate always had a strange way of communicating.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

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Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)[?]
The Bottom Line
Greet this day ready for action -- otherwise, it'll be tough to get revved up later.
In Detail
It's going to feel a little bit like a tough challenge, but you will have to get going as early as you possibly can today. Go for a morning job or brisk walk around the block. You need to greet this day ready for action -- otherwise, it could be very difficult for you to get revved up later in the day. Physical movement will not only keep you energized, but it will also help keep you feeling positive about where you are in life -- and positive about where you are going. its true.. my mood is better aft the jog
Summary of activities
earlier was little rascal. ming yao was so mischievous
wanted to catch a nap but was disturbed by bro worm n elephant
Dad's phone had some problems as well. bugging me to do the deactivation of barring to external calls, outgoing ones. i also have no idea how he manage to activate such function n so bro worm took the initative to call the call centre n while he try to figure out the phone, i also couldnt take it already since 2 of them . dad n bro were like a little kids trying to figure out hw to solve it. n as usual dad wont solve problem , will keep on harping n harping over the little details n end up in square one . so poor me was having such a nice nap n i had to unpluck myself frm my bed to fix things up
quite pissed off.. i hissed them off. get out. i will solve it n indeed i took the trouble to call the call centre again n i got it after the 2nd time i called in. before i left my house for jogging, nt forgetting to suan elephant. well what to do , my ph is spoilt , i cant nap at home peacefully so i got to get a jog , no choice
Just took a shower, walked n jogged a while earlier i the evening. feels gd.
fresh, today's dinner is just pocari sweat. simply eager to drop to another 3 kg to ideal.. 55kg..
then another 2 months left to 50kg.. hehhehe
feeling a bit guilty that i yell @ my family earlier , weather was so humid, volatile mood today as hot as the sun today,maybe tml i should make it up to dad . some breakfast with him , perhaps lim kopi or wat. coz hes a oso a bit moody that bro worm n elephant n her kids r so pestering. i would say labour day for me today had been a little spoilt . was expecting some private time for myself. tml morning early @ 6 i hope my neighbour;s baby would finish crying sooner so i can catch a gd sleep as well. fri blues.. for the fellow ppl who r working.hehe
meeting fun, germ. pig ping for dinner tml.. fun 's gonna fetch us frm js br.. so gd
i really got to thank for js 's headphone was so useful when i went joggin earlier some quiet moments while u brisk walk through the park. the river was so peaceful n so comforting . its as though it knows that you are having a bad day & consoling you quietly by ur side.saw a few hunks while joggin.. was motivated further.
self motivation. i really came a long way. drop from a 68kg to a 58kg n another 8 more kg.. nu li.. jia you.. HK trip.. more leng sum.. pretty clothes to select from
facial oso.. to freshen up my tired neglectedcomplexion as well

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its ph today finally, had lunch with lsb n jie mei.. @ ichiban boshi. some half udon n some sushi
bought my pilot G2 refills.
slowly sinking i the exam fever less than 7 days would be intro to econs. my most hated unit of all units taken in sch
jan is lying on my bed while im comfortably sitting on the study table . msn offline strictly out of bounds.wearing my comfy hello kitty pyjamas.. yeah n cao cao by my side. yeah..!!
UOL is raising standards , oh no getting difficult to ace the exams once again. the ppl that i know started part time with me have all graduateed , n here i m still slogging like some pathetic idiot.

Bonding nite.. kampung @ sembawang ava seafood centre with e CFS folks







it was a malek kampung nite theme. i chosed to wear my sports gear coz its the most comfortable out fit to attend this event
it was a nite of fun. n more excitement
day time was really super busy . people rushing in to do transaction n encashments. with the ers payout. tough day. e queue was ongong n there r a whole more weirdos today
but the 10 coursemeal was nice. starting with lobster salad, shark fin,n many other goodies.
nice to c serious ppl like manager loosening out, letting out the hair n perform on stage. performing sketches, singing n dancing.afterall today is ph eve time to let some wilderness out
e much awaited exam break is nw again.Orchard cluster rocks..!! we won the best cheerleading team among . east cluster, north, northeast, west n CBD
e grand champion goes to CBD cluster. if u observe theres tis whistle hanging on my neck , n i m among one the wild cheer leading team to cheer for the cluster.afte all slogging so hard all day the meal was worth coming for
the best table dressed was the one seated in front of my br.. from causeway pt all qing yi se dressed in pyjamas. dad is unusually nt home

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Ph eve. meeting rm 300408 1741hrs

once again all in a day's work. decided to write something before the coporate event. since e rest r still balancing their work.well , germ asked me a question which was quite funny, did i c any cute guys during her wedding . turns out that one of the best men was quite charming. i did notice him when i reached e reception that day. hes the best man. of the gang with the bridegroom. should be one of the bridegroom.

ehehe so germ called this " cousin " n he wanted to know me more as a fren as well .hehehe

but too bad now is exam period so i wont be entertaining any walk in dates

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

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Off day activities summary for 290408
amoy for the teochew fishball
Shopping @ brash basah , new watch for my dad a guess watch @ prestige n since i was buying for him. guess wat uncle jack , the boss gave me quite a gd discount so i tink was worth patronising his shop again. since i bought my chrono seiko from him last weekthe teochew fishball was yummy, bouncy n big . didnt regret making a trip just to go there n eat pop by europa . my first company shun bian bought some dougnuts @ bugis since i was going traffic police to do replacement for my driving license. it was good exercise just now.. must be more tanned since the sun was so strong today
i went to ubi cdc @ 5 to replace license then turn out is have to go traffic police n the instructor told me tp close at 5 .had to walk all the way there because there r simply no cabs on the street .. weather was like super hot for these few days. my top was so sticky n my heels actually give way after jogging for abt 15 mins, never m i going to lose my documents, really too much trouble to get it all fixed n done. i realize after 3-5 yrs of absence the little xiao mei mei that they know initally become a young exe when i pop by the studio just now. the design/ furnishing firm which I worked for 2 yrs there, even e cleaner auntie remembered me, i m so touched.. so many compliements . my head is getting bigger n lighter when i left.i had a 2hr lunch with joe n we catched up a bit since every time i go there is always quite rushed. tml should be going sentosa with the gang.. cfs group some teambuilding activities to be updated. since tml is a holiday eve, there should be the usual madness coporate customer crowd. i m lucky i m off today. my bro just sms me this morning n inform me abt the ERS which is crediting today.yipee i checked my acc through internet banking. YIPeee.. the ers $ is in.. woooo. shiok ah..shortlisted another bag again.between tivoli or galleria.. joe is going italy next week.. hehehe can ask him to buy for me yeah...coz i went to dfs on sun..when i carry palermo doesnt look nice as it does online when u look at it.gd day today..










Monday, April 28, 2008

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i only manage to sleep after 4.30.. after watching kiss 2 ( er zhou qu) touching ending.. xiang jin had this incurable eye disease which will slowly make her vision worse n worse n eventually she will be blind..this illness is herditary n will pass to the 2nd generation. zhi shu told her, he will never let her leave her . n will take care of her. n be her eyes.intially xiang jin thought that she will be a burden to her husband n the family
they were planning to have kids then n the jiang family was so supportive ,moderately sad ending so sad that this drama must end. the scenes were so touching , i ended up crying like a bitch infront of my computer. the whole family was like so worried for her that she tried to hide alone n feel sick because of her illness. n that the line was the family will never forsake her
xiang jin made a decision finally , no matter wat even if she had to live in darkness , she will still rely on zhi shu, sounds like an ideal scenario but in reality does this really happen
how can i ever meet such a man who can be like him. accept for who i m. be it the gd or bad, ugly or pretty. healthy or sick.

