So much about being cool and calm

It gets to a point when the bottled up and pend up tension is no longer just about putting on a front but effective discussion on how negativity could be reduced

But  apart from having someone in the family who has borderline personality and to remind my self not to get too involved with a sick person.
Nothing else just makes me close to losing my cool and wreaking my own family tree

Kharma waits for no one and it strikes at the moment you would least expect it

So Linsay a good 11 months before you march into 1 year and then another 16 months to toddlerhoood
and may the new noob parents have a taste of parenting before they comment on parenting and to sum up.

Its is none of the concern

good luck to the the bipolar bitch , schizo, evil cunt and as well as the bitch who over magnifys good luck to u . a high child.

AHaha

n who will get the last laugh

A new member, Gideon's first cousin Linday Wang

A short meet up with Lindsay reminded me we came a long way knowing how to strive and survive parenting woes.
It feels different with a little gal in your arms.
Till then
Wish them luck in how they do their parenting
theres only so much you could help as a sibling
Garner supprt and some hand me now clothings
Social family support.
Its not an easy path

I just nee to take it off my chest

Many times i question if it was a gd idea to be hands on parents if we had a choice
The answer is no regrets on this pathway
of coz some may beg to differ.
We had this conversation with my bil who thinks money could outsource parenting chore. Yes i do agree to a certain extent but not all the bits. but of coz he probably after 3 months, we shall see how zai he can be.
I do not agree parenting could be outsourced. The person to impart values skillsets and morals should be the parents and not from some FT
But of course not all parents agree. Not all parents can be hands on. Especially before marriage, you realise that nil housework from a partner. could just mean. well on well.
I can only wish them best of luck, i do not instigate the Dos n donts of parenting but somehow I hope i m not wrong about this.
After all it took me more than a year to stable things up and if its something i dun have in common like him
most likely i dun have a mentality like him that parenting could be outsourced as he mentioned
Try it and perhaps if there is a bonding with the helper and the parents obviously there is some issues.
But if there is something i did learn, its good that i learnt independence and self reliance
Although I lack the financial capacity in juggling all the different hats.
I m still happy hes sent to the ifc despite the frequent sent backs due to the immunity
Well we are experimental with our first born. what could we say
No one's infallible we just learnt as we go along
since he has such a good helper lets be hoepful she will always be committed and on the ball
Afterall demands of a newborn and toddler needs are different
Its difficult to see the picture when you are not involved.
Moreover we are talking about 2 adult with zero child care giving experience.
At least  I am glad. i took the tougher path to overcome my own deficiencies.
It could have been rosier with extra pair of hands
But its ok. people all have different curves.
I m still learning to cope with an active toddler and to be better parents.
I do not need his affirmation on how i could be a better mother. Hes got a long way when there is no help
Then he would know better.

brand new post in 2016.. almost 1 more mth left to 2017

There are several milestones for this year altogether
In Feb 2016
Started the year still jobless. signed the LO on 11 Jan 2016 still was bumping around until after CNY in Feb 2016.
Was still uncertain of my future
Mar 2016..
A new member and Gideon's cousin with the Wang family
Feeling blue and consistently arguing over the daily bread and butter issues at home
May 2016 a setback for me n i had a meltdown at the clarity room. Extended probation
July 2016 was my AIG confirmation month
Panda was admitted during CNY in Mt A n CGH
started work barely 1 week and had to shuffle to back and forth to work and to ifc n then to the mil n bro place
In Sep 2016
Celebrated our 3rd yr wedding anniversary . Survived 12 hr flight to Hokkaido with Gideon and Papa
Had a lot of moments there. especially Furano, Otaru, Kutchan and Sapporo, not forgetting Doremon World
In Oct 2016, Gideon has learnt to wobble and walk in small steps although still unsteadily.
See more resignations with the team, maybe as what most people who told me . This positon or place would not offer me a career but a job rather to pay my bills.
Jan 2017 renewal ctt mth
Feb 2017 marks the end of my contract w AIG
Mar 2017 what will be the new chapter
Aug 2017.. Gideon's 2th birthday

