Happy National Day 9.8.2012

Had $10ktv w Joanna. AM, Bro 2 , n bro 3.. Provided bro 3 friendly loan $50. Had dinner, marked attendance with Md Bong. Old Mrs Bong ah po n a fren of hers in Boon hwa.. Mdm Ong Ong. aka Bong strike 4d again.. $6k for xiao hong. 5059.. We had ba chor mee after the ktv ended at 1 am ... This morning manage some time off with lau pei.. breakfast n lunch.. I love my city sunny days.. la la lala. My bro2 was lecturing.. ah ling life is a cycle when we reach to a age, we need other ppl to take care of us when we are old. Whether you like her a not, she will become your mother when u marry him. If you start treating her like ur own mum, perhaps you would have her interests and live amicably together.

a nite. out with E Lian Na.. ang mo lian n Serene

Its been a year since I sat down dinner face to face with Elena. Today included Serene as well..preggy mother in town.. circular st.. had some ranmen n ..tea n heineken after dinner. Dinner treat by E.lian.. Shes changed after a year. still as melancholy. Hates n love her job. goes home 9,10pm daily. shifted to Kent hill some posh condos near scotts. her dog passed on n she didnt really get over it much. She has this shaking hand syndrome which requires medication. It could be her.. her quote is relationship phobic n that is hindering her from meeting new men in her life after Guy.. She still loves him but she choose to end the relationship. Rich. but still as usual unhappy w her mum whos an exact mould of her. stubborn strong headed and mood swings. Shared a little bit on my upcoming plans.She was sharing with me today. problems w Mdm Bong n her unsightly habits.. that love should be self sacrificing.. selfless n initiated willingly..How many normal folks have that kind of enduring spirit. This is for housewives of the past era.. Women now are equally capable. Financially stable . Well educated and exposed. Yes marriage means married to the husband's family. Lily.. happily married w a son. Lucas.. Serene.. expecting dragon boy in 1 month.. 110912.. Elena happily travelling. diving trips.. career building.. maternal instincts..Zerrooo... Her advice if i continue to be getting my way . it indicates recipe for disaster potentially. Getting a man to choose between wife and mother. How a man treats his mother will reflect how he treats his wife.. hahaha.. I do have a lot to overcome. maybe bad hygiene habits.. n diets are one of the few areas I cant accommodate yet. Each family member has a equally troublesome person to deal with... Looking back 5/8/2012. YY is 9 n Baby Corliss is 3 yesterday. The family had fun in PAsir ris recreation Mac.. followed by bowling in dt east. Has been a long time since the family had a wonderful time.. My dad bowled well w many strikes.. we bowl w bro3.. Yao Long. michelle n Panda Pheng.. At around 11.30pm while sleeping halfway. my dad yelled n scream. He must have been complacent n stopped his medication when he thought hes ok. Wedding is for a day. marriage is for life. Y fuss over it when it cannot withstands the hardship n trials.. every morning after 29/9/13 I want to wake up n tell myself i make a gd choice when i sign the dotted line. No matter what happens this big bear is someone i w live with n take care of each other as long as we live.. The part of me being self centred n wilful.. stubborn. short temper..greedy and impatient.. I tink whatever the long path ahead.. I should love his mother like how i love mine. And family dun bear grudges. As a da sao.. have to be less ji jiao .. more open.. less narrow minded . more resourceful. tactful n dutiful... Its difficult doing .. executing than just saying it as a bystander.. So as a wife, i should place family above all interest as form of mindset..Although I may lugi a bit in the long run everybody but me is happi..What to do.. a single mother after 20 yrs of slogging would i want to c her stranded n lonely in her old age.. thats being infillal.. aint it... Put up with a grouchy woman... option 2. bear w her nonsense n hopes she could change..pray for improvements.. hahah wishful thinking... Change myself n my mindset probabbly easier.. And this shortly defines boring marriage mundane life...I m unsure if i m already dreading that day.. n life after 30 means commitment to the family. the house . the chores. the in laws. the parents. the kids. the colleagues... n be a super super mum .... its like 13 months to Mdm Sng.. Mrs Wang.. Sept 29 2013 7 months to photoshooting.. Mar 2013 10 months to food tasting.. June 2013 I think of it. as a project in parts to complete tasks. quotes. evaluating. negotiating. compromising n enduring as a daughter in law. sis in law. wife. mother. daughter n many other roles.. After 13 months.. endless contractor shopping n furnishing.. furniture shopping n chores.. This is marriage.. responsibilities n commitments..