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its past 2am plus in the morning. e weather yesterday had been so humid n unbearably hot . should be due to the chinese tea n e spa tea ginger tea which i had altogether = insonmia
i was packing some stuff n i saw all the pics i had starting from my childhood pics , primary sch. teenager, poly days. first company with my colleagues. my current pics , those taken 5 yrs ago when i just started work n some of the gatherings i had with the various groups, colleagues, friends, family , ex bfs n the prom nite i had in 2003
brings back a lot of memories n its so precious. i m worried in another 40-50 yrs time i might forget about it..
frm the pimply ignorant brat.. to a smarter sensible lady. its been a new me. n different life stages gone thru from a mei mei to ppl i know becoming mother. wife n daughter in law
people on earth live day by day in search of a lot of wants n needs to fulfil their inner ego however some times they didnt stop to reflect or whether they can contribute back to society
i do feel something whenever i c pedlers on the street trying to earn a living by selling some tissues to fend for their own
n the caste of different levels in the society, people tend to compare against one another be it demographics, wealth, power , authority, status quo n so forth. so when i walk past those less prviliged group. in side u cant help by feel slighly more compassion
but then there is only so much u can do for them, i m nt the humanitarian group , however i can sense that this is going to be a difficult year for them
today will b a gd day

Sunday, April 27, 2008

germ 's wedding lunch @ marriot 270408 2200hrs






















i tink pictures speak a thousand words, n i m very happy that i was able to witness a gd fren /coworker/buddy n c her happily walking down the red carpet . pouring champagne, saying those veri touching speech especially to her parents, mother n frens ard her.
it was exceptionally moving, looking at the pics from the above, throughout my stay with the bank, i really got to know a lot of people who help me along, lend me a hand when i had a bad fall so i m truly grateful to them for all they had taught me.some of the colleagues i havent seen them for almost one yr plus. n plaster boss/patrick came back chengdu/ china especially to attend this function. n although he like to suan me. i oso know its for my own good, he shared his experience n i was able to gain a lot of new knowledge as well as techiques to talk to customers, to refer more sales n how to build a stronger crm- customer relationship. n although he used a harsh manner to force me to be meticulous, perfectionist n " ngiao" with my own work. n his tips were quite useful after i realize when he left my branch as my branch manager. hes oso doing well in china . serving the china premier group . setting up new sales team there n also developing his side of his career over there. i tink he has done enough for a mamasan or babysitter to this small gal like me. when i knew him as a manager i was only 23 then.. hw time really flies. n i was still in contact with my first boss who hired me abt 5years ago. when i was fresh from poly.. 19-25.. so many things happen within these 5 yrs
sometimes its really amazing n i m thankful for all the wonderful n good things happening to me , truly blessed
i hope my dad's sleeping disorder problem can improve. ialso wonder y is he stil talking in his sleep n nt able to relax. hes nt working.. happily retired n with wonderful grandchildren. fillal sons n daughter to him. sometimes i get a bit fedup sometimes wondering whats wrong with him n after seeking the doctor y he refuse to take the medication.. its been abt 14yrs since my mum passed away. it should be a time frame for him to get over the grieve , i dun understand y he still so worried abt brother worm. the useless firstborn who always bring trouble back home. which explains y .. i m nt in the right mind for any form of romance .. that part about men really turns me off. that byatch gf of my bro is simply thick skinned.such people who come with mess with my family n then no one is supportive of them n they continue to bug us like sunday.. i m totally disgusted by her lies n her clever deception. i dun tink she can really convince me to accept her . coz i find my ex sister in law totally too nice . n she juz some nobody to me . n i cant bring myself to entertain her especially on myoffdays when i have a choice nt to entertain people
started off by jogging with lsb coz recently i seem to be very much awake by 7.30am n in order to diffuse certain hyper energy in me i decide to vent the energy out
breakfast was as usual mc griddle thisweek again
after e wedding lunch. went true spa for a gd body rub / massage while jiao jiao did a foot spa. its super relaxing. n i sign up a 2yr package with them
another gd way of rewarding myself.. for e nonsense i put up with those nasty n unreasonable ppl during my work
exam leave will be coming.. from 1th may onwards. wat a load of shit coursework to go thru .haiz
looking forward to a gd holiday aft exam.. 30th may... yeah ^_^
once again i have proven myself that determination to complete a task can change someone..
e new sam . but the characte remains intact- e same old sam in a different shell
goals to achieve
pass UOL
Career projection..
Buy a car
Get a own apartment of my own
Get a man
$ really perks me up.. n the dream of being financially independent spurs me on to my new challenge in the new project which i m embarking on in july when e new branch is set up. it will be a sucess i believe , as the pionner team in ubi its gonna be a big bang..
kudos to my new team.. n i believe i can build this rapport with the new coporate clients, cross selling my coporate products n services equally as well as in mass banking
next coporate event is the teambuilding. malek kampung team on 30/4/08 , after that i can safely handover to jiao jiao n totally focus on exam preparation..
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Saturday, April 26, 2008

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its e morning after a late nite zouk outing. my throat feels dry. woke up at abt 7 plus despite collapsing in bed when i reach home ard 2.30am this morning.
there r really a lot of gorgeous babes n hunks out there. its a gd 2 yrs since i really went pubbing to unwind n "bio" nan ren
its amazing.. i mean.. its like a line of electric oozing through within u.. i call it e incredible magneto attraction.
its like lsb n i n tb took a lot of crappy pics using out handphone, u name it . e slutty duo bitch look ,, the come n F*** me look, the gila ones.n while i m updatingthis blog..e background is some korean hip hop music n recently this2 songs happen to b my favourite..e first one is my alram t.especially the lyrics one by lin you jia n e other is valene hsu ru yun , a another mongolian guy ah sa long

我爱的人作词:施人诚作曲:周杰伦编曲:吴庆隆林宥嘉-我爱的人http://www.feiyes.net/


我知道故事不会太曲折我总会遇见一个什么人陪我过没有了她的人生成家立业之类的等等她做了她觉得对的选择我只好祝福她真的对了爱不到我最想要爱的人谁还能要我怎样呢我爱的人不是我的爱人她心里每一寸都属于另一个人她真幸福幸福得真残忍让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深我爱的人她已有了爱人从他们的眼神说明了我不可能每当听见她或他说"我们"就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声


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爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回我却还在等待着谁能出现伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈我却还是学不会狠心对谁男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回我却还在等待着谁能出现伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情好人总比坏人狼狈我却还是学不会狠心对谁男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等你就是我等的那个人男人男人女人女人多么希望你是对的人


作词:阿信(五月天)作曲:陈忠义演唱:刘若英


沙发上睡着孤单冷醒的破晓冷的面条热的泪痕啤酒在苦笑当时的煎熬当时的心痛如绞天终于亮了遗憾终于退潮终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒丢掉电影票删掉信件跟合照洗了床单剪了头发清空了烦恼恨可以很小小到眼泪能冲掉我现在很好可以重新起跑终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒地铁涌出了人潮幸福涌出了预兆我会找回当初对爱天真的霸道谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒.


i tink those lyrics r veri engaging. they happen to reflect some of my emotions at that particular moment in time n i tink e best way to record it is to name it in some part of your life.


