120909 lazy sat 1026hrs

while panda is busy jamming . i have my citi training guide @ my lap . i decide to drop in a short entry.. after a long week at the trainin room. i finally have a short break for sat n sun. how i miss not working on saturdays i seen my fair share of bitch there in the new environement. also some young punks such as poly interns. n these are the people that i have to work with for the next 10 days. we will then graduate on 26th last nite we went to tong le.. paramount hotel outlet for dinner n headed to Mel's forfor drinks. it was nice seeing old colleagues after almost 11 days of break till now i just realize what kind of jungle that i m treading on. maybe i got to get uused to such culture . afterall there are so many teams there . its competitive and cdynamic environment. whereas in branch we only have 10-13 people and its already so chaotic. in order to spend n maximise my remaining weekend i decided to head to panda's after mels since katong was just 2 streets away.. n later today we r meeting. maureen. merry. pak n lsb for lunch @ breeks pics to be updated later.. hahhaahaahahaha. so nice bringing the dog down for a walk and eatng healthy breakfast together .. to be updated 1046hrs now @ 2330hrs after a day in town n movie with my panda.. movie no 9..ya not another animation again.. its been a long long shop @commex. i can understand y all the otakus like to shop during such a mega gadget event now. for the first time with such guidance frm pak n lsb.. i got a gd steal n i m using this entry in my new axioo little pink netbook. its like war in a convention hall trying to fight ur life out with a gd deal. just as i tot i would have to buy at the usual rate of $469 there was a sudden price reduction @ $399 for just 19 sets. i must have been so plain lucky. dad was ok earlier tot he would be super mad at me that i went over to panda's. some how hes glad that i didnt hang out outside but was safe at a house.
the buying process @ axioo booth @ commex was quite comical . for my first time in my life, the second time people asked me if i m my friend's mother.. the first was panda's guy friend n then now this little gal @ the booth..
omg.. issit due to the floral print or m i really aging too much.. haizz....maybe i might have to consider botox soon if its goingto be an option
maybe i put on weight. tats y i look so out of shape n haggard. i should shed those extra weight again ,, ya i must go jogging tomorrow..

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quick blog before i go to training TGIF.. DAY 5 finally end of a week

its finally end of the year and today's training agenda would be product features a lesser and dryer subject compared to the previous few days. and moreever the calculation for a transactor and a revolver homework is left undone despite me waking up at 7. i was dolling myself as usual
so tonite i will meet my ex ubi crew for dinner @ serangoon jumbo.. i must try to diet coz i can feel my jeans tigher now.. no joke.. n i made some new friends this week.. my team with the new hire would be seetoh..
n there r a total of 6 new hires including me.. with shin hua the quietest..
regene the chirpy one who loves to eat. yongseng whos e acccountant who i can copy my homework later.. aisha. the funny one.. n the interns who r veri kao xiao as well always make fun of the trainer. coz they r not on probabtion like us.. wahahhah
its quite interesting to analyse a person's spending and repayment habits . learnt a lot from the lessons on how to minimise the damage as in how to avoid paying more interest to the bank and how the bank charges. and the various inovative that this bank exclusively charges..it s the first bank to get money from other banks if the giro deduction doesnt go through . there a sop that can be done. its amazing how tings can work. n the overempowerment that anna was mentioning. shes our trainer. but then this is an extra benefit to the customers. i would say its an advantage coz more often in local banks there are some strict rules to adhere and abide to and they are many times , i recall saying to customers. no we cant do this. no we cant do that.
whereas in citi. almost everyting tat s not too risky. is instant. that's a difference. n the idea of ijp for me is very clear now to me after 2 difficult years with citiphone. i met merlinda @ marina sq food court. she als o looks haggard now after almost 3.5 yrs with citi. doing collections which aint a easy job getting debts back from the credit card holders. RC . overdraft revolvers.. i guess in the 10days of training left. i would have a personal taste of it ..
n to panda. ya i have anticipated that it would affect us surely but i m confident that my love for him will pull through n i would ace my class for thequiz and exam..family n friends are also important although i have lesser time now. with the experience of multi tasking.. in terms of personal n work.. i would grit my teeth and hang on no matter what for 6 months at least. in the begining everything is tough and foriegn and experiemental. cheers to me.. i m begining to get more accustomer to city pace. my calves are so sore now after walking so fast for past 4 days.. n i m amazed how those people with high heels can do that.. i cross my fingers that i would pass the exam be certifed and be competent in my work n i would be even more scrutinizing my own work now and more expecation on myself towards my commitment to the work
9/10/2009 12:17:00 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie jiayou weiling
9/10/2009 12:17:22 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie don't think in a way that demoralise u
9/10/2009 12:17:32 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie remember everyone has learning curve
9/10/2009 12:17:43 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie so until the first month is over u are alright to make mistakes!
9/10/2009 12:17:53 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie better go thro as many mistakes now as possible while u are new
9/10/2009 12:18:04 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie else when u are finally 1 mth into ur job
9/10/2009 12:18:04 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie and u make mistakes
9/10/2009 12:18:04 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie it is going to look worse
9/10/2009 12:18:14 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie jiayiou =)
9/10/2009 12:18:24 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ okie . somehow after i read what huiru wrote to me. i felt better than cooping all the negative energy always visualising the worst case scenario
ok la.. shut off pc.. battle in town again , maybe i grab a subway sandwich for today.MSI.. shld i buy.. shld i not. shld i splurge .. shld i not splurge 0758

