Panda birthday n i m lying on my bed instead of his bed

Total burst out when i decide that i want to go home n sleep in my own bed. n to protect my own interests i have no choice but to say things to her subtly in the eyes of a 3rd party now staying in a family of 8. 相距容易。同住. 难... Usual topics the old hag hoggers about lack of allowance n short payment . Heard lots of it so solution stay separately. no need to face domestic issues every day with old hag. Was tired about everything about today. started off family dispute for Ph. separate death claim cheques between step mum n daughter over deceased. then the idiotic cYQ qho does not answer calls. emails n puts everything on hold. so as a result nth caller complains on the cheque issue again.. so i instant message he and say the PH is VERY FURIOUS. so i txt one day should your family oso in need of claims beware of kharma urself when u receive claims proceeds many months later. also the ph had this growl aft the 6 or 7th call that she might be dead before her $$ rolls in. lol.. so for the record of such idiotic claim colleagues. Her style of works sucks, if she think she can bury in her shit hole can does processing the answer is no. one day if i really lose my cool. i will go right up her cubicle n then give her a good nice thrashing straight in her face . n i just transfer calls up to her shit hole DID.for what shes doing. its ineffective. it pisses ppl off n affect biz reputation. claims to me may be a new thing but if there is no firm attitude to biz. it would be never ending. I realise when i sound more hostile n netural i invite lesser trouble. For a track record, it has affected my day and also my EQ with Panda. on his bdae eve, i decided to get my butt of his bed n go straight home before I run into hysterical bersek. dinner was great. 4 dishes $50.. my theory if wan to give treat then dun stinge on $ if wan to stinge on $ dun bother give treats. spend $ n be sad wat for . As for the Bongs n Wangs episode had enough of the allowance not enough syndrome. decide to go lesser n use less water. Stay at home in room most save $.. had also enough of bro 2 nonsense. decide to avoid him for a while n do my own things. a bit pissed off with his style of ruling his kids whatever. Dad cant say hes on the best of his behavior . but consider stable call centre. stable income. boring scope. claims colleagues Suck big time. claims even took like more than 5 months to be admitted. CYQ really press my button for today and now at 1 am i m still harping on CYQ. m curious how her bloody face looked like maybe should just google linked in around. sat Lido movie w the gals.. BFF.. sat dinner movie w panda.. ramen play Sun.. Ivy.. orchard.. Mon loyang pek kong w dad.. To end today i m happy i choose to go home. really not in a good state of mind to stay in bong residence with all those mouldy smell dog fur. cockroach n filth. get out first or roarrr........

有太多意料不到的不如意，与其跟自己过不去。不如让自己更开心。生活和生命毕竟属各人选择。好好对待自己何尝不是件好事。。。

年少青狂谁没有。。叛逆时期总是看父母不顺眼。嫌他们唠唠叨叨，长大了才会觉得跟时间赛跑。。紧紧把握每一个天天相处的时间吧！哪天百年以后问心无愧 ^_

A normal Tue morning after a Monday blue day

Manage to scrap through Mon. again didnt had this 50 calls per day shit. Had facial, long chat w Peggy my facial expert since 2008. engage her service for 2 yrs n then i break to study n neglected my skin. my second half of the agenda. care for my body n skin then becomes my next goal. shall i say no to macdonalds for lunch again in order to watch my weight. Shall I then be more strict that i should go at least 2 wkdays for gym since I have the tendency to slack on weekends. My next indulgence . shall i get a SAMsung SIII or a note.. or save the $$ FIRST UNTIL the iphone 3GS cannot make it.. 14 days to renewal contract. 5 days to payday since 19th is not a working day.. 1 yr has passed. many friends getting married, how many are truly blissful. Happy in their marriage. Does shot gun marriage lasts, and if the man is not really to commit would it really make of a difference if they were compelled to be fathers where in their heart they stil yearn to be kids who never grow up. Hopping marriage would change the mindset is only 1 sided thinking it would happen ideally. My last trump card when I have no in law support. Learn to be a good mother, wife. daughter. sis. daughter in law n gd fren. One of my old pal tell me, I got this trick of filling up people's gap when they talk or this completion of the social butterfly knack. Its not that i like to be a social buterly.. tb its inborned. Solution to MDB's infamous living habits, learn to ignore certain stupidities and console myself its know my fault that people do not know what questions to avoid and wht not to ask n the art of speaking w Tact n respect for others so people wont get easily offended and worked up. Its like a angry button. once Poked cant be deflated. N some people are just so S enough not to sense it. Its inborned in the genes, if i stay cool n uncontrolled perhaps i could control my sanity better and not let anger get the better of me. Life is precious. do not risk higher BP n let my mother;s curse continue.. Tiger Flying CLub.. here i come... destress watch yandaos..

