Sunday, August 02, 2009

Fishing for prawn today.. Fun... with both of our nephews.. the fierce ah yi n the giving in always bullied gugu @ pasir ris




















had a fun time with sharleen, brandon. jianhao n huiru @pasir ris fish farm, although its a little expensive.. we had a total of 9 prawns after 3 hours of futile efforts trying to be pro fishermen.. should be fisherboy n fishergals.. haha
i must say i m a worm killer expert n bait gal.. after 3 hours there..
at first i was so scared of the thick fat worm until i got fed up when e rest caught their prawns
no choice .. my ex sister in law called me for help. mentioned his boy is bored n shes workingo so..happen my colleague was also bringing out her nephew so while iwas at the office. i was on the line with her. n then i casually mentioned whens a gd place to bring a kid out besides arcade. she suggested fishing for prawns.. for the thrill of it. i decided to give it a try
the both of them.. huiru n sharleen had sucha heated debated conversation over dinner @ ajitei.. i thought they would explore. but having known sharleen for over one yr or so. i knew she had no evil intention n her explodtion was unintentional . only that i also wonder why she got so worked up over the topic also..
ah boy was very happy indeed. after we deposited him back at his place. he was still asking me if next week i was bringing him out to fish for prawns... hahahaha..
i casually mentioned the idea of buying a house, and of course it involves a lot of planning,, $ n some luck.. i hope when panda graduates n finish his final semester. hope to be a proud homeowner by 2013.. thats the year i turn 30. this is one achivement i look forward to when i m more than ready which includes being veri financially stable.. mentally prepared for a family. and also an ideal partner by my side, a more stable relationship which is built on common grounds n hopefully we wont have to argue over financial issues. which can be a source of conflict if not handled carefully,

Friday, July 31, 2009

ice cold beer at home

tot it would be nice to chill at home with hoegarden n peanuts. .slouching on the couch
i almost lost my coach pouch last evening... veri lucky i went back to the kopitam n got it.back. time to log off the computer.. whole day staring at it.. time to switch off

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

some random thoughts i had today

i was tinking .. if i want to switch industry . came to a point.. i was askin myself do i want to remain in this line for the next 5-10yrs. issit someting i really want or becoz i cant part with the pay n the lifestyle
its like a world of compliance .. power struggle.. . mind games.. stressful n fast paced work pace.. this corporate banking.. switch here for abt 1yr odd now.. doingservicing for the past almost 4 yrs or so.. n i m veri fed up wit h work n environment its a compromise to pay .its always a tie between money n interest
recently i got this chest pain. is making me veri stressfulm i being to diffcult on myself
9:18:55 PM ~~~ Jeff ~~~ Porkie There's one motto i live by...Maybe u'll like to think abt it:- "Leave home issues at home when u are at work...and once u leave the office,leave the office issues behind and go home".Dont mix the 2 together or u'll be very miserable.
7/29/2009 9:19:56 PM Porkie ~~~ Jeff ~~~ which is y most ppl join banking industy because undeniably its one of the well paid industries but then again more money doesnt mean more job satisfaction
7/29/2009 9:21:04 PM ~~~ Jeff ~~~ Porkie True true...i agree with tat.But tats just it,u do the job just for the money and dont think too much abt it.At the end of the day,wats impt is tat u make money every mth and live happy spending that money.
lately i got tis issue when i tense up. i tend to forget to breathe n then my shoulder starts to ache coz i been slouching ..so my body is giving me signs of fatigue
a fren told me this... U need a really good fuck.....A damn good one....Hahah.... =P medical research has shown that a good...now,great sex actually helps to relieve stress.Trust me...that temporary when done on a constant basis,means alot k....
Its been proven by medicine science
Normally a once rusty one bangs ya........U'll be brought to heaven and back to hell at the same time...tats how it is....hahahaha its pretty entertaining..
i really need a change. of career progression.. tats what been making me draggy for work
do not compromise for pay find something happy n $$ nt too far from what i m currently drawing.. im nt happy being a friendly loan shark..
maybe sports can loosen me up rather than a gd fuck... wahahahahah rofl...
backache again.. true spa.. back rub. yeah man..
theres tis saying which we discussed for today's morning briefing before operations.. what do relationship manager do in the bank. obviously they dun talk about relationship.. hahhaah we talk about money all the time.. which is an understatment. when the company mentions about care for the customer..
the .. its our pleasure campaign is offically launching next week/ e ads r running next week causing much excitement and torment to our emails.. all loud n raging..
its adding more stress,, its more like its our " Pressure".wahahahah
we received new SOPS checklist today.. KPI.. key performing index.. for BSI.. branch service index .. since the bank thinks the service can me measured why is y they go to great lengths to ensure we r like macdonalds.. consistent n competent
why is that it has to be so compliant.. so to adhere to audit issues.. i hate ruless. m i in the correct place then.. arrrggghhhh ...
tml.. thursday
fri.. end month.. end of the week. start of a mini war zone soon.. with ppl tendering last min n urgent leave as well as mcs again. wtf... sat.. .cycling ..spa.. massage . or bitching anyting.. wats life now .. its meaningless n boring.. i can consider being a housewife if i manager to become one.. hahahaahhaha then i can pull off selling my credit cards , discussing bad payment terms. fraudulent n suspicious transactions.. n say hi to my kitchen.. i love being a housewife.. n drop the further studies plan.. wahahahhaha m i crazy..
rule no 1
never trust a man fully 100%
rule no 2
always have $ in hand
rule no 3
honesty n integrity.. no secret between couples.. thats what i told panda frankly like t ncs to him
rule no 4
always believe in urself n ur capacity
well i think his little ex gf sms him last week n he admitted openly n told me his replied message.. oh tats nothing between them . .n now hes got someone waiting for him on the other side.. hahahhha he better behave. or else.... hiak hiak hiak...

