Back frm Hongkong 3/7/08 - 7/7/08 9/7/08 0012 hrs

i have to get this off my chest quickly to illustrate the joys and agony of travelling with people whom i know n people whom i just met.
Day 1
touch down in hk at abt 2.15pm met a nice couple. panda & meiyan... e guy's name is yue quan which i always cant remember well..
meiyan is a nice n simple contented person who clicks well with the both of us. the only drawback is his panda, not so sporty. lacks stamina but a great guy who dotes on his wife . similar trait is .. hes a also an accomodating person in a group
jordan,mongkok,ladies market.flower market,temple st, xu liu shan
day 2
tsim sha tsui ,repulse bay beach,sakae sushi.espirt outlet. g2000
day 3
the peak, central-- 1 hr
Day 4
wang tai xin, causeway bay- hancock , kfc,
rainy day
day 5
macau.back to hotel to rest.. giodarno @ mongkok
day 6- rainy day
mongkok. had a haircut.. last min shopping ...

today when i went back to office.. i m exhausted. took a cab this morning

one thing i realize .. hongkong is a nice superb place for nice bargains, shopping n some nite scene .. but to stay there in long term is a pain.. i hate rude people. hk ppl r so obsessed with making $ n stay in a highly stressful environment.
the theory = no $ no talk// no sense of belonging.. n the service they render is just service for the sake of transactional purpose
macau noisiest foodcourt i 've eaten in my entire 25yrs in history
espirt warehouse was so much madness , we almost went crazt grabbing for about 1.5hrs stay in the factory outlet
tst.. wow place for branded
causeway- cinema reminds me of the cathay. they are so contraint for space even the small corners can squeeze out a toilet
home is the best
nice n compliant. prim n proper
free n easy tour is adventurous trying out new food, new places ,new people we meet
a lot of little quarrels along the trip, focus on our objectives n we are happy