a veri tiring day for me.. gd bye ubi n welcome to town

i just took a cab back .. n the trainiing gets more and more intense each day. i get worried about my current relationship. about unco-operative colleagues. that i cant cope. n in the end i just detest myself.
6 months.. will be over soon it will be a gd indicator if i m up to this new challenge
the food sucks.. n i dua lau somemore.. no mood man.. for food.. lesser appetite. but after going thru . i m sure i will click well.
just met up with pui fun and germaine. both r doing gd. they also wish me that 6 months later when i c them i wil be more relaxed and happier
the mynmmar food i had was lousy. i didnt finish my dinner n i feel so full all the time knowing i had so much to revise later.. n more new knowledge coming in .. pumping in my head. almost lunch time.. i was almost dozing off when they touch on travel insurance. the pace is like 10 times of my previous branch n i believe the demands wil ljust get higher.
i was like the wrongday today. i was almostlate.
n i walk the wrong way. to meet them for dinner earlier . my toes r sore now so sore. i hate heels.
tml i shall guai guai wear my flats.
did i make a wrong decision by choosing to forgone my time for a better career portfolio n a change to my current comfortable role tat i used to have. maybe he will slowly adjust. i tink i will miss all my family outings tat i have. but i asked for it. so i will bear with it
2 weeks. will determine whether i can pull through from all the other candidates.
today there was a surprise quiz. n tml theres another quiz. it will affect my appraisal together with my score card in end yr
of coz lesser family time n bf .. but i tink oso its a test whether my relationship is strong . nothing will be rosy or perfect.
i should think positive .. tink of all the shing shing that wil lcome. .$$$$
n i will push myself hard .. harder than before to achieve what it takes to get to my goal.. it will be difficult but if i perservere long n hard enough . i should be able to clear all odds and reach target
it might not be a easy route ahead but i guess with all the support that i have. i will definitely make it.. surprize quiz.. hmmn.. i will prove it to my trainer.. iknow my things
tml is day 4// i must remember to bring my water bottle n wear long sleeve . e trainingroom is freaking cold. n maybe i should hold my tongue . keep quiet in class and wait for time to pass.
haha tml is calculation for projected interest rates . n how to do overdue account.s should be fun. n no more fast food. i must promise myself to get back in shape in due time . at least drop to 60kg n below. c a 5 infront.. if not i will not forgive myself
i feel out of sync in town tat i got to dress a little n walk a bit faster. just to be ahead of others. city life is so much differnt from ubi.. my back is aching now from siting too long in class. i used to be in branch. n tings were all so visual including the customer's expression. body language and demands
now that i dun c customer. i m like all in all treading in a whole new world so when colleagues ask me. my new hire team .. sam tis is gonna be easy for u. n my diplomatic answer was.. i m like the same as u.. i never work in call centre before. n i never done shift work before. n i m same level as u.so no difference we r new bird together.. all the new bird bond together n help each other in quiz.. no worries.. although i know there will be competition among other teams . there are about 8 teams . some veri strong candiate while some r not.. but then time is always a challenge in call centre environment who can deny that. we dun have the luxury of the people in branch and thats the difference
oncei intro myselfas hop from ocbc.. suddenly i got more frens sititing beside me to copy my ans.. tink ppl r realistic afterall.. quiz..
on a happier note. the interns are actually quite cute.. one of them like to suan the trainer. anna.. her nameis suzzane but in the call centre she call her self anna too long her name then become anna instead of suzanne.
makes the class fun.. i guess again today i impose myself on too much that i can usually take.. i should enjoy the training afterall it should be "honeymoon" for me not including exam n quiz stress.
its nothing besides the whole jungle out there like patrica my new boss mention.
the manager who hired me left. resigned. makes me ponder y.. but its ok i will pick myself up n show my self n other people i m up to the job n i will live to the name for ocbc ex staff. that we are not dumb idiot who r slow in jobs and less efficient compared to a poly intern or a ex ritz carlton staff. show them some of my "power" whahahahhahahahaha i m xiao. i got so much notes to go through now. .my notebook is filled with highlighter and arrows n charts.
maureen says.. earn for a better future. i m sure my dad understands. he saw me in the cab looking so tired out of the car. i make sure today's stuff gets in my head so i m veri prepared for new imputs tml. being positive helps..

tues morning 0630 day 2 of RC and unsecured lending training

after a good nite rest earlier n panda's reinforcement call . my head sink into the pillow n when i manage to open my eyes its only 6 in the morning. blame in on my own disruptive sleeping habit when i had to only sleep 1 hr on Sunday night and i start to b in bed by 10.30pm last nite. n although compress 2 nites to recuperate . i couldnt force myself to sleep more than 8 hrs either
i dunno if i will really break down one day during the stint with citiphone but what i must know is i shouldn't involve my own personal emotional feeling to get involved with work or let other people or people that i dunno to affect my mood.
therefore from whatever training that i have received from oc, i will then bring forward to citi and expand on the possibilities. after all life is about endless possibilities anyway
one of them who's in my team gave me the impression of a weak communicator. timid and shy
i could see it going , no matter how tough i have seen a person. a gal however who is faced with tremendous stress and at her wits ends will then succumb to vent her unhappiness and break down and cry .. n after that it always feels better than to suppress
however i could see myself a little different n i suppose when i introduce myself as hopping from a local bank and have addtional banking knowledge and experience, i m expected to adapt even faster and efficient than the rest of the team whos either fresh grad not from banking/customer service related field or they are simply interns. n so here i am staring at the corporate website like my early days with oc.. citi know it SOK - system of knowledge whereeas oc sounds more friendly. CFS product library. when i was having fishball soup at millenmia walk foodcourt. i had this sudden craving for boon hua n lian hua chye bun when i was eating my first mouthful from this noodle. it sucks and its expensive , the only consolation i had for myself was the kopi. it manage to perk me up to pay attention until the end of class.. topics include banking secrecy. code of conduct. mission statement.. product features . .borrowing instrument.pipeline charges. and so forth.
i was feeling so bored in class n i kinda miss the front line adventure with ah lian.. and my js ppl. not really with ubi branch..
my boss who hire me -june soo. left citi. so when i c my new boss. oso a lady boss..patricia wee. sounds like a chirpy one.. explain about open door policy and her background that shes also veri family work balanced person.
that's a lot to catch up a gap that the empowerment between a local bank and a foreign bank is indeed intimidating. you could be amazed by the astonishing or rather the sai that you can clear is really amazing.. its a lot more risk for the service provider.. hahahahhaha
n she emailed me on my fb to ask me why i added her as a friend. i suppose shes just wanted to clear her doubts her and naturally my reply is aloof and again diplomatic to avoid any source of conflict..theres this proverb known as 已退为进... n when icant beat enemy , i join forces. that's how the corporate world works n many timesi also incorporate to my personal aspect.
Aside to work. having a gd trick of PR and phone etiquette is equally useful in terms of facing customer face to face for their enquires, it takes time to cultivate such a skill and i promise myself i will score full points for punctuality and in the pink of health to ensure i adhere to the code of conduct and ace my quiz/exam on 26/9/09 my anniversary and also my last day of training .

