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its e morning after a late nite zouk outing. my throat feels dry. woke up at abt 7 plus despite collapsing in bed when i reach home ard 2.30am this morning.
there r really a lot of gorgeous babes n hunks out there. its a gd 2 yrs since i really went pubbing to unwind n "bio" nan ren
its amazing.. i mean.. its like a line of electric oozing through within u.. i call it e incredible magneto attraction.
its like lsb n i n tb took a lot of crappy pics using out handphone, u name it . e slutty duo bitch look ,, the come n F*** me look, the gila ones.n while i m updatingthis blog..e background is some korean hip hop music n recently this2 songs happen to b my favourite..e first one is my alram t.especially the lyrics one by lin you jia n e other is valene hsu ru yun , a another mongolian guy ah sa long

我爱的人作词:施人诚作曲:周杰伦编曲:吴庆隆林宥嘉-我爱的人http://www.feiyes.net/

我知道故事不会太曲折我总会遇见一个什么人陪我过没有了她的人生成家立业之类的等等她做了她觉得对的选择我只好祝福她真的对了爱不到我最想要爱的人谁还能要我怎样呢我爱的人不是我的爱人她心里每一寸都属于另一个人她真幸福幸福得真残忍让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深我爱的人她已有了爱人从他们的眼神说明了我不可能每当听见她或他说"我们"就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

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爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回我却还在等待着谁能出现伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈我却还是学不会狠心对谁男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味付出的从来不会等于收回我却还在等待着谁能出现伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴爱情好人总比坏人狼狈我却还是学不会狠心对谁男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生男人男人多希望你是好人多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼女人女人我答应做个好人不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等你就是我等的那个人男人男人女人女人多么希望你是对的人

作词:阿信(五月天)作曲:陈忠义演唱:刘若英

沙发上睡着孤单冷醒的破晓冷的面条热的泪痕啤酒在苦笑当时的煎熬当时的心痛如绞天终于亮了遗憾终于退潮终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒丢掉电影票删掉信件跟合照洗了床单剪了头发清空了烦恼恨可以很小小到眼泪能冲掉我现在很好可以重新起跑终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒地铁涌出了人潮幸福涌出了预兆我会找回当初对爱天真的霸道谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒.

i tink those lyrics r veri engaging. they happen to reflect some of my emotions at that particular moment in time n i tink e best way to record it is to name it in some part of your life.

i tink the alchohol effect hasnt wear off yet.. i have this spilting headache which i cant roll back to sleep, its like a super alert catalyst which force u to be widely awake n active, a rush of adrenaline which is indescribable, tml i will be going marriot to attend a wedding lunch. seeing another close buddy,best co-worker married, really happy for her. I really enjoyed this 2yrs ++ working with her , always bugging her to submit her completed paperwork to me.getting angry with her when shes a bit " off her mind "yah.. salesppl sometimes they get cranky when their sales is down.. drinking n making merry with the rest of the defunt sales team we had back in 2006-2007.always suan each other at her cubicle,a lot of mixed emotions surging within. there is this chinese word. yi jie jin zai bu yan zhongalso a gd fren personally , during my most darkest period in my life, i tink she sms me , n this text i can still remember vividly. aft reading it , i start n try to digest n feel happier but at that time it was nothing but absolute bitterness inside me

all i recall what i was, was a sad gal who once lost her all her confidence n herself. n e frens ard her were by her side to accompany this lonely path she once treaded on.a lost soul in search of her true self

walked past sukothai last evening n now standing before carrie is a mature young lady n nt the pimply . tanned , curly .. QQ hair xiaomei.10yrs flew by. when lsb n me worked parttime after our o levels .. we were really kids , ignorant n ru chou wei gan. arrogant then tinking that we were really adults at that time.

第一个清晨 - a song which brings back gd/sweet memories with pb. we walked past this ming ge zhang ting n we happen to listen to this singer sing really well while we hugged each other while watching this performance, i wonder how is he coping now. i also know there is no pt in harping on the past. women sometimes r borned "jian"

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hehehe today is a great day . tgif.
shi er fu de.. i lost an important document yesterday , no matter how i find . i couldnt find it
today my assistant found it.. so happy
tml i wont be working so tonite meeting up nelly , ms tan for dinner @ central mall n a drink later in clarke quay. so nice n i just did a nice manicure ..red sia color. so happy. my nails r well shaped n nicely trimmed.. its a disaster to do it myself coz i have wobbly fingers.
another 40 mins or so.. br will be closing. everyone wants to ko early today including the backroom officers.
my boss has just left for kl to represent the bank against the one in msia.. in a yearly bowling competition
jiao is as usual today oso in her cranky mood. n here i m blogging in the meeting room
may is oso going for her shenzhen birthday trip with her husband,, so tian mi mi.. sweet act of him to plan a birthday trip..
hw many of such couples still do that ..

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its been raining quite heavily since br open abt 40 mins ago. operations remains quiet,this kind of weather is good for ma la huo guo , napping or curling yourself in bed , lazing on it.. or watching dvds on the sofa , not moving any inch
my assistant is on off today so today i m on my own coz she went for some team building, cheer leading activities the previous evening
Recently after the first quarter , there is a series of new reforms, new management teams , & new blood joining the organisation as such there are fresh ideas. However some of which may not be widely accepted by the peoply nt within the management level.
There was a new circular which concludes which ever that affects branding have to be dealt with IMMEDIATELY
one of my colleague commented it is good because which ever that cannot be resolved can be escalated upwards
well what to to , in order to progress change is inevitable in this contemporary society in this modern context
later this evening will plan to have this makan session with my team members
today feels odd coz when i look out the glass panel , i couldnt nt even c the plaza building , i can only see trees swaying n the merciless rain , thunder claps in the background as well
feels odd that my sales team strength has shrunk today, from the original strength of 6 to 3 today
how the weather is so unpredictable just like the stock market or even feelings between couples. for this moment maybe u can tell him.her you r the one i love, e one i m going to marry n the next moment, there r probabbly a dozen or hundred n one reasons y u choose to leave a person leaving might be a gd indicator, coz maybe when u r not together its an indicator ya how much u want to take a person back or not,
but some memories r best kept inside
after watching harold(south korean, US citizen) n kumar (indian ethnic, US citizen) , e male lead, kumar was so remorseful aft he left his ex gf of 2 yrs who he bump into soon to be married to someone more capable than him
hes still the same punk who still smokes weed . nt serious in anyting in life at all.
n the truth is tis gal Vanessa was moulding into someone whos nt herself , the guai guai lady who doesnt smoke weed coz her future husband is in politician career
e part which strikes me when harold n kumar goes to a brothel n then they seek solace n comfort with the whores on how much they love their gals.. especially kumar's part when he cried on one of their shoulders
n the line was
I never shouldnt have left her, i thought she would have been happier with this nice guy
but in fact i m not happy at all, now they r getting married
harold is the quiet, typical shy guy ( prudent accoutant )who will secretly daydream n imagine those scenes with her dream gal , a latino , a young mariah carey look alike . he had been in love with her gal but had not been able to profess his love coz she was a model . photoshoot in amsterdam . harold flew to amsterdam just to be able to c her n nt waiting 10days for her to be back coz she was his neighbour.. her doggey dreamy eyes..
hes such a charming person.. the typical south korean look . handsome... my type. those enaging.. "dian ren yan "
a scene whereby 2 frens were abt to die in their adventure. while they fall off a plane .. n harold ask kumar to swim towards him in air coz hes got parachutte ,
a line .. hey bro/harold, i tink i m going to die..
these 2 close brothes ( close buddies )
e bonding in the scene can move someone. especially if u were be caught in a situation whereby if you have ur close fren then n if only one of u can survive in a ordeal. how would u react in that situation.
fortunately they meet the president when they crashed n landed in his house . n clears off being accused a terrorist coz on their way to amterdam,he was caught smoking weed but was misunderstood as a hijacker due to these 2 ethnics.. south korean & al-queda
e plot is a bit lame but entertaining .
it has got a mix of comedy , slapstick, friendship n romance
sometimes rainy days , do stir up the emo side or the emotional side of a human
just recently there r a couple of more cases of "songka" funerals being held at my neighbourhood, n everyday i walk past on my way to work, i c more wreaths n flower stands n i quietly sigh to myself such is the cruelty of true reality
so i must embrace each day with zest , hope n possibilities
a ability to make things happen
when e tough gets going ,it gets tougher , it can literally train up a person's resistance against intense stress n trials
juz 2 mins ago, my colleague shared a piece of gd news to me..
sam.. shanghai indices up by 7.98 %. wow wow time to make some profit again
i 've got the intention to pump in $ for the IR- Genting share allocation.. n to make things simpler we got some frens who work in the stock exchange so setting up the trading account is not that complicated afterall , its abt some research on the most potential share to start with the most minium cost damage
e ipo issue rate is only @ 0.60 per lot so 1000 of it should be roughly 600 bucks so i guess its quite a gd catch
recently with this new cut, one of my male buddy that i look chic in it.
that i should give those act cool look.. in order to match this image,, but i tink i m nt that kind of LJ face look those of some of the artistes that u c on tv .. one such example is taypinghui resembles somewhat of those cool scuba instructor look alike. but then in reality it works the opposite, i dun do extreme sports n the natural inclinity of nt being in deep waters like diving scares me off.. when i imagine baracuda swimming side by side with me or baby sharks near me
but it sounds pretty interesting checking out the cute suba diver on the same boat.. hohohoho
something which u wont c everyday besides , sales targets, nasty people, $ , stock indices n sales reports.
so this golden sentence i almost will repeat myself ... so you got to invest your wealth to guard ur assets against inflation n other forms of complexities
now everyday is a struggle, with rising inflation going up to almost 6.7% in the next quarter , the people in the lower income group would once again have to cope with rising living expenses
i cant imagine had i still stayed in logistics line would i have been able to enjoy the material needs n demands which i desire n crave for
e people who u care for , u hope that they will be also improving with u each day but the truth is that some people r borned more stubborn than the rest n one such example is ms chong still living in her dreamland, cmmon here is singapore nt some other village . my theory which applies until today.. if u r stupid u can be trained , but if u have serious attitude problems then u r a goner.. hopeless case.
if ms chong still doesnt buck up , improve on her gromming , dressing style to suit the common average or to improve on her sales , e likely outcome would be still "yuan di da bu" still e same old ms chong. no "tu po" in herself
that i always tink to myself when i c myself in the mirror first thing in the morning, you have got to overcome "urself" that you would come out of the shell
things that you tink you would never achieve or never do it, y nt conquer the fear n do it
win win situation , in the end u will gain someting out of it, if u dun take any calculated risks at all chances r u will still remain the nutshell forever like a hermit crab.. nt ready to face the world
with great power comes great responsibilites like what is always show in harrypotter or those movies
e sky has cleared now.. aft 1 hr of ranting. i can c plaza building again. no time to skive.. get cracking to work again..
xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