And now 14 months into parenthood, i wont deny the days are short, nights are long.
We have new challenges to overcome as parents after we establish a schedule
Toddlers operate and behave much differently from babies. Basic needs are now replaced with heavy stamina running and chasing. Child proofing and tantrums, discipline issues.
Parenting has given us a different light on how we want to mirror ourselves and project our values to our children.
Also it has taught me to be resilient, self reliant , resourceful and also patient to deal with the many problem i encounter on a daily basis and it challenges our mind as parents, partners and employees in the workforce.
The pathway walk is nothing but a home full of laughter, big smiles and screams n cries
Nonetheless i m glad and blessed to participate in this parenting journey to watch my boy grow up with me and i learn how to be a better parent by parenting and learning everyday.
Day by day i watch a child develop his character and motor skills
more important to nurture a character as a fine young man who will contribute his skills to the society
As a sensible young man who will serve the nation and protect his family and his loved ones.
the day will come when he has to lead a family of his own. that is the time i will truly let go of my hand to hold him and support him while he shines.
there are many nights you could always doubt yourself if you are doing it correctly as a parent or the food which you cook, did it fit the model non salt, non sugar dietary intake
but heck it. there is no perfect parenting. neither are there perfect children or parents.
We have our flaws, n our imperfections. but the main thing still runs in deep . blood in our veins.
maybe the next entry i have for 2017 shall mark another new milestone as I project a 2nd yr in parenting project and to hit my Kpi before 35 to add another permanent member/ cum playmate cum Gideon's sibling to make this family even more exciting and up level the challenge by 2 times. with 1 todder and a baby
Till date I m happy bonding with myboy n husband n still remain the queen of the family till this day

9 weeks since post delivery.. BB G 's 60th day since his debut

Now I know what is adaptation and patience in parenting.. this is the 5th week we are on our own. both Panda n myself or rather myself. As I learn more about parenting from my brothers n sil. as well as the neighbour mummies community.
We both got a hard time trying to figure out how to decipher baby cues from a loud cry on feeding to soft whimpers to being lonely and scared or even wanting to sleep or play.. He has taught us to be patient, to organise task and as well to multi task well. It was not easy, cooking and laundry, wash bottles while the bb is asleep as well as to still buffer time to know the next feeding and to ensure the kid was in good hands.
Parenting is a life long learning. I am still learning new ropes and tips to effectively handle kids and the know how to educate them  the good values and good habits to cultivate.

A new chapter and begining for my family.

Its been Day 11 since the arrival of my son @ 29 Aug 2015.
The year at Parkview residence has been fun, we learnt so much of one another, and we created a mini version of us due to a dare u would you do it. n so we just decide to go ahead with a dare and then 37 weeks later. We visited Thomson Tamp on 26/1/2015 as I discover some spotting and I have tested using 6 tubes just to confirm this fact.
The journey has been amazing.
I have a tough 6 months with the bank when the sibor rate rocketted, that made me realize the importance of work life balance and to have a good set of healthy body. Strong friendship was made and it was really a difficult transition period for me as I was leading a carefree dink lifestyle before this.
I had a meltdown for the 4th day of delivery, somewhat made our marriage stronger because I know  I have a firm shoulder to lean on. someone to help me where i fall to stand firmly on the ground.
 I have supportive family and friends who have my back whenever adversity and negativity sets in.
It has been a rough transition first day when I was discharged from the hospital.
The baby shower is on 26 Sept 2015.
Its the first step to parenting, things we forgo when we are without children.Children form the nucleus

Day 23 of confinment : Honeymoon days are over soon

5 more days to the final show down to hand over Bb G to us as first time parents.
its been a lot of sweet and bitter memories.
Day 1 : I wake up in nightmare recalling all the bitter memories of my mum's funeral and my tainted childhood and then I yell in my sleep consecutively for 2 nites before regaining back to normal.
I had a distorted perception of myself as a mother who cant fulfil basic requirements, I thought that breast milk was the "only " key infant food. The pressure to force myself to deliver has got too much toil for me, I diligently wake up every 3 hours to pump milk and ensure the milk supply doesnt run out, google has become my next best friend besides my family app for help.
Day 8: Finally a steady stream of
Day 10: I somewhat grasp some concepts of parenting, did our voting and also learn to be patient and attentive
Day 12 : Sneak into a neighbour house and do gelish nails.
Day 15:  Started to sneak out more often, even went out for shopping
Day 21 : Attended an interview but find it unsuitable, timing is not pro family, requires to meet clients to pitch for projects
Day 22 ; Milestone unlocked, learned to shower my kid with some confidence, 4th attempt.
Day 23: Looking forward to facial..
Last 5 days to learn from CL...
27th mid autumn festival ...
26th Gideon's Baby Bash..

14th day as a new mother

it was nothing but smooth sailing.. I gradually got used to sleeping lesser and lesser without the help of any chicken essence intially.
I cant catch a nap in the afternoon, the first 2 nites of transition was really bringing me night mares and the nites which i cant sleep is those nites which my mum was subdued by a bomboh.whenever i tink abt it, I still think that my mum was a kind person n should not be subjected to such a treatment before she passed on. I used to be someone who can sleep through like easily 15 hours but now I m lucky if I can catch like 3 hours of sleep. n my golden period is like after dinner till early hours.
a good full block, then after that once every 4 hours or so to do the routine pumping.
mil remains a caustic tongue, but after knowing her she does have kind intention but she just dunno where not to push her luck further.