想像著這樣的溫暖，多麼像有一個人陪著你走每一步？他擁抱你的體溫，總在身邊照亮著你，你永不害怕黑暗和孤單，也不怕跌倒。

他是你最溫柔的一盞燈


可是，誰又會為了一襲婚紗而跑去結婚？。

這些年來，每一次，當我可愛的讀者們問我為什麼不結婚，我也會笑笑告訴他們，我不是不相信婚姻，我只是不相信我自己。

因為不相信自己，所以也無法相信別人，即使那人是我所愛。


我是相信婚姻的。婚姻是一個很高的理想，可是，那麼高的理想是不容易達到的。每個女孩子也曾嚮往婚姻，婚姻終究是美好的。執子之手，與子偕老，何其美好？可惜，人生的路並不是一條直路，愈是美好的東西，愈是容不下失望，除非你能夠接受它原來也是百孔千瘡的。

Aug 24th, 2009 by 張小嫻

幾年前有一段時間，我常常跟一位心理學家朋友聊天，談九型人格，談人生，談生命中的快樂和痛苦。一個冬天的夜晚，大家在他家裡聊天聊得正酣，他對我說：

「你這人，就是臉皮太薄。要是你臉皮能夠厚一些，你會比現在快樂，也肯定比現在更有成就。」

臉皮厚真的會比較快樂嗎？

我不是沒見過臉皮厚的人，我見太多了。有些人不是天生皮厚，是被生活鍛鍊成這樣，為了謀生而不得不厚著臉皮。這些人是值得敬重的，我也不覺得那是臉皮厚。生活沒有把我和你磨成那樣，是我們的幸運。

另一些人，臉皮不厚也不薄，該厚的時候厚，該薄的時候薄。這種人其實很可愛，我有很多朋友和同事都是這樣，我常常取笑他們不害羞。

最後一種人，就是天生皮厚，再不要臉的事都能做出來。這是真正的臉皮厚。要是天生皮厚會快樂些，我不想要那種快樂，我做不到。

從小到大，我都是皮薄的人，我也因此錯過了一些東西。

錯過了的，不是名和利。

好幾年了，有兩件事情始終在我心裡盤桓。那時候，一位老前輩很欣賞我，我兩次碰到他，他也主動跟我說話，一直等著我找他。最後一次碰到他，是他死前幾個月。他突然離世，我才想起最後一次見面的時候他看我的神情和他眼裡的微笑。他當時是很想跟我說話，可我太害羞了，沒怎麼積極回應他。

另一個人，也是已經離開了。要是我不那麼皮薄，我有兩個時刻可以跟她交朋友，那麼，至少在她死前，我可以認識她，說不定可以去看看她。

我不知道厚臉皮是不是會更有成就，但是，皮薄是讓我留下了永遠的遺憾。

熱戀的時候，他會說你是天底下最不煩的女人。so bloddy true..
i didnt manage to eat dinner last nite. firstly i was exhuasted mentally . totally.
and secondly i got a little tummy i need to resume back to the trimier version.. sam..
hahahhhahhahahahahaa
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo'
sincei will be sedentary i shall only allow non carbo items in my body or to a minimum.. got to brush teeth and prepare for work.. its yet another day
0712 ^_^

first day @ 10th floor milenmia tower citi folks

citi aint as hostile as i envisage to be. Anna whos my trainer is quite a friendly person
was so fed up with traffic today.. ppl who r supposed to keep left was stuck on the right . simple bo chup . blur or inconsiderate i dunno
my neighbour at his hour is knocking n knocking until icant take it .. i yell frm my top of my voice to ask him to shut up..
if he still continue until 11. then i will take legal action against such senseless activities
i saw this old lady who looks so ngiao.. and unfriendly n so grouchy
there a re a few divisions within citiphone and it looks like a big family
80% for the training standards to pass by 26/9/09
target is
11calls per hr..
88calls per shift with a 300 sec TAT , turn around time... wow.. it is crazy but i will like to be tortured
there were 2 newly wed married colleagues who were also doing rotating shifts as well
i hope the new colleague wont suck like he imperial palace in corporate banking
where everyone really work as a team.
n i hope to grasp all the product knowledge within 2months and also familiarise the banking system
so much to learn even though i m considered a notch more experience than the mei mei intern from ngee ann.. n 3 of these gals were like wearing uniform wahahhaah
i hope to ace the quiz tml n impress my boss..
looks like i got to relearn all the processing systems for citi n feel more empowered to do more things for my clients.
but the pay does compensates.. so no complains..