back to office today- the aloof attitude cool n composed. met linus goh the big boss of our team.. emb 1.. Aquistion team for new corporate business.. loans n trade services
lion dance .. gala opening to be firm up on fri 25/7/08// so exciting
although there was enough damage to pay off the debts next month .. its worth the effort spent..
have to give it my best shot at work....
BE MY BEST!
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now is the wee hours , in another 9hrs i will be flying to hongkong.. how nice
summary of the past events
the opening has been somewhat smooth although i was having butterflies n the stomach
the rest of the team mates have been going home really late so the least i could do is to reach office early way before 9.30am reporting time to compensate for leaving slightly earlier than the rest.. heng ah.i didnt screw up anyting at all...
i could have this six sense again that the bb ppl are not happy that i took leave during the first week of the opening n although they have to fumble with the cfs operations.. its a fact that we are getting help from other branches, like it a not i will not compromise by canceling my trip or delaying as the offical grand launch in end of this month
today i had this mystery shopper to test me on the product knowlege n service.. she from gtb.. some section head again.. manager n thankfully i got a "perfect 10 score appraisal " by this carrie soh.. n despite having a stomache .. i manage to carry myself n presented it with poise n confidence. always ready! yeah..!
made new colleagues with the bb centre
could tell some of them are meant to be friends n some maybe not, because the moment i have trouble, i know who to look for n who that will turn me away
with a dual reporting system, it has been rather frustrating to exercise empowerment in certain areas which i used to think that, well i've done it so many times so no harm doing it.. but its not going to happen this way
e elite team.. pilot branch is not allowed to make mistakes
true enough , we were in the limelight n we were being scrutinized for the every detail on our performace, our KPI, sales performance n the no of complaints n compliments n the sales we bring in on the operations, in short it was a challenge . having to form instant rapport with people we barely know for one week to work closely together. at last ubi had the soft launch n although we had not have the loud bang advertisement on our newly presence.. today n yesterday, we seem to be attracting the wrong group of customers. we are a business centre offering corporate loans n trade services. however we received several enquires on investment servicing requests. which can get very vexing if we have more than 10 customers buggin around in office, asking us services which we cant provide n on the other hand they dun seem to understand
thomas as usual my boss. is very sharp in details in combing the premises
jiao jiao n i went for a steamboat session.. n we discuseed over dinner on how she managed to overcome cultural differences in a new working environment n we came to a few conclusion
1) 以合为贵
2) 以柔克刚
凡事以大局为重。。。圆滑的角度看待事情，不要对人， 意气用事，
这个机会得来不易，我一定要好好表现， 不可以辜负boss对我的期待
新的地方很敏感，要按部就班，步步为营，
不可轻举妄动，坏了计划
越来越觉得企业客户不是简单的角色，得小心谨慎。小心翼翼， 不得激怒。。。。商人是讲营利，利润不是讲感情， 立场不一样，根本是无理取闹的商人， 但是还是要给面子。。我当下的心情，很难形容。根本就是要冒烟， 可是要是要assertive manner to treat them with mutual respect n also being firm to certain princples and policies..
我获益不浅。。。 可以是苦中作乐。。。
商场如战场。。。 我渐渐了解
生意人。。 一群难搞的人。。。
i find that this is a new room of scope of personal career developement. n after i manage to clear off this difficult phase of transition, i will gain a lot more than i choose to stay with consumer banking.
开始的起步，很像马拉松。。 非常艰难辛苦。。 天天都是战战兢兢。 很担心很多细小的细节。。 要比任何人敏锐， 果断很重要
企业客户强求 快，准， 方便。 他们没有时间给我反错。。
老板的信念。。 要做就是要做最好。。 没有所谓的average performance...this is not allowed in pilot premier pionner branch n this will set as a plattform as a sucessful example for others to follow.. so failing or failure is never an option at all..
seriously... 压力很大。。。 每天都是学习的机会。。感谢身边的两个军师。。经验丰富。。虽然还不是很熟。。。但我必须明白的一点。。 化敌为友， 共同进退。。 有了一定的信任和共识，我相信一定能取胜。。。。now its just the begining, 新的组合还未擦出火花，培养一定的默契。。因此回来之后。。 要继续好好努力交出漂亮的成绩单。。
做了appropriate the handover, wrote a very long checklist for my covering colleagues, hope when they take over, they have a better idea when are the location of my equipemt, the main important areas to focus on n also a good chance to showcase that i m not just concerned for my own leisure. that i m also responsible for them n for the team
机会只有一次。。 往往都不容易得到。。。
hongkong..尽情买东西！吃东西！。。可爱的香港！。。我要来了！！！！
大叔那里。我是很尊重他。。。我的确太忙了。。 sms 算是奢侈的联络方式。。。 这几天到家就倒头大睡。根本没心情谈无畏的事情。。回来会是另一轮的忙碌。。好好享受这得来不易的5天4夜。。。。
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countdown to ubi business banking centre

tml is the opening.. how exciting! managed to finish the labelling , the unpacking , throw away all the unsightly boxes. finally for a express manicure .. red nails.. yeah! after slogging for the past 1-2 weeks, its time to showcase our great works to the rest that we are good!
as much as I m feeling the jitters, i am also relieved becoz the hard work is going to be paid off.. roland is the worst . he left br at around 7 on sat.. n i believe he didnt really enjoy the weekend ... thurs... 3/7/08.. so far away.. HK!!! I m coming...tml 's agenda .. to start packing the luggage // by wed all set to go..

