ok finally waiting for the last 15 min before bedtime

it reads 4.43am 19/4/08

TGIF activities-
Forbidden kingdom
double J- JET lee & Jackie Chan
its quite entertaining to c 2 major veterans sparring with one another , nice choice

back from a 6hr ktv @ kbox 10-4
seldom sing for so long but definitely this must be a once in while occasion.
expensive n exhuasting if you dun have the stamina
luckily i napped for an hr if nt i tink tml it would be such a drag

plans to have a quiet retreat at home for the weekend since my dad was went to msia 2D1N with my bro 2 n his family, it should be a gd time for me to revise for my exam at home since theres no one in the house. quiet n serene. n to make things worse my speaker juz die on me so its dead silence unless i transfer songs to my hp
or rather tml i will troubleshoot n investigate to c wats wrong with this bloody com.

met some of lsb's working pals n some new frens.its been high time since i behave like some teenager, still hanging out in the wee hours. n after comtemplating , i decided that as a proof of my confidence, i went forward to wear the super low cut top which i bought in bangkok 2yrs ago

many of them have moved on i heard. good for them nt exactly a prospective place if you were a young n aspiring individual, yearning for the material needs, 4,5,10C s u want n desire

today my colleague asked me if i will be sad to move on, n my reply was . i m a human also , i do feel sad to leave all this friendly people which i have been working hard with for close to 3 yrs .
change is always constant especially in cosmopolitian city in singapore . the dynamic n fast pace is something is always a common feature in this lonely , tiny small city
which is y many working class ppl would gather at pubs, social networking gala dinners, outings , cafes, coffee joints like starbucks n start to pour out their daily rantings n bitterness towards their outlook in work or personal perspectives
life is such that it always revolves bei huan li he.
from meeting , knowing , leaving n separating . its all part n parcel but how many ppl really will internalise this point
e bb head, shared something during the briefing on last wed which i found it kinda motivating. the word impossible , to the more positive personnel..

IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE

interesting man is what i would describe , always leashing on new ideas to improvise , looking forward to a success in this project n collaboration
ubi is an industrial area that will really train your patience, n pollution is bad. traffic is horrendous, time to adapt n get used to this new environment again after hanging in town

tml is a series of mundane activites again. work . sch n home
nothing new
but i really hope that once i complete UOL , i can travel widely to c the world outside insteading of still staying in myc omfort zone, n of coz when i now i make that decision on the other hand i will lose certain things i have now, social life n family bonding
oncei had a fren who was not willing to step out of comfort zone to make changes n now shes happily stationed in hk for the next 2 yrs . n end result from someone whos also dependent on her mum.. nw is a self confident young lass who can cook her own meals. do her own laundry n housework
sometimesi really admire ppl who can leave their homes , their most familiar environement n stick in a jungle full of uncertainities n dangers ahead n theres always a high level of ambiquity n risk involved

writing has been a most indirect method , explicit manner to express certain disclaim n displeasure , n most of all it poses as a healthy manner to vent some negative energy out channel to other areas, n when i read back some of the earlier entries i itend to laugh a lot . oh i was so insane then, y would i done such things

i was really pondering if i had been the person yrs ago n such an incident in office happen. would i have really lost my cool n yell @ tat fool.
at least i did display my professionism in work n act normally at least in the office

the rain has been pouring since 2 approximately for abt 3 hrs now.. n its nice n cool this evening

my last appt with a client jus bw made me thinking about elites. this middle age couple came along , they had 2 daughters. one of them whos a rare breed , a doc to b in her undergrad process of obtaining her medical degree.
1or 2 yrs ago , i personally helped her with her tfl , some loan to settle her sch fee
shes the typical silver spoon person , borned from a rich family that never has to worry for $ n through her path in life this little gal has been quite smooth sailing , considering , shes got the ace grades among all other ppl to be prestigiously selected to b a doctor. but after making some small chat with her,to find that shes those type of heck-care attitude. airhead or arrogant person
she was so full of herself . "ru chou wei gan"
for ppl in this "elite" group , maybe they have never tasted failure or setback , everything that they achieve comes so easily
i cant help but depise such a group

probabbly i m in an environment , in the average income group which i have to fight for what i want or what i have now . it always hard work, continuous determination n effort to keep things going, so when i have to converse with such spoily brats , i cant help but feel disgusted with such ppl. i had this wat if theory. wat if ur parents were not this rich, wat if u didnt had such an nice n comfortable environment , no need to worry abt $ to keep you going for daily needs, would u also have achieve the same level of sucess as of today.
n i also thought deeper had my mum would be still around , would i have turned out differently then
maybe 5yrs ago when i graduated, i behave exactly like her. but its different when u enter society , no matter how smart u r, there will always be ppl smarter , more sly n more scheming n all u can do is to prevent urself from all this possible dangers that lies ahead n the best solution is to stay alert , sharp, keen judgement n humble
maybe tat young lady is not a sociable person , but her body language tells otherwise, i hate ppl who r so arrogant n behave rudely to their parents in public.especially u know they r e normal folks , although they r nt that highly educated ,s till they have some basic manners or courtesy
bruce lee had tis saying from forbidden kingdom. how can u absorb more when ur cup is so full , must empty it so that new knowledgecan be constantly exchanged n transfered
i remember one of a senior or some ex manager told me. young gal , u have a long way to go.. so never be self conceited , the wrong attitude n this will land u in some wrong direction that you r going at.

of couse they r always e gracious elites ard..a handful perhaps
time to rest.. time to recuperate for tml.

i tink i have become more confident. i tink sliming helps

Lately i been receiving more compliments from the people ard me saying that i look pretty, slimer n more trendy

booast up my confidence.. i feel gd lalalalala
even e cisco frm uob was like.. wow sam.. different now ah..

omg.. n one of my client try to flirt with me... sam ur eyes r so beautiful , could i look at them again , a bit paiseh when other customers smile at me.. hohohohohoh

thanks to my parents, my dad especially for the sharp nose features. clearly differentiates from the rest of the common chinese u c on the street. my features become more defined suddenly wahahaha

all thanks to someone i know. yeah lsb who has pushed me to walk till this point, i got my new uniform from the bank , n i shrunk 2 sizes , from a XL to a M... LOL... i m so happy even happier than getting VB or my bag..

this was a pic when i look like i have no tomorrow, 2 yrs ago when i had a hangover n i really look like shit when things were not going the way i wanted especially with the idiotic ex. so u can imagine eyebrows are godamn so important to the features to a person especially .. e "wu guan" so the embroidery in bedok from jasmine my beautician was so "worth it" especially for someone like me down on my luck ..

it brought me more sales opportunities , more interactions with my clients n a fatter paycheck in return n of coz my inter relation skills also escalated to another level which enhanced my well being
received this particular sms yesterday when i was boiled to my max

n again .. I FEEL GOOD LALALLALA

dun sulk , take care n cheer up ur smile is veri charming ,

haha.. ya.. when u smile , your eyes come veri small.. Keke so cute..

i m flattered.. hahahaha

c'mon which gal wouldnt feel happy at that moment

but of coz beauty is juz on the surface, character n e inside is still of utmost importance.

germ is getting married next sun.. when will my turn come..

all my frens r getting hitched one by one..

G was so unlucky , she took the wrong trade for some client , buyingn selling of some FX n there was some loss .. $$ bad day to end it this way . luckily closed another deal to offset this little " po cai xiao zai" tats y .. $ is so sensitive of all trades..

n about the update of that new guy, i really dispise ppl who give up easily n i heard from another colleague he plans to resign becoz of some rubbish, he created. for someone new, hes so eager to prove himself n for a new banker the first 6 months is always the toughest frm jan 2006- now.. almost 2 yrs plus . i 've seen almost 1o bankers come n go, n this fellow is the worst of the lot , never had i had such a yaya newcomer who tinks he can start to sell products n prove himself n not humbleto learn from the others or to eat humble pie n learn from the basics , this is one ting i cant compromise for people like him, if u dunno how to walk then crawl first , but if u want to try flying from the start, then i m sorry . too bad then .i forsee that he cant go far in this line. n he wants to hop to premier another competitor co....although i really detest n hate such people.

i can be nasty really really nasty to him ,first thingi wanted to blow up at him n say all sorts of language u can imagine after what he've done

but i chosed another alternative.

there s this chinese saying called " yi de fu ren"

so i decided nt to be a bitch n i took the initative to advise him about the nasty n fucked up PC .

that should he be be in doubt on any queries n there is no one available , the next best alternative rather to turn ppl away especially rich ppl is to politely ask for help from the backroom , the lao jiaos will surely help this poor new person. i encouraged him to just get it over with e unhappy events. n aft that i did not return him the bad ting he done to me

yi ya huan ya... but tats too wicked nt me.. ny my style .. i want things to be done smoothly in the most amicable manner

which is another saying called " yi de bao yuan"

my rm just sms me. i must look good in order to feel good.n keep up my good effort which brings me to another theory no ugly women at all in the world but super nua n lazy n dirty ladies which i know of some who dun do proper grooming.. u will get a shock of ur lives if u ever come across it.