3.33am i m having insonmia today

i will be reporting for work later @ 8.30am at millenmia tower. but apart from feeling a bit excited. i m also nervous on meeting new pppl . my new boss . my new colleagues. my trainer and a mentor who i will be working closely with for the next 1 month or so.
i made an important decision and i shall not turn back n look back n say i m scared. i must brave through it and emerge stronger like i always do
i was rereading my blog entries again started from 09,08,07,06 n the veri first on 05
n indeed the 26th dec 06 did brought me much misery as much new found happines it did to me in 26th nov 08. a gap of 2yrs but vast difference
as i was feeling so emo today with a chain of social activities with my family and so much chinese tea. coffee it perk me so much that my eyes are wide open i just have to buy kopi O tomorrow for tml training esp in front line so long i sure cant sit still in a classroom one wholeday for 8hrs or more..
from msning with panda. to setting up ubi. to parting with js and other senseless dates with a couple of guys set me thinking at my study table while i stared at my genting pic with panda.
aside to panda..
guess wat i finally decipher y 26th this date is meaningful to u . coz u went to the theme park with her.. n win a doggy izzit . maybe huiru is right, what u cannot get u will miss alot, n i dig up the veri first letter u wrote to me typewritten n i reread it a few times to tell myself everyting is still the same n that i took a chance with a panda n he loves me deeply like e way i feel for him
Porkie said:
maybe wat i lack is not confidence but some reassurance from u .
it was someting that was bugging maybe its also one of the factors why i m not in bed at his hr at 0349hrs
to beat 15mths would be feb26 2010.. a lot of things might change along the way not that i m pessimisstic but somehow when changes come we have to embrace and adapt and adjust to a new comfort level.
culture with citi would b altogher a new experience. just now i manage to dig out and also saw my LO with ocbc n i look thru june 08 entry on the setup for ubi.. nov 08 entry - current entry and also earlier in chronological events. n its all in 5 yrs from 22-26.. my mid twenties timeline.
maybe i dun miss my ex like he does becoz it only brings back anguishness that needs to be buried deep beneath the earth as it took me so long to love again n to be loved
on some entries i was smiling sweetly coz it was the inital sweetness of every relationship , some malu events and funny ones nt to mention.. of course there were entries of bitterness.. unpleasant angry words and expressions .. but it was a phase of every part of me. when i look back. i hope not to commit those again.
looking at sean n working with him for the past 15months was different the original ubi crew is left with 4 cfs staff n 1 exisiting bbrm..
a lot of changes so far guess i got go with the flow.. ganbantee 0400am.. 070909

Sun familydinner @ seletar hill restuarant n visiting grandmother

dinner was great n one day before working a bit xian n sad that the rest is so short
bro worm was osso there with his wife n kids
we hada little nice catch up. some were asking me when i mgoing to get hitched so dad will stop worrying n nag abt me
well its like something so far away . far from my list to complete
we were using the digital bathroom scale to weigh ourselves.. like my bro is 87 n 80 can buy 4D while the kids.. andre (10kg) , rena (28kg) n so forth can buy toto.. wat a gd lingan to come up with numberes.. wahahaha

some breakfast i had earlier.. with dad n panda. n a comment i left @ his little blog out of some epression of my thoughts

its been 10 months together with you and very soon after 3 weeks of training i will embark on a new journey with my career path. i might not be able to there with you for every PH, or weekend but my panda or pheng always remains an important part of me wherever i m or whatever i might be doing at that instance. Reading the intimate msn history between u n her wasnt really part of my plan to do so. but having said so , i told myself to have a even open minded and magnanimous attitude towards shuxian. who happens to b a part of your past n no matter what u have the right to maintain the friendship with her. However as i mentioned to you, you got to maintain ur stand as part of the friendship as well as to be fair to me. i hope that when i m with Citibank , you would really exercise your utmost understanding ,patience towards me,my time, my work and my love for you.It was a dilemma between commitment, time and money to me when i knew that you would be so left out during the holidays, definitely not an easy decision to come to but i assure you that my love for you will not diminish even i cook lesser for u , pack ur sty.. fold ur clothes or even spend lesser time with u. i love u pheng , u made me discover the passion of cooking lovely recipes and food for your beloved , nt only u but also my dad, family and friends.I will surely miss the days when we got to rush to meet during b/f n eating hao liao when mother panda cooks. these r small things which i have grown accustomed with . coz ur mother panda cooks nice pig stomach soup and curry chicken.
and also the occasional sneakout to your place n pigging out in your kitchen while u reheat the curry n fish out chicken wing for me..
i appreciate the time when i moved out, u made effort to come n visit me even after ur classes at nite from the west to my place becoz my rented room didnt feel like a home to me and i was dying to be chilling out . wang wang has become my own personal favorite pet also because it has became another second friend to me as well coz its so adorable, greedy n horny to me.i wish that 6 months from now you can ace your fyp as well as grow emotionally stronger in our relationship n when i log in to see your blog entries. you would be a happy panda.. and independent in my absence of ur favourite porkie pork. pok pok.. there were many things which i wanted to tell u in person but i guess writing is an easier approach and i would like u to know that i not only is a touchy gf but i also express explicitly meaningful but non mushy messages to u as a lover
i also know ur part on maintaining our fiery but funny and endearing relationship with me. i am afterall me n different from her.And the last resort is if i really got to choose between u and career. i would ultimately make a wise decision to prioritize my panda n choose a second best career with u. after all there could b many other opportunities out there as well.. lastly i wish the 2 months on 26/11/09 would mark our 1 yr anniversary n i hope to make that day a special one n memorable one as well.. With lots of wet kisses and bear hug.. Porkie Pok.. aka Ms Samantha Sng =)
and after letting it off my chest i think its a bold and delibrate move to panda that i care .. n i dare to care (haha ocbc service tagline ) at the expense of my own career progression and prospects
my dad whos so not into panda also took small steps to enage in bullshit but kao xiao senseless conversation with him during the bf we had earlier. though it was raining so heavily . i knew panda wanted to c me coz he surely should feel bad and pissed that i checked on him . i had to do random audit check on him.its the little things that we do together that we grown so fond of. like teasing each other 's tummy n compare whos e more yao gui person.. gluttonny couple.. add on side dish besides a main . n sharing a big umbrella together..i m planning to geta new cheap but chio n cute notebook so that when i know i will be dead tired. i could use it to communicate when i commute so even when i m dead tired afer shift work i can blog n bitch with my friends.
lastly.. u might miss my miss fart episode in ur little rooomm hohohohoho whahaha. evil grinz..
dance n shakes to the mv n lyrics..stomach a bit funny too much cold n raw food yesterday...