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started the day cycling with ms heng n her frens
we were slightly later
i ended the outing with a scraped toe n it started bleeding as i lost my step..so lesson to be learnt , cycle with covered shoes.. luckily one of the frens got a handyplaster ...
next was the trip down to the toy fair @ suntec. we got a ride from the friends
who were a bit delayed
we saw a lot of avid toy collectors. toy exhibition displaying different toys
made new friends today. comment was.. they were a little ungentleman. should have helped us or send my friend back coz she was carrying 2 big boxed even we insisted we didnt need their help..
on the other hand. they were afterall obliged to help ..one of them was intending to shop for shoes..
so to solve this. i decided to reschedule my timing to accomodate my friend. afterall shes my friend
but i was a little unhappy about it.. so just forget about it.. the issue was resolved anyway
the tofu man. we had to negotiate with the "bouncer" or the event organiser coz he mentioned the autograph session was overwhelming n even when we went there on time. the queue was fully packed.
tactfullly we managed our way to "sai nine" him n convinced him we were really genuinely interested in the autograph n my friend was so looking forward to getting the signatures. she bought it yesterday n we already missed the earlier slot at 2.30 n we went back at 4.30 to get it done
so when it was finally settled. we left the hall around 5.30 which i had to rush to simei to meet my family.
met up with joanne n dad @ eastpoint for a little family dinner.
was complaining to her about brother worm n elephant. n the conclusion and the little consolation i got was to put my father's interest above the rest of the options. if i choose to move out becoz of someone that i dislike would be a little unfair and irresponsible
however to uninvited guest or intruders like them, i can only open & close one eye. which in turn will make my life less miserable
to thick skinned people, even if i flare out n lash it out at her, she will still continue to poison the family
the whole family other than my dad is starting to lose respect for bro worm
i know dad is sandwiched between us. n i 've got a right to be angry that my life is being disturbed by strangers
the fact that the crew of the kids pop by is disrupting, to the extent that sometimes i cant even rest at home with the kids around
joanne advise me to avoid contact with her to reduce dispute if not my dad or worm will be in a difficult position
eventually i m dealing with someone who is shrewd and scheming , so i cant use my emotions or anger to act upon someone like her.
so i got to plot my steps carefully
only 4 days to my hk trip. mon would be to clear off all issues .
tue-launch
wed- to handover duties
thurs- yipeee holiday...
that leaves me not much time to meet up with ray. well i cancelled the outing last min due to the delay in system testing . hes quite nice, but i didnt have any choice.. now work is priority for the moment to ensure issues are settled
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needless to say, we had a jolly gd time at kbox this evening, we were quite wild in our little private room together. as much as i gather information from the rest of my gals. my tudi received complaints from some customer that shes super unfriendly..perhaps shes a little loud. gives people impression that shes uncouth but in fact shes nt. some of us hold different responsibilities now. some promoted to manager level some perhaps still enjoying at that comfortable level

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just came back from branch not long.. had to sort off some issue how to use the touch screen bought the stationary from singpost with lala n cat.. had lunch with boss thomas.. siu hiong n roland.. everyone's pretty excited n some of them hasnt manage to go back home yet coz the system is still on offline mode n the BA teller system is crucial to the daily transactions i tink thomnas appreciates our help here as they are afterall from the business banking. resting n relaxing in their office cubicle most of them time . so most probabbly they would not experience how vexing it is when you are actually on the ground when things go wrong. he doesnt want us to be overworked. bb team is actually more relaxed rhan us.. its kinda exciting getting all the loose ends fixed up.. from zero to furnished. it gives u a sense of achievement .. yeah we did it together not alone but a team.. CHeerrs , Ubi team!
well 80% is done up , n hopefully all the defacts to be fixed by latest mon

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till now my boss n the cash officer is still at our new office as the system is not working normally.. we started off a long day in the branch. packing n unpacking all the new inventory. barang barang n micellanous. so my movie date eventually had to be cancelled . i had dolled up nicely to go out n have fun on friday night to meet ray but then discover i was aching all over after .so i had to fly him kite.. had my dinner at the desk with my new team.n then i had to go home n rest then// to prepare another round of packing n unpacking tml n testing the system ..
its been a fulfiling day as we furnished our second " home" from nothing to something to make everything happen
we've got to cordinate all activities together to ensure the orderlines of the operations
had a whole chunk of items to tally when the stock came in as myself , cat & I were among the first to arrive at the site
had to take some 'risk" to "sign" on some delivered items from the suppliers. We
nicely arranged those marketing collaterals to be beautifully displayed.suddenly everyone had to pitch in to play their part to "tidy " up the mess. to ensure a smooth opening of the launch on tuesday.
the contractors .. the "ah nays" stayed even later than us to clean up the area like 12plus to rush the work out
the first thing which screwed up for me was the locker, i locked my things inside when i did not take note of the sequence nt my delivery invoices were all stuck ..delayed my work. luckily lee was there to "decipher " it with the master key..shortly before lunch if nt i would be so poor then...
a few of the business heads.. again c c look look at our premies occassionally giving "some comments" n "feedback" to improve.some were more critical on the exact words to display on the electronic e-lobby . which in short terms to prim n proper.. no hidden meanings that will threaten the branding image.
with the many help which i gathered.. some were nice ppl helped me to move heavy boxes while my team members were not available then, some of the IT staff from ibm rendered some help to us by setting up our systems, mapped up the printers n servers, we were able to clear some work from our email
one of the most prized inventory we had was this intelligent conference phone which cost abt 2-3k per set.. conference calls up to 6 people.. which means we should avoid dropping this phone as it is so expensive
n a 80k intelligent coin system we had.so much about the fixtures
left the br ard 8.35pm n i was so groggy.. brain dead.. my nails chipped n i tink got to repaint again .. :p
tml will be first n a last ktv i organised with the js staff.. hopefully at the end of tomorrow. the system becomes workable n all defunct areas which have defects are slowly resolved.
slowly we shared our information among the 2 department.. be it consumer or business banking. we were together 1 team.. to ensure the product knowlege is commonly understood
one of the things i have on my mind now is to thoroughly enjoy my hk trip.. the 12hr in branch today is too much for me..
through this project i have learnt much about good collaboration,teamwork n commitment n sense of urgency to get all the things done n completed.
uncle roland has been a very kind n benevolent superior , gave us a dinner treat to reward the team for spontaneously staying behind just to ensure everything runs well..
GABANTE!!!>>> WE ARE READY>> UBBiii.. BR>>>!!!! :P 2240hrs yeah!! ^_^