Monday, July 27, 2009

a tightness in my chest today.. i feel so old now






i think i m really getting old. today i had this intense chest pain which i couldnt get rid of it , was complaining to bingo .. my trade relief colleague for ah lian.. oh well today i got a lot more to pour out.
maybe its due to the stress self inflicted.. why are we working so hard for .. for bigger houses. cars. better wages. to provide ourselves with better material wealth or posessions.. that i dunno
maybe
我的胸口今天很闷..很像要窒息。。闷了一整天 可能我给自己压力, 身边的 team mate 因为 sales no good.. numbers not there所以要 say goodbye soon.. boss suggest他可以internal transfer or tender lor.hes still got 2 months to find a placement.._
下班之前,搬了将近20个箱子。。its all typing paper,搬到腰酸背痛..不认老也不行
明天 Bank Nisp 的同事回来ubi参观,我有时觉自己很像zoo里面的exhibit..任由其他人摆布使唤,生活总是那么无奈..没办法. no choice life is like that.
人是个矛盾的动物.刚才回家的时候还下着毛毛的细雨.我买了菜饭坐在我最熟悉的 favourite armchair.. slack.. 看百万大歌星..hhahhaha so happy.. simple pleasure . gd dinner no stress
总会有一天 我们不用再为生活而奔忙 人在做 天在看 只要坚持着不放 好运总会转到 我们每个人手上! copied from a fren's msn nick.. sounds cheerful but then i dunno if it happens to me somehow
女人其实有时候还蛮幸福 就是这样单纯的过每一天.找几个老朋友发发牢骚,吐吐苦水.再不行。在没人的地方大不了大哭一场发泄一下压抑的心情再乐观的我都有难过的一面,悲观的时候听听一些抒情的歌,伤心的剧情都稍微可以或足以让我落泪是一种情绪的起伏和波动.
有那个女孩不渴望可以幸福嫁得好,有机会做个漂亮的新娘 找个伴开心得一起生活。
何尝不是件乐事
熊猫和我可不可以走到那样的尽头,还言知过早。就过一天算一天.我很少会那样婆妈,多愁善感.
对身心的确很疲累
我觉得自己活到很现实。。月中每个月的15号照旧拿薪水。似乎少了一些说不出的
。。。。。。
虽然踏实身活安稳。 没有太多更动
年轻人应该有的干劲。我有点老了,感觉上身心疲惫。。折磨到不成人形。。好累的一天.. 看看incredible tales..吓吓自己也不错!!10.38hrs...
saw this blog from my fav writer.. finds this quite true sometimes

Jul 27th, 2009 by 張小嫻

我可愛的表哥跟我說,男人永遠不要跟女人吵架,因為輸的永遠是男人。

他結過三次婚,很有資格說這句話。

「女人記得所有細節,」他說: 「 每次吵架,她們都會把你說過的每句話背出來,說你這樣說過,說你怎麼怎麼不對,於是你覺得你好像真的有這麼說過,是你不對,但女人卻不記得是自己首先說了什麼話,你才會接著說下去。」

我笑笑說:「是的,女人記得每一個細節,但是,表哥,吵架也不是永遠是女人贏的。」

至少,我好像不是每一次吵架也吵贏。

一場吵架,誰會贏,誰又會輸啊?