i tink the alchohol effect hasnt wear off yet.. i have this spilting headache which i cant roll back to sleep, its like a super alert catalyst which force u to be widely awake n active, a rush of adrenaline which is indescribable, tml i will be going marriot to attend a wedding lunch. seeing another close buddy,best co-worker married, really happy for her. I really enjoyed this 2yrs ++ working with her , always bugging her to submit her completed paperwork to me.getting angry with her when shes a bit " off her mind "yah.. salesppl sometimes they get cranky when their sales is down.. drinking n making merry with the rest of the defunt sales team we had back in 2006-2007.always suan each other at her cubicle,a lot of mixed emotions surging within. there is this chinese word. yi jie jin zai bu yan zhongalso a gd fren personally , during my most darkest period in my life, i tink she sms me , n this text i can still remember vividly. aft reading it , i start n try to digest n feel happier but at that time it was nothing but absolute bitterness inside me


all i recall what i was, was a sad gal who once lost her all her confidence n herself. n e frens ard her were by her side to accompany this lonely path she once treaded on.a lost soul in search of her true self


walked past sukothai last evening n now standing before carrie is a mature young lady n nt the pimply . tanned , curly .. QQ hair xiaomei.10yrs flew by. when lsb n me worked parttime after our o levels .. we were really kids , ignorant n ru chou wei gan. arrogant then tinking that we were really adults at that time.


第一个清晨 - a song which brings back gd/sweet memories with pb. we walked past this ming ge zhang ting n we happen to listen to this singer sing really well while we hugged each other while watching this performance, i wonder how is he coping now. i also know there is no pt in harping on the past. women sometimes r borned "jian"

Friday, April 25, 2008

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hehehe today is a great day . tgif.
shi er fu de.. i lost an important document yesterday , no matter how i find . i couldnt find it
today my assistant found it.. so happy
tml i wont be working so tonite meeting up nelly , ms tan for dinner @ central mall n a drink later in clarke quay. so nice n i just did a nice manicure ..red sia color. so happy. my nails r well shaped n nicely trimmed.. its a disaster to do it myself coz i have wobbly fingers.
another 40 mins or so.. br will be closing. everyone wants to ko early today including the backroom officers.
my boss has just left for kl to represent the bank against the one in msia.. in a yearly bowling competition
jiao is as usual today oso in her cranky mood. n here i m blogging in the meeting room
may is oso going for her shenzhen birthday trip with her husband,, so tian mi mi.. sweet act of him to plan a birthday trip..
hw many of such couples still do that ..

Thursday, April 24, 2008

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its been raining quite heavily since br open abt 40 mins ago. operations remains quiet,this kind of weather is good for ma la huo guo , napping or curling yourself in bed , lazing on it.. or watching dvds on the sofa , not moving any inch
my assistant is on off today so today i m on my own coz she went for some team building, cheer leading activities the previous evening
Recently after the first quarter , there is a series of new reforms, new management teams , & new blood joining the organisation as such there are fresh ideas. However some of which may not be widely accepted by the peoply nt within the management level.
There was a new circular which concludes which ever that affects branding have to be dealt with IMMEDIATELY
one of my colleague commented it is good because which ever that cannot be resolved can be escalated upwards
well what to to , in order to progress change is inevitable in this contemporary society in this modern context
later this evening will plan to have this makan session with my team members
today feels odd coz when i look out the glass panel , i couldnt nt even c the plaza building , i can only see trees swaying n the merciless rain , thunder claps in the background as well
feels odd that my sales team strength has shrunk today, from the original strength of 6 to 3 today
how the weather is so unpredictable just like the stock market or even feelings between couples. for this moment maybe u can tell him.her you r the one i love, e one i m going to marry n the next moment, there r probabbly a dozen or hundred n one reasons y u choose to leave a person leaving might be a gd indicator, coz maybe when u r not together its an indicator ya how much u want to take a person back or not,
but some memories r best kept inside
after watching harold(south korean, US citizen) n kumar (indian ethnic, US citizen) , e male lead, kumar was so remorseful aft he left his ex gf of 2 yrs who he bump into soon to be married to someone more capable than him
hes still the same punk who still smokes weed . nt serious in anyting in life at all.
n the truth is tis gal Vanessa was moulding into someone whos nt herself , the guai guai lady who doesnt smoke weed coz her future husband is in politician career
e part which strikes me when harold n kumar goes to a brothel n then they seek solace n comfort with the whores on how much they love their gals.. especially kumar's part when he cried on one of their shoulders
n the line was
I never shouldnt have left her, i thought she would have been happier with this nice guy
but in fact i m not happy at all, now they r getting married
harold is the quiet, typical shy guy ( prudent accoutant )who will secretly daydream n imagine those scenes with her dream gal , a latino , a young mariah carey look alike . he had been in love with her gal but had not been able to profess his love coz she was a model . photoshoot in amsterdam . harold flew to amsterdam just to be able to c her n nt waiting 10days for her to be back coz she was his neighbour.. her doggey dreamy eyes..
hes such a charming person.. the typical south korean look . handsome... my type. those enaging.. "dian ren yan "
a scene whereby 2 frens were abt to die in their adventure. while they fall off a plane .. n harold ask kumar to swim towards him in air coz hes got parachutte ,
a line .. hey bro/harold, i tink i m going to die..
these 2 close brothes ( close buddies )
e bonding in the scene can move someone. especially if u were be caught in a situation whereby if you have ur close fren then n if only one of u can survive in a ordeal. how would u react in that situation.
fortunately they meet the president when they crashed n landed in his house . n clears off being accused a terrorist coz on their way to amterdam,he was caught smoking weed but was misunderstood as a hijacker due to these 2 ethnics.. south korean & al-queda
e plot is a bit lame but entertaining .
it has got a mix of comedy , slapstick, friendship n romance
sometimes rainy days , do stir up the emo side or the emotional side of a human
just recently there r a couple of more cases of "songka" funerals being held at my neighbourhood, n everyday i walk past on my way to work, i c more wreaths n flower stands n i quietly sigh to myself such is the cruelty of true reality
so i must embrace each day with zest , hope n possibilities
a ability to make things happen
when e tough gets going ,it gets tougher , it can literally train up a person's resistance against intense stress n trials
juz 2 mins ago, my colleague shared a piece of gd news to me..
sam.. shanghai indices up by 7.98 %. wow wow time to make some profit again
i 've got the intention to pump in $ for the IR- Genting share allocation.. n to make things simpler we got some frens who work in the stock exchange so setting up the trading account is not that complicated afterall , its abt some research on the most potential share to start with the most minium cost damage
e ipo issue rate is only @ 0.60 per lot so 1000 of it should be roughly 600 bucks so i guess its quite a gd catch
recently with this new cut, one of my male buddy that i look chic in it.
that i should give those act cool look.. in order to match this image,, but i tink i m nt that kind of LJ face look those of some of the artistes that u c on tv .. one such example is taypinghui resembles somewhat of those cool scuba instructor look alike. but then in reality it works the opposite, i dun do extreme sports n the natural inclinity of nt being in deep waters like diving scares me off.. when i imagine baracuda swimming side by side with me or baby sharks near me
but it sounds pretty interesting checking out the cute suba diver on the same boat.. hohohoho
something which u wont c everyday besides , sales targets, nasty people, $ , stock indices n sales reports.
so this golden sentence i almost will repeat myself ... so you got to invest your wealth to guard ur assets against inflation n other forms of complexities
now everyday is a struggle, with rising inflation going up to almost 6.7% in the next quarter , the people in the lower income group would once again have to cope with rising living expenses
i cant imagine had i still stayed in logistics line would i have been able to enjoy the material needs n demands which i desire n crave for
e people who u care for , u hope that they will be also improving with u each day but the truth is that some people r borned more stubborn than the rest n one such example is ms chong still living in her dreamland, cmmon here is singapore nt some other village . my theory which applies until today.. if u r stupid u can be trained , but if u have serious attitude problems then u r a goner.. hopeless case.
if ms chong still doesnt buck up , improve on her gromming , dressing style to suit the common average or to improve on her sales , e likely outcome would be still "yuan di da bu" still e same old ms chong. no "tu po" in herself
that i always tink to myself when i c myself in the mirror first thing in the morning, you have got to overcome "urself" that you would come out of the shell
things that you tink you would never achieve or never do it, y nt conquer the fear n do it
win win situation , in the end u will gain someting out of it, if u dun take any calculated risks at all chances r u will still remain the nutshell forever like a hermit crab.. nt ready to face the world
with great power comes great responsibilites like what is always show in harrypotter or those movies
e sky has cleared now.. aft 1 hr of ranting. i can c plaza building again. no time to skive.. get cracking to work again..
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