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Have you eaten your yummy doughnut?


Work hard, work fast and no play,
Strive so hard for the entire day,
Bleed and sweat for a monthly pay,
Big plump donuts rolls your way,
A bite will surely brighten your day,
And everything will turn out okay!

some poem sent by bb.. heheheheehe munchy donuts doesnt come easy

was at amirah grill. a gd sessio bitching abt my clients...
gd time spent today

^_^

slacking again .. 3 plus another 35 mins to br close
germbought this pyjamas nice. hello kittyones
tink i will check it out later after work
plan to catch a movie or run.. harold n kumar 2 seems like a nt bad show for entertainment aft work
its those nites again where you thought after a nice shower , u can gaze in air staring in the dark , n behave n act more slower after a long day in town
a typical working day starts when you try to squeeze in a smrt bus, cab or train with the rest of he 3.5-4m fellow singaporeans.. n u sigh .. y must everyday be such a drag when you can arrive in style or slack nicely in a corner of a seat
mkt today as usual was not in the up zone so operation was quiet. but ironically i feel more tired than ever trying to find things to get it done, sales was also slow , slower as expected
was in town to watch harold n kumar 2. as usual was the slap stick sexual jokes. seen to many of the "crooked couples",
germ came along to complete the rest of the paperwork. happily getting married on sun
while trying to complete tis love. i m oso tuning in to love confidential @ class 95
first experience is always unforgetable, some reader wrote in when her fiance told this lady a little secret that a little side of his past that he had another past. some" intimate relationship" with a ex gf before they r getting married
well e solution is to let it go , no use harping on it. nt gd to e current relationship
so e tagline on air was ..
how do u define a perfect partner
but in the first place , is there such thing as a perfect partner ?
one colleague shared with someting on way home after work that some person told her that she will have 2 men in her life
a man who will really pamper her but is short n chubby
n someone who is tall n lanky but will pamper her lesser but capable person
so my colleague is someone who prefer the first option but ended up the other one , she was telling me this guy was someone they mutually was attracted to however in the end didnt make it coz they were cousin n if now if she was not married with kids , she would consider the fat n chubby person . so there is this tin she commented .. you yuan wu fen. how true can tis be.

really really happy today

its a shopping spee i bought a new seiko watch

retail @ citychain was abt 548 , went to bras basah @ one those small shoes m n i got it at a steal 350, another shop quoted me 348, nevertheless since i promise the shop owner that i will get it from him so i decided to go back to that shop we sold me @ 350

afterwhich lsb n i went shopping @lver . its amazing i shrunk at least 2 sizes. n my jeans when i saw lsb. i gasped ,, tat idiot actually is a size 27 liao while i m still 28 comparing when we were still 32 , its a gd achievement . her jeans r dropping down..

n for the past 6 months really put in effort to make it happen. n lsb once made a pact that we must slim down until ppl envy us. i tink we did it.

i bought a top which shows off my shoulder well maybe one day i take a pic n post it in here n a 3 quarter which accentuates my curves well.. sun.. i will outshine n prove to those that i have emerged , nt the fei mei mei 2 yrs ago n the " gemok" big ass gal.

i feel relieved all my efforts r finally paid off n rewarded as a result of my sheer determination

awake before dawn

yah before 7, the kid at this block starts screaming again.. for the past 2 weeks n i havent had a good sleep n i got to drag myself out of bed, i decided to change my study strategy, which is not burning mid nite oil before my study leave.. the alternative is to sleep early n treat that series of brawling like my wake up call.
finally i came to a conclusion why this kid / baby / toddler next to my block is doing. he/she should be terrified of waking up to shower while his/her parent drags him.her out of bed.which is oso gd.. i had a gd 8 hrs of sleep last nite so it is no problem i treat that i have a early revison before work today
today the sky is pouring @ 7.21am while i imagine the rest of fellow working adults should be thinking the same way... how nice if i can roll back n sleep

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tried to finish work early today. had dinner with dad. seems to be a few days since i last saw him, everytime i reach home , he should be asleep n i seem only to catch up abt 10 mins with him before i go to work in the morning such is the case , tink hes getting older these days n the msia trip to tis island called
shi yuan dao" seems to bring more smiles to him
juz nw when i had dinner with him @ our friendly neighbourhood , there r more laughter in his conversation something which i havent notice for a while
they were having seafood. lobster, prawn , crabs , fish ( value for $ cheap n gd ) n they were happily exploring this little kampung 3 times the size of my neighbour approximately 25min ferry ride from changi.maybe oneday i should c for myself
my assistant seems to be distant in her work, she was busy doing this sms n was so distracted from work , the reason being she quarreled with her beau which i tink was quite unprofessional . in the end i had to rush my work once she was doing some nonsense . there is this upcoming teambuilding event.. called the kampung days @ 30/4 , should c many ppl frm different branches coming together
my eyelids r so heavy nw after a long day. n i m so reluctant to flip thru my books n notes.. if i could slough in bed. n sleep hw nice...

look gd to feel gd

toe nails. blue black
New haircut @ hairjournal with my tennis racket as my background @ my rm

NEW nail LOok
Pic left: pathetic effort to paint nails red... This is when i had short nails
french manicure with purple n black tip background aft cny.. some comment it looks uglyAft arollercoaster fri nite n a super boring sat.. while i slept thru frm 6pm-7.30am
its a gd rest after such a long nite out
woke up @ abt 7.22 when lsb called ..
morning jog with lsb. will n maureen
went searching for a mama shop for 100plus to find out there r none in esplanade. n e only hope was e one @ citilink.. wat a dissapointment.. 7-11 @ citilink is not open 24hrs afterall .so e next choice was polar . so aft thirsty for so long.. ice lemontea become e 2nd althernative
its really a super recharge..
after mc grizzle.. went for a haircut . changed my color n cut it spiky short.. blue back base n streaks of red.hair stylist oso was quite in a cranky mood
sat- work. short shopping ( sasa to get new nail colors. ). sch.. sleep
finally i muster all courage to try a flamming red.. hehehh
refreshing look for new style.. m juz told me will n her bought a house in punggol. paid 2k deposit , another deduction via cpf in another few month n the house should be ready soon .sigh =( even germ is..
everyone else is getting hitched ... well e singles rule for lastmin trip. endless party .shopping with e gals,, dates unlimited,, n freedom
an advice from my manicurist.. when u r married , your life is complete...
well the sentence is not finished..completely gone.. waahahahhahaa
juz got a call. dad should be back soon frm the short msia trip
its a chore when ur parent is out of town.. doing laundry yourself , ironing ur own clothes n eating dinner alone..
e sky's getting dark . should be pouring any moment now
e speaker is gone case. there is not extra incentive to on my beloved com.. not a chance to watch my fav drama or kang si va tudou ( er zhou qu zhi wen 2 wa lao..).. a gd thing also.. to keep myself focused for exam
calendar reads 20/04/08 , exactly 18 days to intro to econs.. 8/5/08 10-1
a shudder man.. another 1 more month i will be super gila.. they called it the unleashed boar in town.
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aft mugging for a while decided to write again coz my study light in my room was flicking non stop occasionally. n my back is aching from sitting too long in one position, manage to memorise the acc formula for ratio analysis n will do costing later.. nw i know y accountants r paid so well , its kinda depressing work especially on sun doing all the practise n calculations.. when i close my eyes i can visualise figures.. 0000.0000

e conclusion for fellow exam muggers.. ample preparation is the key to acing the exam, once e preparation is ample.. should be no problem reproducing it in exam
however it s still a little bit bored n suicidal.. it seems that the whole world is enjoying n i m still stuck with my mugging
n the study light juz flicker n flicker so no choice. its a self-declare break then
i had a list o f mp3.. to keep me going through the nite , i tink thats e only ting that can reduce my depression level then

after effects of a late nite outing

e after effects equate to super tired i slept barely 3 hrs .. conclusion really a little regretful i hang out so late last nite prior to the chain of events today
1-2 @ e ktv ( NAP)
n i woke up ard 7 plus tis morning .. considering i slept at 5.30 today
my mind was so groggy during accs class. was e last lesson , finally a sigh of relief
aft attending a yr of class with this ppl, we r more sociable now ..
its e exam fever again.. another 2 more weeks or so.. nw got to hit the sack.. super tired.