renovation finishing for the new bb branch

today is a day of more rehearsals for the opening of the launch, things to say. observe , the correct response to the compliments & critism of the general public..
lately i discover how close 2 individuals are, they can never be absolute trust.
sean is someone who is responsible & reliable.. nice coworker relationship..we have so far..
should maintain a professional relationship.
the team today remains united n together

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tis morning we arrived at bb @ abt 9.30 to gather on my little " opening" roll the orange ceremony... HUAT AH!! UBI BB CENTRE!
well everyone was really exhilarated by our new"home"its really painting something from nothing to something. n the big bosses has got high expectations on us which make us feel "special" n privileged to be part of this dynamic team. that we are going to outshine the rest of the cluster
seriously, this week has been tough day for us as well to get away from our familar comfort zone to somewhere new , alienated from the rest and interesting as well
it was the endless discussion in centre east. sunglow meeting room also known as our chill out room for the possible issues and problems to be faced and challenged operationally.
n we are really looking forward to the opening on 1/7/08 to prove our best to the rest that the committe has made a wise decision in the careful selection that they have invested . by taking us all out respectively to help them build on this "reputation " to serve the SME market
whether we will create a "brand" or destroy this is entirely up to the team to decide.
coming forward is a series of exciting agenda to be fulfiled and all of us has the burning desire to work things out although the conditions are not rosy to begin with.nevertheless with a can-do attitude , n a serious sense of urgency n a genuine concern for our co-workers n customers in mind, that we truly carefor them, i m very sure they will soon sense our wow factors to wow them over ..
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fresh start with a new team

the previous pics from the uni gathering
today 's agenda for the day was to understand the wow factor n the various issues which might occur in the new br. as well as building rapport with the customer. n the correct techniques to build small talk with the coporate ppl. n the out of the box methods to pacify and calm angry customers down.it is an art indeed to able to use good judgement to handle situations if all else fails .
how to crack the shell among shy people that we know, n apply the key to it
the gold in one's heart is more precious than gold in one's purse. this is a confucius proverb

the 2 day seminar has equipped me with some basic skills to win a battle now. but due to the lack of experience and confidence , howeever i believe this will not deter me from performing my best on the ground
there could be many hiccups along the way but with the chip in help with each and every member, the problems faced in the inital stage can be resolved eventually.understanding the value preposition and doing exactly when the situation calls for it is 2 types of reaction & outcome.

i have just collected some of the operational material from js. ready to soar high with the new folks. the agenda for the next few days has been firmed up n all set to perform.
in a new place where they are new rules to observe. i hope ican pick up as much as possible to get used to it as soon as possible
come fri we will do a photoshoot for the editing team to " promote" on our new team to make us "famous"
n the motto from thomas
WE WANT TO BE THE BEST.. N WE WILL BE THE BEST
WE ARE OUT TO BAG ALL THE AWARDS
well saying easier than done. so i will gather all the efforts that i have n synergise n complement with each n every team member to make us all shine
so the first thing i got to do is to prepare all it takes to make me more knowlegable, expert , in this particular area
tml .. to roll the oranges in the new office.. HUAT AH! HUAT AH !
to celebrate with a big bang. n meeting the respective heads from the head office to better know who i m working with ..