1246
Have you eaten your yummy doughnut?


Work hard, work fast and no play,
Strive so hard for the entire day,
Bleed and sweat for a monthly pay,
Big plump donuts rolls your way,
A bite will surely brighten your day,
And everything will turn out okay!

some poem sent by bb.. heheheheehe munchy donuts doesnt come easy

was at amirah grill. a gd sessio bitching abt my clients...
gd time spent today

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

^_^

slacking again .. 3 plus another 35 mins to br close
germbought this pyjamas nice. hello kittyones
tink i will check it out later after work
plan to catch a movie or run.. harold n kumar 2 seems like a nt bad show for entertainment aft work
its those nites again where you thought after a nice shower , u can gaze in air staring in the dark , n behave n act more slower after a long day in town
a typical working day starts when you try to squeeze in a smrt bus, cab or train with the rest of he 3.5-4m fellow singaporeans.. n u sigh .. y must everyday be such a drag when you can arrive in style or slack nicely in a corner of a seat
mkt today as usual was not in the up zone so operation was quiet. but ironically i feel more tired than ever trying to find things to get it done, sales was also slow , slower as expected
was in town to watch harold n kumar 2. as usual was the slap stick sexual jokes. seen to many of the "crooked couples",
germ came along to complete the rest of the paperwork. happily getting married on sun
while trying to complete tis love. i m oso tuning in to love confidential @ class 95
first experience is always unforgetable, some reader wrote in when her fiance told this lady a little secret that a little side of his past that he had another past. some" intimate relationship" with a ex gf before they r getting married
well e solution is to let it go , no use harping on it. nt gd to e current relationship
so e tagline on air was ..
how do u define a perfect partner
but in the first place , is there such thing as a perfect partner ?
one colleague shared with someting on way home after work that some person told her that she will have 2 men in her life
a man who will really pamper her but is short n chubby
n someone who is tall n lanky but will pamper her lesser but capable person
so my colleague is someone who prefer the first option but ended up the other one , she was telling me this guy was someone they mutually was attracted to however in the end didnt make it coz they were cousin n if now if she was not married with kids , she would consider the fat n chubby person . so there is this tin she commented .. you yuan wu fen. how true can tis be.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

really really happy today


its a shopping spee i bought a new seiko watch
retail @ citychain was abt 548 , went to bras basah @ one those small shoes m n i got it at a steal 350, another shop quoted me 348, nevertheless since i promise the shop owner that i will get it from him so i decided to go back to that shop we sold me @ 350
afterwhich lsb n i went shopping @lver . its amazing i shrunk at least 2 sizes. n my jeans when i saw lsb. i gasped ,, tat idiot actually is a size 27 liao while i m still 28 comparing when we were still 32 , its a gd achievement . her jeans r dropping down..
n for the past 6 months really put in effort to make it happen. n lsb once made a pact that we must slim down until ppl envy us. i tink we did it.
i bought a top which shows off my shoulder well maybe one day i take a pic n post it in here n a 3 quarter which accentuates my curves well.. sun.. i will outshine n prove to those that i have emerged , nt the fei mei mei 2 yrs ago n the " gemok" big ass gal.
i feel relieved all my efforts r finally paid off n rewarded as a result of my sheer determination

awake before dawn

yah before 7, the kid at this block starts screaming again.. for the past 2 weeks n i havent had a good sleep n i got to drag myself out of bed, i decided to change my study strategy, which is not burning mid nite oil before my study leave.. the alternative is to sleep early n treat that series of brawling like my wake up call.
finally i came to a conclusion why this kid / baby / toddler next to my block is doing. he/she should be terrified of waking up to shower while his/her parent drags him.her out of bed.which is oso gd.. i had a gd 8 hrs of sleep last nite so it is no problem i treat that i have a early revison before work today
today the sky is pouring @ 7.21am while i imagine the rest of fellow working adults should be thinking the same way... how nice if i can roll back n sleep

Monday, April 21, 2008

210407 1950hrs

tried to finish work early today. had dinner with dad. seems to be a few days since i last saw him, everytime i reach home , he should be asleep n i seem only to catch up abt 10 mins with him before i go to work in the morning such is the case , tink hes getting older these days n the msia trip to tis island called
shi yuan dao" seems to bring more smiles to him
juz nw when i had dinner with him @ our friendly neighbourhood , there r more laughter in his conversation something which i havent notice for a while
they were having seafood. lobster, prawn , crabs , fish ( value for $ cheap n gd ) n they were happily exploring this little kampung 3 times the size of my neighbour approximately 25min ferry ride from changi.maybe oneday i should c for myself
my assistant seems to be distant in her work, she was busy doing this sms n was so distracted from work , the reason being she quarreled with her beau which i tink was quite unprofessional . in the end i had to rush my work once she was doing some nonsense . there is this upcoming teambuilding event.. called the kampung days @ 30/4 , should c many ppl frm different branches coming together
my eyelids r so heavy nw after a long day. n i m so reluctant to flip thru my books n notes.. if i could slough in bed. n sleep hw nice...

Sunday, April 20, 2008

look gd to feel gd

toe nails. blue black
New haircut @ hairjournal with my tennis racket as my background @ my rm

NEW nail LOok
Pic left: pathetic effort to paint nails red... This is when i had short nails
french manicure with purple n black tip background aft cny.. some comment it looks uglyAft arollercoaster fri nite n a super boring sat.. while i slept thru frm 6pm-7.30am
its a gd rest after such a long nite out
woke up @ abt 7.22 when lsb called ..
morning jog with lsb. will n maureen
went searching for a mama shop for 100plus to find out there r none in esplanade. n e only hope was e one @ citilink.. wat a dissapointment.. 7-11 @ citilink is not open 24hrs afterall .so e next choice was polar . so aft thirsty for so long.. ice lemontea become e 2nd althernative
its really a super recharge..
after mc grizzle.. went for a haircut . changed my color n cut it spiky short.. blue back base n streaks of red.hair stylist oso was quite in a cranky mood
sat- work. short shopping ( sasa to get new nail colors. ). sch.. sleep
finally i muster all courage to try a flamming red.. hehehh
refreshing look for new style.. m juz told me will n her bought a house in punggol. paid 2k deposit , another deduction via cpf in another few month n the house should be ready soon .sigh =( even germ is..
everyone else is getting hitched ... well e singles rule for lastmin trip. endless party .shopping with e gals,, dates unlimited,, n freedom
an advice from my manicurist.. when u r married , your life is complete...
well the sentence is not finished..completely gone.. waahahahhahaa
juz got a call. dad should be back soon frm the short msia trip
its a chore when ur parent is out of town.. doing laundry yourself , ironing ur own clothes n eating dinner alone..
e sky's getting dark . should be pouring any moment now
e speaker is gone case. there is not extra incentive to on my beloved com.. not a chance to watch my fav drama or kang si va tudou ( er zhou qu zhi wen 2 wa lao..).. a gd thing also.. to keep myself focused for exam
calendar reads 20/04/08 , exactly 18 days to intro to econs.. 8/5/08 10-1
a shudder man.. another 1 more month i will be super gila.. they called it the unleashed boar in town.
2106
aft mugging for a while decided to write again coz my study light in my room was flicking non stop occasionally. n my back is aching from sitting too long in one position, manage to memorise the acc formula for ratio analysis n will do costing later.. nw i know y accountants r paid so well , its kinda depressing work especially on sun doing all the practise n calculations.. when i close my eyes i can visualise figures.. 0000.0000