早上想的字词灵感

首先感谢大家抽空。

谢谢我的家人，父母亲的养育。英平妈妈。还有表姐，姐妹和兄弟团。

还有亲人，老公给我的包容和谦让。一路走来很感激身边关心支持我。
英平和我很荣幸分享我们的喜悦，

今天是我和英平开始的起跑点。往后要一起过日子by

收到大家的祝福，我们很开心

往后还有很长我哥哥常常讲。我们会一起好好进营婚姻。

最后还有未嫁或娶的朋友，希望你也找到幸福！
 enjoy ur dinner, 如果有招待不周请多多包含
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Countdown.. PH next week

On this night 31072012 in my little room.. i decided to write after reviewing my past entries accumulation since 2005... thats 7 long years of my journey and my memories. Past events from 22-29..... Single jog hopping.. hop bf..lover. partying.. lousy men. jobs. miserable w sch results,bla bla.. YR 2013 30... 29.9.13 Sign on dotted line.. Upgrade Ms Sng to Mrs Wang Eng Pheng.. 31...32..many many yrs.... to be updated.. in my marriage life complaining series.. 2011 was a big jump of commitments.. Finish degree. complete assig. exams 2012 is rosy.. while not for first quarter.. find job. Second half focus on complexion, weight loss. get settled with GE. Yes CSO is a challenging role but to able to help ppl when they need help most lost of loved ones.. painful memories.. money relief.. is meangingful kinda happy with the colleagues now.. hope this would be long term career for me or to internally hope within organisation... Did a wedding online blog..http://pandanporkie.perfectweddings.sg/wedding-story/ well lots to go.. wat to do customary chinese wedding if only we can just sign on the dotted line . have a simple buffet. renovate the house .. buy furniture n shift in.. wishful thinking... 2309hrs.. at my little table little hill house..

Py's wedding over ..Kluang,,,

To summarise the first quarter of 2012, finally found some purpose in my career. tried direct sales after completing my part time studies.. Problems encountered in 2012 sick of DP CS role initially Found Reed Elsevier.. Eguide as a account manager but realise I m not pushy enough as a direct sales. After 3 weeks found a CSO role with Great Eastern Life.. One big round and viola back to financial institution, this time poorer arm of the Bank cousin.. Mother co of OCBC. The culture is similar to OCBC, systems and people managing. Thoughts after 1 month in the call centre compared to Citi, DP and OCBC SA Role GEL more work life balance. slightly higher pay but not the best. Nice colleagues so far within the same floor.. Supportive bosses as I can tell as of current. Quite a stable environment, proven with many working mothers. Cons. Difficult to take leave. MC and AL is controlled tightly with min manpower. Younger colleagues tend to have higher turnover rate. After a week of gorging, its time to revert back to reality. Back to the call centre, this time picking up independently.. Upcoming goals.. Still struggling with weight issues Action Plan, increasing intensity, motivation to go Amore for classes to tone up Counting down to Dec 2012 -> Get GEL confirmation Jan 2013 - May 2013 -> Secure AL for days to settle with studio Finalise wedding vendors to work with April- May 2013 -> Settle bridal photo taking June - Sept 2013 - > Intensive Planning ( u name it.. all the small little tasks which may not b my forte, but still has to be done eventually.. ) RSVP Guest List 25- 32 tables. approximately 250- 300 guests Objectives to achieve From what i view as a 3rd party perspective being jie mei for 2011 n 2012 appro 4 frens n beyond.. Marriage to me after attending X no of weddings so far.. is like going through the motion on that day, and the real deal starts when you start it rolling after the wedding night and beyond.... Try to strike balance of $, ambience and key things Quality Pics Memorable Event Funny video to remember Fun moments with Jie Meis Value for $ vendors Mutual blessings and happy event with the future Wangs Family Oct 2013 - Dec 2014 period To pend for Parkview to be completed Finalise a theme Source for Contractors Get quality furniture lowest cost Shift in with Panda to start a new section of life.. Timeline 2015 & beyond.. Plan C... Children by 35... hopefully second one latest by 36.. fulfil Pig mother n piglet theme.. by then... So much of planning.. by 2018... i wonder how much has these above been achieved.. at the cost evaluated.