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you're thinking
Baby why aren't you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it's not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want no body, body
I don't want no body, body

Honey you know it's you that I want, it's you that I need
Why can't you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody (2x)

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can't it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don't want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oFipE7jzhf8&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPWVUzvwRlc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOBt4volZBA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajq8kvF0miM&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbD_yuKNGAc&feature=rec-HM-fresh+div
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1XwUXziHqBE&feature=rec-HM-fresh+div
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRMJx9QR3Ak&feature=rec-HM-fresh+div ( i dun understand but i like the plot )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKW8eqWCH24&feature=rec-HM-fresh+div
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPUMgHHTnYc&feature=relatedhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BA7fdSkp8ds&feature=related
http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/showthread.php?t=2488769 ( durex ads)

a few quotes which set me thinking..
Porkie said:
「世界上所有男人都是騙子，所有女人都會受騙，不同的是，幸福的女人找到了一個大騙子，會騙了她一輩子。不幸的女人找到了一個小騙子，會騙她一陣子。昨天在網絡上看到的，小嫻你說世界上是大騙子多還是小騙子多？」

首先，這麼說對男人太不公平了。世上不是只有男騙子，也有很多女騙子。被騙財的男人多如恆河沙數，被騙色的男人好像不多。男人而被騙色，應該也不好意思說出來。到底有沒有被女人騙財騙色的男人我不知道。要是一個男人有財又有色，女人大概是愛他也來不及，哪裡會想騙他？

女人會被騙，男人何嘗不是？只是，被騙的時候，大家都以為那是愛情。

兩個人能夠廝守一輩子，那便是永遠，別再問什麼是永遠。同樣地，要是被騙了一輩子，那便不是騙。有些事情你永遠不知道，那能說是騙嗎？

我們只能相信自己所看到的，我們只能相信時間。

人是複雜的個體。當我看《小團圓》看得暈頭轉向的時候，我也不得不慨嘆，精明如張愛玲，不也曾愛上騙子嗎？

你問，世界上是大騙子多還是小騙子多？

我們都是自己的騙子，是自己的小騙子，也是自己的大騙子。

人不都是很會騙自己的嗎？自欺也許是為了自我保護。快樂的騙子騙自己一輩子，然後就連自己也相信了自己。感傷的騙子每次騙自己一陣子，內心卻清醒得很，終究還是騙不了自己。

在愛情裡，也許我願做一個小小的騙子，騙騙我愛的那個人，讓他這個糊塗鬼相信我是很好很可愛很溫柔很弱小很需要他保護的，然後，我也騙騙自己，相信我所愛和愛我的那個人是我今生最好的禮物，我再也不欠什麼了。


人生總好像有許多無法解釋的巧合和奧秘。比方說，今天愛上的人，也許是在很多年前已經聽過他的名字 ，即使沒聽過，也曾在什麼地方看過這個名字，甚至曾經失之交臂。那時沒有開始，也不可能開始，說不定是他已經出生了，而你還沒有出生。此後經年，你們各有自己生命的軌跡，直到你們各自走過了命定的路，才會在某一個交會處相遇。

為什麼沒有早一步相遇？也沒有晚一步？

有一天，當你年紀老大了，你猝然明白，無論是快樂還是痛苦，無論是否能夠長相廝守，相遇和相愛的那一刻，就是你們最好的時間，不會早一步，也不會晚一步
Porkie said:
Porkie said:
曾經那麼愛的一個人，為他笑過哭過，為他掉過無數眼淚，為他捨棄了那麼多，到了沒那麼愛的一天，是惆悵呢？還是看到了人生的無奈？即使這時已經不年輕了，是不是在這瞬間看到了萬事萬物原來也像青春般虛妄而短暫？
Porkie said:
Aug 19th, 2009 by 張小嫻

曾經很愛的一樣東西，一天不再愛的時候，是不是難免會感到一陣惆悵？還是再也沒有感覺了？

a little weekend to recharge before traiing week.

manage to go the beach earlier and have a little picnic at a little bench by the sea
i m thankful that he does puts aside his precious saturday to set aside for me. the months ahead are going to be challenging . in order not to lag behind , i have decided to spend these 2 nites to read up on the various borrowing instruments that citi has.
so that on monday. i have an idea on the monday training program

sushi day, massage n making of cheese cake again

started off with a gd hydro bath
its been an enjoyable day. knew after this weekend when the new work starts . i wont have time to do such domestic work again

Mudull.. funny pig so cute

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQF-Ocl1Vfs&feature=related

McDull, Prince de la Bun 麥兜菠蘿油王子 2/8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6kzRs6JEtKU&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLfevF0M7T4&feature=related

its huang qiu sheng. n wu qun ru in the background.. with the rattling of the cantonese doc visit.. haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9sBfxJrMjo&feature=related

from a ex colleague's blog... quite sad to know of tat

hmmn the below copied from a ex colleague 's but now g d buddy 's blog
September 02
ARRRGGGHHHHHH........MEN!!!!
I really dunno what's wrong with you!!! You must be very dense! I suspect that you allow things to happen knowingly!!! If you doing exactly this, dun lemme catch you!!! I will make you REGRET it!!!!

Men are creatures that come from the same mold!!! They have the same software installed, important applications mainly are "How to SCREW up!!!" & "How to Piss All the female species of the world!!!" What the hell!!???!!! Why is it that the men just don't get it??!!! It is as though they have a button labeled 'BLOCK'!!! IDIOTS!!!