ok finally waiting for the last 15 min before bedtime

it reads 4.43am 19/4/08

TGIF activities-
Forbidden kingdom
double J- JET lee & Jackie Chan
its quite entertaining to c 2 major veterans sparring with one another , nice choice

back from a 6hr ktv @ kbox 10-4
seldom sing for so long but definitely this must be a once in while occasion.
expensive n exhuasting if you dun have the stamina
luckily i napped for an hr if nt i tink tml it would be such a drag

plans to have a quiet retreat at home for the weekend since my dad was went to msia 2D1N with my bro 2 n his family, it should be a gd time for me to revise for my exam at home since theres no one in the house. quiet n serene. n to make things worse my speaker juz die on me so its dead silence unless i transfer songs to my hp
or rather tml i will troubleshoot n investigate to c wats wrong with this bloody com.

met some of lsb's working pals n some new frens.its been high time since i behave like some teenager, still hanging out in the wee hours. n after comtemplating , i decided that as a proof of my confidence, i went forward to wear the super low cut top which i bought in bangkok 2yrs ago

many of them have moved on i heard. good for them nt exactly a prospective place if you were a young n aspiring individual, yearning for the material needs, 4,5,10C s u want n desire

today my colleague asked me if i will be sad to move on, n my reply was . i m a human also , i do feel sad to leave all this friendly people which i have been working hard with for close to 3 yrs .
change is always constant especially in cosmopolitian city in singapore . the dynamic n fast pace is something is always a common feature in this lonely , tiny small city
which is y many working class ppl would gather at pubs, social networking gala dinners, outings , cafes, coffee joints like starbucks n start to pour out their daily rantings n bitterness towards their outlook in work or personal perspectives
life is such that it always revolves bei huan li he.
from meeting , knowing , leaving n separating . its all part n parcel but how many ppl really will internalise this point
e bb head, shared something during the briefing on last wed which i found it kinda motivating. the word impossible , to the more positive personnel..

IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE

interesting man is what i would describe , always leashing on new ideas to improvise , looking forward to a success in this project n collaboration
ubi is an industrial area that will really train your patience, n pollution is bad. traffic is horrendous, time to adapt n get used to this new environment again after hanging in town

tml is a series of mundane activites again. work . sch n home
nothing new
but i really hope that once i complete UOL , i can travel widely to c the world outside insteading of still staying in myc omfort zone, n of coz when i now i make that decision on the other hand i will lose certain things i have now, social life n family bonding
oncei had a fren who was not willing to step out of comfort zone to make changes n now shes happily stationed in hk for the next 2 yrs . n end result from someone whos also dependent on her mum.. nw is a self confident young lass who can cook her own meals. do her own laundry n housework
sometimesi really admire ppl who can leave their homes , their most familiar environement n stick in a jungle full of uncertainities n dangers ahead n theres always a high level of ambiquity n risk involved

writing has been a most indirect method , explicit manner to express certain disclaim n displeasure , n most of all it poses as a healthy manner to vent some negative energy out channel to other areas, n when i read back some of the earlier entries i itend to laugh a lot . oh i was so insane then, y would i done such things

i was really pondering if i had been the person yrs ago n such an incident in office happen. would i have really lost my cool n yell @ tat fool.
at least i did display my professionism in work n act normally at least in the office

the rain has been pouring since 2 approximately for abt 3 hrs now.. n its nice n cool this evening

my last appt with a client jus bw made me thinking about elites. this middle age couple came along , they had 2 daughters. one of them whos a rare breed , a doc to b in her undergrad process of obtaining her medical degree.
1or 2 yrs ago , i personally helped her with her tfl , some loan to settle her sch fee
shes the typical silver spoon person , borned from a rich family that never has to worry for $ n through her path in life this little gal has been quite smooth sailing , considering , shes got the ace grades among all other ppl to be prestigiously selected to b a doctor. but after making some small chat with her,to find that shes those type of heck-care attitude. airhead or arrogant person
she was so full of herself . "ru chou wei gan"
for ppl in this "elite" group , maybe they have never tasted failure or setback , everything that they achieve comes so easily
i cant help but depise such a group

probabbly i m in an environment , in the average income group which i have to fight for what i want or what i have now . it always hard work, continuous determination n effort to keep things going, so when i have to converse with such spoily brats , i cant help but feel disgusted with such ppl. i had this wat if theory. wat if ur parents were not this rich, wat if u didnt had such an nice n comfortable environment , no need to worry abt $ to keep you going for daily needs, would u also have achieve the same level of sucess as of today.
n i also thought deeper had my mum would be still around , would i have turned out differently then
maybe 5yrs ago when i graduated, i behave exactly like her. but its different when u enter society , no matter how smart u r, there will always be ppl smarter , more sly n more scheming n all u can do is to prevent urself from all this possible dangers that lies ahead n the best solution is to stay alert , sharp, keen judgement n humble
maybe tat young lady is not a sociable person , but her body language tells otherwise, i hate ppl who r so arrogant n behave rudely to their parents in public.especially u know they r e normal folks , although they r nt that highly educated ,s till they have some basic manners or courtesy
bruce lee had tis saying from forbidden kingdom. how can u absorb more when ur cup is so full , must empty it so that new knowledgecan be constantly exchanged n transfered
i remember one of a senior or some ex manager told me. young gal , u have a long way to go.. so never be self conceited , the wrong attitude n this will land u in some wrong direction that you r going at.

of couse they r always e gracious elites ard..a handful perhaps
time to rest.. time to recuperate for tml.

i tink i have become more confident. i tink sliming helps

Lately i been receiving more compliments from the people ard me saying that i look pretty, slimer n more trendy

booast up my confidence.. i feel gd lalalalala
even e cisco frm uob was like.. wow sam.. different now ah..

omg.. n one of my client try to flirt with me... sam ur eyes r so beautiful , could i look at them again , a bit paiseh when other customers smile at me.. hohohohohoh

thanks to my parents, my dad especially for the sharp nose features. clearly differentiates from the rest of the common chinese u c on the street. my features become more defined suddenly wahahaha

all thanks to someone i know. yeah lsb who has pushed me to walk till this point, i got my new uniform from the bank , n i shrunk 2 sizes , from a XL to a M... LOL... i m so happy even happier than getting VB or my bag..

this was a pic when i look like i have no tomorrow, 2 yrs ago when i had a hangover n i really look like shit when things were not going the way i wanted especially with the idiotic ex. so u can imagine eyebrows are godamn so important to the features to a person especially .. e "wu guan" so the embroidery in bedok from jasmine my beautician was so "worth it" especially for someone like me down on my luck ..

it brought me more sales opportunities , more interactions with my clients n a fatter paycheck in return n of coz my inter relation skills also escalated to another level which enhanced my well being
received this particular sms yesterday when i was boiled to my max

n again .. I FEEL GOOD LALALLALA

dun sulk , take care n cheer up ur smile is veri charming ,

haha.. ya.. when u smile , your eyes come veri small.. Keke so cute..

i m flattered.. hahahaha

c'mon which gal wouldnt feel happy at that moment

but of coz beauty is juz on the surface, character n e inside is still of utmost importance.

germ is getting married next sun.. when will my turn come..

all my frens r getting hitched one by one..