17th year of Mum's death anniversary

After a long day at work, manage to shut down n leave by 6.20pm after my email suddenly die on me.. Some communication breakdown among 2 parties and there goes my lunch but what to do.. its part of the job. so much to think it would be a smooth day today. Had to send out some last min help n help desk.. Still manage to shut it off.. Warm dinner at ah ma's had a great chat with her n sharing since the last meet up was in CNY FEB 2012 almost 6 months since I last chat up with ah ma. While ah ma was reminiscent on the past and how she raise my mum as child when she was 3yr old. n when mum passed on when shes 46 my ah ma still vividly remembers. The next thing was my ah gu whos unmarried n she was blaming herself if she did anything wrong in the past therefore uncle choose to remain golden bachelor n of coz parents do not stop worrying for kids. Her concern was if my uncle would be alone old n lonely.. As usual when she thinks of mum and how she passed on that fateful night she cant help it but start tearing away, Even the young ones falling,, crying.. n with MY.. we need to use the "scare" tactic to tame him using "nine nine would knock on your door if you misbehave" lol.. But of coz we cant comment much as the xiao bei. To remain single or not is an individual's choice , still got to respect one;s decision. Was advising ah ma, to be at this age. Old graceful, healthy and wise was more important. Able to walk freely.. mental state of mind gd. Ah ma is indeed older.. 80 yrs old this year.. Ah ma leads a healthy lifestyle of exercising daily, naps although her concentration is not so gd. She usually falls asleep while reading the news and after her cataracts operation, she tells me her sight is not as gd as before. At 79 , shes one of the fittest ah ma i seen walking steadily though the dishes she whip hasnt changed much over the years. And for many years I learnt to take things on my stride coz maybe for initial years I would tink my mum's sudden loss was a big blow to the family with no pillar. But now after many years, it has evolved. Now the pillar has an extention, life is great! as the slogan says. Not everyday is sunny. While dark clouds gather, there would be sunny days after the storm. We grown to be each other's pillar of strength and encourage each other when we are under the weather. We learnt to move on, to grow n love as well as to forgive. Now that I am going to have a new extended family with the Wangs after 13 months offically, not only i learn to accommodate other's short comings, i've learnt to accept for who they are. As human, they may not be correct always. But ppl learn n for love, since its selfless, it then comes second nature then I believe. There are new roles regenerated just like how my mum choose to be w my dad tat hes naggy, slim and blur, We learn to accept imperfections for no matter how much we plan, there are some regrets which cannot be wiped away. It then remains somewhere for scars to fade away. Its also the pain which reminds us to be strong n to stand while we fall. So after we stand up, we learn to walk steadily in the long unknown path. Many yrs many a time, we would not know how, and where we lead to. M glad I choose not to go Malacca if not I would missed the time catching up with Ah ma. Would not know hw she strives everyday productively.. wake u at 4 or 5 on a morning stroll.. power naps afternoon n her naps on sofa. She was telling me her walking khaki reduce staff strength. N in insurance industry, the mishaps, misfortunes in life reminds how lucky we are with our loved ones. On this day my mum;s special day.. Sometimes it dawns on me that mum;s early departure may b loss, but m proud to have inherited her joyfulness, cheerful positive spirit and endearing attitude to make things work.. For old people, the wants would have been diminished over the years and gets diluted. Much of their wishes would have to enjoy tian lun zhi le.. healthy n happy. Over the past 2 mths coming to 3 mths in GE, have seen n witness much sad stories. Life;s a cycle. Quoted from bro 2, while we are young, our parents take care of us and while we are older we need ppl to take care of us. N for all these years the cycle hasn changed much. N much as I welcome Sat. I hope AGum n Ayi would burry the hatchet so Ah ma wont feel so sad over the sibling fight. Over small argument family fight for too long is no good.. try to give n take a bit.. make the elders happy. Easier said than done. If Bro worm n bro 2 would talk again would b good.. amicable at least I have been grateful both the elderly. Dad n ah ma . They may not have been in the pink of health w slight imperfections. At least they could still lead normal activities. N while I m saving for the upcoming wedding.. I have tried to tell myself for this year although I have more time for studies. More $ has been apportioned for wedding.. n much as i can only bring dad to cheap n budget outings. hope by the time i m done with the housing n wedding, stil can bring dad for a short trip after settling all these tasks.. meantime no big ticket holiday.. Kopi treat.. extra pocket money movies .. gifts are the only more feasibly things to do. Well maybe we r average, at least we are happy. Although we cant stay happy all the time, we try to accommodate. Every family has its own soap opera. but this is how we continue to irritate each other n still stay together as family. family shall not forsake each other.. If mum could have seen me wear a wedding dress n have kids then it would not have been this regretful....Nevertheless we are a tough family which stays united in sharing our bills n love.. What a night.. full of thoughts after a chat w ah ma..