1772014 10th Month To Marriage and counting.. 6 years knowing each other

We are well settled in the new humble shed. Although there are some minor items which need to be removed or thrown away. Or even new sound bar to enhance the overall look and view cum ambience of the house. Our house may not be the most ostentatious or glamorous. Overall the look of the tree house has been quite successful. It has their hinge of cozy factor in it.

These days,most of the fom facebook postings these days are on the musings on people's meals, childhood pictures or their happy moments of their juniors. This just translate something we have evolved. Today is not just only on yourself , you. Its more on a we, our. Family and friends. We are evolving to our mid 30s and our body has indeed degenerate a little, Yes I do find myself getting old and tired after work and i cant focus on heavy reading or on the tablet for more than 30 mins. 20 mins seems to be the maximum during bed time, this just voice down to the productivity and concentration efforts. It also then translates to another phase of life we ought to go through after enjoying the blissful just u n me for the past 6 yrs.

Our union together was not the best smooth sailing, but i must comment. It was the most varied, fun loving and non pretentious moments together. We were best buddies, best pals and partners. I could picture myself running after a bunch of our kids and sit down at the beach and spread butter on the bread. While the duo pair of boys of gals just splash water and build sand castles and enjoy some private family time together.
Probably its time to get the juniors involved.  Its not because of seeing children pictures on FB. that you decide to pull yourself together to accept the cons of having children, likebeing poorer, busier, angrier than usual and efforts to put food on the table and to educate and nurture the young. Its far from just a "bao zhang" like what my mil quotes. Children need attention love and care, its not just a dog which you can feed him 2 times a day, 2 walks together.

In another 3 months time, we could meet a new member, as my BIl is getting married. Lots of loose ends to tie, it will eventually build character and responsibility to build up a project. My intutive nature tells me she would definitly not be a easy person to get along because of her ultra pettiness and her sharp defensive innate characteristic would clash badly with the fussy calculative mil. For this team to work, one must give in and that candidate would not be either of the them and that would be the poor accomodating husband cum son.

The new banking working environment in DBS has gone by in 2 months. close to that. We have the usual gossipy and emo team mates, The one who know it all, the quiet and timid ones and the loud and gregarious bunch of  warm people. They just never fail to brighten a gloomy day and bring a smile to the team..

Housewarming party 2014 has ended 13072014 12-6pm

With lots of smiles and laughter , we ended today with massive cleaning , scrubbing, washing  and more washing to clean the interiors and exteriors well.
It was a joint family event among the 2 families. I believe it is a most enjoyable event for this year for both of us. We seldom gather with our families this much.
Lots of useful gifts, desserts were given. My brother bought fruits, lychee, watermelon and tupperware for all relatives to tabao back.
A tiring but fulfilling day.

23062014 9th mth married and 1 mth settled with CBG loans. DBS

Hahaha. my evil plot is soon unfolding. Just another 6 more nights n we are done with Ubi.
A lot of effort put in. manpower. $$. words simply cant explain my euphoric reaction.

Settling in the new house finally.. Looking forward to the weekend of housewarming. cleaning ohYes cleaning. n prep work of hosting.

Today is 11.7.2014 Friday, also known as 7-eleven day but there are no attractive buys for me to shop.
It is my 3rd week settling in Hougang, this friendly little estate with cute neighbours. Also to our route in independence, still ironing out our differences on how we tidy the house, cook, do marketing budgeting or how we place our personal items in the house.

We had countless arguments over $, over cash flow on what should be paid, how it should be done, what parties format to organise for house-warming. Nevertheless, we managed to get by and get things off the list one by one.

No doubt, we still commit mistakes being human due to the lack of experience. We wasted marketing food stuff from the wet market, we throw a few vegetables because the structure of our fridge is the reverse. Unlike the conventional on top and vegetables below, our fridge was the reverse. Therefore we had some problem adjusting. Along the renovation period, the quarter accomplished was collection of keys
Major fight, within 2nd wk, I had thoughts of decoupling and selling off this house after 5 yrs to avoid responsibilities. Oh well, Md Bong is a challenging character to stay with, due to her mood swings, calculative and self centred nature. She does has her good points, but still its a nightmare foreseeing she will mess up the equilibrium and cleanlinless we built up.

Year 2008 Nov 26

• Know Panda and decided to be a couple

Milestones achieved for the year 2011-2014 July 11 curent

• April 2011 BTO for Parkview
• Got to know a bunch of friendly PV neighbours 2X of gatherings
• Sept 2013 Got married
• May 2014 PV key collection, wipe-off CPF and mass buying for furniture and fixtures
• June 2014 Renovation, end of June move in
• June 29 2014 Sun official move in PV
• July 13 2014 Sun Joint Housewarming between 2 families.
• Next milestone.... perhaps Panda n Pork Junior by Q4 2015 BABIES.. hahahaThat will mark the end of the 2ppl empire.