那還用說嗎?是愛得比較多的那個輸。

你愛他比他愛你多,那麼,即使是你吵贏了,最不開心的是你,首先低聲下氣認錯的也是你。誰要你愛他多一些?吵架之後,見不到面,是你想他多一些。

吵架吵輸的,永遠是比較在乎的那個。沒那麼在乎的,也許不是不愛他,也不是不想他,卻比較能夠咬著牙等待對方首先打電話來。

吵架是一場較勁,有時贏,有時輸。等電話從來不好受,但是,誰要你等啊?所以,贏也要贏得有風度,贏了三次,可以認輸一次,這次首先打電話。下一次,堅決等電話
Jul 24th, 2009 by 張小嫻

有時你會發現,無論曾經多麼深愛彼此的兩個人,不見面一段時間,好像可以真的不再見面。吵架了,或者鬧分手,不見面一個星期,兩個星期,甚至一個月,你很傷感地發現,也許是可以從此不見面的。為什麼一定要見面呢?所有的思念也都會在時日中化為灰燼,就連習慣,也會改變。

誰也可以不再見誰。可是,為什麼到頭來還是會想見到對方呢? 那不過是我們放不低的執著。

執著有時候甚至超過了愛。是如此執著地不想放手,是如此執著地想再見一面,直到一天,連這份執著也失去了。

誰都知道這樣的執著沒什麼好,可是,人不一定只會做一些對自己好的事。是因為愛所以執著?還是因為執著所以愛?也許已經不想再去深究,只是很執著地跟自己說:「是不見你也可以,但我還是想再見你!」

見到了,便又從頭開始執著。下一次鬧分手的時候,你又會跟自己說:「為什麼要見呢?一直不見的話,是可以不見的啊!」

不見不見還是要再見,這份執著到底是甜的還是累人的?

Sunday, July 26, 2009

26th july 09 2345
























ndp preview...
nice... chat up with huiru.. provided her some advice on how to communicate with her bf hope i helped her.. nice pics.. n fireworks got to thank her for bringing me along
made hamburger today for dinner with panda we are together for the past 8mths. i was telling huiru the fundamentals of a relationship i guess i have a lot to learn as well to be as rational in personal as well as in work
reciting the national pledge n singing the national anthem was an emo and proud moments i had last nite. it made me forget momentarily how bitchy work was or even panda . the whole heritage and the performace at marina bay was spectacular. i believe the effects were very much well done up and i am looking forward to the actual ndp performance on the 9Aug which is 2 weeks from now
its been a pleasure knowing him. we have our fights. our quarrels the unhappy moments together.nothing is for sure but then i would want to make tings work.