yesterday was someday which i dun wish to c it everyday but i learnt that there will be somethings. some ppl who spoil ur day but we r always a master of our own destiny so no point bothering..

think happy n happy tings will come like today...

submitted my ladies card applicatoin .. yeah.. shopping. which gal doesnt love it

n there was this theory between my rm n my sales team 3 things priority a woman must have to match certain status n character of someone

My list

1) bag - lv palermo pm

2) watch - Seiko criteria

3) shoes- pazzion./charles & keith ( standard getting better n better. more class now )

n the man

1) watch

2) car

read urban today.. would u pay 4k for a chanel bag.. no way.. i would spend in on a holiday.. n eat e best, wear e best n use the best

so lv remains the most affordable designer bag for young executives.. age 20-50 . for 1k-3k u can get a reasonable respectable design

hermes.. 12k.. some rich idiot will probabbly get it coz its limited edition

ideal man should smell nice. look fresh. charming smile n look .. broad shoulders is a bonus will be good for tat extra sense of " protection"

intelligent n men serious @ work is a fatal attraction

e bb head. T is such an example of the above ,however he is my new boss head. so its out. office romance doesnt really work n when its ends. it can be so bitter. well i heard a lot of such ppl ..

so sunlight fortune teller aint that accurate

yes. she has predicted i will have a section change aft mar , its correct but abt relationship nt so. really.

i do meet new ppl everyday. but when its not the one u will know it. the sparkle doesnt happen always n when it does , its nt veri realistic.

juz found tis quite interesting

zhang xiao xian got this novel called yue liang xia de yao pg 30

some page which i folded

win in the highest level

no body likes to lose,

n if we lose . we tend nt to do it, when we love someone , we always believe there is a future

even if its slim chances, but still got chance

there is no win or lose in relationship even when e relationship has ended, we do hold the sweet memories , that is win even time cant be turned back , we held on to some "past" when we grow up we become more sensible that is also wining

if this is e best person out there, he is loyal n treats u really well, hes having a relationship with you , y would u tink it would be really perfect if he married u

if this man dun marry me , it means he doesnt really love me , he loves his freedom more

everybody likes to win but hw would u define winning

some women r more greedy they tink they can really control their man . by his circle of frens , his $ , his thoughts, so e highest level in summary is to win the heart.. xin fu kou fu is e zui kao jin jie

擦肩而过
李圣杰
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李圣杰-擦肩而过

放飞心情我爱着谁爱到我有点醉告诉我你是谁能够把我让我变不对你不会累但我却爱你爱得好累从没有为了谁不顾安危付出一切站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过你听我说你不要这么做你不要看着我说你已经知道怎么做你很难受我愿意陪你一起承受只要你不怕痛再多坎坷我都陪你走站在这平衡点我还是觉得有点危险或许是看不见只能够靠感觉他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过他不会是个好男人也不会是个好情人你对我说我们只是擦肩而过好的男人有那么多少了他的日子也能过我不会再让你寂寞也不会让你更难过你听我说要好好学着去生活就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过就算未来有多少错至少还有我的问候我的温柔陪你度过

2 incidents in a row. so angry with someone

last evening i assisted a new colleague for some operation work
in order to make things more convenient for a customer, i personally follow up n went to her place. then it started pouring fine, i was drenched when i walked back to office. that stupid colleague of mine didnt even bother to ask me or offer any tissue.
today i had to take a cab down to r. branch because e customer because of his own convenience brought to another place. e taxi claim . i oso cannot refund coz its due to my own fault or rather i m clearing someone's shit n rubbish .n i was so bloody pissed because me being drenched was all for nothing
n then another incident, one of the premier client wrote a veri long n disturbing complaint letter claiming that he was not well served n was pissed off by some new customer, this smart aleck arrow me n told my boss i was in between the customer n him
n i was being wrongly accused for something which i had not done, n my boss started to accuse me n bomb me a lot of questions which i cant answer, n to make things worse, his tone become more n more unfriendly n rude until then luckily my fellow colleague came in to clear this round of misunderstanding then e pieces came to link n then everything was cleared up , he asked me to get out of the room . which i was already boiling to the max. almostwant to yell at this new colleague
already in the morning i was super angry with that customer for nt following simple instruction on our agreement n then came another issue to be resolved , i tink it s enough of nonsense
n these days crooks r so smart,, they make use of stolen materials to embezz $ out of it. stolen atm card can be replaced by some bad ppl.
better practise caution in order nt to fall for such traps

freaking testing my patience for such behavior. so irritating that such tings should happen
learning pt is can hw can tis man who was in states for further studies have no brain.
no common sense
n after creating all the nonsense can juz sit back n relaz one corner
i should have nt bother with him at all in the first place
so imbalanced man.
econs class as usual was mundane. sim paper was a lot more complicated
22 days to econs paper
leshibianstill ask me to clubing onsat aft POA. omg.. what is happening to her , she seems so out of focus for sch
will c how then on sat. if the datei slousy.. can stay home to rest .. n juz stay for a while
my lv bag was out of stock n i had to check out hk instead
another 10 mins i allow myself to be out of focus
in order to motivate myself i pasted my 07 UOL exam results to remind myself hw lousymy grades were . n i cant allow such tings to happen for 2008
enough of all tis grumbling....

happy today

well this is the bag which i have selected to buy it, sgd 1.6k for palermo pm & 1.9 for gm series, unfortunately when i went lv boutique in orchard, it was out of stock..haiz so disappointing, then we scan ard burbreys, gucci , hermes .

n i went forward, dinner @ thai express with jiao,viv n tb

so the conclusion was to go ahead with the transfer, pay off my card bills n diverify the funds out for better returns, fly to hk n grab my bag @ tsim sha tshui

so happy got my vb... countdown to 3 more weeks to exam

as for tml i hope e neighbour kid stops crying at 7 in the morning , wat a terror

staying focused for maximum results

earlier on sat morning was a pedicure session with my sister in law @ blink blink
was happy with the treatment i had for enduring difficult n nonsense clients during this week
last nite was a chain of social events, having dinner @ crystal jade with tb ,
met up with tb n nelly n viv @ lunar bar for a couple of drinks, as well as listening to some of the songs. bar hopping to rumours tis bar which viv's bro works there
conclusion would be
i would stop clubing/ pubing @ canto bar , it would be my first n last time there, because it was horrendous. the songs , ambience n crowd, totally disastrous , infested with many china chicks hooking up potential customers
e rich e slightly plump n touchy men
i guess he is nt the one either , decided that for my exam preparation this year i will be totally commited to it , no more other distractions to affect. that includes being in the pink of health , staying cool n balanced in my diet, emotions n accuracy , neatness to ensure everyting goes all fine for all 3 units, come may 8,16 & may 30 it would mark the total freedom in academic year 2008
today the n tb n viv came along my place for revision , i finally muster all efforts to at least pack my room n arrange my notes in order so as to make sure there is enough space for 3 ppl in my cozy little bedroom,
we eshop in the screen, browsing lv, gucci, as tis will pose as a greatest source of motivation to ensure good grades so we can satisfy our material needs
my spoted buy. palermo gm series.. to be taken after VB.. nextweekend
we went to ntuc to shop for some snacks , nongsin ( korean maggi mee was my dinner )some simple indulgences like keno bueno, potato chips , hello panda to make our day
nevertheless our study group session was quite entertaining while my bestie try to dig out some of my latest gossip in my love life
anyway currently , i dun c the need for relationship , maybe i personally find it exhausting to maintain one or perhaps i m so happy with singlehood that i dun mind , in order nt to let e other party be leaded , i decide to make it clear
v was so nt focused n keep commenting shes sick of her lifestyle n i had to nag her to make her wake up n realize that hey tis is your final semester already, pass e final 4 units n you've able to make a difference in your life, giving up now equates to all efforts for e past 3 yrs all down to the drain
well i hope this helps her in her focus, being her bestie for the past decade has enabled us to develop a certain affinity to bond with each n care for each other
afterall frens r for life,we want each other to excel in life mentally as well as academically so that when we grow all gray n toothless, we dun live to regret for e undone things left unfinished.
anway my social life is all filled up now, n its with much honour that once in a lifetime you have one such buddy who you can always count on
die with no regrets oso
i got ready my set of coporate wear ready to c my potential new business head
tml would be new start , i havent been wearing coporate wear for the past 2 yrs or so, having said so , unplucking n starting fresh anew in another department n br would be a great start , acquiring new experiences to further enhance my career in the portfolio
with a strong determined mindset all set to succeed , this will embark me in another chapter to start again
how i wonder another 5-10yrs from now , would i be a high flying manageress in the near future upon completion of UOL , tis is yet another question mark
after meeting with my former sm, sitting in her comforable mini cooper, so envious of her lifestyle
may- exams to clear
june- reportin g with business banking
july- e long anticipated hongkong trip