e conclusion for fellow exam muggers.. ample preparation is the key to acing the exam, once e preparation is ample.. should be no problem reproducing it in exam
however it s still a little bit bored n suicidal.. it seems that the whole world is enjoying n i m still stuck with my mugging
n the study light juz flicker n flicker so no choice. its a self-declare break then
i had a list o f mp3.. to keep me going through the nite , i tink thats e only ting that can reduce my depression level then
















































Saturday, April 19, 2008

after effects of a late nite outing

e after effects equate to super tired i slept barely 3 hrs .. conclusion really a little regretful i hang out so late last nite prior to the chain of events today
1-2 @ e ktv ( NAP)
n i woke up ard 7 plus tis morning .. considering i slept at 5.30 today
my mind was so groggy during accs class. was e last lesson , finally a sigh of relief
aft attending a yr of class with this ppl, we r more sociable now ..
its e exam fever again.. another 2 more weeks or so.. nw got to hit the sack.. super tired.

ok finally waiting for the last 15 min before bedtime

it reads 4.43am 19/4/08

TGIF activities-
Forbidden kingdom
double J- JET lee & Jackie Chan
its quite entertaining to c 2 major veterans sparring with one another , nice choice

back from a 6hr ktv @ kbox 10-4
seldom sing for so long but definitely this must be a once in while occasion.
expensive n exhuasting if you dun have the stamina
luckily i napped for an hr if nt i tink tml it would be such a drag

plans to have a quiet retreat at home for the weekend since my dad was went to msia 2D1N with my bro 2 n his family, it should be a gd time for me to revise for my exam at home since theres no one in the house. quiet n serene. n to make things worse my speaker juz die on me so its dead silence unless i transfer songs to my hp
or rather tml i will troubleshoot n investigate to c wats wrong with this bloody com.

met some of lsb's working pals n some new frens.its been high time since i behave like some teenager, still hanging out in the wee hours. n after comtemplating , i decided that as a proof of my confidence, i went forward to wear the super low cut top which i bought in bangkok 2yrs ago

many of them have moved on i heard. good for them nt exactly a prospective place if you were a young n aspiring individual, yearning for the material needs, 4,5,10C s u want n desire

today my colleague asked me if i will be sad to move on, n my reply was . i m a human also , i do feel sad to leave all this friendly people which i have been working hard with for close to 3 yrs .
change is always constant especially in cosmopolitian city in singapore . the dynamic n fast pace is something is always a common feature in this lonely , tiny small city
which is y many working class ppl would gather at pubs, social networking gala dinners, outings , cafes, coffee joints like starbucks n start to pour out their daily rantings n bitterness towards their outlook in work or personal perspectives
life is such that it always revolves bei huan li he.
from meeting , knowing , leaving n separating . its all part n parcel but how many ppl really will internalise this point
e bb head, shared something during the briefing on last wed which i found it kinda motivating. the word impossible , to the more positive personnel..

IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE

interesting man is what i would describe , always leashing on new ideas to improvise , looking forward to a success in this project n collaboration
ubi is an industrial area that will really train your patience, n pollution is bad. traffic is horrendous, time to adapt n get used to this new environment again after hanging in town

tml is a series of mundane activites again. work . sch n home
nothing new
but i really hope that once i complete UOL , i can travel widely to c the world outside insteading of still staying in myc omfort zone, n of coz when i now i make that decision on the other hand i will lose certain things i have now, social life n family bonding
oncei had a fren who was not willing to step out of comfort zone to make changes n now shes happily stationed in hk for the next 2 yrs . n end result from someone whos also dependent on her mum.. nw is a self confident young lass who can cook her own meals. do her own laundry n housework
sometimesi really admire ppl who can leave their homes , their most familiar environement n stick in a jungle full of uncertainities n dangers ahead n theres always a high level of ambiquity n risk involved

writing has been a most indirect method , explicit manner to express certain disclaim n displeasure , n most of all it poses as a healthy manner to vent some negative energy out channel to other areas, n when i read back some of the earlier entries i itend to laugh a lot . oh i was so insane then, y would i done such things

i was really pondering if i had been the person yrs ago n such an incident in office happen. would i have really lost my cool n yell @ tat fool.
at least i did display my professionism in work n act normally at least in the office

the rain has been pouring since 2 approximately for abt 3 hrs now.. n its nice n cool this evening

my last appt with a client jus bw made me thinking about elites. this middle age couple came along , they had 2 daughters. one of them whos a rare breed , a doc to b in her undergrad process of obtaining her medical degree.
1or 2 yrs ago , i personally helped her with her tfl , some loan to settle her sch fee
shes the typical silver spoon person , borned from a rich family that never has to worry for $ n through her path in life this little gal has been quite smooth sailing , considering , shes got the ace grades among all other ppl to be prestigiously selected to b a doctor. but after making some small chat with her,to find that shes those type of heck-care attitude. airhead or arrogant person
she was so full of herself . "ru chou wei gan"
for ppl in this "elite" group , maybe they have never tasted failure or setback , everything that they achieve comes so easily
i cant help but depise such a group

probabbly i m in an environment , in the average income group which i have to fight for what i want or what i have now . it always hard work, continuous determination n effort to keep things going, so when i have to converse with such spoily brats , i cant help but feel disgusted with such ppl. i had this wat if theory. wat if ur parents were not this rich, wat if u didnt had such an nice n comfortable environment , no need to worry abt $ to keep you going for daily needs, would u also have achieve the same level of sucess as of today.
n i also thought deeper had my mum would be still around , would i have turned out differently then
maybe 5yrs ago when i graduated, i behave exactly like her. but its different when u enter society , no matter how smart u r, there will always be ppl smarter , more sly n more scheming n all u can do is to prevent urself from all this possible dangers that lies ahead n the best solution is to stay alert , sharp, keen judgement n humble
maybe tat young lady is not a sociable person , but her body language tells otherwise, i hate ppl who r so arrogant n behave rudely to their parents in public.especially u know they r e normal folks , although they r nt that highly educated ,s till they have some basic manners or courtesy
bruce lee had tis saying from forbidden kingdom. how can u absorb more when ur cup is so full , must empty it so that new knowledgecan be constantly exchanged n transfered
i remember one of a senior or some ex manager told me. young gal , u have a long way to go.. so never be self conceited , the wrong attitude n this will land u in some wrong direction that you r going at.