Team Building session with thomas n the new team

today's session was very enligtening be it as a personal or work aspect.
thomas started off the session with a ice breaking, getting to know each other
some key areas to focus on visual improvisation,the factors to impress customers , the various techniques of communication, understanding the MBTI theory to know how different personalities get along n what are the various advantages and disadvantages of different people,to be able to complement each other,as well as getting to know him better as a new boss
started with the geese story on how they fly and the importance of a team n the effectives to perform to the maximum performance. with a sharp leader, in the correct direction, sometimes to bend a little , swerve to the left or to the right in the course of a storm and also overcoming the difficulties
i m rather surprised that I am a ISFP, introverted, sensing feeling and perceiving whereas in one particular exercise we were grouped among the similar type of personality to plan a BBQ. My group presented in a coherent manner with all the respective contingency plans n the rightful person to be in charge of instead of blur, unclear general planning guidelines. I am surprised i can be so detailed n precise sometimes. so i m a bit of a judger.
For one particular slide, we were told to identify the no of Fs in a passage n i didnt realize i wasnt really being very sharp, there were a total of 6Fs n i could see 4 Fs,supposed to wake us up after lunch..
sometimes we are blinded by our own perception that we failed to see the big picture
seriously i was rather apprehensive on my big switch to business retail banking. something which i have never embarked before , so theres really many uncertainties and ambiguity ,in a positive manner , it should be a new challenge to be the best branch .. the first and best coporate team
to outshine
thomas was quite positive in his motivation
think the best, & you will be the best.. YES! i can do it!
so in order to be good , i must go my homework well
at least i wont commit the same mistake again.
30sec elevator in case big shots ask me question during the offical launch, i wont feel like a fool again
thomas was a ocs trainer n his style of presenting is somewhat unconventional because he related his little stories that we could remember on
we went for swenson for lunch n it was on him. everything went on quite smoothly until the feedback session. i was so dumb that i totally blanked out n i felt so dumb in front of my new colleagues n boss that i was speechless.so i decided to do a little background homework and prepare for the team building session of part 2 for tomorrow
creating a little difference with a new mindset should set us going in this exciting journey together as a team. n i want to give it my best shot as the pionner group for this new retail banking concept
ganbante
a lot of hard workfor all of us, but i think its worth it.. back to more research on how to "wow"customers ...
a new project.. i wanna make it happen
a huge sucess.. cheers

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earlier on. elephant & bro worm cameto my place again to try their luck.. to try to brainwash my dad.. i find them irritating coz they are 2 asssholes.. troublemakers . childish idiots.sometimes i have this impulse to ask them to fuck off. i m really pissed off by these 2 people. because i find them childish n totally irresponsible for their actions...i must remain composed because i can sense that i will really flare up one day if i cannot tolerate such nonsense ..domestic issue any more coz my dad cannot be firm enough to reject the nonsense couple
solution proposed
to sell off the house.
to rent the house
to move to one of my bro's house to stay
well y should i compromise..its really not my fault they do not have a house to stay.they are nothing but trouble
there should be a third option.. totell them off to stop bothering us with theirown problems. if they decide to be together , then they should start to find a roof on their own
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a chilly sunday morning 220608 0738

我想我应该是恋爱了
大叔的温柔让我踏实，安心
他可以包容我突如其来的无理取闹,我的任性和脾气
年纪大的男人的媚力不能忽视，好man...
偶尔做个小女人，感觉挺好!