2 yrs is indeed a long n difficult journey coming along , having to be coping on your own in work n studies, in another 2 yrs this tough route of having to juggle work n uni would be soon over, n i hope by then i can afford all my material needs , possible a little car , a nice apartment of my own , maybe a family perhaps if i m lucky enough
i tink j has definitely moved on well enough, hes too self contained in his little world n i tink he s stil l a little chubby ass whos well comfortable in his comfort zone
n i believe i should live for myself as well , expanding my little own social circle
since last sept , its been a long process , trying to regain my own confidence of myself, slimming down , knowing new frens , dating with other men to c how it goes, but unfortunately there is no " e one" yet but i m yet so happy though
the ideal of 50kgis so near yet so far, with the build up gradual effort hopefully before i turn 25 this year , i would emerge a new me, a slimer n more well rounder person , packed with all those wisdom n intelligence that a young aspiring executive should possess
how i recall the last time i relief in BP branch when e csm commented that i was all so listless in br that i lost all the shine , the vitality m the energy that a young lady like me should have,
i m determined that i will get it all back, n i should do this for myself , that i should nt let myself down , all the $ , effort invested since then should have returns generated twice or many times the amount for the opportunity cost s that i have exchanged for return for a more colorful n glamourous "future"
tonite i seem to have a lot of thoughts running thorough my brain, as i really started to think for myself for a start,
n lately i been receiving more compliments frm my old frens when i go gathering, from my regular clients , oh well, sam u definitely look better now, n my colleagues sense the new me, more cheerful, energetic, refreshing after i chop off that haggard long hair of mine, n clients joke n flirt with me more
having seen the results shown n proven, i can wear those old clothes i couldnt squeeze in before,
e yoga stretches is amazing n my consistency in keeping away with those junkies, i know i can do it n i can be better than before
n for j its his loss
proven as a real life example from fat to flab, c is also starting to exercise n i m a great source of motivation to him as well n he oso exchange some pointers to me . like some cherry tomato meal
to act as some healthy meal enchancement to curb the hunger pangs
its a type of mixed emotion when u know leaving some place is gd for your own career development but yet you will miss those co workes who have been working hard side by side with you for all the challenges spent together so far
i had tis male colleague which in my previous entry that we had a huge quarrel n i was so angry that i slam the meeting room n the knob came out n we had to as k some technican to fix the door ,
n after 1yrs coming to 2, we r quite on close terms , we even intended to go for outings with the rest of the sales team
i tink it is a fate that i should treasure n cherish that people who go in n out of your life does leave some mark n memory n some of their gd values that we should learn from
i m nt usualy an emotional person , well i do shed some tears occasionally when it comes for it.
its a kind of reaction to certain circumstances , a kind of release that should occur,
for someone chatty n talkative like me, i do resort to extreme meaures to stay in equlibrium
like forcing my self to entertain n click with e societal elites in my customer base
n when i go back my little room , sulk n imerse my self in solitude n reflect properly so that tomorrow would always be fresh n new
front line can be interesting , it could also be a disaster my primary nature is still quite receptive to strangers but once in a while if i can have someone who can entertain me n make my day , i would jolly welcome that
the serenity of the nite , with the combined soft music playing in the background by yiruma , kiss the rain is certainly a gd companion to cleanse the mind , coz its quite a sad song but veri touching
u cant stop yourself from the bad events that will occur , but you can protect yourself safely from forseen outcomes n i know no matter what happens i can always brave through it
recently i watched the 3 kindgom , n andy lau 's character, zhao zhi long is one strong person who has in history never lost any battles n although e ending in real history was he died of old age, this story on theatre depicts that he stood strongly in his values to wait for reinforcement with cao ying , cao cao's grand daughter , hes truly a warrior who is fearless against his oponents. n despite the harsh conditions , he maage to emerge a champion
guan yu - righteous man, zhangfei a loyal brother
zhukeliang, a smart n intelligent advisor for tactis in war management, a commander that does not be present in war but yet know the exact sequence that the predicament or rather the outcome that the battle would be in
hopefuly i could also be like zhukeliang , always clear in my goals n strategizing the possible resources for optimum results
i dunno but for some reason when i manage to pen down all these i can have a sense of relief running through that i have not wasted today. that i m truly happy that i have a bunch of friends always supporting whe n i m nt in my best shape n mind
when i m a boar , when i yell at them over the phone, when i throw my tantrums with them
that they truly appreciated my presence all these years
the part which i created a positive impact to c, he just sent me an sms thanking me about that . as a fren i tink i have helped his initial progression to improve on himself for himself . it is good , i m glad for him
a young boy lost in his own little world , unable to unpluck himself from the past
he deserves a better someone , but first he has to do somethings in order to freed himself from all the negative feelings in order to be happier

leisure sat with my family

today i m nt working in branch wake up ard 9today. went joo chiat for wan ton mee. the standard has dropped n thereafter i went blink blink to do my nails with my sister in law while she did both pedicure & medicure. so relaxed . i did a dark blue/ purple nails while jan did a maroon red one.. nt bad. funky blue nails doesnt suit me so i decided not to paint those colors
lsat evening.. tat lesibian went out on a date. dump me alone for yoga class. lets c what will e gal explain later...
lunar date with nelly n her cousin

vb vb vb $_$ 150408

i mso bloody excited. mon to meet my potential boss on mon,
items to get
new phone
LV bag. palermo, monteguil, or speedy
new perfume. floral ones
new shoes
new clothesfor a new slimming figure
wow.... wat a list..
to be updated

sleepless

haha cline told me tat hes attracted to my smile n wishes to progress further.
mention abt sincerity . i m confused.. maybe i dun really like tis person

lunch date with him

i mean i do mind the fact that hes a bit chubby , hes the same height as me n looks a bit bearish since i had manage to slim down within these short period of time. that he also looks sloppy with this unshaven look of his n the worst is his voice , sound like immature n kiddish
y should i be going on dates with such a man, y is it that i 've going out with ppl younger than me, something is wrong man
if he could slim down , then maybe can consider this candidate if not i cant s tand myself with someone whos got a bigger frame than me

msia lunch at sutera utama with my family

it was freaking expensive for my fish. 1.04kg was like 208rm for a fish imagine eating one fish $100 sgd but the food was good
we went to sutera utama , beijing lou
nice food , ambience. atlas placez
went to secret recipe , had abt 5 cakes with the family
enjoyable trip
planned a bit on the july HK trip short listed some hotels to stay n the places to go during the 4 nites there .. yeah so nice..

quick update

went out to this jumbo seafood at riverside walk . n this interesting itallian ricotti restaurant in town last nite
attend rl'd daughter full month bash in changi n subsquently took a cab from there
fun's mini cooper was super cool
hw i wish i got the capacity to spend like her
took caleb's name tag by mistake so i met up with joanna n my family at toa payoh for dinner n we shopped a bit
planning to go msia tml for lunc h to celebrate my long awaited vb
another 2 weeks. would be to attend germ's wedding luncheon in marriot
hopefully to sucessfully shed off further extra pounds
my impression of cline is tat hes quite out spoken, well travelled n quite interesting so far
nice guy but a little short n chubby
if he can improve a little on his grooming i tink can consider la
but the ting is i cant seem to let go fully
maybe i belong to the category of the late bloomer gang
my colleague germ commented tat perhaps i belong to those women who might just happen to be more mature in my late 20s or so n then perhaps then it will be a better time for me to be more stable in my thinking n find someone more suitable then

relief @ bedok North br again

hahah its the time again KO time.. still got some time before 6 so it still ok to blog for a while

cline did asked me out again for dinner tonite but i decidecd to join fun n e rest of the crew after the baby bash

a date with e c man

we we nt for dessert in ah chew..
badly groomed.. green check shirt n tight pants. crumpled ones..
went to cafe le caire for dinner with the js team .. great food
late somemore.. kept me waiting like for abt 45mins

april fool 2008

its a miracle that i can t get to sleep , i tink its due to the coffee i had @ nlb earlier in the evening ard 7.

found a new place for revision nlb study lounge

another 1 month is exam month , 3 units only

this fri will be ruolin's baby gal 's baby bash.. another occasion to gather n bitch

juz nw earlier in msn, i find tb a bit irritating with his style of revision

he seems that over confident of himself as usual.. should juz stay clear n buzz off n just leave him alone.

mention that i keep nagging.. fine...

readup econs.. tats a bit lame. its 99% failure n i m nt gonna repeat that same old mistake again

while listening to the tw yzw 's version of 祝我生日快乐 brings back some memories of my darkest period in 2006
i remember listening to the wen lan's version that nite for the whole nite coz i couldnt get myelf in slumber n was downright depressed so everytime when i listen to tis songi cant help but tink tat i was really dumb that time,during that phase

this lyrics is kinda warming to me , depicts the current mood while i type this entry

新不了情

心若倦了 泪也干了 这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了 今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

song 2

听说爱情回来过

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾回来过
想请他替我向你问候
只为了怕见面说不出口
你对以往的感触还多不多
曾让我心碎的你
我依然深爱着

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒
只是怕见了面会更难过
我对以往的感触还那么多
曾给我幸福的你
我依然深深爱着

有一种想见不能见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
http://blog.nmgnews.com.cn/...20081286427.wma

