lesson was as usual... exceptionally boring..
while relaxing .. listening to e classic love songs from class 95 , there was this topic of
" how to get anyone to open up"
start with a connection,, stay with stay topics of where to get good food... where u had dinner last nite..
latest news in the line...
go with e flow
e first kiss should always end in the tingle in the air.. wat a tag line frm one of the audience
with tat ended alicia keyes 's aint i got u..
there r many ways n methods to cheer up
or even motivate urself to b happy..
i tried a few.. n it works
try buying someting u wanted so much n u got it..
having lots of $ probabbly helps.. n spending it.. retail therapy
go for a nice hair cut n trim away all ur worries
getting a nice sweat @ e threadmill...
having a long relaxing swim
being with ur pets
hugging someone u love
getting a substitute when someone u love is n/a,,, ie ur bolster.. ur "precious"
bitching with ur best buddies n gal frens
going on a diet n slimming down to e perfect dress tat u always wanted..
eating a whole tub of icecream while trying ur best nt to get depressive
watching a whole lot of lame shows n sad movies.. contrasting effects helps
coopinh urself in bed thinkingtat u r e most fortunate person on earth
having a nice long cry.. helps to regain back ur sanity..
laugh it out !!
a bit of yoga boosts ur concentration.
this week has been my most trying week.. had double my dosage of kopi.. trying my best to stay fresh during office hours... e haze is just making everyone more difficult.. my eyes r dry.. i blink n blink.. stay indoors more.. eat in a small room everyday.. now e lunch crowd scares me off to a corner.. i feel abnormal lunching in subnormal hours.
my old fren.. ting is getting married today.. i couldnt attend her wedding but i feel really happy for her .. envy her oso for being so simple n contented .. her husband looks great, comes frm a family of lawyers n accountants.. another which is oso getting hitched e second time on 3/11/06...
some tings cannot be changed.. neither can it be improved .. its either to accept it or to reject it.. its a theory which people tend to overlook. there is a saying that love can make a person blind to her/ his weakness.. but dun love blindly..
i 've been doing a lot of self reflecting these few days.. probabbly theres isnt any equality after all..
my heart sinks.. to a pit .. burried n fixed there . it gets stagnent n eventually forgotten .. but who cares .. its just a vicious cycle.. but its nt important.. nothing else matters .
proabbly after a month or so.. i pick myself up again frm where i left.. its nt tat tough.. if i get determined enough ..
oh man ! i get so poetic tonite n e earlier phrase sounds like a poem..OMG
tat could b e result of reading so much content , internalising e knowlege n having to write like some crappy essay to prove tat u know ur nuts..
i been reading stuff like y peoply commit suicide.. who is more prone to killing themselves.. how to do research on such sensitive issues n wats e best method.. n the adv n disadv n collecting such date n to comment on the criticism on certain methods.. all these isdriving me nuts soon..
wats more dry.. hr,,, its another even more dry unit.. o n my left side of my study table lies a stack of texts. abt 10-20cm ht... another corner lies e stack of files n case study to go thru every nite.. i m so sick of flippinh thru.. full of notes n highlighted stuff,, its already 3rd hand at least. i might suffer frm color blindness after 2 yrs reading such crappy tings
my brain.. overworked.. plagues by sales figures by day n cramped by a lot of readings at nite.. its extreme.. i find it torturing..
theres no one in e house to share my woes.. i m used to it oso.. rather peaceful. no disruptions.. i know i should b thankful at least i have e energy to slog on... although the conditions might nt b as rosy as compared in the past no need to struggle every morning n wonder y i only have 24hrs in a day n nt more than tat. y i have lesser hr to sleep compared to e rest..
comparison can never b a good bench mark oso . it just makes u more imbalanced than inital state of the mind.. so many has did it n completed their studies with good results.. n I CAN BE one of e statistic as well.. it will prove tat i m a more efficient student hahaha in a more exhausting manner tats all..hopefully when i re read this entry in yr 2008 aug.. i m already preparing for convocation... i better b.....
another 3 more chapters before i can call it a day... cheers.. sam,............
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