I intentionally showed up hours later than expected & you don't even care!!! What the hell??!! You wanna try my patience huh?
And what have you done today??!! I message you and you dun reply!!! You think it is norm???!!! What the hell??!!! You ain't heaven sent! You are more like a nightmare!!!! Stop toying with me!!! I ain't nice to trifle with! We had a freaking agreement & not even two days you can keep to it!!!! BASTARD!!! Have it your way!!! I AM LEAVING!!!!!!!!!!!!
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August 22
Then what Happened???........Episode 2
So what??? I am supposed to take this lying down???
What have I done so wrong???? Sad
I even won an award for being good at what I do!!!!
Does that mean nothing at all???????!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I took one good look at the email and felt so................Broken heartBroken heartBroken heart
Without thinking or with much effort, I...........hit.........the..........FORWARD BUTTON>>>>>>>
WHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!!!!!!
Dear..........
This is what is happening & this is the deadline........
I do not know whether it is appropriate for me to approach you on this matter............
You jolly well put me on this God Forsaken Project with all these Vicious Deprived Women & that freaking EuNuch!!! Baring teeth
They Bloody put me thru hell & you reckon it is fun???
You asked for a 1yr commitment & I have kept my end of the bargain.....YOU????? AngryAngryAngry

......these are the positions I applied for.........Baring teeth
You jolly well do whatever shit that is in your power to get me what I want!
Don't think you can ask something of me and when I deliver my end, I will let you go scott free!!!!!

......Should I not be able to get the above mention........Thank you for all the guidance & GOODBYE!!!!!!Disappointed
So are you really that fond of me & think so well of me? If yes, then DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS!!!!! I am so sick of all the crap I am facing and yet I cannot say shit about it!!!! CryingCryingCrying

Dear xxxxx
I am free during this time & this time..........
.......I am not aware of this, thank you for letting........................
.........but we will further discuss this........

AT LAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Hot
Someone has to pay for this miserable behaviour and crappy plot!!!!
If I leave, I am not going down alone!!!!
I may not have been the perfect worker but after all that I have done, I certainly do not deserve this!!!!!!

And to that certain someone!!!! After all the encouragement I have given you in your time of need, this is how you repay me??? How I helped you to adjust in your role and you have the audacity to do this to me???? You may fool the entire nation with that angelic look but definitely not me!!!! I will never forget this and shall witness the day you pay for your crimes!!!
GOD IS WATCHING

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What is said & what I heard.......is it that different??? (Episode 1)
My mind is empty or is it really?????

It started off weirdly, I went through my emails & one particular email caught my eye. The email started off with.....as per discuss.....blah blah blah..........
(Hmmmm......So What Did I hear during the discussion.............) Sick

.......thanks but no thanks to whatever you reckon as contribution the past 2years. We generally function better without your presence & you are a hindrance to our team's progression! Please prepare to surrender all you have at hand & pass it on to the new person taking over your position. Of course, we expect you to impart some useful skills set to her while you are at it!!!
(Like real I will! Sure, you can COUNT on me! Wahahhahahahahaah!!!!!) Tongue out

.........Whatever contacts you have built up over the years are ours to give & you have no freaking right to even make a pip! You might consider getting into another department but basically what we have decided for you is to go into the contact centre where your every word will be recorded & used against you!
Sarcastic(You think what??? I am stupid???!!!)

..........We have warned you that if you to not adhere to OUR rules & regulations, we will ship your freaking ass out!!! As per discussed in the last meeting when sat down to give you a chance to talk but hey! Who said we were listening or freaking give a damn??! We just had to ensure you do as we say or we will banish you from our kingdom!!!! Wahahahaha?!!!!!
(I freaking work in the BlOOdy ForBiDDeN City!!! Just becoz I don't wanna give in to the idiotic Eunuch's demands! >:p Screw you freakin' @#^$&) Baring teeth

........Btw, _____ is hiring, why don't you give it a try? The sooner you get out of here, the lesser I have gotta worry & I can get on with my life =)
(Bloody woman!!! Think you have got the whole world fooled with that angelic disguise??? HE who WRoNGS me ShaLL PAY dEaRLy!!!!) Baring teethBaring teethBaring teeth

...............We thank you for your contributions & wish you all the best for your future endeavours!

You reckon this is the end of STORY?? Think AGAIN!!! It Has Only JuSt BeGaN ????
........Party & the story goes didadi dida didadi dida didu..................Note.....................Note....................Note
STAY TUNED To the Life & tImes of The ForBiDden CiTy.................... Wink
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August 17
All that I want you to know....................
I have been sitting here for more than half a day now.
You have come back occasionally to give me a smile, a hug & a kiss.
How can you be so near me and yet I feel that you are so far??

I have often wondered whether we started too fast.
Did we throw caution to the wind because we couldn't care less?
Does that mean that I do not love you as much as I feel?
Or that you do not love me as much too.................

You really do not know what you mean to me.
A part of me had died many years ago, much as I searched for it, I never succeed.
Somehow being with you has revived that part of me!
Even I don't believe it!
Never in the world did I imagine that you will bring that part alive again!!!
You must be wondering what am I talking about?
Once upon a time, I was a very trusting person.
I would give all in whatever I do.
When I loved someone, I could forgive the person for anything & everything.
My motto?? To err is but human, to admit ones fault was enough for me to forgive.
But then I got hurt very badly, one too many times!
Until............................It all became too much for me!
I stopped trusting, I refused to love wholeheartedly.
I became so cynical about everything, so impatient.
Slowly, nothing interest me anymore.
After I met you, I am loving and patient again.
I do not mind being the loving & giving one.
I like this feeling, but at the same time I am so afraid, so afraid that this is not real........

But I still thank God, thank him for bringing you into my life.
& I thank you, I thank you for allowing me to be myself again
I Red heart YOU !!!!

It is August again..................................
How are you? Are you still around?
I do not think of you much anymore........
Maybe it is because it is August & some recent events have brought backmemories .
I did not intentionally forget you, the memories are there but deeply buried.
Buried together with you...........................
Do you still visit me? Coz I don't feel your pressence like I used to.
Then again I am glad you have moved on, I have too............