24 June 2012 ... another jie mei into ren qi club. was a long day but hapi n fulfiling..

一辈子的含义

一辈子的含义意义很沉重，包含了担当，责任和守在的承诺。。
有了担当 让人要更坚强和朴实。。婚姻建立的共同信念， 患难与共应该就是着这个定义。
担当让人顿时逐渐成长， 对另一个人的坚持和期待。。
我做了确定， 为我规划的人生充满憧憬。离开现任的状况， 无论会成。 我会依然接受。。

矢志不渝

一段矢志不渝的感情总需要面对多多波折和考验。可成事必经历千辛万苦。结了婚待多了解维系微妙的夫妻和婆媳关系！
With the dilution of the 80s and below getting married n now facebook is flooded with warm family and baby and children pics. It s no wonder in 5 years time the next patch of the 90s would soon have the next patch of proposal ring pics , boyfriend , galfriend travel pics and so forth.
I read n borrowed some book on how to communicate and embrace differences in partners n in time point in time i reckon like me with people like Panda who are more amicable and yet analytical would have to rough out certain issues to smoothen conflicts.
Merrill-Wilson
The profiles of the Merrill-Wilson system overlap closely with the Personality Plus system:
Driver: Choleric
Analytical: Melancholy
Expressive: Sanguine
Amiable: Phlegmatic

I pluck off my proposal ring today and question myself if i make the right decision to agree to get married.

while waiting for our house to be ready we decide to get married in Q3 2013 before the house instead of after renovation as it would delay 2 years. Our quarrel was on staying separately for about 6 months because his family has poor hygiene habits.This issue then become a bugging issue as my parent believe i should accommodate as the future da shao. I am the youngest so through this preparation got to train myself to switch my mindset to achieve a harmony equilibrium. For some lame reason we argue in the car, I dunno wat came into me today. I pluck off my proposal & return back to Panda..
N shortly while Panda was driving he broke into sobs.. n was truly heart broken.. I was beri guilty but didnt like the fact that he was also yelling at me for missing out my bro 's car while following them to Mt Vernon to pray to my mum.
And while i took off my ring today didnt expect Panda to be so sad. But recalling the few moments. I didnt expect myself to react equally violently as well today. Its the result of other people who has that control obsession..
a total of 8 cockroaches killed. After this weekend i m constantly questioning myself if i have the capacity to really accommodate to such differences in our personal hygiene values. The wedding prep is really giving me a toil and there were times i want to walk out of his house. Today I kill a cockroach when i saw it walk pass me at the kitchen wall. bread was exposed and a lot of food items were left unattended. Even after the cockroach posion was spread, Md Bong stil did not bother to clear off the carcass. it seriously dawned upon me what were her values.