G was so unlucky , she took the wrong trade for some client , buyingn selling of some FX n there was some loss .. $$ bad day to end it this way . luckily closed another deal to offset this little " po cai xiao zai" tats y .. $ is so sensitive of all trades..

n about the update of that new guy, i really dispise ppl who give up easily n i heard from another colleague he plans to resign becoz of some rubbish, he created. for someone new, hes so eager to prove himself n for a new banker the first 6 months is always the toughest frm jan 2006- now.. almost 2 yrs plus . i 've seen almost 1o bankers come n go, n this fellow is the worst of the lot , never had i had such a yaya newcomer who tinks he can start to sell products n prove himself n not humbleto learn from the others or to eat humble pie n learn from the basics , this is one ting i cant compromise for people like him, if u dunno how to walk then crawl first , but if u want to try flying from the start, then i m sorry . too bad then .i forsee that he cant go far in this line. n he wants to hop to premier another competitor co....although i really detest n hate such people.

i can be nasty really really nasty to him ,first thingi wanted to blow up at him n say all sorts of language u can imagine after what he've done

but i chosed another alternative.

there s this chinese saying called " yi de fu ren"

so i decided nt to be a bitch n i took the initative to advise him about the nasty n fucked up PC .

that should he be be in doubt on any queries n there is no one available , the next best alternative rather to turn ppl away especially rich ppl is to politely ask for help from the backroom , the lao jiaos will surely help this poor new person. i encouraged him to just get it over with e unhappy events. n aft that i did not return him the bad ting he done to me

yi ya huan ya... but tats too wicked nt me.. ny my style .. i want things to be done smoothly in the most amicable manner

which is another saying called " yi de bao yuan"

my rm just sms me. i must look good in order to feel good.n keep up my good effort which brings me to another theory no ugly women at all in the world but super nua n lazy n dirty ladies which i know of some who dun do proper grooming.. u will get a shock of ur lives if u ever come across it.

yesterday was someday which i dun wish to c it everyday but i learnt that there will be somethings. some ppl who spoil ur day but we r always a master of our own destiny so no point bothering..

think happy n happy tings will come like today...

submitted my ladies card applicatoin .. yeah.. shopping. which gal doesnt love it

n there was this theory between my rm n my sales team 3 things priority a woman must have to match certain status n character of someone

My list

1) bag - lv palermo pm

2) watch - Seiko criteria

3) shoes- pazzion./charles & keith ( standard getting better n better. more class now )

n the man

1) watch

2) car

read urban today.. would u pay 4k for a chanel bag.. no way.. i would spend in on a holiday.. n eat e best, wear e best n use the best

so lv remains the most affordable designer bag for young executives.. age 20-50 . for 1k-3k u can get a reasonable respectable design

hermes.. 12k.. some rich idiot will probabbly get it coz its limited edition

ideal man should smell nice. look fresh. charming smile n look .. broad shoulders is a bonus will be good for tat extra sense of " protection"

intelligent n men serious @ work is a fatal attraction

e bb head. T is such an example of the above ,however he is my new boss head. so its out. office romance doesnt really work n when its ends. it can be so bitter. well i heard a lot of such ppl ..

so sunlight fortune teller aint that accurate

yes. she has predicted i will have a section change aft mar , its correct but abt relationship nt so. really.

i do meet new ppl everyday. but when its not the one u will know it. the sparkle doesnt happen always n when it does , its nt veri realistic.

juz found tis quite interesting

zhang xiao xian got this novel called yue liang xia de yao pg 30

some page which i folded

win in the highest level

no body likes to lose,

n if we lose . we tend nt to do it, when we love someone , we always believe there is a future

even if its slim chances, but still got chance

there is no win or lose in relationship even when e relationship has ended, we do hold the sweet memories , that is win even time cant be turned back , we held on to some "past" when we grow up we become more sensible that is also wining

if this is e best person out there, he is loyal n treats u really well, hes having a relationship with you , y would u tink it would be really perfect if he married u

if this man dun marry me , it means he doesnt really love me , he loves his freedom more

everybody likes to win but hw would u define winning

some women r more greedy they tink they can really control their man . by his circle of frens , his $ , his thoughts, so e highest level in summary is to win the heart.. xin fu kou fu is e zui kao jin jie

擦肩而过
李圣杰
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李圣杰-擦肩而过

放飞心情我爱着谁爱到我有点醉告诉我你是谁能够把我让我变不对你不会累但我却爱你爱得好累从没有为了谁不顾安危付出一切站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过你听我说你不要这么做你不要看着我说你已经知道怎么做你很难受我愿意陪你一起承受只要你不怕痛再多坎坷我都陪你走站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过

2 incidents in a row. so angry with someone

last evening i assisted a new colleague for some operation work
in order to make things more convenient for a customer, i personally follow up n went to her place. then it started pouring fine, i was drenched when i walked back to office. that stupid colleague of mine didnt even bother to ask me or offer any tissue.
today i had to take a cab down to r. branch because e customer because of his own convenience brought to another place. e taxi claim . i oso cannot refund coz its due to my own fault or rather i m clearing someone's shit n rubbish .n i was so bloody pissed because me being drenched was all for nothing
n then another incident, one of the premier client wrote a veri long n disturbing complaint letter claiming that he was not well served n was pissed off by some new customer, this smart aleck arrow me n told my boss i was in between the customer n him
n i was being wrongly accused for something which i had not done, n my boss started to accuse me n bomb me a lot of questions which i cant answer, n to make things worse, his tone become more n more unfriendly n rude until then luckily my fellow colleague came in to clear this round of misunderstanding then e pieces came to link n then everything was cleared up , he asked me to get out of the room . which i was already boiling to the max. almostwant to yell at this new colleague
already in the morning i was super angry with that customer for nt following simple instruction on our agreement n then came another issue to be resolved , i tink it s enough of nonsense
n these days crooks r so smart,, they make use of stolen materials to embezz $ out of it. stolen atm card can be replaced by some bad ppl.
better practise caution in order nt to fall for such traps

freaking testing my patience for such behavior. so irritating that such tings should happen
learning pt is can hw can tis man who was in states for further studies have no brain.
no common sense
n after creating all the nonsense can juz sit back n relaz one corner
i should have nt bother with him at all in the first place
so imbalanced man.
econs class as usual was mundane. sim paper was a lot more complicated
22 days to econs paper
leshibianstill ask me to clubing onsat aft POA. omg.. what is happening to her , she seems so out of focus for sch
will c how then on sat. if the datei slousy.. can stay home to rest .. n juz stay for a while
my lv bag was out of stock n i had to check out hk instead
another 10 mins i allow myself to be out of focus
in order to motivate myself i pasted my 07 UOL exam results to remind myself hw lousymy grades were . n i cant allow such tings to happen for 2008
enough of all tis grumbling....

happy today

well this is the bag which i have selected to buy it, sgd 1.6k for palermo pm & 1.9 for gm series, unfortunately when i went lv boutique in orchard, it was out of stock..haiz so disappointing, then we scan ard burbreys, gucci , hermes .

n i went forward, dinner @ thai express with jiao,viv n tb

so the conclusion was to go ahead with the transfer, pay off my card bills n diverify the funds out for better returns, fly to hk n grab my bag @ tsim sha tshui

so happy got my vb... countdown to 3 more weeks to exam

as for tml i hope e neighbour kid stops crying at 7 in the morning , wat a terror

staying focused for maximum results

earlier on sat morning was a pedicure session with my sister in law @ blink blink
was happy with the treatment i had for enduring difficult n nonsense clients during this week
last nite was a chain of social events, having dinner @ crystal jade with tb ,
met up with tb n nelly n viv @ lunar bar for a couple of drinks, as well as listening to some of the songs. bar hopping to rumours tis bar which viv's bro works there
conclusion would be
i would stop clubing/ pubing @ canto bar , it would be my first n last time there, because it was horrendous. the songs , ambience n crowd, totally disastrous , infested with many china chicks hooking up potential customers
e rich e slightly plump n touchy men
i guess he is nt the one either , decided that for my exam preparation this year i will be totally commited to it , no more other distractions to affect. that includes being in the pink of health , staying cool n balanced in my diet, emotions n accuracy , neatness to ensure everyting goes all fine for all 3 units, come may 8,16 & may 30 it would mark the total freedom in academic year 2008
today the n tb n viv came along my place for revision , i finally muster all efforts to at least pack my room n arrange my notes in order so as to make sure there is enough space for 3 ppl in my cozy little bedroom,
we eshop in the screen, browsing lv, gucci, as tis will pose as a greatest source of motivation to ensure good grades so we can satisfy our material needs
my spoted buy. palermo gm series.. to be taken after VB.. nextweekend
we went to ntuc to shop for some snacks , nongsin ( korean maggi mee was my dinner )some simple indulgences like keno bueno, potato chips , hello panda to make our day
nevertheless our study group session was quite entertaining while my bestie try to dig out some of my latest gossip in my love life
anyway currently , i dun c the need for relationship , maybe i personally find it exhausting to maintain one or perhaps i m so happy with singlehood that i dun mind , in order nt to let e other party be leaded , i decide to make it clear
v was so nt focused n keep commenting shes sick of her lifestyle n i had to nag her to make her wake up n realize that hey tis is your final semester already, pass e final 4 units n you've able to make a difference in your life, giving up now equates to all efforts for e past 3 yrs all down to the drain
well i hope this helps her in her focus, being her bestie for the past decade has enabled us to develop a certain affinity to bond with each n care for each other
afterall frens r for life,we want each other to excel in life mentally as well as academically so that when we grow all gray n toothless, we dun live to regret for e undone things left unfinished.
anway my social life is all filled up now, n its with much honour that once in a lifetime you have one such buddy who you can always count on
die with no regrets oso
i got ready my set of coporate wear ready to c my potential new business head
tml would be new start , i havent been wearing coporate wear for the past 2 yrs or so, having said so , unplucking n starting fresh anew in another department n br would be a great start , acquiring new experiences to further enhance my career in the portfolio
with a strong determined mindset all set to succeed , this will embark me in another chapter to start again
how i wonder another 5-10yrs from now , would i be a high flying manageress in the near future upon completion of UOL , tis is yet another question mark
after meeting with my former sm, sitting in her comforable mini cooper, so envious of her lifestyle
may- exams to clear
june- reportin g with business banking
july- e long anticipated hongkong trip