offically

Thursday, July 23, 2009

gossip mongers ... ruinng our day @ work

it has been quite an interesting week. this entry is gonna super long..
some blog maureen told me.. quite bitchy n interesting
http://cowboycaleb.liquidblade.com/index.php/archives/2009/07/19/and-i-thought-they-all-loved-him-so/
we havespies all around the office. i m playing a bo chap role.. also known as the wu jian dao..
we have a teller whos taking far too much mc. n shes exempted for certain busines sfunction which lead to y . boss is so double standard.. tats becoz shes the pet.. n tats y . she sa ka skill best
shes a discerning person whos smiling always. but she shares spies infowith boss. n when boss knows it. we dunno y n who spread it
apparently she was on mc for 2 months and she disappear and went aust so for 3 monthss she was on mcn bloc k leave n it led to much unhappiness n resentment among the team.. we all feel unjustified why shes has got such double standard treatment that boss still can keep her ard while she goes around stiring info n back stabbing the others along the way to preserve her place and gets awat scot free.
shared with ET whos in media line , she shared an insightful conversation we had . didntknow shes an expert in this. she taught me a new term known as the 3 leg kungfu.. commonlyknown as sa ka..
the power of grapevine , informal information sharing in an organisation has got amazing effects. if u happen to sa ka ur boss well. chances r u become a lackey n ur life gets more rosier indeed
http://orchidville.com/
tml going this place for dinner .. gd chance for bootlickers to sa ka boss in such "romantic settings "
before i got involved with the spies .. i used to naively think that .. do your job well stay clear of shit. get ur pay.. be amicable to clients n colleagues
somehow during all this while , a yr with corporate banking changed my whole mindset
we dun have to slog like a cow.. its all in how we play the game
those we play mind games well . sa ka boss nicely gets a more rosy life at work
banking is s o tiring now long hours.., sick ppl ard,psychotic clients, fake colleagues
i m so tired i put on a fake smile with them n pretend to be so nice with them i hate tis side of me, although it pays well so theres a trick to tackle all these issues. ET in media line told me. just bo chap listen , gather all the grapevine info. keep your mouth shut, do your job well.maybe i should get out of banking it doesnt suit me. its a line of liars, hypocrites. a fake self. a stage in frontline and a palace of gossip mongers
i have to fend a fence of defence around me n tell myself stay clear of gossip zone
there r so many rumours spreading around all around.. from rong mou mou.. xiaogui zi. sexy mama. step mother. step father.n zhen zhu,, defuse them n cast it all away. all in a day's work
i hate the fact of being manipulated. it makes working more bitter than ever to face clients request..
we have tlike clients last min.. yet demanding but high profit generating. they are everywhere like houseflies.. i cant sweep it off
luckily i have a bunch of pals i know i can count on.. panda has been nice to me he arrange bfs with me cheer me up. sometimes makes me feel like a princess at times n tat makes my day sometimes
we've gone through some rough patches.. n i learnt somehow some tricks on the conflicts to deal with him , certain ways to resolve conflicts.. some tips adapted from lsb.. modified n i apply it on.. it doesnt work all lthe time but it helps to keep my cool
in terms of management, men are less emotional than women . and thats what makes a female boss more challenging to work with
these days with a black cloud above us.recession. H1N1. tings r moving so much slower.. we cant help it but the organisation will not understand this. its a profit generating listed firm n those who cant fit gets the sack its just a simple theory, its not charity nor is it a honeymoon zone
the days r over.. we have to look forward and perform.. perform perform..
so much to complain.. its time to get some rest. 0011hrs

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

long week tis week






did a video shoot earlier.. went hotpot culture with the sec sch frens
i had a otherwise opinion of the banking environment
people are ruthless and merciless. they would stoop to anything to gain their own interest and objectives. double standard treatment from bosses is common.
now that times are bad. those who under performing or condemned are indirectly asked to resign .people i used to know can be so wicked and faked. nice on the surface but unscrupulous . i m so disappointed with how human nature, to protect their own interest to get themselves out of trouble and save their bloody own skin
no choice la
ren jia jiang hu sheng bu you ji. take everyday as it comes.
there are so many external factors that you can stop, i feel so defeated sometimes that it really doesnt pay to be kind at all. i lost to people who are ball lickers. more wicked and knows how to play the game well n usually i got the shit where people throw me in.. somehow i still got to face it realistically la. its everywhere anyway
face the shit la .. since its such a bitchy world. have to be bitchy then cannot beat them join them lor
tml training is from 7-9 its another bloody long day. i bloody hate it.. only thurs n sat is left
fri is networking nite @ orchid country club to c some lamer performance also. wats left thurs is agm nite for union employees.. i fucking hate this week suddenly why do i have to attend such boring events. instead of slack at home
i m nt bitchy by nature but if the environment force me to be . then i "ll do it then! energy yogurt bar from south africa taste gd. .the sanitizer stinks but it helps against germs n H1N1
the chocolate fondus was sinful but good