这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你 把你放在我心中

对你的声音你的影你的手
我发誓说我没有忘记过 而关于你选择了现在的她
我只能说我有些难过
我也真心真意的等过
有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
这一种想见不敢见的伤痛

http://fabianaino2008.blogspot.com/2008/03/dragonfly-and-saturday.html
e link to these 2 music albums
Corrinne May

Emi Fujita's Cammomile Classic

http://frisking-melodies.blogspot.com/2008/03/noriko-sakai.html

manage to add a few songs to my blog changed a new look after 3 yrs.. hehehe its nice unfortunately its already 4.15 in the morning

exciting hk trip ahead aft exams

to be confirmed in the week of july.. so exciting

2 different date in 2 different days

i tink its rathe refreshing to be dating 2 types of guys i n 2 consecutive nites. to open up some social networking .
well i went to gucci , lv n coach to window shop. identified some of the bags.. heheh so exciting
e 2 ppl- the IT man and e events person.

a funeral which i attended

a neighbour whose got knocked down a few days ago.. passed away shortly .. was only 41. single man.
wat a waste
attended his wake juz now aft my facial

0204 270307

its another freaking nite. n i m starving at 2am in the morning. n i tink e coffee was too strong so i cant sleep at nite
another 2 more days before i end my relief stay in bedok
havent been sleeping much lately

260308 =_=

i m in the bb desk.. the walk in crowd is simply pathetic therefore i must find some thing to amuse my self

my 200th post

since the yr 2003 or so i been a somewat blogger , its been 3yrs since 21/2/05. how time passes by so quickly
this is the 200th entry. its 11.04pm 24/3/2008
this week i will be in bedok north branch for the next 4 days n then i will complete my assigment .tonite will be overniteing at tampines for 1 nite
had soyabean drink for supper juz now . hope i can stay up later today for some past yr question papers

first quarter of 2008.. ending soon

veri soon. march is ending soon.. today is already 23th. later at 3-8 i have got event in suntec with other sales staff from another branch.
i was browsing the lv , coach. gucci. kate spade website on those branded bags.. looking forward to bonus so that i can do the necessary allocation this yr.
lately this yr i c a lot of my frens transforming into many major roles from little gals to married woman . becoming mothers n settling down one by one, many of which r those express ppl.. becoming mother before preparing to be one mentally as well as financially
another 10 weeks or so. to be exact 1.5 months will be the yearly exam.. nothing much to be afraid of. its e usual stuff to prepare since all 3 units which i m taking is all retake units
a few updates. ruolin juz become a mother of 1. gave birth to a health baby girl in this month probabbly 2-3weeks ago
currently my jie mei gang consists of the young n upcomingsingle who most of us are still doing our part time uni program. n the best part is none of us are attached yet except for one whos already preparing to apply for a flat together with her bf. its amazing that after almost a decade of the fragile friendship, that all of us are still bindly in contact espfor me n viv
these 2 weeks i m attached to joanne's branch to relief for her staff . i tink again its a gd chance to get rid of being stagnant in a same ground for too long
lim kopi with zhenlong n jiao jiao @ marina sq. i wonder if this is due to the fact that i havent been writing much. weird feel.
i m proud to declare that after almost more than one yr since 2006 dec or 2007 may i have truly got over the stigma of singlehood. enjoying it the freedom
the financial independence

Swamp
To see a swamp in your dream, symbolizes aspects of yourself that are repressed and dark.
To dream that you are walking through a swampy area, foretells that you will be find yourself in an adverse situation. Disappointments in love may also be implied from this symbol. You will suffer much displeasure from unwise conduct of those around you. On a less negative note, walking through a swamp, denotes that you will experience prosperity and pleasure, but through dangerous and intriguing means

i tink its quite accurate.. ages ago i had a strange dream in the swamp, that period i was troubled
whatever that was in the past can never return so the most of it that i make the best it to look forward for better future. nice things to hope for

To dream that you are having sex with an ex or someone who is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together. Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for people approaching their wedding to experience especially erotic adventures with partners other than their intended spouses. This may be due to the intensity of your sexual passion with your fiance. It also relates to the new roles that you will be taking on and the uncertainty that that may bring.

my boss is transfering to a business centre n the best part was just as i was talkig abt him. i received a call from someone from the head office ; linda called me to ask if i was interested in business banking as well. i tink its gd for a change

Loss of a jovial, kind invaluable veteran comedian. LYdia

her sudden death in St mary hospital this morning at 8.38am shocked many. 2 yrs battling with the illness n still growing strong. sad to comment , its also a relief to her but it was a regret that her daughter didnt have the chance n she did notlive to see her singing career take off as well as to see her happily married n set up her family with her kids n husband
lydia is well known in the entertainment line.. with my memories in the late 80s until all the way, i watched some of the sitcoms she did in singapore production as well , Living with lydia
n after watching some of her clips , n the sharing session by many of her tvb colleagues , she strikes as a experienced elder sister. motherly figure who will always remember to care for her less experienced colleagues , n show utmost professionalism in her work by excelling 120% in herperformance, all rounder . singing, dancing, hosting as well as other aspects like being a gd mother, mentor n performer in the entertainment industry.
A gourmet by nature , with her well endowed figure. chubby . bubbly n cheerful i think she brings a smile to every household seeing her in the tv se t while i was still a small girl myself.
she is widely recognised by her signature black thick plastic spectacles n her hearty laugh.. it in the clip in this hongkong drama. mei wei tian wang..
shes like 2yrs older than my mum. started off as a teen actress n made her stardom with her forthright character n genuine smile on her face, i guessthe only downturn was her unhappy marriage. but she faced it bravely as a single parent, n despite the difficulties n pain, she still had the courage to be a mother as the age of 40, i doubt many will dare to take up such a challengeas compared to other women that age
i hope in another world , the general public will remember her as a symbol of an era in the entertainment industry . someone who gains respect
her daughter, sin yi or yan yi will nevertheless be well taken care of by the other seniors who were helped by lydia before.

something lovely

well da shu n i were on msn.. n so i was at ms heng's place n they decided to interrogate me on someone . however we r juz mutually good frens as of now.
hmmn he really looks dashing for a middleaged man, toned n built
i saw his new msn pic , tink looks gd
my thick n black eyebrows looks natural nw
ok da shu is naughty..

a late nite outing with da shu

he came over to my place to fetch me
at abt 12.30 after i got settled down
sweet person but a bit naggy

valentines' day 2008 140208

v day 2007

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Summary of events on Vday2007
Fun & Germ's futile efforts to cheer me up on V day by surprising me with a stalk of rose
Having a celebration with JEssica @ Sakae's PM.. before HRM's lecture
COuldnt really eat much due to a outburst of a series of events , domestic issues , academic & work
Attending M's last le cture on the exam format for HRm
Attending to weird,erratic situation during operations @ work which turns out more problemactic than usual
Stressful & tiring evening to focus. yawning throughout my class
Finally retreating 2 slumber n relaxing

comparing & contrast .
no class this yr
out with ET & Lu jie
enjoying myself more this yr
letting go of the past
received a gd sms frm a fren, green tea
happy valentines to me as wellas a sms

he mentioned that i wa a sweet gal hahaha so happy

besides its quite warming to know well someone cares for me at least. lesibian is having class to nite so its nt possible to ask her out for dinner either n so here i m now again the meeting room using the lap top to pen down any possible thoughtsthat is steaming n my head

after the eyebrow embroidery , my luck seems to be improving hehehe. the tarrot reading did boast my esteem as well as my confidence level

this yr seems to be so much better as compared to 2007

now relaxing my toes. i took off my shoes n air it in the meeting room . hehehe cant feel so happy

another event happening is the day 9 for hockiens is the sugar cane to the heavenly king which coincides with the western valentines' day. e preparation starts after 11, sugarcanes , some offerings outside my place. shortly later my brother , sister in law n the kids will pop by my place to make the offering together. in addition , we also have to fold those joss papers in a special format shaped like a cap , helmet

DAy 7 lunar yr

its everyone's birthday
the NEL train is so infuriating. had this power trip fault. causing a delay in every stop from outram park all the way to puggol. was so inefficient
the cabin was so stuffy n while i was waiting outside the cabin at outram station was so warm as well as it was an interchange station , there were many people alreadying crowding at this area. wat a day to end like this

however this song is quite nice , lyrics remind of someone who is newly in love





歌曲：有你的快乐
歌手：王若琳 专辑：start from here
"有你的快乐"

怎么都不想睡天特别的亮夜特别的黑当我深深的呼吸心中充满想你的甜蜜想和你走在雨中想要你牵我的手傻傻的你不敢说爱而我也故意要你为我等待说不出有多么快乐还是不够这感觉这一切就好像飘在外太空别的星球只有我们存在