Guo da li waas over.. n I was still pissed over what she said

As far as I recall about my mum, I dont even remember her being overly calculative over certain issues. N to stay with such a calculative person by nature, I tink  I will need to get used to her meagre attitude.

Married for close to 8 weeks .. Oct 7 2013 - to date

Roach free home with dettol spam.
Getting the hang..

almost 7months married.. n next leap. To stay together as man n wife

First post for2014.. officially ah soh..in my31th yr.. crossed my30thmark ..4months ago.. still scrimping n saving for the past few months only to spend it for home in the next couple of 3 mths
Married since 29092013..staying together since coming back from honeymoon...07102013.Today is 16042014...survived 6months with the in laws. scrape through like about 10interviews since Feb 2014.. only to realise this job is not for me after the Oct performance review which I had a personal setback on my own work capability after 10years of worklife. incorrect letters.info given. typical complaints escalation n templates.. hope it w end soon w Ge n nt repeat..
Managed to keep a low profile on the work and maintain low key. Kept quiet most of the time and just did the rest..and knock off on time and report work on time..  Ordmode n tada. 4more working days and end of Ge call centre.. to DBs. finally shedding some light.
Made new friends with Parkviewers.new home.. our 3rd gathering in 3yrs n possibly the last one before each of us get in our own lives busy with our family and homes.
Somehow to blend in Wang Culture and start afresh w dbs. To get a nice 3 week break ahead..counting down to bonus in 2 days
Furniture shopping was indeed fun but tiring ...a wonderful journey ahead. seems that everything planned has been quite predictable. Only to maintain good health for e lovely but gluton PandA.To ensure he stays pink of health despite the diabetic medication he consumes on the long run...
Comes my resolution to maintain below 70kg and be less cholesterol diet.. get myself confirmed in 3mths. by mid July.. get accustomed to working in a bank.. and pay off the renovation n hdb loans..
recalling the fear of jobless and unble to repay the liabilities without good health and job is really a scary scary thought. n the feel of vulnerability n financial instabilities could put a toil.. i recall unable to have a gd lunch n nt enjoying my weekends.. scary thoughts.led to bad nights n series of nightmares..
everyday i login to hdb website and pray keys ..have a fixed date n the renovation routine can key in sooner.. that we could finally have our own breathing space n lead independent marriage life on our own. Counting down to the days.. end Apr keys to finished house.. 2 more months .. hope to be able to relocate by Mid ~End 'June w a fresh start. new job. new home.cozy corner without the gaming noise hazzard.. as well as a good cozy drama corner w my nicely bought Celini sofa. n dinning..hopefully another 60days.. my days of smelly laundry would soon be over as I learn to cope with new challenges and diversities as a newly home owner.0133hrs 16042014..bro worm's birthday

Almost married for 21 days since 29092013

Basically nothing's much has changed. Except there is a fat ass sleeping beside me , all the anticapation has died down within 1 day. It does not feel like honeymoon since we had our fair shares of fights over $, cleaning habits. Living culture environment, how we spend our money, our viewpoints on when to pay credit card. How we view our family

嫂妈如亲妈

My guo da li was over and I receive the angbao from Joanna. N the message she wrote cant help but have tears of joy welling up.Sometimes I wonder if she has not chosen to get married to worm, would she have a better future with another man. Then we wont haveJian Hao in the picture.
Also due to circumstances, she married my brother to get care of myfamily. that i was still a young kid. It was as though at times I find that I owe it to her our benefactor. N how my bro worm repay her is like shit together with his shit wife. I just cant help it but find that she deserves someone to love her too and be loved not like this. I feel happy I found someone but i know if not for her our family wont have turned out like this.

16 days to the day...

tml is guo da li... I havent been sleeping exceptionally well.  Last night my dinner was slightly heavier. damn,, i gain back my 1 kg to 65kg again.

Lately colleagues have been noticing  I drop size which is not a bad thing.14.9.2013 guo da li... so many things to prepare.

After today ends. next week is my last working week of the month and I shall begin a new chapter in my life in 2 weeks time

Prepare for cake delivery. invitation card delivery

Final Fitting. Collection of ROM cert.

Prepare to doll up  NAILS...

N to get married off the shelf..

11.9.2013 3 days to guo da li.... 8 more working days to go

Feel so hungry now... weigh 64.5kg milestone since my dieting plan... can i really go down to 5kg or can I go down to 60kg in another 18 days...

3 weeks before my wedding.

Tonite would be my hens nite with the gals. Its meant to be a surprise and lots of things to be happy about.
Having slim down to 65kg..
Trimer waist.
Getting the program schedule in order
Geting the best man and girl to meet.
Its overwhelming lots of details to run through as the host.
pitfalls to avoid.
lots n lots.. counting down 22 days more.
pray that next wk would be a sucessful guo da li..