HA! Now you!!! The one I had to let go!
The one I knew all along that eventually we would say goodbye.
I just never expected that i would be the one to say goodbye.
How are you? I often wonder whether you still think about us.
Or is it a distanct fact now??
Distance....that had always been apart of the relationship.
I had to let go, you do understand don't you?
You were always my safety net, time & time again .....................
I know we are better off this way, I still think of you though.........
Take care.........I wish you well......................



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Talking about I Finally Got it Started!!!



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I Finally Got it Started!!!
I have always wanted to start a Blog! I guess today I finally have time to do it Wink
Oops!!! Does that mean I have too much time at hand? LOL

WELCOME TO MY WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY PARADOX_S CITY.......................

In this world you are free to be Bitchy, to scream & shout at anything and everything and guess what???

Nobody is gonna stop me!!! Whahahahahahahahhahahaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Anyway, I have much time at hand today. I guess I will have more free time moving forward!

Honestly I seriously am looking forward to it but is it wise to have so much free time???

An Idle Mind is a Devil's Mind???

Who cares???!!! Well I don't have a freaking choice about this, who am I mess with the Guy Up There?!



I am just glad that I managed to start a Blog today.

Actually I acomplished a few outstanding things and had even more sleep than usual.

So, I oughta be proud of myself don't you think?



I really do not know whether things will be the same again for me.

I thought since I had time at hand I could reflect......but I found my mind really blank......

OH NOOOoooooooooo.............I might be becoming alittle dull!!!!!!!!!



Oh well............................until I get the inspiration to write again..............................

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today.. i had such a long day in the warehouse for a period of 8hours my total earnings with maureen is $23.75. its the lowest i can get throughout my days i started working
i m like a bangladesh worker today. assembly work in production line can be so tiring.in order to minimise more damage and not to under untilise my rest week, made a decision to inform evon that we wont be dropping by her office to help her fold cardboard for her standees liao coz its precisely cheap labour n exploitation .not worth the time for such mickey mouse pay
oh yeah my french manicure is ruined haha. there goes my $16.
maureen;s friend is the most victimised employee. most lugi one. coz she stays in woodlands nher wage today was $28 and after deducting lunch and transport its @ net $19. $3 more than bangladesh construction worker.. now we know why she cant get help to pack her standees
her i m abbout 2-3 weeks ago so pissed with sharleen tay n here i m on msn consoling her on her decison to break off with kk
i mean perhaps. our conflict began with work n now since work is no longer an issue i dun c it a point to continue the fight not worth it..haha
tml supposed to be ktv but then since the spy is going. then no point going.. hes out to dig news also
oh man. i got only 4 more days left.. how sad. i sort of wasted today . coz on tues i ran errands. went to shenton clinic for checkup although i was a little shy with the lok kun in the room when she keep pressing my tummy. i almost burst in laughter omg..
after today. i realize production line is so tedious. n think again when i visit any supermarket, pharmacy or any display item, i wouldnt never underestimate the people , time and effort behind the beautiful works of such collateral display set.
haha the gummy bear is so cheerful even looking at it makes me happy although my bones. joints are aching. i had a few cuts on my palm. leg and hand. paper cuts..
just as shar. read about her bf that the ex send an email titled love love email n suspects they havent really broken up completely coz they are still in love with each other.just to casually mention when he told me about updates that this gal , which gal or man likes to know such news . naturally what has it to do with me anyway . nt my scope of concern anyway, huiru tells me its adelicate balance between getting to know more and to also show genuine displeasure on such updates. how i wonder if time can withstand the test of a relationship
all the inital moral obligation are all but a pack of lies to something intangile but fragile existance or presence
9/3/2009 2:43:49 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ sometimei tink would ihave waited for a better offer or go on another offer then or did i makea gd choice
9/3/2009 2:44:30 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ i m usig 2 yrs as a stake to my own personal social lifestyle seriously i m oso scared
9/3/2009 2:44:41 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ aft 3 weeks honeymoon will be war
9/3/2009 2:44:57 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie give urself 2 years weiling
9/3/2009 2:45:03 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie in this current age
9/3/2009 2:45:10 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie no man in singapore is perfect
♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
i cannot find a single guy in our generation who will not succumb to thrill
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
it is not in our generation guys to resist the temptation of thrills nor behave gentlemanly
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
if you let nature take its course
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
u will learn to relax better
when there is no effort no love a relationship cannot continue
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
so even if u choose another guynow, u may likely need to put in equal effort for the relationship too
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
if you are lucky to find a much better guy i will be happy for u
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
but if unsure just ride the wave till it ends
9/3/2009 2:48:45 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie or until u see no more effort from panda
9/3/2009 2:48:55 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ if hes nt meant to be then too bad
9/3/2009 2:49:05 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie yeah =)
9/3/2009 2:49:17 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie just rmb a guy who will put in effort for you is always worth the mile
9/3/2009 2:49:33 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ m i wrong to tink it tis way
9/3/2009 2:49:58 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ tat worse case scenario. i cant continune with citi n i oso lose my relationship
9/3/2009 2:50:15 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie yes that is worse case scenario
9/3/2009 2:50:23 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie is it very bad?
9/3/2009 2:50:28 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie i believe no
9/3/2009 2:50:34 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie as long as you know how to make it better
9/3/2009 2:50:42 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie make sure ur bank account is full and steady
9/3/2009 2:50:49 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie shld u lose citi or panda
9/3/2009 2:50:56 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie u can still make urself happy by pampering u
9/3/2009 2:51:07 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie this is ur best preparation for worse case scenario
9/3/2009 2:51:51 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ which is worst
9/3/2009 2:51:58 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ losing a job or a man
9/3/2009 2:52:07 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie losing both together
9/3/2009 2:52:12 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie it can happen
9/3/2009 2:52:18 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie when u lose ur man
9/3/2009 2:52:29 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie u may lose ur job because u are affected
9/3/2009 2:52:46 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie if u lose ur job but ur man gives u encouragement
9/3/2009 2:52:49 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie u can still find
9/3/2009 2:53:10 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ no difference
9/3/2009 2:53:32 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie i ask u weiling that you be able to see how much panda is worth
9/3/2009 2:53:57 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie how much you have to put in for panda depends greatly on how you value his efforts
9/3/2009 2:54:15 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ i had to weigh the pros oso
9/3/2009 2:54:21 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ seriously everytigin this world needs $
9/3/2009 2:54:28 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ degree. wedding .house everyting
9/3/2009 2:54:40 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ so when opportunity comes. i shld grab it
9/3/2009 2:54:50 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie true
9/3/2009 2:54:59 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie in a relationship
9/3/2009 2:55:16 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie it takes 2 hands to clap
9/3/2009 2:55:22 AM Porkie ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ so although i predict the ahead 6mths is going to be very tough but its worth it
9/3/2009 2:55:25 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie relationship needs time
9/3/2009 2:55:40 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie and very very good understanding if there is no time
9/3/2009 2:56:05 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie so jiayou with the understanding part for the next 6 mths =)
9/3/2009 2:56:23 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie i noe wat it is like to lose a guy because of job commitment
9/3/2009 2:56:28 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie so i wun try again
9/3/2009 2:56:37 AM ♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ Porkie overconfidence had a part to play in that
2:55:16 AM Porkie Shalz D so although i predict the ahead 6mths is going to be very tough but its worth it
9/3/2009 2:55:52 AM Shalz D Porkie yes, it will be tough but a good learning process
9/3/2009 2:56:37 AM Porkie Shalz D pray tat i can get used to a bigger darker forbidden city
9/3/2009 2:57:00 AM Shalz D Porkie hahahahhaha
9/3/2009 2:57:13 AM Shalz D Porkie wah lao, haven't go you scared liao
9/3/2009 2:57:39 AM Porkie Shalz D have to preempy myself to gear up n beef up for the big dungeon ahead
9/3/2009 2:58:02 AM Porkie Shalz D ubi 1 eunvh or xiaoguizi. citi maybe 10 times or 100 times more
9/3/2009 2:58:09 AM Shalz D Porkie beef up?? you wanna do body building ah
9/3/2009 2:58:10 AM Shalz D Porkie whahahahhahah
9/3/2009 2:58:51 AM Shalz D Porkie then you just must make sure you are mo mo or chun xiang loh
9/3/2009 2:59:24 AM Porkie Shalz D i know i m nt for sure
9/3/2009 2:59:28 AM Porkie Shalz D mo mo or chunxiang
9/3/2009 3:00:46 AM Shalz D Porkie must learn a trick or two leh
9/3/2009 3:00:56 AM Porkie Shalz D discerning like chun xiang
9/3/2009 3:00:56 AM Porkie Shalz D discerning like chun xiang
9/3/2009 3:01:29 AM Shalz D Porkie knaving like mo mo
9/3/2009 3:02:15 AM Porkie Shalz D knaving ?
9/3/2009 3:02:44 AM Shalz D Porkie you go google
9/3/2009 3:03:39 AM Porkie Shalz D Related Words for : knavish crafty, cunning, dodgy, foxy, guileful.
9/3/2009 3:03:47 AM Porkie Shalz D i went dictionary.com
9/3/2009 3:04:23 AM Porkie Shalz D Main Entry: two-faced Part of Speech: adjective Definition: deceitful Synonyms: artful, backstabbing, beguiling, crafty, cunning, deceiving, deceptive, dishonest, double-dealing, foxy, fraudulent, guileful, hypocritical, insincere, knavish, lying, misleading, shifty, sly, sneaky, tricky, underhanded, untruthful
i find tat its no harm trying out
Porkie said:
never try never know
Porkie said:
never venture never gain