Sunday, July 19, 2009

recharge battery on sat nite












started off the day @ work ended the day. went back home to rest then watched harry porter
was good but the n i m eager to know the ending but the JK Rowlings has got to spilt the last 2 episodes in the following nov then can know the end .. to separate in 2 movies. lsb i know was kind enough to include me in her schedule..hehew e have to thank pak for the credit
pics include the good black chicken soup i had that bro mother in law made
the hand sanitizer dettol which i used in office. formerly this was only introduced in F &B but now since the business climate has changed , it becomea necessity for service staff like us also in the front liners
it has been a crazy tough and challening week luckily banana aka Bingo was around to help me if not i would have had a real hard time at the trade desk attending to enquiries which i dun have proper consultation
last nite i had a real scare in bus 16. blame it on my luck or my stupidity or my low cut top
we had this ah beng boy who just sat suddenly beside me on the bus when there are so many empty seats around me. i thought that ok that was nothing initially until this bian tai had to sit closer to me each time n tat made me quite uncomfortable n obviously he was using this sinister.. "hiak hiak hiak" stare at me when he looked sideway at me coz i was obviously ignoring him i was looking out of the window and listening to my mp3. its a bit scary so by the second or third bus stop , i decided that i cant put up with such behavior liao so after i saw people boarding the bus i had to this sudden: Skiuse me Sir.. then i walked to the front to take a seat since i still got another 3 stops to go before i reach mid pt orchard to meet panda
yeah panda has a got new nick,, its pin pin or xiao pin zi coz sharleen n i were discussing abt the political scene we had with our colleagues n those who suck up n lick balls were eunuch and gong nuu.. xiao gui zi and chun xiang.. hahaha n the veri big boss was the emperor .. qi ci was the new female business head whos ruthless and hiong in her agro ruling culture..as i mentioned her email will read like
WHEN CAN I C THE NUMBERS FOR CORPORATE INSURANCE>> WHEN!! ??
so when i alighted i hadthis sigh of relief. finally out of bian tai zone
hehehe that proves something my ego is boasted.. i got market.. WAhahaha
so wang shang.. chor sen erm sent each of the emb team sales folks..some psychotic email on a saturday when most of them are resting or not working
its those email that makes u stress one
i remember it reads like this
if u are better how to strive to be even betterand if you r tat better how to be even better than that and think how to stay like that.
it those type of email that push you like a car.. well said sales staff are cash cows to an organisation and the boss will milk you until to the day u cant be milked hahaha soudns tragic but true. always the ppl with numbers will kp the loudest and have more shine n glam on top of their head so i believe those coleague who open up their email on mon will then get a message and then it gets drilled and then get all psyched up on a mon morning
we have mentioned the head office is like the huang gong or inner palace. nothing bad gets unwatched and tan zi.. or the spy always goes around to scout for more juicy gossip around
my boss is known as the rong mou mou and the team lead is her right hand maid known as chun xiang..ahah n sometimes we use the coded words in the office and discuss hahahhah tats funny
some of the direct sales mate r back in the inner palace. they are screwed almost every day .. one of these days they become a sick cow or malnourished cow. no more milk.. ne ne also shrink from excessive squeezing will shrink or qq zui...
last nite was quite interesting @ orchard central after i manage to make a quick escape.
they are a chain of faggots around.. panda n i m managed to make a decision on a quizns sub similar menu to subway but its got an extensive range of food choices . we had this 12inch traditional with salad and soup n while enterin the mall, we got this coupon for tully's coffee..
all was fine.. it was crowded @ tully coz it was offered at half price for mocha n next week will be ice hazel chocolate latte
since he made alittle profit from this card trading direct selling business. so he treated for dinner n i buy him coffe in return
so while sitting at the cafe. we notice one obnoxious couple doing insightly acts in public
firstly the gal was tugging at his bf 's chiu chiu or pluck his mao mao at his chin and the guy was sleeping ok fine.. tat was bearable n then they occupied 2 tables according to panda.. we had wanted to find a seat since half price so its packed n this couple had to take 2 tables with them n before we know it, this gal had a shawl out on with her self n the guy whos sleeping n guess what, it became their bedroom. this is so interesting n yet so idiotic. they should be booking a room instead in the hotel or they go back home n sleep instead of making use of the public area. oh come on. they are some lounge or seats availabe at the other floors they could have use the other places to catch on their nap or watso ever
the other 2 couples beside us seem to share the same sentiment or thoughts i had this other couple who gave a disgusted look in her .. she sniggered at the fact that some idiots r so oblivious..and so not considerate ,., bui zi dong want to sleep can.. dun sleep in crowded cafe where everyone is searching for seat go park la if still no $$ recession can understand . go home oso can ma. if nt hotel 81 oso no t bad.
i caught the other gal sniggering so i snigger back as a sign of acknowlegement coz ocassionally she was complaining to her partner. call her the snigger gal. even panda oso a bit TL .. he s got this big bag with him filled of cards.. the card seller..haha
as expected while i was there when panda went to the gents. within 15 mins . the snigger couple should leave coz they cant stand it n they were seated right in front of the sleeping couple while panda n myself were in the middle n we had naother couple B beside us.. we call them the cant be bothered couple so panda n i would be neutral couple. we didnt pass much comment but personally i find it a bit distracting and disturbed
i wonder y the tully coffee staff didnt ask them politely to leave since this affects their turnover business.. so much about that . we had this fire throwing performance outside the mall , then since it was such a long day out of home it was 10odd just as we wanted to take 175 back, we wanted to tug at one corner the last row to catch a little nap on the bus we had a this gal who was chatting so loudly that we know that she had a veri good zi za dinner at somewhere and her dishes were superb so i thought panda was happily snoring away n the last straw was the bus driver didnt stop ath the designated bus stop n we had to walk back 10 min walks . while we were walking as usual since panda is a driver he whines a little about walkign becoz we were not supposed to be walking . since the bus stop was just opp the carkpark that we wanted to go.. hahahaahha he was complaining about the loud blabber who wants the whole world to know how good her dinner was.. hehehhe so since we were at the back seat so i decided to catch a nap also but when the occasion comes or when the bus is crowded , i oso zi dong n behave more appropriately in public . it reflects on our own individual culivated personality
singaporeans well still have a lot of improvements.. talk about ugly singaporeans.i cant help but agree. the japs and the thais just for instance in asia.. are much gracious..its quite an interesting nights with a lot of characters outside.. so funny.. i collapsed in bed the moment my head hit the pillow at ard 11odd last nite n i woke up at 7 today . i was so tired n sleepy i didnt bother to remove makeup last nite which i seldom do tat. it makes the complexion bad. i had want to rest n close my eyes for a while but i end up sleeping ..
yesterday i try to poke this eye ting which has been bugging me for a couple of weeks. try to tu the nong out of the yan zhen.. hahahaha
my dad just woke up and hes urging me to cook . haha .. i was thinking should i then cook lunch instead and head for hotpot with martin since he came back from australia and i havent had time to chat up with the rest. qinpei. zhiwei ,even ruolin is going with her baby and jeremy..
since dad is up. i had prepare a quick lunch . slack ard n dinner with the sec sch mates
today lunch hahahahah... 11am after 1hr in the kitchen.. dad hinting me to cook upa storm in the kitchen heheheh... waiting for both dad n panda to b back..