在一起越来越久开始会对你在乎这感觉我们都明白只要你在身边日子就亮起来说不出有多么快乐还是不够这感觉这一切就好像飘在外太空别的星球只有我们存在爱情在这个时候我的心又像天气晴时多云偶尔有雨说不出有多么快乐还是不够这感觉这一切就好像飘在外太空别的星球只有我们存在


english version. lost in paradise

i know that it might sound strangebut you made my seasons start to changeit happened so suddenlylike heaven has waited up for mei've just been looking so longkept meeting my mr.wrongin every model and every sizenow my fantasyis staring at your eyessometimes you think i'm beautifulbut i don't knowi'll keep it to myselfyou say it,it feels wonderfulmy smile can showi'm lost in paradisethe letters you wrote to meshowed me the signs i've never seeni thought every man i'd wantfalls out of a dating magazinebut i konw that with youi was so far from the truth,on every page and every linenow you're my everything i guess you know how to read my mind i know i guess that it showsthe message left flows to memake it more worth than make believe

DAy 5 CNY我在墾丁天气晴01A

been conversingwith this guy , greentea since last week findthis middle aged keke quitecute
a 38yr old man but only 1 gf all his life
hes kinda atheletic n active for someone his age. hahaha finally someoneto spice up my weeknight besides reporting to SAA for classes. finally pluck up my courage to msn with green tea. hes quite a cheerful person. typical leo character who takes care of his body very well.
我在墾丁天气晴 quite a typical taiwanese idol drama but is suitable for people who are still recovering from their previous relationship
rather touching lines. been to kenting last nov . did not get to see the summer kenting. i believe it will be very fun at kenting da jie
quite suitable to watch under such weathe now in sg.today really warm man. sunny singapore weather is back
took off today n went to fix up my eyebrow , did the embroidery
proceed for tarrot reading in spellbound
got my answers to my queries
seems like now is the transition stage for me
seem to be chatting with green tea more often these days find him a nice pal to chat up with. He asked me about my past relationship n its the first time people describe me as secretive
hahahahaha
kenting is a really interesting place in summer in the southern part of taiwan whereby its like a mini bali with lots of water sports activities. regretted nt having the opportunity

day 4/5 cNY

day 4 of cny yet another boring day as well

had intended to go cycling or doing some sports to relieve some boredom

in the end i went for inchiban in amk hub n the service was horrendous

after that we went to tb's place to play 3ppl mahjong subsquently 4 ppl mahjong

lost in total abt $13

luck tis yr maybe not so good
started with day 1 when the photoframe which i was in my grandmother's place . dropped when i was browsing n it landed on my right foot n followed by earlier on I almost twisted my left food while i was getting out of a fren's house after mahjong session

Day 3 or day 4 of cny

its been quite a while since i updated on a lengthy entry
been over to stone man's place for dinner juz realized how expressive kids can be these days with their marvelous acheivements n fantastic personalised blogs.. check these out http://www.jialebeliefs.blogspot.com
these kid is 12 yrs my junior seemingly my mother's sister's daughter
kids of these era are so savy with the web n games . this is one area which i cant be inclined in whereas the rest of my frens excels in this area

2 nites before CNY ' 08

its been really a busy 2 weeks in the branch which i happen to omit as this is the first year i m writing about the work scene in 3 yrs, this is the my 3rd year with the bank.
busy days passes by like a whirl
rude & unreasonable people arguing over lack of new notes. no more free gift
hes been in thailand for the past 3 weeks or so .we were supposed to meet up for a drink before his business trip , however for some reason or so the meetup was delayed
that day i was just not in the mood to get out
ironically one of friend also asked me out to the same place
i wonder on the next outing would it be another awkward setting again
to be continued

060108

went steamboat last nite
china zone
@ geylang lor 1
ambience poor. war zone

fresh start for 2008

Unknowingly i m approaching my mid 20s marking 25 this yr in 2008
After reading year 2007 & 2006 its been a rocky 2 yrs in service line. Hopefully my 1st email this year is not a complaint letter again, i have enjoyed 1/1/2008 , went shopping with dad, bought pair of jeans from samuel n kelvin.cheap one @ 29 bucks while my dad had a bargain as well orginally 49 , reduced to 26bucks
countdown @ merry's place in the landed property
now i have a second opinion of residents who r rich. they stay in big hollow houses who keep to themselves most of the time nt interacting much with their neighbours. i find it terribly quiet to be in the room on my own if i were merry
we played taboo a card game with the gang again this time countdown @ merry's place , ordered canadian pizza n had some coke , blue berry tea to go along with the dinner which we had a late one ard 9pm coz lu n viv n i went cycling @ ecp earlier. however viv was quite unlucky landed on her butt o nthe last day of 2007 31/12/07 and had to c a doc today
lu n viv had a sleepover at my place this morning , we slept at about 4am today watched some lousy scareless thai horror movie which we all ended up dozing in front of my tv set
i was quite r n r today lazing at home taking my own sweet time to rest as well had a power 1 hr nap
2/1/07
sch reopen day
3 important dates
8th May 2008 econs
16th May 2008 poa
30th May 2008. hr

this little blog has recorded all my pleasant n the unpleasant memories , going forward 2008 is my 3rd yr updating in this online diary
the first date was on Monday, February 21, 2005
wow oh mine i have gone a long way n today calls for good occasion for some nostalgia memories

first day of 2008, prayed at the rochor temple as well for gd well being
evon sms me to go ecp to cycle which i rejected , as well as a buffet dinner @ parkway , however its juz against my principle of dieting again

its weird now it s 2330 i m still not in bed yet.haha i would try rereading my entries
hope tml would be a gd start of the first day for work in 2008

281207 2321

25/12/07 11.30
my computer was in a mess & despite many attempts to on my pc previously & despite many attempts to on it, it still doesnt work therefore i know i wont sleep if i knew i didnt pen down my thoughts so i wrote it on a diary first
so here i was with that black organiser
i am thankful that i have such wonderful family & friends all this while by my side
24/12/07
Bitching with " lesibian" birthday @ her place with her family members & with lu,maureen,"merry"also william, tb.nice colleagues . i have wonderful memories for the 2 short days i have for 24-12-07 - 25-12-07
Although my mind is sometimes torn between pb,whirling within my tiny brain on how he is doing now. Just couldnt resist sending him those greeting sms thoe prank ones , n here he was calling me, so we exchanged a few sms & i gathered information that most of his clique was either married or attached, from there i couldnt but help feel sorry for him that his reply was to stay home to play psp while the rest of the world were like busy celebrating . but on the other hand, i was with my own gang of frens. n so i ponder on the decision of asking him to join or suggestive of joining him. in the end i chosed to stick with the gals
nevertheless playing taboo with the gals n merry was just as fun as we straddle. tearing betwee nthe ideas of playing bowling @ kallang leisure park & playing board games at birthday gal's place, with merry's chauffeuring around. All i can conclude is we enjoyed 2007 xmas as wekk as viv's bdae
last xmas was kinda memorable as i hada bad row with joe shortly we broke off followed by a long weekend alone, as i was too upset to entertain, i still got the blog entry to certify.
recalculating.. i had gone through 3 relationship altogether so far as long as from 4 years . 1 yr and lastly 4 months didnt take long to realize how wilful n immature i can get at times. looking back i hope to achieve more for the 5 yrs to come
23/12/07
Auntie may organised a xmas family gathering collaborating her family,as well as dennis n family, my family , joanna , rick , auntie moon,altogether 10 kids

25/12/07 lunch at Ajizen @ marine parade
cycling @ east coast park. happen to bump into jessica , my uni classmate from stansfield, made some small talk
played some arcade games with the kids, from the interaction can understand how n why some kids behave in a certain manner, i read from today paper previously n i tink this is quite true n now i understand. kids are like a shadow of the parents. boys as of father n gals to their mothers
i can see it when i focus on their features physically n their facial expression they display
was watching this channel u, there was this yu dan professor. on the public speaking n the topics was on the art of making friends & the 3 stages
although it was a fairly short episode about 30minm i believe i benefited
young stage, middle age, n old age
the main points was the meaning of true friendship, how to cultivate & the techniques of holding a proper conversation without offending the other party . in case i forget, those were the following advice she provided to avoid on the pitfalls of the 3 stages
young. abstain from sex
middle .. not to be scheming . to plot or fight against others
old.. avoid materialistic..complain probabbly at that age already acheive a lot so must discount some material wealth
currently i would say i m still between young & middle age. my pay now is considered stable. in the process of acquiring more material wealth

benevolence is important in a person's cultivation . modesty is also essential in a person's sucess n the conclusion is the more cultivated you are, most probabbly the chances of getting good friends who truly care for you

there are 3 main character in a frienship
the outspoken people- expressive , leading the conversation
follower - neutral in their stand
quiet ones- those who just listen in a corner quietly

technique
keeping your mouth shut at the appropriate timing. friends are your mirror image of an individual. respect for one another goes a long way. not forcing other people to act on your own set of values.stop advising your fren when they simply dun accept your advice

i found her recommendation quite useful. oriental thinking is confusing with those confusicus teachings n chinese idiom seriouslybeing english educated i find myself mentally challenged when i try to recall those lengthy proverbs. All i can visualise is those bamboo strips of books and long lines. therefore yudan's advice was what i can consolidate with the help of english subtitles on the tv screen
after the series of UOL revision, my general grasp of hidden meaning and gradually becomes stronger as i get used to the thick readings & long lectures i get ffrom my lecturers . my absorption just gets better after the gruelling in bukit panjang. the interaction, although was tough helped built endurance, patience & the sensitivity to work, higher expectation of myself m the keen sharpness as well to be more meticulous, so it was a fruitful experience

thinkinh forward what jianhao told me on a cab back ride strikes a deep impression, my daddy doesnt wants me n my mother anymore coz he found himself a new gf,, after hearing this , i cant help but feel heavy hearted for this little boy in which ever way u name it. this yr i bought rick an expensive bdae gift a pokemon game as i thought he was deprived of his fatherly love for him n joanne'sbro , 4 yrs of suport emotionally as he was like the acting fatherly figure for him
he held to her as she had to shoulder the responsibility . as an elder bro
if my younger sis was treated badly by her husband n leading an unhappy marriage tolerating all sorts of nonsense
sometimes parent love cant be replaced by someone else
this yr i also bought some candies , chocolate from candy empire to my frens n some of the kids
taking a step back, my softer side, emphatetic side of me i stiill harbour is no kids policy
occasionally i do enjoy the company of kids maybe at his stage of me. at 24 still want to enjoy life as we only live once so we got to truly enjoy who knows what will happen tml

