曾几何时旧家变得格外陌生
昨晚去佩云的家送红包和新钞搭车的途中我经过我曾经熟悉的环境。
可是我忽然觉得好没用家的归属感
收拾心情我渐渐离家越来越远。当下我决定要更独立更坚强。
我坚信一切只会更好。
以往的任性，高傲要必定搁在一边。
我深信没有不可以解决的问题
只有没有办法解决问题的人
我翻来覆去几个晚上
很想好好和父亲沟通
我太了解他了
有些事情不是和很容易和解的
是一种生活习惯和思想方面的差距
而且他很传统，我没有办法一直忍气吞生
我称认我是个脾气倔强的人，我也有我的想法和理念可是父亲总是和我有意见的冲突
这种生活环境我真的累了
当我决定搬出去住的时候我已经知道我没有“家” 了
包住婆。。昨晚和我亲述她的困扰
听了过后我不仅觉得自己的家事还是小事...
不论我身在何处，我还是有义务要侍奉父亲的孝心。
但是那不是愚孝
住了Bedok 几天，原来亲情真得难得可贵
前两天都是在branch打仗。。今天终于休假要好好放松紧张的心情
明天还要好好应战
last nite bao chu po or joanne had a late night chat with me on her bed after my shower on her mother's latest condition n on her conflict with her brother that hes unwilling to fork out extra even if he can afford it
n some of the things that she had to go through when she was heavily in debt and was indebted with a petty sister in law and brother.
that sister in law was really unkind and insensible
everytime i c joanne tear. i will cringe.
my guilty guilty will creep in .. coz i always attribute that if i was not that young and if my mum had not passed away suddenly when i was 10 . she wont have been so impulsive to get married to a man like my bro .
n as a lady myself. i m oso sure she crave for a nice man n a happy marriage herself
so when i see jianhao. and joanne.. i always feel that it was such a waste. n this shouldnt even have happened to them coz they r nice people
i was wearing this silly sally apron for work and my clients were asking me if i m a chef or if i got things to eat.. hahaha..
later will be meeting maureen in orchard to fix my nails.. to be mei mei.. so hiao ler ler me.. .
tong tong tong tong qiang.. xin nian lai le.....
yeah eat n eat .. gong gong eat..
i m going to b happy sam...no matter wat. coz panda will be always behind me when i fall ... i know i can count on him
cheers
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