Friday, July 17, 2009

back home happily

i m so exhausted today.. i had depressed ppl coming in to address their finanical problems to me.. one by one i been listening and offering professional advice i had for them
i havent got the time to address my own personal issues. things i find that something is very wrong but then i havent got the time to talk things out
fri is a typical rush hour syndrome. one of my colleagues only had time for lunch at 4pm but i m lucky i manage to gobble food along the way
i should address it before it comes a long term issue for me..
viv can only offer me genuine advice an real life example she had before but the rest is up to me to decide if i can handle it in the long run .so much for today
its my life n i got to be living in the moment
the 1 yr degree course is tempting but it cost $ so the best approach is to switch to a job with shorter work commitment standardworking hours n similar salary scheme so i can focus well .
the political scene is getting worse. ah cheng is plannign to switch team lead n sales team coz he cant stand the squeezing from the bosses.. i hope he will be happier
as for sharleen, shes happy now with her 1.9..harry porter... so looking forward to it

Thursday, July 16, 2009

er ren ku custmer day

maybe today never use flower water to bath
got a few nonsense ppl
use the lan word on us.. agitated man. relief boss oso veri kwai lan refuse to sign on the customer request.. heheheh
the angry man was a bit vulgar n rude .. he even suan boss.. i ask you out for out to see you man. see if u pretty meh.. then boss walk away. haha customer LL wahahaha
lucky dinner was gd. jan's mother cook black chicken soup
haiz the job market is so lousy
all the offers who replied were so not attractive
there is 12mth markting degree course.. cost abt $14,000 to complete for 8 units.. sounds attractive..still thinking abt it
today 5 of my staff are relief. we had to so call literally beg people to help us
MC rate is exceptionally high . my colleague on average had 2-7dats of mc or quarantine
another 2 more days before can rest.. hahahaah sat pls come faster..
pity the backroom staff.. they work ard 12hrs a day. dun earn commission and the OT is so difficult to approve sometimes.. sad for them
life is like that ba. lots of bitter and happy things to hope for.
hope tml is a better day then