外面下着细细的雨，沙沙声。。。从梦乡把我拉回现实。
在温暖褙窝，好幸福。厚厚的棉被就让我非常舒服
抱着我熟悉的抱枕，轻轻得嗅了几下，好自在，好陶醉

原来人可以那么容易满足。
星期天是我唯一能够赖床的好日子。可能楼上的邻居习惯性都天天把我吵醒。。在七点之前就大哭大闹。。
既然都醒了，我索性做了愈加，did some stretches to relax and to focus on my breathing n this keeps me pretty fresh in the morning.
while lying on the bed. i was listening to the soothing music from my mp3, feels totally at ease,away from the bustling city scrapers. the fast paced intensity in office and the demanding requests and attitude from the customers.
在一起舒服就好。。。大叔的至理名言
太执着的人都活得很不开心吧?
我要学会放开，放松
这几天，生意还算差，整个气氛在office 显得格外冷清，空荡荡的。。时间像是度日如年。。希望下个月sales will booast up for JS branch
what will BB bring for me ? positive surprises from this newly formed team..looking forward to the session with the new people.. hope they are nice people as well
挥别过去，展望未来,一向是我一贯的作风
的确有太多。。。太多， 再见了，js 的工作夥伴。我在你们身上偷师不少，谢谢你们的包容和耐性
这个sotong..因此慢慢蜕变。。。。
李老师算是我在银行的启蒙恩师。。虽然他belong to the poison tongue category, but he will be willing to help but his signature gesture would be one long sigh.. n then he will breathe in deeply... n then give a super black face.. but still he would help me solve the problem no matter how complicated it gets.
hes considered an emotional person. but hes a quiet worker. sometimes we can go for days without talking much in office.. he sang me a song.. gd bye my love... its been a while since we worked together..i still feel a little sad somehow..
well.. when there is one door shut, there will always be another door right there open waitingfor you.. so just embrace changes n hope for the best.. that everything will turn out fine..
i will miss my js pals.. my brother.. js who taught me a lot of silly abbreviation like hcb,lcb,glg n many more...
my beloved RM which we shared . good times n bad times together
when we quarrel due to work n give each other one kind of face coz we are too stressed to run for the targets for the month. then we will sort of make up n be fren fren again. she has become both a friend , an elder sister figure as well as a co-worker. witnessing her growth till now has been a ride for me..
as well as the inital stage where both of us were so new to banking that we made mistakes almost every single transaction. now that we think back. its really quite funny and hilarous. it was like a recap from 2006 till now. that we both grown with the organisation, gained more confidence in our presentation when we communicate with our customers.n even when yaya people come in our way . we can still " have our way n retailate in an "assertive n tactful manner..
李老师 always emphasize.. "tactfully inform the customer"
never regret my decision. i chosed it this way n i believe it will get better n better..
all the good tings coming on my way...

an outing with an older man

i 've gained a better understanding on how older man behaves.. in the end i didnt compromise by having vegetarian dinner, went forward to have a later snack in coffeebean .. n ray ordered big ben for me taste good.the breeze was cool n it was veri relaxing to sit by the beach and chit chat..
overall was a good outing.he helped me cut it into small pieces as i was wearing this low cut halter top n the table was just too small to bend myself.
next the accomodating part was something which younger man seem to lack
The drawback is the age barrier. In his earlier days , he had clubbed too much so in the biological clock will tick for him for bedtime. the energy to be wild or astray has greatly reduced because the body system cannot take such stress as compared to the past
maybe the days of hanging out in crowded places or drinkingis over for him.
he has shared the plans of retirement like retreating to porthsmouth in UK. it sounds like a pretty good place to retire
hes been to the uk for studies before so he knows the area quite well..well worth a consideration..

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had a farewell nongshim maggi mee with the teller..farewell chicken rice with zhenlong n jasmine..i feel a little sad somehow that i m leaving this place which i been working for the past 2.5yrs. n it was such a short notice. so i had to pack my little locker. locker no 4 which i been using for so long.. took all my shoes , my uniform n my barang barang nicely
离开了，内心百感交集，心情是带点伤感和期待，难过会是有一点。。同时也很期待新的事情,环境同事，office..
mon... offically bb staff...
这几年来，我像是老了不少，笑容也吝啬了许多，从不同照片在不同阶段，compare all the pass that i had, the happiest i had was still the poly student card which i took in yr 2000..peggy commented that i look eurasian with my features n over the years e smile get more n more rigid.. is this something good
later on will be meeting ray for dinner someting different. vegetarian... haizz

insonmia again on 200608 0218

听了冲动这首曲，很贴切

很感激 这城市拥挤的交通
让你我 还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松
我的心 是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我 想你的时间不够用
为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 你改变我

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中 自由走动
抚平我 每一个伤口
忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信 自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

你是情人 还是朋友
还没勇气 想得太多
你的世界 如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2E7jyVypPuE
今晚的心情很复杂，我仿佛还停留在时间的交界处。不可思议。。。难以置信。。。。他的掌心很温暖。
我像是可以放心依偎着哥哥这样
难道真的来了? 是这样吗?
我想太多了！！
反常。。。。。。。
其实顺其自然的恋情才会持久，大叔说的。
为了避免他又罗嗦，我想到妙计.cut him n zip .....不然会受不了，发脾气，
我开始不能理智，这是症状，好恐怖
希望一切顺利
工作如期完成
晚餐喝了奶茶好精神。。明天一定熊猫眼。。既然如此我因此 tune in to youtube n watch elva's music videos.她的歌曲很有感情。。。