2 yrs is indeed a long n difficult journey coming along , having to be coping on your own in work n studies, in another 2 yrs this tough route of having to juggle work n uni would be soon over, n i hope by then i can afford all my material needs , possible a little car , a nice apartment of my own , maybe a family perhaps if i m lucky enough
i tink j has definitely moved on well enough, hes too self contained in his little world n i tink he s stil l a little chubby ass whos well comfortable in his comfort zone
n i believe i should live for myself as well , expanding my little own social circle
since last sept , its been a long process , trying to regain my own confidence of myself, slimming down , knowing new frens , dating with other men to c how it goes, but unfortunately there is no " e one" yet but i m yet so happy though
the ideal of 50kgis so near yet so far, with the build up gradual effort hopefully before i turn 25 this year , i would emerge a new me, a slimer n more well rounder person , packed with all those wisdom n intelligence that a young aspiring executive should possess
how i recall the last time i relief in BP branch when e csm commented that i was all so listless in br that i lost all the shine , the vitality m the energy that a young lady like me should have,
i m determined that i will get it all back, n i should do this for myself , that i should nt let myself down , all the $ , effort invested since then should have returns generated twice or many times the amount for the opportunity cost s that i have exchanged for return for a more colorful n glamourous "future"
tonite i seem to have a lot of thoughts running thorough my brain, as i really started to think for myself for a start,
n lately i been receiving more compliments frm my old frens when i go gathering, from my regular clients , oh well, sam u definitely look better now, n my colleagues sense the new me, more cheerful, energetic, refreshing after i chop off that haggard long hair of mine, n clients joke n flirt with me more
having seen the results shown n proven, i can wear those old clothes i couldnt squeeze in before,
e yoga stretches is amazing n my consistency in keeping away with those junkies, i know i can do it n i can be better than before
n for j its his loss
proven as a real life example from fat to flab, c is also starting to exercise n i m a great source of motivation to him as well n he oso exchange some pointers to me . like some cherry tomato meal
to act as some healthy meal enchancement to curb the hunger pangs
its a type of mixed emotion when u know leaving some place is gd for your own career development but yet you will miss those co workes who have been working hard side by side with you for all the challenges spent together so far
i had tis male colleague which in my previous entry that we had a huge quarrel n i was so angry that i slam the meeting room n the knob came out n we had to as k some technican to fix the door ,
n after 1yrs coming to 2, we r quite on close terms , we even intended to go for outings with the rest of the sales team
i tink it is a fate that i should treasure n cherish that people who go in n out of your life does leave some mark n memory n some of their gd values that we should learn from
i m nt usualy an emotional person , well i do shed some tears occasionally when it comes for it.
its a kind of reaction to certain circumstances , a kind of release that should occur,
for someone chatty n talkative like me, i do resort to extreme meaures to stay in equlibrium
like forcing my self to entertain n click with e societal elites in my customer base
n when i go back my little room , sulk n imerse my self in solitude n reflect properly so that tomorrow would always be fresh n new
front line can be interesting , it could also be a disaster my primary nature is still quite receptive to strangers but once in a while if i can have someone who can entertain me n make my day , i would jolly welcome that
the serenity of the nite , with the combined soft music playing in the background by yiruma , kiss the rain is certainly a gd companion to cleanse the mind , coz its quite a sad song but veri touching
u cant stop yourself from the bad events that will occur , but you can protect yourself safely from forseen outcomes n i know no matter what happens i can always brave through it
recently i watched the 3 kindgom , n andy lau 's character, zhao zhi long is one strong person who has in history never lost any battles n although e ending in real history was he died of old age, this story on theatre depicts that he stood strongly in his values to wait for reinforcement with cao ying , cao cao's grand daughter , hes truly a warrior who is fearless against his oponents. n despite the harsh conditions , he maage to emerge a champion
guan yu - righteous man, zhangfei a loyal brother
zhukeliang, a smart n intelligent advisor for tactis in war management, a commander that does not be present in war but yet know the exact sequence that the predicament or rather the outcome that the battle would be in
hopefuly i could also be like zhukeliang , always clear in my goals n strategizing the possible resources for optimum results
i dunno but for some reason when i manage to pen down all these i can have a sense of relief running through that i have not wasted today. that i m truly happy that i have a bunch of friends always supporting whe n i m nt in my best shape n mind
when i m a boar , when i yell at them over the phone, when i throw my tantrums with them
that they truly appreciated my presence all these years
the part which i created a positive impact to c, he just sent me an sms thanking me about that . as a fren i tink i have helped his initial progression to improve on himself for himself . it is good , i m glad for him
a young boy lost in his own little world , unable to unpluck himself from the past
he deserves a better someone , but first he has to do somethings in order to freed himself from all the negative feelings in order to be happier

leisure sat with my family

today i m nt working in branch wake up ard 9today. went joo chiat for wan ton mee. the standard has dropped n thereafter i went blink blink to do my nails with my sister in law while she did both pedicure & medicure. so relaxed . i did a dark blue/ purple nails while jan did a maroon red one.. nt bad. funky blue nails doesnt suit me so i decided not to paint those colors
lsat evening.. tat lesibian went out on a date. dump me alone for yoga class. lets c what will e gal explain later...
lunar date with nelly n her cousin

vb vb vb $_$ 150408

i mso bloody excited. mon to meet my potential boss on mon,
items to get
new phone
LV bag. palermo, monteguil, or speedy
new perfume. floral ones
new shoes
new clothesfor a new slimming figure
wow.... wat a list..
to be updated

sleepless

haha cline told me tat hes attracted to my smile n wishes to progress further.
mention abt sincerity . i m confused.. maybe i dun really like tis person

lunch date with him

i mean i do mind the fact that hes a bit chubby , hes the same height as me n looks a bit bearish since i had manage to slim down within these short period of time. that he also looks sloppy with this unshaven look of his n the worst is his voice , sound like immature n kiddish
y should i be going on dates with such a man, y is it that i 've going out with ppl younger than me, something is wrong man
if he could slim down , then maybe can consider this candidate if not i cant s tand myself with someone whos got a bigger frame than me

msia lunch at sutera utama with my family

it was freaking expensive for my fish. 1.04kg was like 208rm for a fish imagine eating one fish $100 sgd but the food was good
we went to sutera utama , beijing lou
nice food , ambience. atlas placez
went to secret recipe , had abt 5 cakes with the family
enjoyable trip
planned a bit on the july HK trip short listed some hotels to stay n the places to go during the 4 nites there .. yeah so nice..

quick update

went out to this jumbo seafood at riverside walk . n this interesting itallian ricotti restaurant in town last nite
attend rl'd daughter full month bash in changi n subsquently took a cab from there
fun's mini cooper was super cool
hw i wish i got the capacity to spend like her
took caleb's name tag by mistake so i met up with joanna n my family at toa payoh for dinner n we shopped a bit
planning to go msia tml for lunc h to celebrate my long awaited vb
another 2 weeks. would be to attend germ's wedding luncheon in marriot
hopefully to sucessfully shed off further extra pounds
my impression of cline is tat hes quite out spoken, well travelled n quite interesting so far
nice guy but a little short n chubby
if he can improve a little on his grooming i tink can consider la
but the ting is i cant seem to let go fully
maybe i belong to the category of the late bloomer gang
my colleague germ commented tat perhaps i belong to those women who might just happen to be more mature in my late 20s or so n then perhaps then it will be a better time for me to be more stable in my thinking n find someone more suitable then

relief @ bedok North br again

hahah its the time again KO time.. still got some time before 6 so it still ok to blog for a while

cline did asked me out again for dinner tonite but i decidecd to join fun n e rest of the crew after the baby bash

a date with e c man

we we nt for dessert in ah chew..
badly groomed.. green check shirt n tight pants. crumpled ones..
went to cafe le caire for dinner with the js team .. great food
late somemore.. kept me waiting like for abt 45mins

april fool 2008

its a miracle that i can t get to sleep , i tink its due to the coffee i had @ nlb earlier in the evening ard 7.

found a new place for revision nlb study lounge

another 1 month is exam month , 3 units only

this fri will be ruolin's baby gal 's baby bash.. another occasion to gather n bitch

juz nw earlier in msn, i find tb a bit irritating with his style of revision

he seems that over confident of himself as usual.. should juz stay clear n buzz off n just leave him alone.