Happy National Day 9.8.2012

Had $10ktv w Joanna. AM, Bro 2 , n bro 3.. Provided bro 3 friendly loan $50. Had dinner, marked attendance with Md Bong. Old Mrs Bong ah po n a fren of hers in Boon hwa.. Mdm Ong Ong. aka Bong strike 4d again.. $6k for xiao hong. 5059.. We had ba chor mee after the ktv ended at 1 am ... This morning manage some time off with lau pei.. breakfast n lunch.. I love my city sunny days.. la la lala. My bro2 was lecturing.. ah ling life is a cycle when we reach to a age, we need other ppl to take care of us when we are old. Whether you like her a not, she will become your mother when u marry him. If you start treating her like ur own mum, perhaps you would have her interests and live amicably together.

a nite. out with E Lian Na.. ang mo lian n Serene

Its been a year since I sat down dinner face to face with Elena. Today included Serene as well..preggy mother in town.. circular st.. had some ranmen n ..tea n heineken after dinner. Dinner treat by E.lian.. Shes changed after a year. still as melancholy. Hates n love her job. goes home 9,10pm daily. shifted to Kent hill some posh condos near scotts. her dog passed on n she didnt really get over it much. She has this shaking hand syndrome which requires medication. It could be her.. her quote is relationship phobic n that is hindering her from meeting new men in her life after Guy.. She still loves him but she choose to end the relationship. Rich. but still as usual unhappy w her mum whos an exact mould of her. stubborn strong headed and mood swings. Shared a little bit on my upcoming plans.She was sharing with me today. problems w Mdm Bong n her unsightly habits.. that love should be self sacrificing.. selfless n initiated willingly..How many normal folks have that kind of enduring spirit. This is for housewives of the past era.. Women now are equally capable. Financially stable . Well educated and exposed. Yes marriage means married to the husband's family. Lily.. happily married w a son. Lucas.. Serene.. expecting dragon boy in 1 month.. 110912.. Elena happily travelling. diving trips.. career building.. maternal instincts..Zerrooo... Her advice if i continue to be getting my way . it indicates recipe for disaster potentially. Getting a man to choose between wife and mother. How a man treats his mother will reflect how he treats his wife.. hahaha.. I do have a lot to overcome. maybe bad hygiene habits.. n diets are one of the few areas I cant accommodate yet. Each family member has a equally troublesome person to deal with... Looking back 5/8/2012. YY is 9 n Baby Corliss is 3 yesterday. The family had fun in PAsir ris recreation Mac.. followed by bowling in dt east. Has been a long time since the family had a wonderful time.. My dad bowled well w many strikes.. we bowl w bro3.. Yao Long. michelle n Panda Pheng.. At around 11.30pm while sleeping halfway. my dad yelled n scream. He must have been complacent n stopped his medication when he thought hes ok. Wedding is for a day. marriage is for life. Y fuss over it when it cannot withstands the hardship n trials.. every morning after 29/9/13 I want to wake up n tell myself i make a gd choice when i sign the dotted line. No matter what happens this big bear is someone i w live with n take care of each other as long as we live.. The part of me being self centred n wilful.. stubborn. short temper..greedy and impatient.. I tink whatever the long path ahead.. I should love his mother like how i love mine. And family dun bear grudges. As a da sao.. have to be less ji jiao .. more open.. less narrow minded . more resourceful. tactful n dutiful... Its difficult doing .. executing than just saying it as a bystander.. So as a wife, i should place family above all interest as form of mindset..Although I may lugi a bit in the long run everybody but me is happi..What to do.. a single mother after 20 yrs of slogging would i want to c her stranded n lonely in her old age.. thats being infillal.. aint it... Put up with a grouchy woman... option 2. bear w her nonsense n hopes she could change..pray for improvements.. hahah wishful thinking... Change myself n my mindset probabbly easier.. And this shortly defines boring marriage mundane life...I m unsure if i m already dreading that day.. n life after 30 means commitment to the family. the house . the chores. the in laws. the parents. the kids. the colleagues... n be a super super mum .... its like 13 months to Mdm Sng.. Mrs Wang.. Sept 29 2013 7 months to photoshooting.. Mar 2013 10 months to food tasting.. June 2013 I think of it. as a project in parts to complete tasks. quotes. evaluating. negotiating. compromising n enduring as a daughter in law. sis in law. wife. mother. daughter n many other roles.. After 13 months.. endless contractor shopping n furnishing.. furniture shopping n chores.. This is marriage.. responsibilities n commitments..

早上想的字词灵感

首先感谢大家抽空。

谢谢我的家人，父母亲的养育。英平妈妈。还有表姐，姐妹和兄弟团。

还有亲人，老公给我的包容和谦让。一路走来很感激身边关心支持我。
英平和我很荣幸分享我们的喜悦，

今天是我和英平开始的起跑点。往后要一起过日子by

收到大家的祝福，我们很开心

往后还有很长我哥哥常常讲。我们会一起好好进营婚姻。

最后还有未嫁或娶的朋友，希望你也找到幸福！
 enjoy ur dinner, 如果有招待不周请多多包含
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Countdown.. PH next week