Offday alone shopping .eating.reading

today was my off day. went for a massage n a foot spa earlier as well as a shopping spree for new lingrie .. yeah!... cheap GSS!!
waited for ray to knock off. change of plan, had to eat tau huay coz hes vegetarian.. gui lin gao contains turtle so its out of bounds to him even walking pass a durian stall can make him puke.. wat a fragile man..well its a good start , so its good i m the talkative one over here.
foot spa is cool. there is this parafin wax luxuriously spread to your feet wrapped in a plastic transparent wrap which leaves your feet smooth after 10min.. nice nice..
lingrie is on sale so its worth the buy.. 80 odd for 4 bras n 6 undies..
perhaps ray went uk for studies before so hes more open minded n tink its ok for certain aspects
well i dun tink so that way
nicely shaven n clean... smell nice ..thats my kind of man

pondering

as i was thinking about all the possible advantages and disadvantages of dating an older man
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/-eGLqv9aGnI/
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/mNgzWdx1y3E/
there are no disadvantages.. men age slower than women afterall
it is an attractive package laid to me but i have my doubts about this person
i re-watch SATC on tudou again..
adv
men will dote on younger women
more accomodating

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後來的一天，大家走的路不一樣了，立場不同了，彼此的感情也發生了微妙的變化。你不是我期待的，我也許讓你失望了。那一刻，我們才驚覺，沒有不散的筵席。
後來的惆悵指的是伤感和失意
下一次，不要再對人付出感情了，那才不會受傷害。有些人可能选择不再相信爱情，有些却还是重复性跌进某个烂泥坑，难以自拔
我們都沒想到失去的時候原來這麼惆悵，更沒想過，我以後還是會惦念你。
很有感触和共鸣吗
繁华喧闹的城市在早上繁荣昌盛，相反在夜里总是显得冷清，寂寞， 越是掩饰越是空虚，越不明白过着琐事，日复一日的生活，可是为了理想，为了实现梦想不得一得强迫自己做点成绩，好好奖赏自己，对得起自己
好懊恼，太多的抱怨会让人特别压抑
努力不代表100%顺利成功，不付出任何努力又害怕失去机会
人是矛盾的动物，我却认为人比动物多了一份人性，感情，感觉思考的思绪，因为有了因此变得复杂多变
歇斯底里的情绪又意为什么。。为什么人就可以那么迁就，卑微牵强，虚伪自私，甚至不要脸也可以把自尊往地上狠狠踩，拽下去。。。无言
今晚脾气不受往常容易掌控，暴发力特强
辛苦的是身边的无辜受害者
是内疚还是理直气壮，我分不清，
大叔还算浪漫，天天传简讯，让我有小小的安慰
他很直接，很像我在一些方面
他世面见得多，经历也不少
看得开是一种福气，何必执着亏待自己
失败有时也是一种收获的累积
我在这夜阑人静的深夜暗暗得叹了一口气，又过了一天。。感慨万千
胸口闷闷，不明日一早一定会比昨天棒！
肚子很饿。。
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保持
身材
多余的感情未必好，但也为枯燥乏味的生活增添情趣

out on a coffee date in star bucks

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older men do think very differently from the younger ones. generally they are more open minded n exposed to many aspects
if i were to compare someone my age and people much older. theres really a difference
thers some skepticsm going on.

quite an interesting day 160608 2212hrs

hahah interesting characters in branch today. one screw loose.. wearing a super short flimsy sphag dress with the g string jutting out n the mid drift... shes super hiao.. n i tink its against my principle n ethical issues to sell her anything
n then some blur blur people who always dump their cheques in the wrong bank..
n was talking with a guy fren n he was sharing some tips with me about XXXXX
anyway one of my colleague was asking me whether i need someone. but then again its not like wet market
recently i seem to know more IT men. too many of them .. i tink its fashionable to be IT professional
anyway the operations remains quiet . business is poor with looney ppl
older men n younger men...