of couse they r always e gracious elites ard..a handful perhaps
time to rest.. time to recuperate for tml.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

i tink i have become more confident. i tink sliming helps



























Lately i been receiving more compliments from the people ard me saying that i look pretty, slimer n more trendy
booast up my confidence.. i feel gd lalalalala
even e cisco frm uob was like.. wow sam.. different now ah..
omg.. n one of my client try to flirt with me... sam ur eyes r so beautiful , could i look at them again , a bit paiseh when other customers smile at me.. hohohohohoh
thanks to my parents, my dad especially for the sharp nose features. clearly differentiates from the rest of the common chinese u c on the street. my features become more defined suddenly wahahaha
all thanks to someone i know. yeah lsb who has pushed me to walk till this point, i got my new uniform from the bank , n i shrunk 2 sizes , from a XL to a M... LOL... i m so happy even happier than getting VB or my bag..
this was a pic when i look like i have no tomorrow, 2 yrs ago when i had a hangover n i really look like shit when things were not going the way i wanted especially with the idiotic ex. so u can imagine eyebrows are godamn so important to the features to a person especially .. e "wu guan" so the embroidery in bedok from jasmine my beautician was so "worth it" especially for someone like me down on my luck ..
it brought me more sales opportunities , more interactions with my clients n a fatter paycheck in return n of coz my inter relation skills also escalated to another level which enhanced my well being
received this particular sms yesterday when i was boiled to my max
n again .. I FEEL GOOD LALALLALA
dun sulk , take care n cheer up ur smile is veri charming ,
haha.. ya.. when u smile , your eyes come veri small.. Keke so cute..
i m flattered.. hahahaha
c'mon which gal wouldnt feel happy at that moment
but of coz beauty is juz on the surface, character n e inside is still of utmost importance.
germ is getting married next sun.. when will my turn come..
all my frens r getting hitched one by one..
G was so unlucky , she took the wrong trade for some client , buyingn selling of some FX n there was some loss .. $$ bad day to end it this way . luckily closed another deal to offset this little " po cai xiao zai" tats y .. $ is so sensitive of all trades..
n about the update of that new guy, i really dispise ppl who give up easily n i heard from another colleague he plans to resign becoz of some rubbish, he created. for someone new, hes so eager to prove himself n for a new banker the first 6 months is always the toughest frm jan 2006- now.. almost 2 yrs plus . i 've seen almost 1o bankers come n go, n this fellow is the worst of the lot , never had i had such a yaya newcomer who tinks he can start to sell products n prove himself n not humbleto learn from the others or to eat humble pie n learn from the basics , this is one ting i cant compromise for people like him, if u dunno how to walk then crawl first , but if u want to try flying from the start, then i m sorry . too bad then .i forsee that he cant go far in this line. n he wants to hop to premier another competitor co....although i really detest n hate such people.
i can be nasty really really nasty to him ,first thingi wanted to blow up at him n say all sorts of language u can imagine after what he've done
but i chosed another alternative.
there s this chinese saying called " yi de fu ren"
so i decided nt to be a bitch n i took the initative to advise him about the nasty n fucked up PC .
that should he be be in doubt on any queries n there is no one available , the next best alternative rather to turn ppl away especially rich ppl is to politely ask for help from the backroom , the lao jiaos will surely help this poor new person. i encouraged him to just get it over with e unhappy events. n aft that i did not return him the bad ting he done to me
yi ya huan ya... but tats too wicked nt me.. ny my style .. i want things to be done smoothly in the most amicable manner
which is another saying called " yi de bao yuan"
my rm just sms me. i must look good in order to feel good.n keep up my good effort which brings me to another theory no ugly women at all in the world but super nua n lazy n dirty ladies which i know of some who dun do proper grooming.. u will get a shock of ur lives if u ever come across it.
yesterday was someday which i dun wish to c it everyday but i learnt that there will be somethings. some ppl who spoil ur day but we r always a master of our own destiny so no point bothering..
think happy n happy tings will come like today...
submitted my ladies card applicatoin .. yeah.. shopping. which gal doesnt love it
n there was this theory between my rm n my sales team 3 things priority a woman must have to match certain status n character of someone
My list
1) bag - lv palermo pm
2) watch - Seiko criteria
3) shoes- pazzion./charles & keith ( standard getting better n better. more class now )
n the man
1) watch
2) car
read urban today.. would u pay 4k for a chanel bag.. no way.. i would spend in on a holiday.. n eat e best, wear e best n use the best
so lv remains the most affordable designer bag for young executives.. age 20-50 . for 1k-3k u can get a reasonable respectable design
hermes.. 12k.. some rich idiot will probabbly get it coz its limited edition
ideal man should smell nice. look fresh. charming smile n look .. broad shoulders is a bonus will be good for tat extra sense of " protection"
intelligent n men serious @ work is a fatal attraction
e bb head. T is such an example of the above ,however he is my new boss head. so its out. office romance doesnt really work n when its ends. it can be so bitter. well i heard a lot of such ppl ..
so sunlight fortune teller aint that accurate
yes. she has predicted i will have a section change aft mar , its correct but abt relationship nt so. really.
i do meet new ppl everyday. but when its not the one u will know it. the sparkle doesnt happen always n when it does , its nt veri realistic.
juz found tis quite interesting
zhang xiao xian got this novel called yue liang xia de yao pg 30
some page which i folded
win in the highest level
no body likes to lose,
n if we lose . we tend nt to do it, when we love someone , we always believe there is a future
even if its slim chances, but still got chance
there is no win or lose in relationship even when e relationship has ended, we do hold the sweet memories , that is win even time cant be turned back , we held on to some "past" when we grow up we become more sensible that is also wining
if this is e best person out there, he is loyal n treats u really well, hes having a relationship with you , y would u tink it would be really perfect if he married u
if this man dun marry me , it means he doesnt really love me , he loves his freedom more
everybody likes to win but hw would u define winning
some women r more greedy they tink they can really control their man . by his circle of frens , his $ , his thoughts, so e highest level in summary is to win the heart.. xin fu kou fu is e zui kao jin jie

擦肩而过
李圣杰
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王力宏
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李圣杰-擦肩而过
放飞心情我爱着谁爱到我有点醉告诉我你是谁能够把我让我变不对你不会累但我却爱你爱得好累从没有为了谁不顾安危付出一切站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过你听我说你不要这么做你不要看着我说你已经知道怎么做你很难受我愿意陪你一起承受只要你不怕痛再多坎坷我都陪你走站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过