On this night 31072012 in my little room.. i decided to write after reviewing my past entries accumulation since 2005... thats 7 long years of my journey and my memories. Past events from 22-29..... Single jog hopping.. hop bf..lover. partying.. lousy men. jobs. miserable w sch results,bla bla.. YR 2013 30... 29.9.13 Sign on dotted line.. Upgrade Ms Sng to Mrs Wang Eng Pheng.. 31...32..many many yrs.... to be updated.. in my marriage life complaining series.. 2011 was a big jump of commitments.. Finish degree. complete assig. exams 2012 is rosy.. while not for first quarter.. find job. Second half focus on complexion, weight loss. get settled with GE. Yes CSO is a challenging role but to able to help ppl when they need help most lost of loved ones.. painful memories.. money relief.. is meangingful kinda happy with the colleagues now.. hope this would be long term career for me or to internally hope within organisation... Did a wedding online blog..http://pandanporkie.perfectweddings.sg/wedding-story/ well lots to go.. wat to do customary chinese wedding if only we can just sign on the dotted line . have a simple buffet. renovate the house .. buy furniture n shift in.. wishful thinking... 2309hrs.. at my little table little hill house..

Py's wedding over ..Kluang,,,

To summarise the first quarter of 2012, finally found some purpose in my career. tried direct sales after completing my part time studies.. Problems encountered in 2012 sick of DP CS role initially Found Reed Elsevier.. Eguide as a account manager but realise I m not pushy enough as a direct sales. After 3 weeks found a CSO role with Great Eastern Life.. One big round and viola back to financial institution, this time poorer arm of the Bank cousin.. Mother co of OCBC. The culture is similar to OCBC, systems and people managing. Thoughts after 1 month in the call centre compared to Citi, DP and OCBC SA Role GEL more work life balance. slightly higher pay but not the best. Nice colleagues so far within the same floor.. Supportive bosses as I can tell as of current. Quite a stable environment, proven with many working mothers. Cons. Difficult to take leave. MC and AL is controlled tightly with min manpower. Younger colleagues tend to have higher turnover rate. After a week of gorging, its time to revert back to reality. Back to the call centre, this time picking up independently.. Upcoming goals.. Still struggling with weight issues Action Plan, increasing intensity, motivation to go Amore for classes to tone up Counting down to Dec 2012 -> Get GEL confirmation Jan 2013 - May 2013 -> Secure AL for days to settle with studio Finalise wedding vendors to work with April- May 2013 -> Settle bridal photo taking June - Sept 2013 - > Intensive Planning ( u name it.. all the small little tasks which may not b my forte, but still has to be done eventually.. ) RSVP Guest List 25- 32 tables. approximately 250- 300 guests Objectives to achieve From what i view as a 3rd party perspective being jie mei for 2011 n 2012 appro 4 frens n beyond.. Marriage to me after attending X no of weddings so far.. is like going through the motion on that day, and the real deal starts when you start it rolling after the wedding night and beyond.... Try to strike balance of $, ambience and key things Quality Pics Memorable Event Funny video to remember Fun moments with Jie Meis Value for $ vendors Mutual blessings and happy event with the future Wangs Family Oct 2013 - Dec 2014 period To pend for Parkview to be completed Finalise a theme Source for Contractors Get quality furniture lowest cost Shift in with Panda to start a new section of life.. Timeline 2015 & beyond.. Plan C... Children by 35... hopefully second one latest by 36.. fulfil Pig mother n piglet theme.. by then... So much of planning.. by 2018... i wonder how much has these above been achieved.. at the cost evaluated.

24 June 2012 ... another jie mei into ren qi club. was a long day but hapi n fulfiling..

一辈子的含义

一辈子的含义意义很沉重，包含了担当，责任和守在的承诺。。
有了担当 让人要更坚强和朴实。。婚姻建立的共同信念， 患难与共应该就是着这个定义。
担当让人顿时逐渐成长， 对另一个人的坚持和期待。。
我做了确定， 为我规划的人生充满憧憬。离开现任的状况， 无论会成。 我会依然接受。。

矢志不渝

一段矢志不渝的感情总需要面对多多波折和考验。可成事必经历千辛万苦。结了婚待多了解维系微妙的夫妻和婆媳关系！
With the dilution of the 80s and below getting married n now facebook is flooded with warm family and baby and children pics. It s no wonder in 5 years time the next patch of the 90s would soon have the next patch of proposal ring pics , boyfriend , galfriend travel pics and so forth.
I read n borrowed some book on how to communicate and embrace differences in partners n in time point in time i reckon like me with people like Panda who are more amicable and yet analytical would have to rough out certain issues to smoothen conflicts.
Merrill-Wilson
The profiles of the Merrill-Wilson system overlap closely with the Personality Plus system:
Driver: Choleric
Analytical: Melancholy
Expressive: Sanguine
Amiable: Phlegmatic

I pluck off my proposal ring today and question myself if i make the right decision to agree to get married.

