unhappy day before work

it was supposed to be a happy session but somehow it turned out otherwise things i wanted it to be smooth just turned out otherwise. things i planned just didnt go my way
many outing that was meant to be happy just turned out unpleasant like a waste of time altogether
i cant help it but question my own judgment suddenly today y i make myself like a fool suddenly
lsb can only lend me her ear and occasionally advise me what can be done to prevent certain unhappiness
to her opinion if one party gets out of the car suddenly its considered a rude gesture. i didnt really think too much into it maybe i cannot swallow a lot of unhappiness all the time and act like some subservient dog beside him. i can feel my veins bursting or nearly on the verge maybe i m starting to really lose patience and cool which i usually can hold quite well
wats a hard core gamer lifestyle typically like and issit worthwile accomodating to a mcp person in the long run. i wonder also
maybe to him those are his priorities
like lsb mentioned i m gong .i can allow another person to dig at me . yell at me spoil my day and degrade myself n i can still pose to the whole world. oh i m still hanging there well.
i slip and fall on my way while walking to walk due to some clash of events
while taking the 15min walk i cant help but a wall of oppressive negative emotions just rise up and i begin to resent and hate some parts of it which i really detest . however i just choose to hide under the cupboard a term lsb taught me and pretend nothing is wrong. something is wrong and when the ignition point burst. i know i cant pretend that everything is going fine or at least somewhat the direction i would like to .
nu
maybe i really should reconsider this choice or at least do things to improve a conflict to alleviate some of the pain and agony that i dun usually have to go through after a series of psychotic demanding customers i c for work average of 8-10hours daily in the bank
i just find there theres some form of inequality lying there and i m just not pleased with it and theres nothing i can do except to accept it
my threshold for people hurling at me is thin , i can no longer acede sometimes. in short i lose my cool when i could have maintain a high EQ standard
an article i was reading which i find it amusingly true in some ways
In love? It's not enough to keep a marriage, study finds
Reuters
Reuters - Wednesday, July 15

SYDNEY - Living happily ever after needn't only be for fairy tales. Australian researchers have identified what it takes to keep a couple together, and it's a lot more than just being in love.
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A couple's age, previous relationships and even whether they smoke or not are factors that influence whether their marriage is going to last, according to a study by researchers from the Australian National University.

The study, entitled "What's Love Got to Do With It," tracked nearly 2,500 couples -- married or living together -- from 2001 to 2007 to identify factors associated with those who remained together compared with those who divorced or separated.

It found that a husband who is nine or more years older than his wife is twice as likely to get divorced, as are husbands who get married before they turn 25.

Children also influence the longevity of a marriage or relationship, with one-fifth of couples who have kids before marriage -- either from a previous relationship or in the same relationship -- having separated compared to just nine percent of couples without children born before marriage.

Women who want children much more than their partners are also more likely to get a divorce.

A couple's parents also have a role to play in their own relationship, with the study showing some 16 percent of men and women whose parents ever separated or divorced experienced marital separation themselves compared to 10 percent for those whose parents did not separate.

Also, partners who are on their second or third marriage are 90 percent more likely to separate than spouses who are both in their first marriage.

Not surprisingly, money also plays a role, with up to 16 percent of respondents who indicated they were poor or where the husband -- not the wife -- was unemployed saying they had separated, compared with only nine percent of couples with healthy finances.

And couples where one partner, and not the other, smokes are also more likely to have a relationship that ends in failure.

Factors found to not significantly affect separation risk included the number and age of children born to a married couple, the wife's employment status and the number of years the couple had been employed.

The study was jointly written by Dr Rebecca Kippen and Professor Bruce Chapman from The Australian National University, and Dr Peng Yu from the Department of Families, Housing, Community Services and Indigenous Affairs.

for a long time today i was staring at my cell phone after lunch and i was trying to force myself to come with a decision and solution. i was asking myself do i really need to resort to plan B. its not easy . both lsb and tb always ask me is he the right one. m i really happy?they dun really think i m really happy
sometimes i dunno how to answer this question truthfully myself
numberlogy stufff i deal today.. i m a number 4.. n unfortunately i m dating 1
1s are selfish, dictated and bossy in short. well fits the bill exactly .
no wonder i m starting to lose it..
NO 4 is the worker. Practical, with a love of detail, Fours are trustworthy, hard-working, and helpful. Ruled by Uranus.

Keywords: trustworthy, helpful, steady, logical, self-disciplined, problem-solving. If expressed negatively: contrary, stubborn, narrow.

As lovers: Although steady and generally trustworthy, Fours can be quite emotional and frustrated if they feel caged in. They tend to need some level of confrontation in their love lives. A relationship that stagnates will bring out their contrary nature. They love to solve problems, and if allowed to "take on" and tackle predicaments, they are very loyal lovers.


