LSB i support your decision to move out of this home cause 相见容易相触难 it might be a good thing to move out to have your own freedom, no more late night lockouts from your dad no more 有家归不得 and a chance for you to be independant. The lesser you see each other the more you might think and cherish each other. Slowly your dad will understand how good you are to him. Whatever help you need just let me know I'll try my very best to help you and my room is always there for you just like the old days hahahha!!!
when i saw her blog.. my load off my shoulders did decrease a little .. just text
my bf i wanted to fa xie on his xbox...theres a lot of issues to touch on.. like i was thinking whos going to take over the family house when dad pass on , the worm implication
i m typing this entry while the kiddo is playing with my bed.. a temporary mattress
e okto channel is an educational channel..
well there are too many things to worry in life.. time to take a break..
talk back at dad la
until hes veri pissed... burst out all sorts of nonsense
we had a little misunderstanding.. so there was some arguments here and there. justed ended a long talk with joanne whos my adviser
i known her since i was 6 n now i m 26 know her for 20yrs liao..i asked if she regreted,, then she told me she didnt and maybe tat god has a plan. that for he first 20-30yrs since she choose to marry my useless bro worm and then tings dun work out. shes fulfiling her fillal piety to them now..her biggest regrest was that she didnt have a chance to fulfil that to her father.
reason y i stay in old house is to watch over old man incase bro worm chase dad out n take over e house.that is a potential risk when we have such a scheming woman with my bro worm who doesnt know hes being exploited, yet he continues to be in such a relatioship
my bros have their families and frankly both their wives are not accomodating as well and the proposal of staying together sounds ideal but how sucessful can it be to counter worm problem....
when or if someting really happens to joanne , who will be made responsible or liable for her son. my useless bro, my dad, 2nd bro or 3rd bro or even myself.my bros dun daRE TO take liabilities coz my dad has a slight sleeping disorder problem n they have young kids in the family.well hope to make a best solution for the family issue by tomorrow
lately i realize i can be fake to all my clients , best smile , as plastic as possible but i cant do that to my family , its 2am in the morning now at joanne;s study table.. but i actually dread tomorrow. or rather later today in the evening.
when my 3rd bro sms me that blood is thicker than water. well i dunno how to comment on that. sometimes i realize my dad doesnt know how to solve issues, not clear minded, doesnt know when n how to priorities
poor planning
narrow minded, pessimissitc, negative thinking
n it always takes so long for him to change his mindset and act normally
i move out i m a bad daughter
istay in i m a sad n depresed person . eventually i cant take it on my own i might oso choose to avoid it
worrying can get so addicitve just as nagging
in the past i always live in the moment, lately after seeing some old frens settling down. i beging to ponder shouldi also find someone nice and then make plans .. buying a house . setting up a family. easier said then done , its a lot of small sarifises to honour a decision
n of coz i cant get married just to avoid family , its immature and irresponsible to myself as well,
moving out is not exactly a gd way becoz there are issues remaining there
i find tat both ways oso wont solve tis iss coz i m nt e source of the problem in the first plACE. Secondly i m nt liable for other ppl's problems or mistakes .disown the problem child which is nt a gd idea coz its not possible as well
to ask a parent to do tat.. it s simply asking a cow nt to produce milk
its no t fair at all living under the shadow of the others
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time to catch some decent rest..
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