Must have been the day i yell at panda for the worst and good reason

After much contemplation.. cleaned the sty w good dettol mr muscle and all the essential cleaning tools..
I yell at him reason being army of cockroach clan..
well i guess it was good coz i could not longer contain my wrath and fear
indeed Panda proved me wrong. He solved my fears
We bought cockroach poison and despite me throwing my tanturms... Panda equally as scared of cockroach decide to clear up the mess and calm the Pork down..

leap yr 2012Feb 29

Should i take the papers . should i bravely take the step to break from a basic pay n walk towards a recurring income...hiak hiak

事事得成 得遇贵人 若问前程 终久相逢 远望行人..解签
可作老来翁行人可口笑向西又向东柳簌笑春风

Before my interview for Power seraya

Still 2 hours before my visit with Sam, my VP i m meeting for my round 3 interview.
was still saddened that my iphone4 is lost when i drop it along the roadside when Panda drop me off after i kiss him. what a memorable V day to end it off.
Its been a ride. preparing for round 1 with HR. round 2 sales pitch & now
havent been focusing in DP for the daily follow ups & sales calls.in short i lost my passion for Senior RE there.

Dad's zz walking syndrome has been worsening. he zz walk last fri & tried to hit bro2 by doing zombie stunt. will bring him to the doc at 2pm later.. n i hope my interview would be smooth to impress sam san with my " drive"

1st post in 2012

7 years since my last blog. to recap 2011.. it was a busy year with studies assignment. juggling with work and examinations.

2011 has just ended 50 mins ago. It was a year which I witness a few of my good frens settling down and having their house ready. Also for me personally, panda n i committed to a matrimonial asset followed by a little diamond ring from him. Also in 2011 I had my promotion and my share of agony at work. come 2012, hopefully I would be happier in my job and find a nicer boss with better pay and environment.
to end the 2011, i was happy to be the jie mei of my friends, completed my part time studies with Kaplan, committed with more disciplined savings to see it grow. Towards the end of the year Oct, also started a jogging regime with Panda at Bedok reservoir my haunt for morning jogs.This year also marks a year staying in Pasir Ris, waking up earlier and used to the longer ride back home from town. Things seem to be flowing somewhat the way I planned .come 2012, the emphasis would be on career, switch from the entry level to some thing specialised. More time to spend with lau pei as he shows signs of ageing and dementia when he deciphers things more slowly.
and since next year would be my wedding year.. i hope to spend more time with my family and my dad while i m still staying in Pasir Ris.. while i got time lim kopi with dad..n try to acc him as often as i could.
also if i got pay rise in my next job. hope can give him more pocket $$$ and also save more $$ to build on my house.

this should be the most stressful 1 month since my last assignment

last 2 assignments due Nov 4 2011 SMPP2 --> Zouk Singapore

Due Nov 11 2011 IMC 2-- > Citibank

SMPP Reflection Paper --> last last assig.


going nuts soon with all these research....

NOV 19 2011 --> pls come soon as well as dec 17 the results.... to determine if i can job hop

29/9/2013 Thurs

2 yrs from this date would be panda & my 大喜之日.. Hehehe
Wonder by then maybe Maureen, py, Ms Heng may have junior by then hahahha

Its quite a funny thought of the projected budget to allocate and the endless list of task just to get 1 big task done.

Today I take bus 81 frm loyang to kovan.. In future as a hougang
Nang I would just need walk 10 min to hougang mrt to take train to town n instead of 45-75 min should take half e $ & time..

This weekend is a wedding weekend ahead sat& sun!!!

Finished project brief 1 already Heng ah.. Find tat Jane quite bossy n I kinda snap at her last nite.

So looking forward to weekend today's monthly meeting & if possible feel like take mc tml extended weened..

done with media budgeting

really hate to do budgeting..
pissed today.

process of planning a wedding

0112hrs... 24 months to wedding with Panda..29.9.2013.. 20kg to lose
current weight : 70kg lost about 3 kg over about the past month or so..
cutting back on snacks..trying hard to lesser rice during dinner and less fried food for a start.. lesser fastfood.. no stress eating sweet drinks.. hopefully stress w make me slimer.. after which next big ticket item is to confirm wedding venue..
Peony Jade
Miramar Hotel Peach Garden
Furama river front..
Hotel Park Royal
Budget $1k per table..max 20 tables.. 200 guests..list of tasks can all this be fulfiled by june 30 2012 to look back..wat a list of things fulfiled in 24 months..