Wednesday, April 16, 2008

2 incidents in a row. so angry with someone

last evening i assisted a new colleague for some operation work
in order to make things more convenient for a customer, i personally follow up n went to her place. then it started pouring fine, i was drenched when i walked back to office. that stupid colleague of mine didnt even bother to ask me or offer any tissue.
today i had to take a cab down to r. branch because e customer because of his own convenience brought to another place. e taxi claim . i oso cannot refund coz its due to my own fault or rather i m clearing someone's shit n rubbish .n i was so bloody pissed because me being drenched was all for nothing
n then another incident, one of the premier client wrote a veri long n disturbing complaint letter claiming that he was not well served n was pissed off by some new customer, this smart aleck arrow me n told my boss i was in between the customer n him
n i was being wrongly accused for something which i had not done, n my boss started to accuse me n bomb me a lot of questions which i cant answer, n to make things worse, his tone become more n more unfriendly n rude until then luckily my fellow colleague came in to clear this round of misunderstanding then e pieces came to link n then everything was cleared up , he asked me to get out of the room . which i was already boiling to the max. almostwant to yell at this new colleague
already in the morning i was super angry with that customer for nt following simple instruction on our agreement n then came another issue to be resolved , i tink it s enough of nonsense
n these days crooks r so smart,, they make use of stolen materials to embezz $ out of it. stolen atm card can be replaced by some bad ppl.
better practise caution in order nt to fall for such traps

freaking testing my patience for such behavior. so irritating that such tings should happen
learning pt is can hw can tis man who was in states for further studies have no brain.
no common sense
n after creating all the nonsense can juz sit back n relaz one corner
i should have nt bother with him at all in the first place
so imbalanced man.
econs class as usual was mundane. sim paper was a lot more complicated
22 days to econs paper
leshibianstill ask me to clubing onsat aft POA. omg.. what is happening to her , she seems so out of focus for sch
will c how then on sat. if the datei slousy.. can stay home to rest .. n juz stay for a while
my lv bag was out of stock n i had to check out hk instead
another 10 mins i allow myself to be out of focus
in order to motivate myself i pasted my 07 UOL exam results to remind myself hw lousymy grades were . n i cant allow such tings to happen for 2008
enough of all tis grumbling....

happy today















well this is the bag which i have selected to buy it, sgd 1.6k for palermo pm & 1.9 for gm series, unfortunately when i went lv boutique in orchard, it was out of stock..haiz so disappointing, then we scan ard burbreys, gucci , hermes .



n i went forward, dinner @ thai express with jiao,viv n tb









so the conclusion was to go ahead with the transfer, pay off my card bills n diverify the funds out for better returns, fly to hk n grab my bag @ tsim sha tshui



so happy got my vb... countdown to 3 more weeks to exam
as for tml i hope e neighbour kid stops crying at 7 in the morning , wat a terror















































Sunday, April 13, 2008

staying focused for maximum results

earlier on sat morning was a pedicure session with my sister in law @ blink blink
was happy with the treatment i had for enduring difficult n nonsense clients during this week
last nite was a chain of social events, having dinner @ crystal jade with tb ,
met up with tb n nelly n viv @ lunar bar for a couple of drinks, as well as listening to some of the songs. bar hopping to rumours tis bar which viv's bro works there
conclusion would be
i would stop clubing/ pubing @ canto bar , it would be my first n last time there, because it was horrendous. the songs , ambience n crowd, totally disastrous , infested with many china chicks hooking up potential customers
e rich e slightly plump n touchy men
i guess he is nt the one either , decided that for my exam preparation this year i will be totally commited to it , no more other distractions to affect. that includes being in the pink of health , staying cool n balanced in my diet, emotions n accuracy , neatness to ensure everyting goes all fine for all 3 units, come may 8,16 & may 30 it would mark the total freedom in academic year 2008
today the n tb n viv came along my place for revision , i finally muster all efforts to at least pack my room n arrange my notes in order so as to make sure there is enough space for 3 ppl in my cozy little bedroom,
we eshop in the screen, browsing lv, gucci, as tis will pose as a greatest source of motivation to ensure good grades so we can satisfy our material needs
my spoted buy. palermo gm series.. to be taken after VB.. nextweekend
we went to ntuc to shop for some snacks , nongsin ( korean maggi mee was my dinner )some simple indulgences like keno bueno, potato chips , hello panda to make our day
nevertheless our study group session was quite entertaining while my bestie try to dig out some of my latest gossip in my love life
anyway currently , i dun c the need for relationship , maybe i personally find it exhausting to maintain one or perhaps i m so happy with singlehood that i dun mind , in order nt to let e other party be leaded , i decide to make it clear
v was so nt focused n keep commenting shes sick of her lifestyle n i had to nag her to make her wake up n realize that hey tis is your final semester already, pass e final 4 units n you've able to make a difference in your life, giving up now equates to all efforts for e past 3 yrs all down to the drain
well i hope this helps her in her focus, being her bestie for the past decade has enabled us to develop a certain affinity to bond with each n care for each other
afterall frens r for life,we want each other to excel in life mentally as well as academically so that when we grow all gray n toothless, we dun live to regret for e undone things left unfinished.
anway my social life is all filled up now, n its with much honour that once in a lifetime you have one such buddy who you can always count on
die with no regrets oso
i got ready my set of coporate wear ready to c my potential new business head
tml would be new start , i havent been wearing coporate wear for the past 2 yrs or so, having said so , unplucking n starting fresh anew in another department n br would be a great start , acquiring new experiences to further enhance my career in the portfolio
with a strong determined mindset all set to succeed , this will embark me in another chapter to start again
how i wonder another 5-10yrs from now , would i be a high flying manageress in the near future upon completion of UOL , tis is yet another question mark
after meeting with my former sm, sitting in her comforable mini cooper, so envious of her lifestyle
may- exams to clear
june- reportin g with business banking
july- e long anticipated hongkong trip

2 yrs is indeed a long n difficult journey coming along , having to be coping on your own in work n studies, in another 2 yrs this tough route of having to juggle work n uni would be soon over, n i hope by then i can afford all my material needs , possible a little car , a nice apartment of my own , maybe a family perhaps if i m lucky enough
i tink j has definitely moved on well enough, hes too self contained in his little world n i tink he s stil l a little chubby ass whos well comfortable in his comfort zone
n i believe i should live for myself as well , expanding my little own social circle
since last sept , its been a long process , trying to regain my own confidence of myself, slimming down , knowing new frens , dating with other men to c how it goes, but unfortunately there is no " e one" yet but i m yet so happy though
the ideal of 50kgis so near yet so far, with the build up gradual effort hopefully before i turn 25 this year , i would emerge a new me, a slimer n more well rounder person , packed with all those wisdom n intelligence that a young aspiring executive should possess
how i recall the last time i relief in BP branch when e csm commented that i was all so listless in br that i lost all the shine , the vitality m the energy that a young lady like me should have,
i m determined that i will get it all back, n i should do this for myself , that i should nt let myself down , all the $ , effort invested since then should have returns generated twice or many times the amount for the opportunity cost s that i have exchanged for return for a more colorful n glamourous "future"
tonite i seem to have a lot of thoughts running thorough my brain, as i really started to think for myself for a start,
n lately i been receiving more compliments frm my old frens when i go gathering, from my regular clients , oh well, sam u definitely look better now, n my colleagues sense the new me, more cheerful, energetic, refreshing after i chop off that haggard long hair of mine, n clients joke n flirt with me more
having seen the results shown n proven, i can wear those old clothes i couldnt squeeze in before,
e yoga stretches is amazing n my consistency in keeping away with those junkies, i know i can do it n i can be better than before
n for j its his loss
proven as a real life example from fat to flab, c is also starting to exercise n i m a great source of motivation to him as well n he oso exchange some pointers to me . like some cherry tomato meal
to act as some healthy meal enchancement to curb the hunger pangs
its a type of mixed emotion when u know leaving some place is gd for your own career development but yet you will miss those co workes who have been working hard side by side with you for all the challenges spent together so far
i had tis male colleague which in my previous entry that we had a huge quarrel n i was so angry that i slam the meeting room n the knob came out n we had to as k some technican to fix the door ,
n after 1yrs coming to 2, we r quite on close terms , we even intended to go for outings with the rest of the sales team
i tink it is a fate that i should treasure n cherish that people who go in n out of your life does leave some mark n memory n some of their gd values that we should learn from
i m nt usualy an emotional person , well i do shed some tears occasionally when it comes for it.
its a kind of reaction to certain circumstances , a kind of release that should occur,
for someone chatty n talkative like me, i do resort to extreme meaures to stay in equlibrium
like forcing my self to entertain n click with e societal elites in my customer base
n when i go back my little room , sulk n imerse my self in solitude n reflect properly so that tomorrow would always be fresh n new
front line can be interesting , it could also be a disaster my primary nature is still quite receptive to strangers but once in a while if i can have someone who can entertain me n make my day , i would jolly welcome that
the serenity of the nite , with the combined soft music playing in the background by yiruma , kiss the rain is certainly a gd companion to cleanse the mind , coz its quite a sad song but veri touching
u cant stop yourself from the bad events that will occur , but you can protect yourself safely from forseen outcomes n i know no matter what happens i can always brave through it
recently i watched the 3 kindgom , n andy lau 's character, zhao zhi long is one strong person who has in history never lost any battles n although e ending in real history was he died of old age, this story on theatre depicts that he stood strongly in his values to wait for reinforcement with cao ying , cao cao's grand daughter , hes truly a warrior who is fearless against his oponents. n despite the harsh conditions , he maage to emerge a champion
guan yu - righteous man, zhangfei a loyal brother
zhukeliang, a smart n intelligent advisor for tactis in war management, a commander that does not be present in war but yet know the exact sequence that the predicament or rather the outcome that the battle would be in
hopefuly i could also be like zhukeliang , always clear in my goals n strategizing the possible resources for optimum results
i dunno but for some reason when i manage to pen down all these i can have a sense of relief running through that i have not wasted today. that i m truly happy that i have a bunch of friends always supporting whe n i m nt in my best shape n mind
when i m a boar , when i yell at them over the phone, when i throw my tantrums with them
that they truly appreciated my presence all these years
the part which i created a positive impact to c, he just sent me an sms thanking me about that . as a fren i tink i have helped his initial progression to improve on himself for himself . it is good , i m glad for him
a young boy lost in his own little world , unable to unpluck himself from the past
he deserves a better someone , but first he has to do somethings in order to freed himself from all the negative feelings in order to be happier