while waiting for our house to be ready we decide to get married in Q3 2013 before the house instead of after renovation as it would delay 2 years. Our quarrel was on staying separately for about 6 months because his family has poor hygiene habits.This issue then become a bugging issue as my parent believe i should accommodate as the future da shao. I am the youngest so through this preparation got to train myself to switch my mindset to achieve a harmony equilibrium. For some lame reason we argue in the car, I dunno wat came into me today. I pluck off my proposal & return back to Panda..
N shortly while Panda was driving he broke into sobs.. n was truly heart broken.. I was beri guilty but didnt like the fact that he was also yelling at me for missing out my bro 's car while following them to Mt Vernon to pray to my mum.
And while i took off my ring today didnt expect Panda to be so sad. But recalling the few moments. I didnt expect myself to react equally violently as well today. Its the result of other people who has that control obsession..
a total of 8 cockroaches killed. After this weekend i m constantly questioning myself if i have the capacity to really accommodate to such differences in our personal hygiene values. The wedding prep is really giving me a toil and there were times i want to walk out of his house. Today I kill a cockroach when i saw it walk pass me at the kitchen wall. bread was exposed and a lot of food items were left unattended. Even after the cockroach posion was spread, Md Bong stil did not bother to clear off the carcass. it seriously dawned upon me what were her values.

Must have been the day i yell at panda for the worst and good reason

After much contemplation.. cleaned the sty w good dettol mr muscle and all the essential cleaning tools..
I yell at him reason being army of cockroach clan..
well i guess it was good coz i could not longer contain my wrath and fear
indeed Panda proved me wrong. He solved my fears
We bought cockroach poison and despite me throwing my tanturms... Panda equally as scared of cockroach decide to clear up the mess and calm the Pork down..

leap yr 2012Feb 29

Should i take the papers . should i bravely take the step to break from a basic pay n walk towards a recurring income...hiak hiak

事事得成 得遇贵人 若问前程 终久相逢 远望行人..解签
可作老来翁行人可口笑向西又向东柳簌笑春风

Before my interview for Power seraya

Still 2 hours before my visit with Sam, my VP i m meeting for my round 3 interview.
was still saddened that my iphone4 is lost when i drop it along the roadside when Panda drop me off after i kiss him. what a memorable V day to end it off.
Its been a ride. preparing for round 1 with HR. round 2 sales pitch & now
havent been focusing in DP for the daily follow ups & sales calls.in short i lost my passion for Senior RE there.

Dad's zz walking syndrome has been worsening. he zz walk last fri & tried to hit bro2 by doing zombie stunt. will bring him to the doc at 2pm later.. n i hope my interview would be smooth to impress sam san with my " drive"

1st post in 2012

7 years since my last blog. to recap 2011.. it was a busy year with studies assignment. juggling with work and examinations.

2011 has just ended 50 mins ago. It was a year which I witness a few of my good frens settling down and having their house ready. Also for me personally, panda n i committed to a matrimonial asset followed by a little diamond ring from him. Also in 2011 I had my promotion and my share of agony at work. come 2012, hopefully I would be happier in my job and find a nicer boss with better pay and environment.
to end the 2011, i was happy to be the jie mei of my friends, completed my part time studies with Kaplan, committed with more disciplined savings to see it grow. Towards the end of the year Oct, also started a jogging regime with Panda at Bedok reservoir my haunt for morning jogs.This year also marks a year staying in Pasir Ris, waking up earlier and used to the longer ride back home from town. Things seem to be flowing somewhat the way I planned .come 2012, the emphasis would be on career, switch from the entry level to some thing specialised. More time to spend with lau pei as he shows signs of ageing and dementia when he deciphers things more slowly.
and since next year would be my wedding year.. i hope to spend more time with my family and my dad while i m still staying in Pasir Ris.. while i got time lim kopi with dad..n try to acc him as often as i could.
also if i got pay rise in my next job. hope can give him more pocket $$$ and also save more $$ to build on my house.

this should be the most stressful 1 month since my last assignment

last 2 assignments due Nov 4 2011 SMPP2 --> Zouk Singapore

Due Nov 11 2011 IMC 2-- > Citibank

SMPP Reflection Paper --> last last assig.


going nuts soon with all these research....

NOV 19 2011 --> pls come soon as well as dec 17 the results.... to determine if i can job hop

29/9/2013 Thurs

2 yrs from this date would be panda & my 大喜之日.. Hehehe
Wonder by then maybe Maureen, py, Ms Heng may have junior by then hahahha

Its quite a funny thought of the projected budget to allocate and the endless list of task just to get 1 big task done.

Today I take bus 81 frm loyang to kovan.. In future as a hougang
Nang I would just need walk 10 min to hougang mrt to take train to town n instead of 45-75 min should take half e $ & time..

This weekend is a wedding weekend ahead sat& sun!!!

Finished project brief 1 already Heng ah.. Find tat Jane quite bossy n I kinda snap at her last nite.

So looking forward to weekend today's monthly meeting & if possible feel like take mc tml extended weened..

done with media budgeting

really hate to do budgeting..
pissed today.

process of planning a wedding

0112hrs... 24 months to wedding with Panda..29.9.2013.. 20kg to lose
current weight : 70kg lost about 3 kg over about the past month or so..
cutting back on snacks..trying hard to lesser rice during dinner and less fried food for a start.. lesser fastfood.. no stress eating sweet drinks.. hopefully stress w make me slimer.. after which next big ticket item is to confirm wedding venue..
Peony Jade
Miramar Hotel Peach Garden
Furama river front..
Hotel Park Royal
Budget $1k per table..max 20 tables.. 200 guests..list of tasks can all this be fulfiled by june 30 2012 to look back..wat a list of things fulfiled in 24 months..