For a 24mth schedule.. i agree i been thinking ahead too far.. more immediate goals..complete swinburne's final 2 units SMPP N IMC..

Find another stable career after CNY 2012..secure bonus DP2011

List of scheduled tasks
deadline 30sept 2011 IMC project brief 1
Dealine 14 Oct 2011 IMC project brief 2
Major assig deadline IMC deadline 11 Nov 2011.

Complete IMC exam on Nov 19 2011

Await results on Dec 17 2011 8am..

SMPP non exam.. case study 1
major assign
reflection reportSMPP

Oct 1 Jane& Kee's wedding

Oct 2 Hui shan &pei wei 's wedding

Dec 3 2011 DP D&D nite..

NoV 24 2011 Suyi's wedding

Dec 132011 Sinyi's wedding

Jan 14 2012 Maureen's wedding

Timeline aft cny.. during cny period to compare rates..

June 2012 30 hopefully to finalise the venue...n $3k deposit paid..

July 15 2012 Vivien's wedding

Mar 2013 - Jun 2013 to start preparing on the targeted task to prepare for big day
hopefully target weight to reach 55-60kg by then...

Task of check list to complete the small task

May 2013 to have task to complete bridal pics from La belle..

Jun 2013- Sept- 2013 hopefully has reached 50kg...

Panda's Bing li-->14.9.2013 Sat 8am sharp to deliver the bing li 10th day Aug lunar calendar.. important note.. both parties to not b present.. panda to send a representative
BIG DAY---> 29.9.2013 SUn 25th lunar Aug wedding date 25th day Aug lunar.. important no dragon jie mei xiong di..pregnant jie mei not to be jie mei..
bro3, moi jan to siam abit as well as hao hao.. dragons to lim kopi for the ceremony.. to check with Dannywhen the date draws near..

0140hrs.... time to watch ppstv.. letv on iphone..

qw

Strategic business research pending grade..
Service marketing.. pending.. released by 17092011.. another 5 hrs of waiting..
my stomach is growling.. n i m telling my brain that although i am 80% unreplenished for supper earlier @ G7 frog porridge store at lor 3 geylang..
A few milestone since my last updates.
6 months since 31 Mar.. today's 17 Sept 2011.. i am just so close to completion my marketing degree which i been harping for since 2003.. 8 yrs.. just 2 months away from it.. n every day continues to be a challenge to juggle so many things happening in my life now..so far grades was fine.. for the past 4 units.. which was halfway past. i remember i was so scared that i would fail n waste my $2996 course fee on 3 months ago..
today i face the same type of feat although i bear a certain confidence in myself..
updates since mar.. promoted to senior RE in DP group.. holding on to top tier package plan for platinum,telco & casino port for both macau,aust & sg..
cover the maternity lady and manage to juggle sch work fairly well.. decent grades.
fixed my wedding date to be 29 September 2013 which is about 24 months from today..
got my proposal ring from Panda bui bui in July 2011..
2011 & 2012 I will see my jie mei men all getting hitched while I remain still "single" while the rest become Mrs XXXXXX... n plus i get to collect 2 more years of ang bao and enjoy being served at home with soup...
the next task is to quality the guest list RSVP.. my least favourite task of wedding planning..
Now that the guan yin has given the theme of low profile wedding. its good for me as both Panda & i have a tight budget... everything item is a cost and sunk expenses. the process of planning this lifetime event is stressful .exciting and mentally, financially draining & fascinating..
From a young gal to a wife.. would be the my next transition stage n as much as i detest this change, it is like the natural process for a belonging and another identity to our relationship from stranger to man & wife
try as i might, the idea of setting up a family n home is so foriegn n things are as bleary and the route ahead is just so blurry with no clear direction.
With the help of modern technology like singapore brides reviews , we seen more testimonials and experiences of other people going through this route and here i m now hating the mafan part but also proud that i make this very decision to settle down with someone i know is worth all this while.
Both Panda & I signed the agreement lease to our very own matrimonial asset. A 112 sq ft in Parkview and it would be my home in 2014. Yes forsee more bickers, quarrels, disagreements, fights and arguments. which couple doesnt quarrel.. n it would also be home to our kids . little panda n pork chop juniors.
N i got to leave the radar screen of chwee poh and my hounding bossy brothers who boss their kid sister around.
I would make use of this time to self practise my profound existing EQ skills to collaborate well with Panda as well as to build strong bonding with my future mother and bro in law who i call them my family in existing to my own clan.
Things which i know my weakness needs to be brushen up like stubbornness. wilfulness and ego which need to be further refined. n my ability to see things more broadbased and more tolerance to dumb nosy n insensitive ppl are some areas of concern in terms of my style of communication.
after all we are all but different n would need to learn to live together in harmony till we part. n this is part of the vow signed for aint it. N this is the ties which all couples commonly share to build a family, in the name of love, while love aint tat enough. n how to fall in love with the same bui kia over n over again.. lovey doey doesnt last a life time.. having common goals does n the level of commitment should not have the law of diminishing return.. hahah as wat i remember wat my econs lecturer quoted. love should b enduring, n it should stand periods of down sides for the good & bad times. n with this in mind, builds a strong foundation for a loving cultured family.