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

unhappy day before work

it was supposed to be a happy session but somehow it turned out otherwise things i wanted it to be smooth just turned out otherwise. things i planned just didnt go my way
many outing that was meant to be happy just turned out unpleasant like a waste of time altogether
i cant help it but question my own judgment suddenly today y i make myself like a fool suddenly
lsb can only lend me her ear and occasionally advise me what can be done to prevent certain unhappiness
to her opinion if one party gets out of the car suddenly its considered a rude gesture. i didnt really think too much into it maybe i cannot swallow a lot of unhappiness all the time and act like some subservient dog beside him. i can feel my veins bursting or nearly on the verge maybe i m starting to really lose patience and cool which i usually can hold quite well
wats a hard core gamer lifestyle typically like and issit worthwile accomodating to a mcp person in the long run. i wonder also
maybe to him those are his priorities
like lsb mentioned i m gong .i can allow another person to dig at me . yell at me spoil my day and degrade myself n i can still pose to the whole world. oh i m still hanging there well.
i slip and fall on my way while walking to walk due to some clash of events
while taking the 15min walk i cant help but a wall of oppressive negative emotions just rise up and i begin to resent and hate some parts of it which i really detest . however i just choose to hide under the cupboard a term lsb taught me and pretend nothing is wrong. something is wrong and when the ignition point burst. i know i cant pretend that everything is going fine or at least somewhat the direction i would like to .
nu
maybe i really should reconsider this choice or at least do things to improve a conflict to alleviate some of the pain and agony that i dun usually have to go through after a series of psychotic demanding customers i c for work average of 8-10hours daily in the bank
i just find there theres some form of inequality lying there and i m just not pleased with it and theres nothing i can do except to accept it
my threshold for people hurling at me is thin , i can no longer acede sometimes. in short i lose my cool when i could have maintain a high EQ standard
an article i was reading which i find it amusingly true in some ways
In love? It's not enough to keep a marriage, study finds
Reuters
Reuters - Wednesday, July 15

SYDNEY - Living happily ever after needn't only be for fairy tales. Australian researchers have identified what it takes to keep a couple together, and it's a lot more than just being in love.
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A couple's age, previous relationships and even whether they smoke or not are factors that influence whether their marriage is going to last, according to a study by researchers from the Australian National University.

The study, entitled "What's Love Got to Do With It," tracked nearly 2,500 couples -- married or living together -- from 2001 to 2007 to identify factors associated with those who remained together compared with those who divorced or separated.

It found that a husband who is nine or more years older than his wife is twice as likely to get divorced, as are husbands who get married before they turn 25.

Children also influence the longevity of a marriage or relationship, with one-fifth of couples who have kids before marriage -- either from a previous relationship or in the same relationship -- having separated compared to just nine percent of couples without children born before marriage.

Women who want children much more than their partners are also more likely to get a divorce.

A couple's parents also have a role to play in their own relationship, with the study showing some 16 percent of men and women whose parents ever separated or divorced experienced marital separation themselves compared to 10 percent for those whose parents did not separate.

Also, partners who are on their second or third marriage are 90 percent more likely to separate than spouses who are both in their first marriage.

Not surprisingly, money also plays a role, with up to 16 percent of respondents who indicated they were poor or where the husband -- not the wife -- was unemployed saying they had separated, compared with only nine percent of couples with healthy finances.

And couples where one partner, and not the other, smokes are also more likely to have a relationship that ends in failure.

Factors found to not significantly affect separation risk included the number and age of children born to a married couple, the wife's employment status and the number of years the couple had been employed.

The study was jointly written by Dr Rebecca Kippen and Professor Bruce Chapman from The Australian National University, and Dr Peng Yu from the Department of Families, Housing, Community Services and Indigenous Affairs.

for a long time today i was staring at my cell phone after lunch and i was trying to force myself to come with a decision and solution. i was asking myself do i really need to resort to plan B. its not easy . both lsb and tb always ask me is he the right one. m i really happy?they dun really think i m really happy
sometimes i dunno how to answer this question truthfully myself
numberlogy stufff i deal today.. i m a number 4.. n unfortunately i m dating 1
1s are selfish, dictated and bossy in short. well fits the bill exactly .
no wonder i m starting to lose it..
NO 4 is the worker. Practical, with a love of detail, Fours are trustworthy, hard-working, and helpful. Ruled by Uranus.

Keywords: trustworthy, helpful, steady, logical, self-disciplined, problem-solving. If expressed negatively: contrary, stubborn, narrow.

As lovers: Although steady and generally trustworthy, Fours can be quite emotional and frustrated if they feel caged in. They tend to need some level of confrontation in their love lives. A relationship that stagnates will bring out their contrary nature. They love to solve problems, and if allowed to "take on" and tackle predicaments, they are very loyal lovers.


Famous people with a Life Path 4 :
Arnold Schwarzenegger, Clint Eastwood.

have a Life Path number 4. The route of reliable and persistent working people.

