after a good nite rest earlier n panda's reinforcement call . my head sink into the pillow n when i manage to open my eyes its only 6 in the morning. blame in on my own disruptive sleeping habit when i had to only sleep 1 hr on Sunday night and i start to b in bed by 10.30pm last nite. n although compress 2 nites to recuperate . i couldnt force myself to sleep more than 8 hrs either
i dunno if i will really break down one day during the stint with citiphone but what i must know is i shouldn't involve my own personal emotional feeling to get involved with work or let other people or people that i dunno to affect my mood.
therefore from whatever training that i have received from oc, i will then bring forward to citi and expand on the possibilities. after all life is about endless possibilities anyway
one of them who's in my team gave me the impression of a weak communicator. timid and shy
i could see it going , no matter how tough i have seen a person. a gal however who is faced with tremendous stress and at her wits ends will then succumb to vent her unhappiness and break down and cry .. n after that it always feels better than to suppress
however i could see myself a little different n i suppose when i introduce myself as hopping from a local bank and have addtional banking knowledge and experience, i m expected to adapt even faster and efficient than the rest of the team whos either fresh grad not from banking/customer service related field or they are simply interns. n so here i am staring at the corporate website like my early days with oc.. citi know it SOK - system of knowledge whereeas oc sounds more friendly. CFS product library. when i was having fishball soup at millenmia walk foodcourt. i had this sudden craving for boon hua n lian hua chye bun when i was eating my first mouthful from this noodle. it sucks and its expensive , the only consolation i had for myself was the kopi. it manage to perk me up to pay attention until the end of class.. topics include banking secrecy. code of conduct. mission statement.. product features . .borrowing instrument.pipeline charges. and so forth.
i was feeling so bored in class n i kinda miss the front line adventure with ah lian.. and my js ppl. not really with ubi branch..
my boss who hire me -june soo. left citi. so when i c my new boss. oso a lady boss..patricia wee. sounds like a chirpy one.. explain about open door policy and her background that shes also veri family work balanced person.
that's a lot to catch up a gap that the empowerment between a local bank and a foreign bank is indeed intimidating. you could be amazed by the astonishing or rather the sai that you can clear is really amazing.. its a lot more risk for the service provider.. hahahahhaha
n she emailed me on my fb to ask me why i added her as a friend. i suppose shes just wanted to clear her doubts her and naturally my reply is aloof and again diplomatic to avoid any source of conflict..theres this proverb known as 已退为进... n when icant beat enemy , i join forces. that's how the corporate world works n many timesi also incorporate to my personal aspect.
Aside to work. having a gd trick of PR and phone etiquette is equally useful in terms of facing customer face to face for their enquires, it takes time to cultivate such a skill and i promise myself i will score full points for punctuality and in the pink of health to ensure i adhere to the code of conduct and ace my quiz/exam on 26/9/09 my anniversary and also my last day of training .
想像著這樣的溫暖，多麼像有一個人陪著你走每一步？他擁抱你的體溫，總在身邊照亮著你，你永不害怕黑暗和孤單，也不怕跌倒。
他是你最溫柔的一盞燈
可是，誰又會為了一襲婚紗而跑去結婚？。
這些年來，每一次，當我可愛的讀者們問我為什麼不結婚，我也會笑笑告訴他們，我不是不相信婚姻，我只是不相信我自己。
因為不相信自己，所以也無法相信別人，即使那人是我所愛。
我是相信婚姻的。婚姻是一個很高的理想，可是，那麼高的理想是不容易達到的。每個女孩子也曾嚮往婚姻，婚姻終究是美好的。執子之手，與子偕老，何其美好？可惜，人生的路並不是一條直路，愈是美好的東西，愈是容不下失望，除非你能夠接受它原來也是百孔千瘡的。
Aug 24th, 2009 by 張小嫻
幾年前有一段時間，我常常跟一位心理學家朋友聊天，談九型人格，談人生，談生命中的快樂和痛苦。一個冬天的夜晚，大家在他家裡聊天聊得正酣，他對我說：
「你這人，就是臉皮太薄。要是你臉皮能夠厚一些，你會比現在快樂，也肯定比現在更有成就。」
臉皮厚真的會比較快樂嗎？
我不是沒見過臉皮厚的人，我見太多了。有些人不是天生皮厚，是被生活鍛鍊成這樣，為了謀生而不得不厚著臉皮。這些人是值得敬重的，我也不覺得那是臉皮厚。生活沒有把我和你磨成那樣，是我們的幸運。
另一些人，臉皮不厚也不薄，該厚的時候厚，該薄的時候薄。這種人其實很可愛，我有很多朋友和同事都是這樣，我常常取笑他們不害羞。
最後一種人，就是天生皮厚，再不要臉的事都能做出來。這是真正的臉皮厚。要是天生皮厚會快樂些，我不想要那種快樂，我做不到。
從小到大，我都是皮薄的人，我也因此錯過了一些東西。
錯過了的，不是名和利。
好幾年了，有兩件事情始終在我心裡盤桓。那時候，一位老前輩很欣賞我，我兩次碰到他，他也主動跟我說話，一直等著我找他。最後一次碰到他，是他死前幾個月。他突然離世，我才想起最後一次見面的時候他看我的神情和他眼裡的微笑。他當時是很想跟我說話，可我太害羞了，沒怎麼積極回應他。
另一個人，也是已經離開了。要是我不那麼皮薄，我有兩個時刻可以跟她交朋友，那麼，至少在她死前，我可以認識她，說不定可以去看看她。
我不知道厚臉皮是不是會更有成就，但是，皮薄是讓我留下了永遠的遺憾。
熱戀的時候，他會說你是天底下最不煩的女人。so bloddy true..
i didnt manage to eat dinner last nite. firstly i was exhuasted mentally . totally.
and secondly i got a little tummy i need to resume back to the trimier version.. sam..
hahahhhahhahahahahaa
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo'
sincei will be sedentary i shall only allow non carbo items in my body or to a minimum.. got to brush teeth and prepare for work.. its yet another day
0712 ^_^
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