2612/07
met up with siew ping, germ. n fun @ a dinner in defu
the crab stung me, before i can taste the butter crab i bled. as the sharp spike pierce through my gums.. i bled before i can eat it..

28/12/07
n now at work more peaceful everyting 's getting better nw. bettter in handling nasty ppl n the correct technique n the PR in the interaction

holiday

yeah... i manage to spend my 11 days in bukit panjang

gd day to slack at home.. after shopping yesterday

bought some gifts for the kids .. toys.. lucky clover for my colleagues ...
upcoming event is e xmas family gathering

........... tml got to go back office.. wat a drag. but at least is a familar place.. at js..

171207

how i recall last yr today which was my birthday's celebration which i had was in maureen's place having steamboat with polar bear n the gals n william. gals out night while her parents were overseas when we played a bit of mahjong n watched dvd. we stayed over night at her place as a common practise when her family went overseas while shes alone here in sg
i m glad this yr's christmas would be an enjoyable compared to last yr's when i was in complete agony , i just happen to write finish today's entry n then i just casually browsed through 2006 dec's blog onwards to 2007's entry
i juz realized how unhappy i was n obstinate i were then
there was a new theory revolving my head , if there was no hope there would be dissappointment
so y bother with stuff which i would nt be able to control then
the right man would come crawling to me sooner or later
then perhaps the days of spinsterhood would be over soon

4 days has passed . n tml will be a long day
enjoyed my family outing with the kids
had a memorable 24th birthday
i guess some things got to be let go
this yr birthday wish is more $$ & gd smooth work flow. less difficult customers . more sales
more $ equates more security and confidence
losing weight n sheding the excess .. to boast up confidence level
i tink i still the eligibility to take my time for the time being
if i got the luck to meet someone better . it would be a bonus
after meetin him on fri
i can tell myself truthfully i moved on, thankfully after such a long time recovering
when can i stop kissing the frogs n spot the prince
the family's outing emerged with more kids. with the addition of inviting joanne n rick
planning the next family gathering on 30th dec which is rick's 8th birthday
east coast park. aracade with e family
cycling . blading. dinner
upcoming programs. xmas with the gals n birthday celebrating with lesibian buddy 0104hrs

i m 24 today

its been a wild 4 days i had for my annual break
my frens celebrated my 24th birthday for me
been going out for fancy dinner. met up with my ex n this time againe the feel was not like how we met up previously, it was more like friends catching up. hardly feel any sparks 2 days ago when i went out on a dinner date with him n later part we went to alley bar to chill . he gaveme atreat for dinner
then rationality begin to fill up. Hes really a bore. i was the one contributing more to the conversation n as usual hes the passive one trying to keep up with it n dun really like it
i kept it from the gals n i tink its juz as well that i can sort thing out this way
hes really not the one
i invitedx my frens to riverside indo for a birthday treat. maureen gave me 3 pairs of earings for a gift n i spulge a bit for birthday, had my hair straightened , went for facial n later today on my actual day i m goin for another dinneer with my family at meng hiong restaurant
tomorrow back again. i got to go back for relief n attend class after work till 10, tinkinh at this point , its a bit xian

4 more days

days of suffering. y is it so slow..
looking forward to AL 13-15 dec
next mon will c tat bitch again..
xian..
will enjoy the 4 off days away from work

the heartbreaker kid

story plot for this comedy revolves with a single indecisive guy who marries the wrong gal after a short courtship. he was influenced by his dad n friend to get married n ends up meeting the soulmate of his life when he goes on a honeymoon with his wife .his wife turns out to be a indescriptable character who is too wild for this man.duringhis trip, he tries to pursue the new soulmate while trying hard to keep the truth that hes newly wed from the both of the women. morale of the story is such that we should never be influenced by other people in making the first step for personal happines , not to rush into a marriage & assume the current partner is as though the last n confirmed candidate
it depicts how modern relationship can happen such episodes as described in the movie but however in a more exagerated manner. such is tat when it comes to relationship. people often do not rationalise n jump into the relationship n fail to understand each other which leads to other problems later in the relationship
i seen how wq n viv is still entangled in the love lorn problemactic vicious cycle when hes still to obstinate in his thinking. believing that there is still hope of reconcilationm but the root of the problem lies that because of his naive n childish behavior , being together is short lived , knowing my old pal's character, her tolerance for his tantrums would be limited as well
as for myself knowing carefully that pb is a passive person whos always been this manner , would also continue this way. so there is no room for negotation for reconcilation either, the cycle of waiting n waiting , n the feeling of being unwanted is such a pathetic n miserable past of the previous failed relationship
since there is no room for compromising to another person. the conclusion is such tat hes a selfish person n there wont be any happines in the long run if i choose to shoulder all the unhapiness n later recognise there is no reciprocal in the end. finally its going to be much more painful than expected . knowing that there is no outcome . possibilites in an impossible character
i m glad i thought past this point n i n living happily on my own. finding my own happiness in every way, i have my close frens to count on when i have my bad day, n nt bitter about being unappreciated which is y i made the right choice although i do still have some feelings . after all i m still human.opening my options n taking some of the prevoius remarks seriously n bracing my myself up. grilling up for better phsyique n stamina does oso boast my personal ego n confidence
when i saw lila in the character , with her loud n wild character. it reminded me of who i was a couple of years ago while i was with the veri first relationship
nice plot made me thought deeper than usual
this was some review frm a fellow patron who left his remark on the net
If you think thru deep enuff, you really can learn a great deal about yr relationship thru the show......"do we really know and understand the person together w/ you, be it for 6 weeks, 6 yrs, or even 60 yrs? how far would you go to accommodate, compromise, tolerate etc, for the sake of the r/s? What is trust, and what is lying in a r/s? giving in to temptations? or stay faithful?............enjoy moments of laughter while "learning" abt r/s frm this movie......enjoy.........

finally i pulled through the 4th day in bukit panjang

currently trying to get used to a perfectionist boss for the time being another 7 more days to go.

freaking tired after travelling daily for 3hrs

today's my 3rd day in bp branch
shes damn lame
damn bloody strict
almost blow up
another 2 more days.. n she will be on holiday
shes domineering n stringent
another 8 more days back to host branch .
how i miss my dear sweet boss..in js

finishing 21.1km for stancharted run in 3hr15min

sat was a disaster.. moey is such a terrible co worker & colleague to work with
the run.. went there at abt 6am this morning n now 7hrs later
6.15pm ended e run abt 9.30am
guess who i bump into consectively pb who is so unexpected , we had intended to participate the run together when we were discussing abt it last yr this time
n i cut him which is quite an achievement