For a 24mth schedule.. i agree i been thinking ahead too far.. more immediate goals..complete swinburne's final 2 units SMPP N IMC..

Find another stable career after CNY 2012..secure bonus DP2011

List of scheduled tasks
deadline 30sept 2011 IMC project brief 1
Dealine 14 Oct 2011 IMC project brief 2
Major assig deadline IMC deadline 11 Nov 2011.

Complete IMC exam on Nov 19 2011

Await results on Dec 17 2011 8am..

SMPP non exam.. case study 1
major assign
reflection reportSMPP

Oct 1 Jane& Kee's wedding

Oct 2 Hui shan &pei wei 's wedding

Dec 3 2011 DP D&D nite..

NoV 24 2011 Suyi's wedding

Dec 132011 Sinyi's wedding

Jan 14 2012 Maureen's wedding

Timeline aft cny.. during cny period to compare rates..

June 2012 30 hopefully to finalise the venue...n $3k deposit paid..

July 15 2012 Vivien's wedding

Mar 2013 - Jun 2013 to start preparing on the targeted task to prepare for big day
hopefully target weight to reach 55-60kg by then...

Task of check list to complete the small task

May 2013 to have task to complete bridal pics from La belle..

Jun 2013- Sept- 2013 hopefully has reached 50kg...

Panda's Bing li-->14.9.2013 Sat 8am sharp to deliver the bing li 10th day Aug lunar calendar.. important note.. both parties to not b present.. panda to send a representative
BIG DAY---> 29.9.2013 SUn 25th lunar Aug wedding date 25th day Aug lunar.. important no dragon jie mei xiong di..pregnant jie mei not to be jie mei..
bro3, moi jan to siam abit as well as hao hao.. dragons to lim kopi for the ceremony.. to check with Dannywhen the date draws near..

0140hrs.... time to watch ppstv.. letv on iphone..

qw

Strategic business research pending grade..
Service marketing.. pending.. released by 17092011.. another 5 hrs of waiting..
my stomach is growling.. n i m telling my brain that although i am 80% unreplenished for supper earlier @ G7 frog porridge store at lor 3 geylang..
A few milestone since my last updates.
6 months since 31 Mar.. today's 17 Sept 2011.. i am just so close to completion my marketing degree which i been harping for since 2003.. 8 yrs.. just 2 months away from it.. n every day continues to be a challenge to juggle so many things happening in my life now..so far grades was fine.. for the past 4 units.. which was halfway past. i remember i was so scared that i would fail n waste my $2996 course fee on 3 months ago..
today i face the same type of feat although i bear a certain confidence in myself..
updates since mar.. promoted to senior RE in DP group.. holding on to top tier package plan for platinum,telco & casino port for both macau,aust & sg..
cover the maternity lady and manage to juggle sch work fairly well.. decent grades.
fixed my wedding date to be 29 September 2013 which is about 24 months from today..
got my proposal ring from Panda bui bui in July 2011..
2011 & 2012 I will see my jie mei men all getting hitched while I remain still "single" while the rest become Mrs XXXXXX... n plus i get to collect 2 more years of ang bao and enjoy being served at home with soup...
the next task is to quality the guest list RSVP.. my least favourite task of wedding planning..
Now that the guan yin has given the theme of low profile wedding. its good for me as both Panda & i have a tight budget... everything item is a cost and sunk expenses. the process of planning this lifetime event is stressful .exciting and mentally, financially draining & fascinating..
From a young gal to a wife.. would be the my next transition stage n as much as i detest this change, it is like the natural process for a belonging and another identity to our relationship from stranger to man & wife
try as i might, the idea of setting up a family n home is so foriegn n things are as bleary and the route ahead is just so blurry with no clear direction.
With the help of modern technology like singapore brides reviews , we seen more testimonials and experiences of other people going through this route and here i m now hating the mafan part but also proud that i make this very decision to settle down with someone i know is worth all this while.
Both Panda & I signed the agreement lease to our very own matrimonial asset. A 112 sq ft in Parkview and it would be my home in 2014. Yes forsee more bickers, quarrels, disagreements, fights and arguments. which couple doesnt quarrel.. n it would also be home to our kids . little panda n pork chop juniors.
N i got to leave the radar screen of chwee poh and my hounding bossy brothers who boss their kid sister around.
I would make use of this time to self practise my profound existing EQ skills to collaborate well with Panda as well as to build strong bonding with my future mother and bro in law who i call them my family in existing to my own clan.
Things which i know my weakness needs to be brushen up like stubbornness. wilfulness and ego which need to be further refined. n my ability to see things more broadbased and more tolerance to dumb nosy n insensitive ppl are some areas of concern in terms of my style of communication.
after all we are all but different n would need to learn to live together in harmony till we part. n this is part of the vow signed for aint it. N this is the ties which all couples commonly share to build a family, in the name of love, while love aint tat enough. n how to fall in love with the same bui kia over n over again.. lovey doey doesnt last a life time.. having common goals does n the level of commitment should not have the law of diminishing return.. hahah as wat i remember wat my econs lecturer quoted. love should b enduring, n it should stand periods of down sides for the good & bad times. n with this in mind, builds a strong foundation for a loving cultured family.