You have come to this life to experiment with the concepts of security, stability and success through work and merit. You will be brought to prove discipline, method and regularity all the way along this route. A life of construction and seriousness as well as that which concerns your dwelling, your profession and yourself. You will be regularly confronted with situations calling on stability and solid aptitudes which push you to develop these powers. A relatively slow progression where only perseverance and merit will be rewarded. It is probable that your life will be regular, sometimes a bit routine or dull. An existence marked with projects to make real and stable. The lesson of this life program is to learn to carry out your work with regularity and to assume responsibility but without closing yourself to the rest of the world. In a word, to become a solid value. However, it will be more necessary to count on your force of personal achievement than on a possible easy success, by some donation or other.

Famous people with a Life Path 4 :
Arnold Schwarzenegger, Clint Eastwood.


Number One

One is the leader. The number one indicates the ability to stand alone, and is a strong vibration. Ruled by the Sun.

Keywords: independent, creative, original, ambitious, determined, self-assured. If expressed negatively: arrogant, stubborn, impatient, self-centered.

As lovers: Number ones take the lead in love. Love and/or the chase is of utmost importance to these lovers. There can be self-centeredness, however. These lovers are willing to experiment, and they can be quite exciting--they can also require a lot of excitement because they can bore easily.

You have a Life Path Number 1. Route of conquerors, individuals and eccentrics.

It corresponds to the itinerary of those who are made for action and whose most important accomplishments are individual and original. In your life, it will be necessary for you to have courage, confidence in yourself, authority, a mind for independence or undertakings and a lot of determination. You will regularly be confronted with situations or obstacles that give you the opportunity to use and master this type of power ; the aim being to learn to reach success counting essentially on yourself. It is a destiny generally quite lucky. It incites worthiness, merit, conquering, innovating but also the acceptance of the consequences of your own decisions. With this Life Path you generally advance quickly and it is better no to try to force things too often because you may lose your pace or rhythm. A life rich in new developments during which you will be brought to develop self-assertion, a certain boldness and sometimes pride or a rebellious spirit. Perhaps it will help you to motivate others and draw them into your ways. You must take your destiny in hand, open the track and persevere !

Famous people with a Life Path 1 :
Yves Saint-Laurent, Alain Prost, Sean Connery, Tom Cruise, Walt Disney, Charlie Chaplin, Henri Ford, Jacques-Yves Cousteau, Napoleon Bonaparte
the past week just hasnt been smooth sailing at work either. we are short handed. we have a suspected case of a colleague having H1N1. i have to cover extra work and the person i can consult doesnt render the same amount of support to me or my crew/ it makes work very frustrating and time consuming
i was at this saturation point that i just want to leave work aside and slack. the condition has been harsh to us. with certain compliance procedure and personally i also hates rules and regulations. we had clients in bad debts seeking welfare assistance and more people seeking some help . of course i would love to solve it as much i would or i could .

as much as i know rules are not meant to be broken in the banking environment i found some of the procedures rather dumb because we do it for the sake of doing it.
in line with some other issues i encounter outside work i thought i had to be fair to my clients
i just hope that the weekend can come soon and i can slack comfortably in peace
i wish i didnt have to handle conflict issue on a personal aspect after work is over
it is tiring and it leaves an after effect that it cant be erased visbly . i m not narrow minded or petty or maybe i should use this weekend to recharge
there has been so much tension or unnecessary tension i bring upon myself without me knowing it. i m so tired . i m emo. negative. and super bad mood this evening. its affecting my sleep and i force myself to get over it once i purge it out of my system , my brain .. and the recap of the episode this morning and the chain of activities at work the lousy ppl i meet. its just not my day today like the sudden downpour
something i copy from a website..
When two people are first involved in a relationship, everything is wonderful and friction is rare.

Then, as time goes by, you get to know other sides of your partner and, undoubtedly, discover some personality traits you don’t like, and other traits you appreciate.

The more time you spend together, the more you get to know each other. But even if you consider your relationship almost perfect, you will certainly experience at least some areas of possible friction.
p4
Virtuous, dutiful, conventional, loyal, ambitious, efficient, resourceful, practical, romantic, prudent. Negative: Rigid, sanctimonious, thoughtless, greedy, ruthless, manipulative, disillusioned
p1
Self-confident showperson. Independent, single-minded, natural ability, successful, high standards, passionate, fulfilled. Negative: Egocentric, opinionated, frustrated tyrant, lonely, bitter

Monday, July 13, 2009

a little treat after work






chessy waffle from yum yum tree. bubble tea.. heheheheh