review from 2006- current 2007 301107

back frm 13/1/06 when i joined the bank n till now 30/11/07 its about 22 months down the road now.. from someone whos veri goon du & careless.for my first 3 months , the thought of resignation is constantly on my head. wonder how i got through it for the past 2 yrs, coming Jan 08 would be my third year in this bank. Thankfully the end result after going through series of the hardships & difficult periods, I have challenged myself to be more proactive, tactful & meticulous somehow or rather n also sensitive to my customers' body language n needs. although i have my fair share of complaints , i m rather surprised to be getting awards n recognition consecutively for last year as well as this year. the Group business banking award as well as the top YTD compliments for Sept 2007 for yr 2007
recalling the days of being a newbie , being bullied , difficult boss & mean colleagues who did not really bother to teach me some of the things which iwas unsure of .
my inital days of the work was like some lost lamb trying to fish my way out of the dark tunnnel. on some instances , i got to call an old fren of mine for help.. J without her guidance i believe i will not be able to achieve some skills that i have till today
my new boss has been giving me a lot of support as well. refering me n encouraging to take on more tasks n challenges.
but then again i am not very eager yet to take on the challenge, mainly due to the fact that my academic achievement has not been achieved or completed.
Since the series of bad turns & more exposure to foriegners , chinese speaking clients , also partly due to a new assistant or colleague from china . my level of chinese has greatly improved because consciously i have been reminding myself to read chinese novels , newspapers n practise speaking better chinese without the local singlish chinese terms which we commonly used that are not widely understood by other overseas chinese.
my tour to tw has brought me a deeper understanding in terms of superb service, the visit to other banks also broaden my concept of receiving excellent service from a customer point of view and as a service provider, service excellence
these days, i tend to refer sales not only with the product benefit but also a genuine concern on growing customers' wealth
therefore when my clients can sense my sincerity on their portfolio, they are more open to my suggestions & not just blindly following our recommendations.
the mass banking portfolio has led me more insight of the living condition of the lower income group.
The personal touch to deliver a lost client's wallet to her place gave me whole new perspective of the older generation these days, not only she stayed in a small n cramped area. i realize how strong she was as a 90yr old folk to take care of her daugher in her 50s who was mentally less inclined . Beneath that iron steel n determined look of hers lies such strong character that i couldnt comprehend much.
there was a elderly gentleman who described my organisation as the "junk bank" due to logo which was shaped like a chinese junk.
He mentioned that in his younger days, he came from the rival company known as the match stick bank.
regardless of whether he meant it as " junk" or not "junk" i should relate it as an insulting term to myself as well as the organisation. Simply mean
Colleagues come & go, better ones can chat up. nt so close one . just maintain an amicable terms with a hi bye relationship n some occasional greeting
next week would be a new week covering some new branch. bukit panjang is a far far away place from friendly eastie, anticapating the new yet political environment. heard a lot from them especially a strict superior does not help to ease my mind , the uneasiness which will land on me.
despite the prempt difficulties ahead of me, the determination to survive well in hostile n foriegn environment is always in my head to stay calm & to be able to adapt well in anykind of tough situation that i m in. which will better prepare me in the next battlefield
i m grateful to those who have lent me a hand as well as those who mocked at me. without their efforts to lecture at me or to smirk at me , i wont be able to stand on my own feet to face the troubles . currently as the so called more senior personnel , i constantly face a lot of new n strange enquires n possible difficult questions , maintaining a cool mind is tough without being offended n taking in more personal remarks
my fellow colleague is nominated & undergoing some form of tasks for the eligible bacherotte, hopefully everyting goes well smoothly for her & my covering of the relief work.
the recent case of the dragon boat accident is like some tragic incident on 5 youths. such a waste fated though. such is life when some events had to happen

si bei tulan with the unexpected guest in my house

i flare up real big time.
at least i said my piece to him. recent unhappiness that was bottled up. tink if i dun explode feel veri imbalanced

below r some the messages which i convey to my lesbian buddy
i just told my bro off

That was my last piece before he left
GET LOST ! I HAVE NO MORE PATIENCE FOR U. N IF U WANT TO BRING UR GF UP . I HAVE A BROOM READY N I WILL USE E BROOM TO CHASE HER OUT,, N I HATE HER


life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
wat can i say
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
its all s fault mah
sam says:
tat is me rite
life sucks no matter wat you do you can't seems to keep their mouth shut says:
then wat he say
sam says:
he mumbered something ., i will move out anyway
sam says:
i ask him to get lost then. dun give trouble to e family

tat woman didnt come to my house then but i have been wanting to tell my bro off
i already told him i have warned him if he still doesnt get it i will personally tell tat woman off. i told him straight that you dun respect our father or the family because all the tings that you have done is just not giving respect to him as the owner of the house. but all along we only keep quiet if not would have just chased her away

sam says:
i ask him to watch out. continue on . n u better be careful tat our late mother will surely not let u off !@
sam says:
tis is quit e intimidating rite.. tis is wat my bro2 teach me one . as a last resort
sam says:
hahaha

my fire has subsided a bit.

191107

i have 3 ppl which i know who is their birthdays
2 of my frens & my dad
one of which is someone whom i celebrated with in ikoi restuarant last yr today
so fast one yr liao.. 4yrs since i split with ed, 2 yrs with goose n almost coming to 1 yr with pb
everyone seems to be blissfully attached with their significant other
no mood to start revising
all resit units. when i start to flip the first page.. i get deep down demoralised wondering why i didnt clear in the first place

ending.. back to home sweet home tw trip 5/11/07- 13/11/7

day 1 : taipei, qiu fen,yeh liu nice scenary,yangming shan,min zhu ji nian tang,some castle theme resturant,shilin night market,
day 2 :Tai chung,feng jia Night market,xi men ding. taipei 101
Day 3 : tainan,anping lao jie
Day 4 : kaoshiung
Day 5 : Kenting, visited the zhuoying hospital
Day 6:southern part. cat head nose , er luan pi
Day 7: Liu fu chun amusement
wu fen pu.. remember this most coz i was pick pocketed at this place
Rou he Night market

Day 8 : Back home to Singapore
things i really miss taiwan: the climate.nt the cold or rainy one. 20-23 degrees or sothe windy cooling one.. the xiao chi.. wholesale in wu fen pu; cheap clothes n nice design the veri cute taiwanese who helped me during my trip.. liao dao.. my guide who was such a humourous n knowledgable man. a retail staff by the name of xiao ting who was such a big help in her professional in her recommendation which made me look slimer. of course, by maintaining my diet, n not adapting to the climate n food there n unhealthy sleeping schedule did contribute for sliming. the 8 day trip did pull my family bond closer as a result my little nephew sticks to me at times. the young butler at this fu jun hotel in taipei looks charming who bears a slight resemblance like one of the singer in fei lun hai. yan ya lun . hes quite a nice smile n directed me to the police station near the hotel i stayed n provided much assistance. the tour group which i joined were all nice n jovial people..especially sharon who lent me a hand when i slipped n fell in qiu fen
carrying the baby pram around is no joke especially travelling for long hours & changing hotels everyday like 6 hotelsin 8 days
back to singapore brings me to the things which i have taken for granted like the political stability ,cleanliness, toilet, safety, multi language heritage n the unique singlish , fellow singaporeans share.
the close proximity from one place to another is only a mere 30mins or so latest by cab, car, no natural disasters. strong currency . n some of the efficiency i c among most services in most companies
being bilingual with the basic language of english n chinese brings me certain advantages especially among the asian countries , with not much difficulties , its easy to blend in with the 2 most prodominent languages used widely.
however during the taiwan trip, obviously i was not used to the primary language , chinese. pu tong hua as the main communication mode , besides i was educated using english so initally the switch to communicate with some of the locals there was quite a challenge.
the transport system is quite chaotic , during my first day of the 8-day trip in taiwan, i was totally bewildered n bizzared by some of their methods adopted, the style of the english n some of the jargon used . sometimes when i listen to their radio channels or watch tv , there are bound to be some chinese which i dont quite get it
i learnt to be more polite towards my customers during this trip n picked up some dressing etiqutte. oh mine, all of them are so well dressed n groomed in the service n retail industry, if they could improve in their english standards i tink this will bring them further in the region.
I met up with this ntu lecturer who is sitting beside me on the way back frm tw to sg on a sq flight, just had this instant instinct that she looked like a teacher to me .. n most importantly was a english teacher. call it my sixth sense or wat. she was on a 4day business trip in taipei for some conference to help the taiwanese to improve on the standard of the language efficiency
the trip back frm kaoshiung back to the capital taipei can take abt 5 hrs.. most of the time.. we can be dozing off from time to time which is someting that i m not used to it back to cozy home town over here
this entry is procastinated much long n delayed about 1 week or so . was much in holiday mood didnt have a lot of focus when i returned to work on 14/11/07
17/11/07 ocbc family day -- lousy event
18/11/07
met up with the gals coz one of them was back frm a japan trip/ nice bitching session
went for a facial juz now.. attended a family dinner @ tony roma's at suntec to celebrate my old bean's birthday which is currently today 19/11/07
it is also pb's n bro zane's birthday was contemplating whether to send a birthday sms to them. in the end decided nt to anyway .. with which pondering in my mind was 3 words that sprung up.. whats e point ?
i c more friends getting married.. pregnant with their child.. some which i heard getting married at a young age n then divorced first, second time which i ponder if i can really belive in marriage n seein my own bro in his all messed up love life with someone so complicated. 2 kids of 2 different fathers n now with my bro whos also someone nt suitable marrigable candidate.
the one for me seems far n unreachable. able to stay carefree n free spirted is such a luxury . singlehood can also be fun as well.. with some spinsterhood fellow jie mei.. last min travel plans..
able to focus on my personal goals
splurging on my own expenses without having much worries.its perhaps i have totally lost confidence in the men which i dated... having gained n lost is such agony.
the mixed emotions that contantly runs in my mind still strikes a terror deep within me. of course nowadays i do still keep an open mind . casually browsing around but i c no suitable candidate.
besides i dun wanna settle for second best
i was tinking long n deep that with such character i portray, i cannot be a good homemaker n some times i can get so wilful n short tempered n capricious i guess not much men can get along with me
pb is a nice fren but not a gd lover to maintain long relationship
the secretivness n freedom he gives doesnt justify the seriousness in his part
now almost 6 months apart.. i tend to give myself space to digest the unhappines n put it aside n live day to day happily. simply appreciating all the happy things i have now n all the good news i share
of course bro worm's plight did create an impact in my selection n my view point in relationship on how men n women can change so drastically over a decade n how married people can also continue to indulge in infidity while they already have such a happy family scene
i also observe the couples in my family bicker non stop n i find it a bore sometimes
till the day i can seek my own happines.. wish me luck in my career now.. getting even better n better .smooth transition n more sales n compliments many more good tings to come for me..
good grades for exam in 2008
good men r hard to come by.. really...
completed the 10km run in sept. 21km for stanchart run in dec.. hope my stamina is good.
next month is my bdae month as well as christmas run should plan for a 3 day break for my birthday n relax.. pamper myself well
1.03
19/11/07