Amidst the wedding plan and the process, on this very day i tend to miss my late mum .. hw did i get pass this 17 yrs with my years of schooling.. my fears, my anxiety and my worries.

n 26 nov 2009.. we shared our love and it is blossomed till current with all our little housing commitments and planning going on . I wish sometimes I had more of mum's past memories n its a shame on how little memories i could rely on. Mum was a jovial lady who is always friendly and generous with the ppl she met, n she had a gd network. I must have been truly blessed to inherit her sales genes and manage with my "hao suang" character to land up with Panda..
In 2 yrs time, my salutation would be revised n my late nite drinking sessions with my lim qiu khaki would then revise to late nite feeding sessions.. Its horrifying, dictative and directives to be virtuous, caring and supportive role of what wives ought to be. Perhaps its time to revise the ruling that since now women could bring bread on the table, isnt it also fair to raise standards for modern, contemporary husbands, new age penguin dads to behave, and contribute their fair share to the home which would make wives' task less daunting, routine and manipulative as to the term of supermums termed as..
Men should also exercise some efforts and care to ensure the marriage works for both with constructive feedback , actions plans to be carried out consistently to maintain a healthy, loving relationship as Man n wife.
n concurrently, a almost finished degree, a rewarding career with lotsa $, a healthy body to procreate n produce kids , juniors, a systematic plan to carry out and follow up on for a happy, simple and unforgetable low profile wedding. next would be a cozy home with reasonable furnishing and renovation, accompanying a cute little car to carry all the Panda family in a lovely home in Hougang... a place i call it home ...
its perhaps rather simplistics.. n the short medium goals is to lose 15-20kg by May 2013.. n perhaps 10kg by 2012 Dec n hopefully by my 29th birthday i m halfway complete with it.. n before my 30th birthday.. i m a proud wife n bride to be 2013...

Rampant spree in watson.. sasha n 2 nites of jap food.

Its been a month since i last wrote.. been busy rushing.. rushing.. and more rushing everyday.. day in and out.. just settled in 1 hr ago.. with about 1 hr travelling from bugis to tampines n then loyang ave.
good news is I been promoted.. to senior .. within 1 year and 4 months with DPI..
next best months for the month of April.. bonus month..
and following come would be increment..

Tml auntie may is going for surgery

tml is Auntie May's surgery
i suppose. shes worried. n i m afraid if we can cope well too without Auntie Vk in the house helping out. another week for week 1 for product management n market research methods starts again,
Panda applied for bto again. tis time in sengkang fernvale flora or fernvale garden, so high chance that I may be neighbours with Mdm Lim.

We had a fruitful fb conversation catch up during my exam week. seems like ages since i catch up with her.

Well i m still a little angry that ppl ask me how much iearn for a living which is sensitive.
CIMB is hiring.. well if i finish the degree. maybe its worth the hop.

成功的人生十句話

第一句："人都是逼出來的"。

每個人都是有潛能的，生於安樂，死於憂患，所以，當面對壓力的時候，不要焦燥，也許這只是生活對你的一點小考驗，相信自己，一切都能處理好，逼急了好漢可以上梁山，時世造英雄，窮則變，變則靈，人有了壓力才會有動力。





第二句："如果你簡單，這個世界就對你簡單"。

簡單生活才能幸福生活，人要知足常樂，寬容大度，什麼事情都不能想繁雜，心靈的負荷重了，就會怨天尤人。要定期的對記憶進行一次刪除，把不愉快的人和事從記憶中擯棄，人生苦短，財富地位都是附加的，生不帶來死不帶去，簡簡單單的生活就是快快樂樂的生活。





第三句："人生沒有彩排，每一天都是現場直播"。

偶爾會想，如果人生真如一場電子遊戲，玩壞了可以選擇重來，生活會變成什麼樣子？正因為時光流逝一去不復返，每一天都不可追回，所以更要珍惜每一寸光陰，孝敬父母、疼愛孩子、體貼愛人、善待朋友。





第四句："懷才就像懷孕，時間久了會讓人看出來"。

人，切莫自以為是，地球離開了誰都會轉，古往今來，恃才傲物的人都沒有好下場。所以，即便再能幹，也一定要保持謙虛謹慎，做好自己的事情，是金子總會發光。





第五句："過去酒逢知己千杯少，現在酒逢千杯知己少"。

不勝酒力，體會不了酒的美味，但卻能感受知己的妙處。沒有朋友的人生是孤獨的，不完整的，可是，因為生活的忙碌，漸漸少了聯絡，友誼就變的淡了，所以，抽點時間，聯絡朋友一起聊聊天，讓情誼在笑聲中升騰，當朋友遇到了難題的時候，一定要記得挺身而出，即便幫不了忙，安慰也是最大的支持。