mention that i keep nagging.. fine...

readup econs.. tats a bit lame. its 99% failure n i m nt gonna repeat that same old mistake again

while listening to the tw yzw 's version of 祝我生日快乐 brings back some memories of my darkest period in 2006
i remember listening to the wen lan's version that nite for the whole nite coz i couldnt get myelf in slumber n was downright depressed so everytime when i listen to tis songi cant help but tink tat i was really dumb that time,during that phase

this lyrics is kinda warming to me , depicts the current mood while i type this entry

新不了情

心若倦了 泪也干了 这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了 今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

song 2

听说爱情回来过

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾回来过
想请他替我向你问候
只为了怕见面说不出口
你对以往的感触还多不多
曾让我心碎的你
我依然深爱着

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒
只是怕见了面会更难过
我对以往的感触还那么多
曾给我幸福的你
我依然深深爱着

有一种想见不能见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
http://blog.nmgnews.com.cn/...20081286427.wma

这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你 把你放在我心中

对你的声音你的影你的手
我发誓说我没有忘记过 而关于你选择了现在的她
我只能说我有些难过
我也真心真意的等过
有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
这一种想见不敢见的伤痛

http://fabianaino2008.blogspot.com/2008/03/dragonfly-and-saturday.html
e link to these 2 music albums
Corrinne May

Emi Fujita's Cammomile Classic

http://frisking-melodies.blogspot.com/2008/03/noriko-sakai.html

manage to add a few songs to my blog changed a new look after 3 yrs.. hehehe its nice unfortunately its already 4.15 in the morning

exciting hk trip ahead aft exams

to be confirmed in the week of july.. so exciting

2 different date in 2 different days

i tink its rathe refreshing to be dating 2 types of guys i n 2 consecutive nites. to open up some social networking .
well i went to gucci , lv n coach to window shop. identified some of the bags.. heheh so exciting
e 2 ppl- the IT man and e events person.

a funeral which i attended

a neighbour whose got knocked down a few days ago.. passed away shortly .. was only 41. single man.
wat a waste
attended his wake juz now aft my facial

0204 270307

its another freaking nite. n i m starving at 2am in the morning. n i tink e coffee was too strong so i cant sleep at nite
another 2 more days before i end my relief stay in bedok
havent been sleeping much lately

260308 =_=

i m in the bb desk.. the walk in crowd is simply pathetic therefore i must find some thing to amuse my self

my 200th post

since the yr 2003 or so i been a somewat blogger , its been 3yrs since 21/2/05. how time passes by so quickly
this is the 200th entry. its 11.04pm 24/3/2008
this week i will be in bedok north branch for the next 4 days n then i will complete my assigment .tonite will be overniteing at tampines for 1 nite
had soyabean drink for supper juz now . hope i can stay up later today for some past yr question papers

first quarter of 2008.. ending soon

veri soon. march is ending soon.. today is already 23th. later at 3-8 i have got event in suntec with other sales staff from another branch.
i was browsing the lv , coach. gucci. kate spade website on those branded bags.. looking forward to bonus so that i can do the necessary allocation this yr.
lately this yr i c a lot of my frens transforming into many major roles from little gals to married woman . becoming mothers n settling down one by one, many of which r those express ppl.. becoming mother before preparing to be one mentally as well as financially
another 10 weeks or so. to be exact 1.5 months will be the yearly exam.. nothing much to be afraid of. its e usual stuff to prepare since all 3 units which i m taking is all retake units
a few updates. ruolin juz become a mother of 1. gave birth to a health baby girl in this month probabbly 2-3weeks ago
currently my jie mei gang consists of the young n upcomingsingle who most of us are still doing our part time uni program. n the best part is none of us are attached yet except for one whos already preparing to apply for a flat together with her bf. its amazing that after almost a decade of the fragile friendship, that all of us are still bindly in contact espfor me n viv
these 2 weeks i m attached to joanne's branch to relief for her staff . i tink again its a gd chance to get rid of being stagnant in a same ground for too long
lim kopi with zhenlong n jiao jiao @ marina sq. i wonder if this is due to the fact that i havent been writing much. weird feel.
i m proud to declare that after almost more than one yr since 2006 dec or 2007 may i have truly got over the stigma of singlehood. enjoying it the freedom
the financial independence

Swamp
To see a swamp in your dream, symbolizes aspects of yourself that are repressed and dark.
To dream that you are walking through a swampy area, foretells that you will be find yourself in an adverse situation. Disappointments in love may also be implied from this symbol. You will suffer much displeasure from unwise conduct of those around you. On a less negative note, walking through a swamp, denotes that you will experience prosperity and pleasure, but through dangerous and intriguing means

i tink its quite accurate.. ages ago i had a strange dream in the swamp, that period i was troubled
whatever that was in the past can never return so the most of it that i make the best it to look forward for better future. nice things to hope for

To dream that you are having sex with an ex or someone who is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together. Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for people approaching their wedding to experience especially erotic adventures with partners other than their intended spouses. This may be due to the intensity of your sexual passion with your fiance. It also relates to the new roles that you will be taking on and the uncertainty that that may bring.

my boss is transfering to a business centre n the best part was just as i was talkig abt him. i received a call from someone from the head office ; linda called me to ask if i was interested in business banking as well. i tink its gd for a change

Loss of a jovial, kind invaluable veteran comedian. LYdia

her sudden death in St mary hospital this morning at 8.38am shocked many. 2 yrs battling with the illness n still growing strong. sad to comment , its also a relief to her but it was a regret that her daughter didnt have the chance n she did notlive to see her singing career take off as well as to see her happily married n set up her family with her kids n husband
lydia is well known in the entertainment line.. with my memories in the late 80s until all the way, i watched some of the sitcoms she did in singapore production as well , Living with lydia
n after watching some of her clips , n the sharing session by many of her tvb colleagues , she strikes as a experienced elder sister. motherly figure who will always remember to care for her less experienced colleagues , n show utmost professionalism in her work by excelling 120% in herperformance, all rounder . singing, dancing, hosting as well as other aspects like being a gd mother, mentor n performer in the entertainment industry.
A gourmet by nature , with her well endowed figure. chubby . bubbly n cheerful i think she brings a smile to every household seeing her in the tv se t while i was still a small girl myself.
she is widely recognised by her signature black thick plastic spectacles n her hearty laugh.. it in the clip in this hongkong drama. mei wei tian wang..
shes like 2yrs older than my mum. started off as a teen actress n made her stardom with her forthright character n genuine smile on her face, i guessthe only downturn was her unhappy marriage. but she faced it bravely as a single parent, n despite the difficulties n pain, she still had the courage to be a mother as the age of 40, i doubt many will dare to take up such a challengeas compared to other women that age
i hope in another world , the general public will remember her as a symbol of an era in the entertainment industry . someone who gains respect
her daughter, sin yi or yan yi will nevertheless be well taken care of by the other seniors who were helped by lydia before.

something lovely

well da shu n i were on msn.. n so i was at ms heng's place n they decided to interrogate me on someone . however we r juz mutually good frens as of now.
hmmn he really looks dashing for a middleaged man, toned n built
i saw his new msn pic , tink looks gd
my thick n black eyebrows looks natural nw
ok da shu is naughty..

a late nite outing with da shu

he came over to my place to fetch me
at abt 12.30 after i got settled down
sweet person but a bit naggy

valentines' day 2008 140208

v day 2007

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Summary of events on Vday2007
Fun & Germ's futile efforts to cheer me up on V day by surprising me with a stalk of rose
Having a celebration with JEssica @ Sakae's PM.. before HRM's lecture
COuldnt really eat much due to a outburst of a series of events , domestic issues , academic & work
Attending M's last le cture on the exam format for HRm
Attending to weird,erratic situation during operations @ work which turns out more problemactic than usual
Stressful & tiring evening to focus. yawning throughout my class
Finally retreating 2 slumber n relaxing

comparing & contrast .
no class this yr
out with ET & Lu jie
enjoying myself more this yr
letting go of the past
received a gd sms frm a fren, green tea
happy valentines to me as wellas a sms

he mentioned that i wa a sweet gal hahaha so happy

besides its quite warming to know well someone cares for me at least. lesibian is having class to nite so its nt possible to ask her out for dinner either n so here i m now again the meeting room using the lap top to pen down any possible thoughtsthat is steaming n my head

after the eyebrow embroidery , my luck seems to be improving hehehe. the tarrot reading did boast my esteem as well as my confidence level

this yr seems to be so much better as compared to 2007

now relaxing my toes. i took off my shoes n air it in the meeting room . hehehe cant feel so happy

another event happening is the day 9 for hockiens is the sugar cane to the heavenly king which coincides with the western valentines' day. e preparation starts after 11, sugarcanes , some offerings outside my place. shortly later my brother , sister in law n the kids will pop by my place to make the offering together. in addition , we also have to fold those joss papers in a special format shaped like a cap , helmet