Shalz D says:
good attitude
Porkie says:
even i know i might be pok if i dun perform oso i did try before no regrets to myself
lets pray i can get pass the first 6 months first.. its a promise to myself
i hope so. for the best. always pros n cons. nothings perfect . i got ah lian. shar. lsb .panda to count on when i m down n sad 0316hrs
i changed my lifestyle overnite so drastically i cant help but be paranoid withh all the changes ahead
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♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
no la
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
just make the effort to ease ppl wif u into ur lifestyle
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
dun expect them to adapt without problem
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
they accept ur decision
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
u also respect their acceptance without some effort on ur part to assure that things wun change
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
bcos u will put in effort
♠ ♥ n e o n τ e τ r a ♣ ♦ says:
u appreciate them enuff to put in that effort

bandslam movie nite with panda.. who else rite

i am so proud of myself. i completed the errand i usually will procastinate.. i opened my citibank salary account maxsave acc. pai pai my mum
exit interview with ocbc.
go for shenton healthcare pre employment checkup. eat subway for dinner..
wat a gd deal
$5 for so much spareribs.. first time i bought it to munch while watching movie. it was halfprice like after 8 @ coldstorage. wat a gd deal
visited js branch. had wanted to sell my chinafunds. but since i only got nothing to lose by keeping..
i wanna wait for value price to go up even higher. projected loss is only about 4k odd now.. must get at least 20k back breakeven or more like 21k or so then transfer back to CPF OA account then its worthwhile.
had a msn conference with evon . maureen. after 10yrs.. ya we are colleagues again this time nt sunmoon fruitsellerbut cardboard folder. odd job general worker haha 1216.

last day as SA with ocbc

this time i was relieved that i was leaving this place , as i can calmly tell myself i have moved on from a junior banking executive tml will be a new begining of a week cheryl from navicom technology gave me a farewell gift some chocolates and a cute card