a series of wrong turns

its tough being a driver. someone who knows the route well ,, plans the journey , unfortunately i do not belong to e former..
behind the wheel .. i m sometimes in a ball of mess , fumbling with the various driving tools ...a good sense of direction just does not fall under my characteristic traits... its a pain to b stranded out of no where in pitch darkenss trying to figure out which is the correct path back home. just as i hate to check on maps n the little green friendly sign board.. i was faced with another issue... panic button hit...runing out of petrol n fishing out a petrol station out of somwhere .. out of my 22 years of human existance.. i managed to get the right petrol n randomly took the most correct intutive route back my sweet little home.. n here i am now.. nicely showered n calmed down .. with a nt so helpful navigator aka my daddy its simply even more difficult to cordinate with his instructions ,which some i dun even understand what blab he was trying to explain.. nevertheless after some series of wrong turns.. we still got it.... yeah......
after being so hopelessly dependently on my lovely brother for being the family driver, i do miss his presence although he does scream at me for mis- using his car.. at least hes got skills that i ought to learn from..
after driving the whole day , i m losing it.. e battery didnt work , e alram just rattle on.. really had a hard time stoping it n solving wats with that little gadget.. to imagine driving alone in some ulu parts of the island really scares me.. wat if i m stranded with no phone or public transport.. oh man... i gonnna b in deep trouble .....worse still if i m robbed ,, penniless
i broke in cold sweat esp oso at the same time with 2 young kids behind me, jumpingn screaming , a naggy old man by my side... cant rationalise properly , e sense of responsibiliy to deliver safely becomes a major block in my mind.. n half e time i was half praying my sweaty palms wont act on me again.. it was so slippery n so tense ..i half wish i hasnt got in as a driver in the 1st place..
thank god its is only one of the rare sundays i m obliged to be despatch...