DAy 7 lunar yr

its everyone's birthday
the NEL train is so infuriating. had this power trip fault. causing a delay in every stop from outram park all the way to puggol. was so inefficient
the cabin was so stuffy n while i was waiting outside the cabin at outram station was so warm as well as it was an interchange station , there were many people alreadying crowding at this area. wat a day to end like this

however this song is quite nice , lyrics remind of someone who is newly in love





歌曲：有你的快乐
歌手：王若琳 专辑：start from here
"有你的快乐"

怎么都不想睡天特别的亮夜特别的黑当我深深的呼吸心中充满想你的甜蜜想和你走在雨中想要你牵我的手傻傻的你不敢说爱而我也故意要你为我等待说不出有多么快乐还是不够这感觉这一切就好像飘在外太空别的星球只有我们存在

在一起越来越久开始会对你在乎这感觉我们都明白只要你在身边日子就亮起来说不出有多么快乐还是不够这感觉这一切就好像飘在外太空别的星球只有我们存在爱情在这个时候我的心又像天气晴时多云偶尔有雨说不出有多么快乐还是不够这感觉这一切就好像飘在外太空别的星球只有我们存在


english version. lost in paradise

i know that it might sound strangebut you made my seasons start to changeit happened so suddenlylike heaven has waited up for mei've just been looking so longkept meeting my mr.wrongin every model and every sizenow my fantasyis staring at your eyessometimes you think i'm beautifulbut i don't knowi'll keep it to myselfyou say it,it feels wonderfulmy smile can showi'm lost in paradisethe letters you wrote to meshowed me the signs i've never seeni thought every man i'd wantfalls out of a dating magazinebut i konw that with youi was so far from the truth,on every page and every linenow you're my everything i guess you know how to read my mind i know i guess that it showsthe message left flows to memake it more worth than make believe

DAy 5 CNY我在墾丁天气晴01A

been conversingwith this guy , greentea since last week findthis middle aged keke quitecute
a 38yr old man but only 1 gf all his life
hes kinda atheletic n active for someone his age. hahaha finally someoneto spice up my weeknight besides reporting to SAA for classes. finally pluck up my courage to msn with green tea. hes quite a cheerful person. typical leo character who takes care of his body very well.
我在墾丁天气晴 quite a typical taiwanese idol drama but is suitable for people who are still recovering from their previous relationship
rather touching lines. been to kenting last nov . did not get to see the summer kenting. i believe it will be very fun at kenting da jie
quite suitable to watch under such weathe now in sg.today really warm man. sunny singapore weather is back
took off today n went to fix up my eyebrow , did the embroidery
proceed for tarrot reading in spellbound
got my answers to my queries
seems like now is the transition stage for me
seem to be chatting with green tea more often these days find him a nice pal to chat up with. He asked me about my past relationship n its the first time people describe me as secretive
hahahahaha
kenting is a really interesting place in summer in the southern part of taiwan whereby its like a mini bali with lots of water sports activities. regretted nt having the opportunity

day 4/5 cNY

day 4 of cny yet another boring day as well

had intended to go cycling or doing some sports to relieve some boredom

in the end i went for inchiban in amk hub n the service was horrendous

after that we went to tb's place to play 3ppl mahjong subsquently 4 ppl mahjong

lost in total abt $13

luck tis yr maybe not so good
started with day 1 when the photoframe which i was in my grandmother's place . dropped when i was browsing n it landed on my right foot n followed by earlier on I almost twisted my left food while i was getting out of a fren's house after mahjong session

Day 3 or day 4 of cny

its been quite a while since i updated on a lengthy entry
been over to stone man's place for dinner juz realized how expressive kids can be these days with their marvelous acheivements n fantastic personalised blogs.. check these out http://www.jialebeliefs.blogspot.com
these kid is 12 yrs my junior seemingly my mother's sister's daughter
kids of these era are so savy with the web n games . this is one area which i cant be inclined in whereas the rest of my frens excels in this area

2 nites before CNY ' 08

its been really a busy 2 weeks in the branch which i happen to omit as this is the first year i m writing about the work scene in 3 yrs, this is the my 3rd year with the bank.
busy days passes by like a whirl
rude & unreasonable people arguing over lack of new notes. no more free gift
hes been in thailand for the past 3 weeks or so .we were supposed to meet up for a drink before his business trip , however for some reason or so the meetup was delayed
that day i was just not in the mood to get out
ironically one of friend also asked me out to the same place
i wonder on the next outing would it be another awkward setting again
to be continued

060108

went steamboat last nite
china zone
@ geylang lor 1
ambience poor. war zone

fresh start for 2008

Unknowingly i m approaching my mid 20s marking 25 this yr in 2008
After reading year 2007 & 2006 its been a rocky 2 yrs in service line. Hopefully my 1st email this year is not a complaint letter again, i have enjoyed 1/1/2008 , went shopping with dad, bought pair of jeans from samuel n kelvin.cheap one @ 29 bucks while my dad had a bargain as well orginally 49 , reduced to 26bucks
countdown @ merry's place in the landed property
now i have a second opinion of residents who r rich. they stay in big hollow houses who keep to themselves most of the time nt interacting much with their neighbours. i find it terribly quiet to be in the room on my own if i were merry
we played taboo a card game with the gang again this time countdown @ merry's place , ordered canadian pizza n had some coke , blue berry tea to go along with the dinner which we had a late one ard 9pm coz lu n viv n i went cycling @ ecp earlier. however viv was quite unlucky landed on her butt o nthe last day of 2007 31/12/07 and had to c a doc today
lu n viv had a sleepover at my place this morning , we slept at about 4am today watched some lousy scareless thai horror movie which we all ended up dozing in front of my tv set
i was quite r n r today lazing at home taking my own sweet time to rest as well had a power 1 hr nap
2/1/07
sch reopen day
3 important dates
8th May 2008 econs
16th May 2008 poa
30th May 2008. hr

this little blog has recorded all my pleasant n the unpleasant memories , going forward 2008 is my 3rd yr updating in this online diary
the first date was on Monday, February 21, 2005
wow oh mine i have gone a long way n today calls for good occasion for some nostalgia memories

first day of 2008, prayed at the rochor temple as well for gd well being
evon sms me to go ecp to cycle which i rejected , as well as a buffet dinner @ parkway , however its juz against my principle of dieting again

its weird now it s 2330 i m still not in bed yet.haha i would try rereading my entries
hope tml would be a gd start of the first day for work in 2008

281207 2321

25/12/07 11.30
my computer was in a mess & despite many attempts to on my pc previously & despite many attempts to on it, it still doesnt work therefore i know i wont sleep if i knew i didnt pen down my thoughts so i wrote it on a diary first
so here i was with that black organiser
i am thankful that i have such wonderful family & friends all this while by my side
24/12/07
Bitching with " lesibian" birthday @ her place with her family members & with lu,maureen,"merry"also william, tb.nice colleagues . i have wonderful memories for the 2 short days i have for 24-12-07 - 25-12-07
Although my mind is sometimes torn between pb,whirling within my tiny brain on how he is doing now. Just couldnt resist sending him those greeting sms thoe prank ones , n here he was calling me, so we exchanged a few sms & i gathered information that most of his clique was either married or attached, from there i couldnt but help feel sorry for him that his reply was to stay home to play psp while the rest of the world were like busy celebrating . but on the other hand, i was with my own gang of frens. n so i ponder on the decision of asking him to join or suggestive of joining him. in the end i chosed to stick with the gals
nevertheless playing taboo with the gals n merry was just as fun as we straddle. tearing betwee nthe ideas of playing bowling @ kallang leisure park & playing board games at birthday gal's place, with merry's chauffeuring around. All i can conclude is we enjoyed 2007 xmas as wekk as viv's bdae
last xmas was kinda memorable as i hada bad row with joe shortly we broke off followed by a long weekend alone, as i was too upset to entertain, i still got the blog entry to certify.
recalculating.. i had gone through 3 relationship altogether so far as long as from 4 years . 1 yr and lastly 4 months didnt take long to realize how wilful n immature i can get at times. looking back i hope to achieve more for the 5 yrs to come
23/12/07
Auntie may organised a xmas family gathering collaborating her family,as well as dennis n family, my family , joanna , rick , auntie moon,altogether 10 kids