Amidst the wedding plan and the process, on this very day i tend to miss my late mum .. hw did i get pass this 17 yrs with my years of schooling.. my fears, my anxiety and my worries.

n 26 nov 2009.. we shared our love and it is blossomed till current with all our little housing commitments and planning going on . I wish sometimes I had more of mum's past memories n its a shame on how little memories i could rely on. Mum was a jovial lady who is always friendly and generous with the ppl she met, n she had a gd network. I must have been truly blessed to inherit her sales genes and manage with my "hao suang" character to land up with Panda..
In 2 yrs time, my salutation would be revised n my late nite drinking sessions with my lim qiu khaki would then revise to late nite feeding sessions.. Its horrifying, dictative and directives to be virtuous, caring and supportive role of what wives ought to be. Perhaps its time to revise the ruling that since now women could bring bread on the table, isnt it also fair to raise standards for modern, contemporary husbands, new age penguin dads to behave, and contribute their fair share to the home which would make wives' task less daunting, routine and manipulative as to the term of supermums termed as..
Men should also exercise some efforts and care to ensure the marriage works for both with constructive feedback , actions plans to be carried out consistently to maintain a healthy, loving relationship as Man n wife.
n concurrently, a almost finished degree, a rewarding career with lotsa $, a healthy body to procreate n produce kids , juniors, a systematic plan to carry out and follow up on for a happy, simple and unforgetable low profile wedding. next would be a cozy home with reasonable furnishing and renovation, accompanying a cute little car to carry all the Panda family in a lovely home in Hougang... a place i call it home ...
its perhaps rather simplistics.. n the short medium goals is to lose 15-20kg by May 2013.. n perhaps 10kg by 2012 Dec n hopefully by my 29th birthday i m halfway complete with it.. n before my 30th birthday.. i m a proud wife n bride to be 2013...

Rampant spree in watson.. sasha n 2 nites of jap food.

Its been a month since i last wrote.. been busy rushing.. rushing.. and more rushing everyday.. day in and out.. just settled in 1 hr ago.. with about 1 hr travelling from bugis to tampines n then loyang ave.
good news is I been promoted.. to senior .. within 1 year and 4 months with DPI..
next best months for the month of April.. bonus month..
and following come would be increment..