Saturday, April 12, 2008

leisure sat with my family

today i m nt working in branch wake up ard 9today. went joo chiat for wan ton mee. the standard has dropped n thereafter i went blink blink to do my nails with my sister in law while she did both pedicure & medicure. so relaxed . i did a dark blue/ purple nails while jan did a maroon red one.. nt bad. funky blue nails doesnt suit me so i decided not to paint those colors
lsat evening.. tat lesibian went out on a date. dump me alone for yoga class. lets c what will e gal explain later...
lunar date with nelly n her cousin

Thursday, April 10, 2008

vb vb vb $_$ 150408

i mso bloody excited. mon to meet my potential boss on mon,
items to get
new phone
LV bag. palermo, monteguil, or speedy
new perfume. floral ones
new shoes
new clothesfor a new slimming figure
wow.... wat a list..
to be updated

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

sleepless

haha cline told me tat hes attracted to my smile n wishes to progress further.
mention abt sincerity . i m confused.. maybe i dun really like tis person

Monday, April 07, 2008

lunch date with him

i mean i do mind the fact that hes a bit chubby , hes the same height as me n looks a bit bearish since i had manage to slim down within these short period of time. that he also looks sloppy with this unshaven look of his n the worst is his voice , sound like immature n kiddish
y should i be going on dates with such a man, y is it that i 've going out with ppl younger than me, something is wrong man
if he could slim down , then maybe can consider this candidate if not i cant s tand myself with someone whos got a bigger frame than me

Sunday, April 06, 2008

msia lunch at sutera utama with my family

it was freaking expensive for my fish. 1.04kg was like 208rm for a fish imagine eating one fish $100 sgd but the food was good
we went to sutera utama , beijing lou
nice food , ambience. atlas placez
went to secret recipe , had abt 5 cakes with the family
enjoyable trip
planned a bit on the july HK trip short listed some hotels to stay n the places to go during the 4 nites there .. yeah so nice..

Saturday, April 05, 2008

quick update

went out to this jumbo seafood at riverside walk . n this interesting itallian ricotti restaurant in town last nite
attend rl'd daughter full month bash in changi n subsquently took a cab from there
fun's mini cooper was super cool
hw i wish i got the capacity to spend like her
took caleb's name tag by mistake so i met up with joanna n my family at toa payoh for dinner n we shopped a bit
planning to go msia tml for lunc h to celebrate my long awaited vb
another 2 weeks. would be to attend germ's wedding luncheon in marriot
hopefully to sucessfully shed off further extra pounds
my impression of cline is tat hes quite out spoken, well travelled n quite interesting so far
nice guy but a little short n chubby
if he can improve a little on his grooming i tink can consider la
but the ting is i cant seem to let go fully
maybe i belong to the category of the late bloomer gang
my colleague germ commented tat perhaps i belong to those women who might just happen to be more mature in my late 20s or so n then perhaps then it will be a better time for me to be more stable in my thinking n find someone more suitable then

Friday, April 04, 2008

relief @ bedok North br again

hahah its the time again KO time.. still got some time before 6 so it still ok to blog for a while

cline did asked me out again for dinner tonite but i decidecd to join fun n e rest of the crew after the baby bash

Thursday, April 03, 2008

a date with e c man

we we nt for dessert in ah chew..
badly groomed.. green check shirt n tight pants. crumpled ones..
went to cafe le caire for dinner with the js team .. great food
late somemore.. kept me waiting like for abt 45mins

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

april fool 2008

its a miracle that i can t get to sleep , i tink its due to the coffee i had @ nlb earlier in the evening ard 7.

found a new place for revision nlb study lounge

another 1 month is exam month , 3 units only

this fri will be ruolin's baby gal 's baby bash.. another occasion to gather n bitch

juz nw earlier in msn, i find tb a bit irritating with his style of revision

he seems that over confident of himself as usual.. should juz stay clear n buzz off n just leave him alone.

mention that i keep nagging.. fine...

readup econs.. tats a bit lame. its 99% failure n i m nt gonna repeat that same old mistake again

while listening to the tw yzw 's version of 祝我生日快乐 brings back some memories of my darkest period in 2006
i remember listening to the wen lan's version that nite for the whole nite coz i couldnt get myelf in slumber n was downright depressed so everytime when i listen to tis songi cant help but tink tat i was really dumb that time,during that phase

this lyrics is kinda warming to me , depicts the current mood while i type this entry

新不了情

心若倦了 泪也干了 这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了 今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

song 2

听说爱情回来过

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾回来过
想请他替我向你问候
只为了怕见面说不出口
你对以往的感触还多不多
曾让我心碎的你
我依然深爱着

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒
只是怕见了面会更难过
我对以往的感触还那么多
曾给我幸福的你
我依然深深爱着

有一种想见不能见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
http://blog.nmgnews.com.cn/...20081286427.wma

这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你 把你放在我心中

对你的声音你的影你的手
我发誓说我没有忘记过 而关于你选择了现在的她
我只能说我有些难过
我也真心真意的等过
有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
这一种想见不敢见的伤痛

http://fabianaino2008.blogspot.com/2008/03/dragonfly-and-saturday.html
e link to these 2 music albums
Corrinne May

Emi Fujita's Cammomile Classic

http://frisking-melodies.blogspot.com/2008/03/noriko-sakai.html

manage to add a few songs to my blog changed a new look after 3 yrs.. hehehe its nice unfortunately its already 4.15 in the morning

exciting hk trip ahead aft exams

to be confirmed in the week of july.. so exciting