tw..tw

guess wat i m online at tw,at silver river hotel lobby using their internet to log in , todays e 8th nov been in tw for abt 3 days
the weather has been wet in taipei & the trip has been enjoyable so far
last nite i was juz so much in insonmia that i couldnt sleep in taipei , maybe due to too much caffeine n food at nite. slept abt 3 hrs so far on average
wake up at abt 6-7am daily n i sleep ard 2 or 3 in the morning. to top it up i was thinking or rather remicsing the past in my room tryin my best to get to sleep . with the help of the local channels. in a foriegn place. e last thing on my mind , well cant be helped too
besides the good place to write is oso during the trip
taipei alone is a city that never sleeps with endless nite market n food all over..
stinky tofu, fried sotong, chicken .. hao da chi pie , theme cave restuarant
cute ah bing gege at the memorial hall
n oso the people here is juz so polite. their bazzar is endless
ximeng ting.. i blow abt 7000Nt.. which is like i spend over S$300 plus in a shop which is impressive... i dont do this often though
at tis hr,, at a rundown or rather nt so developed taichung. e hotel is old reminds me of the run in bencoolen..
red carpet.. chinese setting.
tml is the 4th day.. hot spring
tainan
kaoshiung
n then back to taipei & friendly singapore in another 4 more days
8/11/07
0100

bro worm n his funny moves

its so disgusted.. an intruder in the house who i dunno is in ..
my bro worm's latest squeeze
i cant imagine after e tw trip back . wat would it be like

181007

140 days in a flash
i didnt give up on myself
dieting. havent been eating much for dinner
runninh preparing for GE run
burryinh myself in work
less gossip during work
sleeping more like 10 pm..
68 down to 63..
50 is the ideal..
try 60 first.. 55 then 50
7kg.. i can do it.. 5kg is gone especially the butt area
improvise various methods to slim down without harming my body
221007 10km GE>>> YEAHHhhhhhhh

warm sun

its been a long time since i got settled down in front of a tv without much disturbances.. with tokyo drift in the background its like a hip hop setting
e week has gone by in a flash. unknowingly its the nth day since i last communicated with PB its about 120 days now..
on the 15th day of the lunar month which is consequently also mid autumn festival that day.. last tuesday during lunch i went to the temple near my office n drew a divination lot . guess it did boast my ego coz it kinda nice n motivating
time can rob a person of its senses , as the days pass , my sensory glands just go numb towards emotions. n the remnants of what it remains does nt sting now
the past 120 days i had is like a whirlwind another 100 days or so would be 2008.
slowly it corrodes my mind. erroding my memories that i vaguely remember still , selected scenes of what ought to be ,
i had a early nite for sat last evening . approximately sleeping abt 12 hrs . n waking up early for a morning jog

星期六晚上 哪都不想去 也无法入睡 看着电视机 持续...星期六深夜 我想起了你 没什么特别 只是回忆 你让我自由 我很感激 星期六深夜 永远不会有任何人能代替你 星期六.

星期六的深夜
星期六晚上
哪都不想去
也无法入睡
看着电视机
持续在发呆
喝了七分醉
闭上了眼睛
试着不想你
但已来不及
忘了如何
让眼泪停止流下
还好没人看见
没人会说话
星期六深夜
我想起了你
没什么特别
只是回忆
你让我自由
我很感激
星期六深夜
永远不会有任何人
能代替你
星期六晚上
哪都不想去
也无法入睡
看着电视机
持续在发呆
喝了七分醉
闭上了眼睛
试着不想你
但已来不及
忘了如何
让眼泪停止流下
还好没人看到
没人会说话
星期六深夜
我想起了你
没什么特别
只是回忆
你让我自由
我很感激
星期六深夜
永远不会有任何人
能代替你
这就是遗憾的滋味
陪着我形影不离
明天我会面带微笑
但无法忘记你

li hom ' ssongs is just so emotional enaging...
still remember this song 第一個清晨
entangling those scenes that i cant forget that easily
forgeting is gd therapy
at least it gets out of your chest n u stop brooding all the possible outcome n possibilities
been busy preparing the for upcoming run n mentoring my new colleague. jiao ( x2)
was watching lim hom's you tube for his 我们的歌]庆功演唱会.:.
impressive. quite a stunner
however i find that rain'es new hairdo horrendous.. jelly look a alike
terrible image consultant but a bold change afterall it has created a impression remembering that jellyfish head.

n also occasionally doing stretches , crunches to slim those problem areas

saw a man whose face was swollen from face to the bottom
kinda pititful


& theres another bitch whos so blur ,, feel like slapping her hard on her bloody yaya face

sulky tuesday as well

had a bad rub last evening after leaving the office ard 8
rough time getting out of bed ,seems like a long time since i had a good massage
the therapy resulted me feeling more sore n the outcome was i couldnt sleep well as usual
woke up ard 7 n i still dont feel fresh coz i was having weird dreams all night
i still got a lump in my throat which i dun feel ok with it.
need to shout my lungs out or go on a holiday spree to curb such a sulkyattitude syndrome
enough of those 2 who i dunno is up to which sleeve
pissing me off to end my day as if my monday is nt bad enough
my dad is the victim as usual when i asked him if hes homel ast evening coz theres no way i can rush back in time coz i was stil rushing my work to boss
gave him a scolding over the phone which shocked my crew
they all thought that i was quite a fierce gal on the phone
as usual veri angry with the 2 sales staff i got.. simply pushing me products.simply nt treating me like a customer
freaking pissed off!

lousy monday

about 20 mins ago i had this heated argument with this bitch relief boss of mine who was like openly challenging me whereas i rebuked her for being bitchy as well which was simply a case of someone whos not co-operative the again the similar type of entry which i had previously posted also known as ccb colleague which still holds this title till this day
i was damn pissed off which i simply jsut talked back to her because i no longer can stand the way she speaks to us .
the open fire lasted for about 10 secs but i can sense that i am about to yell at her any moment n that wouldnt be nice to any colleague for a short stay
i can imagine if shes my mum then it will be ended in chaos & fights as usual
forget about that bitch sam, shes always like that as despicable as usual usually attack me when the boss is not around
the examination of my door that creaks so often reveals that i have been slamming too much of my door
btw my taiwan's trip has been confirmed & i m just about to log on to apply for my annual leave , 8 more days n it will be forfeited if i do not use up all these leave
was about to log in and submit to black face for approval when hes back on tues another 1 more day of tolerance

210907 jsb

finally its fri mooncake festival is just round the corner for this yr i didnt buy too much of the fancy branded mooncakes from the branded eateries like raffles the plaza, goodwoodpark etc in order to cut cost
everything is still the same
going on everyday
i posted my bank draft just now
another $800 is blown away
the laughing from the meeting room is just so atrocious
the pfc from the thomson branch is so flirtatious, her laughter reminds me of a slut from moulin rouge
haiz
now i only can blog during office hours as my com is down wata sad fact
but the good thing is i can focus on my studies without loggin on the com

another day has gone

today's yumi's last day

when will it be mine

numb with life. going with the flow

i havent been writing for a while , updating on my progress recently i got a new assistant who can assist me in work n cover me while i go on eat snake break like now bloggin coz my com is down n there hasnt been any incentive to be online as well . after recovering on a recent setback of the 2 units which i flunked. i decided to be a good student for a start by studiously reading up journals which i threw somewhere in a charles n keith paperbag at some corner of my room
updates which oso imply i m spending more sundays at home with my family . tinking lesser of someone who is no longer important. i do hope he is getting on fine as well in his studies
anyway its a nice feeling . nt overly worried sad or happy . so called empty window zone
e trip to taiwan in nov 07 with my dad n bro would b a nice period to recuperate n also a best time to chill with my family
i havent thought so far on getting to know someone new as for now. kinda happy with now
that i have no one to look forward to go out with . that someone is waiting for me
i guess the recent case just cracked me up. finding a reliable man is still e better option out there or taking good care of my self on my own works just as well
i m in the meeting room with the survillence around me but i dun care . since i got someone to take care of the branch

spaced out.its been quite a difficult weekend after reading the result slip. 2 retakes paper to sit next yr

timeto get out of the couch potato lifestyle

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