25/12/07 lunch at Ajizen @ marine parade
cycling @ east coast park. happen to bump into jessica , my uni classmate from stansfield, made some small talk
played some arcade games with the kids, from the interaction can understand how n why some kids behave in a certain manner, i read from today paper previously n i tink this is quite true n now i understand. kids are like a shadow of the parents. boys as of father n gals to their mothers
i can see it when i focus on their features physically n their facial expression they display
was watching this channel u, there was this yu dan professor. on the public speaking n the topics was on the art of making friends & the 3 stages
although it was a fairly short episode about 30minm i believe i benefited
young stage, middle age, n old age
the main points was the meaning of true friendship, how to cultivate & the techniques of holding a proper conversation without offending the other party . in case i forget, those were the following advice she provided to avoid on the pitfalls of the 3 stages
young. abstain from sex
middle .. not to be scheming . to plot or fight against others
old.. avoid materialistic..complain probabbly at that age already acheive a lot so must discount some material wealth
currently i would say i m still between young & middle age. my pay now is considered stable. in the process of acquiring more material wealth

benevolence is important in a person's cultivation . modesty is also essential in a person's sucess n the conclusion is the more cultivated you are, most probabbly the chances of getting good friends who truly care for you

there are 3 main character in a frienship
the outspoken people- expressive , leading the conversation
follower - neutral in their stand
quiet ones- those who just listen in a corner quietly

technique
keeping your mouth shut at the appropriate timing. friends are your mirror image of an individual. respect for one another goes a long way. not forcing other people to act on your own set of values.stop advising your fren when they simply dun accept your advice

i found her recommendation quite useful. oriental thinking is confusing with those confusicus teachings n chinese idiom seriouslybeing english educated i find myself mentally challenged when i try to recall those lengthy proverbs. All i can visualise is those bamboo strips of books and long lines. therefore yudan's advice was what i can consolidate with the help of english subtitles on the tv screen
after the series of UOL revision, my general grasp of hidden meaning and gradually becomes stronger as i get used to the thick readings & long lectures i get ffrom my lecturers . my absorption just gets better after the gruelling in bukit panjang. the interaction, although was tough helped built endurance, patience & the sensitivity to work, higher expectation of myself m the keen sharpness as well to be more meticulous, so it was a fruitful experience

thinkinh forward what jianhao told me on a cab back ride strikes a deep impression, my daddy doesnt wants me n my mother anymore coz he found himself a new gf,, after hearing this , i cant help but feel heavy hearted for this little boy in which ever way u name it. this yr i bought rick an expensive bdae gift a pokemon game as i thought he was deprived of his fatherly love for him n joanne'sbro , 4 yrs of suport emotionally as he was like the acting fatherly figure for him
he held to her as she had to shoulder the responsibility . as an elder bro
if my younger sis was treated badly by her husband n leading an unhappy marriage tolerating all sorts of nonsense
sometimes parent love cant be replaced by someone else
this yr i also bought some candies , chocolate from candy empire to my frens n some of the kids
taking a step back, my softer side, emphatetic side of me i stiill harbour is no kids policy
occasionally i do enjoy the company of kids maybe at his stage of me. at 24 still want to enjoy life as we only live once so we got to truly enjoy who knows what will happen tml

2612/07
met up with siew ping, germ. n fun @ a dinner in defu
the crab stung me, before i can taste the butter crab i bled. as the sharp spike pierce through my gums.. i bled before i can eat it..

28/12/07
n now at work more peaceful everyting 's getting better nw. bettter in handling nasty ppl n the correct technique n the PR in the interaction

holiday

yeah... i manage to spend my 11 days in bukit panjang

gd day to slack at home.. after shopping yesterday

bought some gifts for the kids .. toys.. lucky clover for my colleagues ...
upcoming event is e xmas family gathering

........... tml got to go back office.. wat a drag. but at least is a familar place.. at js..

171207

how i recall last yr today which was my birthday's celebration which i had was in maureen's place having steamboat with polar bear n the gals n william. gals out night while her parents were overseas when we played a bit of mahjong n watched dvd. we stayed over night at her place as a common practise when her family went overseas while shes alone here in sg
i m glad this yr's christmas would be an enjoyable compared to last yr's when i was in complete agony , i just happen to write finish today's entry n then i just casually browsed through 2006 dec's blog onwards to 2007's entry
i juz realized how unhappy i was n obstinate i were then
there was a new theory revolving my head , if there was no hope there would be dissappointment
so y bother with stuff which i would nt be able to control then
the right man would come crawling to me sooner or later
then perhaps the days of spinsterhood would be over soon

4 days has passed . n tml will be a long day
enjoyed my family outing with the kids
had a memorable 24th birthday
i guess some things got to be let go
this yr birthday wish is more $$ & gd smooth work flow. less difficult customers . more sales
more $ equates more security and confidence
losing weight n sheding the excess .. to boast up confidence level
i tink i still the eligibility to take my time for the time being
if i got the luck to meet someone better . it would be a bonus
after meetin him on fri
i can tell myself truthfully i moved on, thankfully after such a long time recovering
when can i stop kissing the frogs n spot the prince
the family's outing emerged with more kids. with the addition of inviting joanne n rick
planning the next family gathering on 30th dec which is rick's 8th birthday
east coast park. aracade with e family
cycling . blading. dinner
upcoming programs. xmas with the gals n birthday celebrating with lesibian buddy 0104hrs

i m 24 today

its been a wild 4 days i had for my annual break
my frens celebrated my 24th birthday for me
been going out for fancy dinner. met up with my ex n this time againe the feel was not like how we met up previously, it was more like friends catching up. hardly feel any sparks 2 days ago when i went out on a dinner date with him n later part we went to alley bar to chill . he gaveme atreat for dinner
then rationality begin to fill up. Hes really a bore. i was the one contributing more to the conversation n as usual hes the passive one trying to keep up with it n dun really like it
i kept it from the gals n i tink its juz as well that i can sort thing out this way
hes really not the one
i invitedx my frens to riverside indo for a birthday treat. maureen gave me 3 pairs of earings for a gift n i spulge a bit for birthday, had my hair straightened , went for facial n later today on my actual day i m goin for another dinneer with my family at meng hiong restaurant
tomorrow back again. i got to go back for relief n attend class after work till 10, tinkinh at this point , its a bit xian

4 more days

days of suffering. y is it so slow..
looking forward to AL 13-15 dec
next mon will c tat bitch again..
xian..
will enjoy the 4 off days away from work

the heartbreaker kid

story plot for this comedy revolves with a single indecisive guy who marries the wrong gal after a short courtship. he was influenced by his dad n friend to get married n ends up meeting the soulmate of his life when he goes on a honeymoon with his wife .his wife turns out to be a indescriptable character who is too wild for this man.duringhis trip, he tries to pursue the new soulmate while trying hard to keep the truth that hes newly wed from the both of the women. morale of the story is such that we should never be influenced by other people in making the first step for personal happines , not to rush into a marriage & assume the current partner is as though the last n confirmed candidate
it depicts how modern relationship can happen such episodes as described in the movie but however in a more exagerated manner. such is tat when it comes to relationship. people often do not rationalise n jump into the relationship n fail to understand each other which leads to other problems later in the relationship
i seen how wq n viv is still entangled in the love lorn problemactic vicious cycle when hes still to obstinate in his thinking. believing that there is still hope of reconcilationm but the root of the problem lies that because of his naive n childish behavior , being together is short lived , knowing my old pal's character, her tolerance for his tantrums would be limited as well
as for myself knowing carefully that pb is a passive person whos always been this manner , would also continue this way. so there is no room for negotation for reconcilation either, the cycle of waiting n waiting , n the feeling of being unwanted is such a pathetic n miserable past of the previous failed relationship
since there is no room for compromising to another person. the conclusion is such tat hes a selfish person n there wont be any happines in the long run if i choose to shoulder all the unhapiness n later recognise there is no reciprocal in the end. finally its going to be much more painful than expected . knowing that there is no outcome . possibilites in an impossible character
i m glad i thought past this point n i n living happily on my own. finding my own happiness in every way, i have my close frens to count on when i have my bad day, n nt bitter about being unappreciated which is y i made the right choice although i do still have some feelings . after all i m still human.opening my options n taking some of the prevoius remarks seriously n bracing my myself up. grilling up for better phsyique n stamina does oso boast my personal ego n confidence
when i saw lila in the character , with her loud n wild character. it reminded me of who i was a couple of years ago while i was with the veri first relationship
nice plot made me thought deeper than usual
this was some review frm a fellow patron who left his remark on the net
If you think thru deep enuff, you really can learn a great deal about yr relationship thru the show......"do we really know and understand the person together w/ you, be it for 6 weeks, 6 yrs, or even 60 yrs? how far would you go to accommodate, compromise, tolerate etc, for the sake of the r/s? What is trust, and what is lying in a r/s? giving in to temptations? or stay faithful?............enjoy moments of laughter while "learning" abt r/s frm this movie......enjoy.........

finally i pulled through the 4th day in bukit panjang

currently trying to get used to a perfectionist boss for the time being another 7 more days to go.

freaking tired after travelling daily for 3hrs

today's my 3rd day in bp branch
shes damn lame
damn bloody strict
almost blow up
another 2 more days.. n she will be on holiday
shes domineering n stringent
another 8 more days back to host branch .
how i miss my dear sweet boss..in js

finishing 21.1km for stancharted run in 3hr15min

sat was a disaster.. moey is such a terrible co worker & colleague to work with
the run.. went there at abt 6am this morning n now 7hrs later
6.15pm ended e run abt 9.30am
guess who i bump into consectively pb who is so unexpected , we had intended to participate the run together when we were discussing abt it last yr this time
n i cut him which is quite an achievement