Famous people with a Life Path 4 :
Arnold Schwarzenegger, Clint Eastwood.

have a Life Path number 4. The route of reliable and persistent working people.

You have come to this life to experiment with the concepts of security, stability and success through work and merit. You will be brought to prove discipline, method and regularity all the way along this route. A life of construction and seriousness as well as that which concerns your dwelling, your profession and yourself. You will be regularly confronted with situations calling on stability and solid aptitudes which push you to develop these powers. A relatively slow progression where only perseverance and merit will be rewarded. It is probable that your life will be regular, sometimes a bit routine or dull. An existence marked with projects to make real and stable. The lesson of this life program is to learn to carry out your work with regularity and to assume responsibility but without closing yourself to the rest of the world. In a word, to become a solid value. However, it will be more necessary to count on your force of personal achievement than on a possible easy success, by some donation or other.

Famous people with a Life Path 4 :
Arnold Schwarzenegger, Clint Eastwood.


Number One

One is the leader. The number one indicates the ability to stand alone, and is a strong vibration. Ruled by the Sun.

Keywords: independent, creative, original, ambitious, determined, self-assured. If expressed negatively: arrogant, stubborn, impatient, self-centered.

As lovers: Number ones take the lead in love. Love and/or the chase is of utmost importance to these lovers. There can be self-centeredness, however. These lovers are willing to experiment, and they can be quite exciting--they can also require a lot of excitement because they can bore easily.

You have a Life Path Number 1. Route of conquerors, individuals and eccentrics.

It corresponds to the itinerary of those who are made for action and whose most important accomplishments are individual and original. In your life, it will be necessary for you to have courage, confidence in yourself, authority, a mind for independence or undertakings and a lot of determination. You will regularly be confronted with situations or obstacles that give you the opportunity to use and master this type of power ; the aim being to learn to reach success counting essentially on yourself. It is a destiny generally quite lucky. It incites worthiness, merit, conquering, innovating but also the acceptance of the consequences of your own decisions. With this Life Path you generally advance quickly and it is better no to try to force things too often because you may lose your pace or rhythm. A life rich in new developments during which you will be brought to develop self-assertion, a certain boldness and sometimes pride or a rebellious spirit. Perhaps it will help you to motivate others and draw them into your ways. You must take your destiny in hand, open the track and persevere !

Famous people with a Life Path 1 :
Yves Saint-Laurent, Alain Prost, Sean Connery, Tom Cruise, Walt Disney, Charlie Chaplin, Henri Ford, Jacques-Yves Cousteau, Napoleon Bonaparte
the past week just hasnt been smooth sailing at work either. we are short handed. we have a suspected case of a colleague having H1N1. i have to cover extra work and the person i can consult doesnt render the same amount of support to me or my crew/ it makes work very frustrating and time consuming
i was at this saturation point that i just want to leave work aside and slack. the condition has been harsh to us. with certain compliance procedure and personally i also hates rules and regulations. we had clients in bad debts seeking welfare assistance and more people seeking some help . of course i would love to solve it as much i would or i could .

as much as i know rules are not meant to be broken in the banking environment i found some of the procedures rather dumb because we do it for the sake of doing it.
in line with some other issues i encounter outside work i thought i had to be fair to my clients
i just hope that the weekend can come soon and i can slack comfortably in peace
i wish i didnt have to handle conflict issue on a personal aspect after work is over
it is tiring and it leaves an after effect that it cant be erased visbly . i m not narrow minded or petty or maybe i should use this weekend to recharge
there has been so much tension or unnecessary tension i bring upon myself without me knowing it. i m so tired . i m emo. negative. and super bad mood this evening. its affecting my sleep and i force myself to get over it once i purge it out of my system , my brain .. and the recap of the episode this morning and the chain of activities at work the lousy ppl i meet. its just not my day today like the sudden downpour
something i copy from a website..
When two people are first involved in a relationship, everything is wonderful and friction is rare.

Then, as time goes by, you get to know other sides of your partner and, undoubtedly, discover some personality traits you don’t like, and other traits you appreciate.

The more time you spend together, the more you get to know each other. But even if you consider your relationship almost perfect, you will certainly experience at least some areas of possible friction.
p4
Virtuous, dutiful, conventional, loyal, ambitious, efficient, resourceful, practical, romantic, prudent. Negative: Rigid, sanctimonious, thoughtless, greedy, ruthless, manipulative, disillusioned
p1
Self-confident showperson. Independent, single-minded, natural ability, successful, high standards, passionate, fulfilled. Negative: Egocentric, opinionated, frustrated tyrant, lonely, bitter