第六句："人生如果錯了方向，停止就是進步"。

人，總是很難改正自己的缺點，人，也總是很難發現自己的錯誤，有時，明知錯了，卻欲罷不能，一錯再錯，把握正確的方向，堅守自己的原則，世界上的誘惑很多，天上永遠不會掉餡餅，不要因為貪圖一時的快樂而付出慘痛的代價，如果發現錯了，一定要止步。





第七句："人生兩大悲劇：一是萬念俱灰，一是躊躇滿志"。

現代的人好像特別脆弱，報紙上天天報導眾多名人得抑鬱症，這些人一定是從一個極端走向別一個極端。正因為躊躇滿志，才堅信自己是完美的，是無所不能的，如果受到一點挫折，就會變得極度自卑，甚至失去繼續生活的勇氣。為自己找一個準確的定位，享受生活樂趣。





第八句："人生和愛情一樣，錯過了愛情就錯過了人生"。

愛情是什麼？讓人無所適從，讓人神魂顛倒，面對愛情的時候，勇敢一點，大膽說出自己的愛。人，總會生老病死，怎麼過都是一生，錯過了愛情就錯過了生命的精彩。





第九句："天下有錢人終成眷屬"。

現代社會的人變得越來越勢利，愛情也越來越無足輕重，於是我不得不相信"天下有錢人終成眷屬"就對現代愛情的最確切的描述。





第十句："要成功，需要朋友，要取得巨大的成功，需要敵人"。

有競爭才有發展，因為有了敵人的存在，因為有了不服輸的決心，才會努力的做好自己的事，所以，有時候，敵人比朋友的力量更大，天下沒有永遠的敵人，卻有永遠的朋友，有些時候，敵人也可以變成朋友。

actually wanting to settle n the process of settling can be so frustrating

at times. i wonder . its frustrating to find someone worth settling down n when i do come across. it seems that there are so many obstacles to do it too.
Tat old woman gives me some dirty look. ask me sensitive questions like hw much i earn every month which i tink is equally insensitive. my own dad dun even ask me how much i earn.
so i been thinking
do i want to get married becoz i tink i should
hes the right one.
or i just need a house
or its just the age
had tis suggestion from a fren that perhaps i should just share a house with dad.. to act as a backup plan . stop those ppl frm eyeing old man's assets.
well all these acts as catalyst or its the underlying reasons or the norm of a lady whos approaching 30 in 2 yrs..

just nw dad n bro argue over the fact that my niece was taking her own sweet time to prepare for art class due at 3.45pm where shes still in the bathroom combing hair at 3.30pm. there was an earlier debate with dad n bro.. well common. 2 astro clashes.

before i knew it. i just hide int he kitchen with the maid.. auntie vk n focus on frying batang fishes.

if marriage is such a complex issue between 2 famiies. then i should nt just go for the diamond and forsake my own happiness.
issit really worth it for a family.
i really doubt so now.
i wonder if hes the kind that i can entrust myself with or he would just continue to be a tyrant n side with his mum no matter wat happens.

Hehehe relac for 2 weeks before next sem mar 10-13 & mar 17-20

ate too full.. decide to cycle in the neighbour hood.

list of items done today
drank tiger beer in the hot afternoon while doing a mask on the face on my bed.
went lim kopi w dad n complain abt black rat bro 2 ..
took mei mei baby corliss to the playground n loyang pt to buy icecream
babysit a bit of the 2 monkeys
eat a lot today
night cycling to jalan loyang besar new spot.
watched mean gals 2, chiwawa2 n meet the little fockers..
nice weekday off work..
was so full that i couldnt sleep or rather.. havent sleep in this bed for the past 5 days. recap the nights without a fan.

lazy monday w tiger beer at home n mask on the face.

went to the park w mei mei n Rena.. bought icecream moo moo 16 for $4.60 only $0.29 per ice cream.. so worth it n its priceless when i c the smile among the 2 young gals..
Went to lim kopi with lau pei n complain to him abt bro..

watching incredible tales alone in GB

its abt a revengeful rooster .. not beri scary leh.. a rooster that seek revenge after the owner cook for curry after it lost in a rooster fight..
the international marketing paper is tough .. nt many of the tips came out. a lot was common sense.

I was re-evaluating my choices again n again at my old house

Originally I got my own room n toilet n I can sleep peacefully Nw I dun . No doubt I give lesser allowance but I lost all my freedom tat I used to have which dun benefit me at all . If u were me can u still b happy as before for my stand of view.. things I watapp Panda.. I got a choice one . but my choice is compromised 4 other ppl 's interest.. During the nites nt sleeping in Loyang no doubt I got no fan just a sofa for bed I was so much happier
Dread e day I got to go back to someone's else place n c his face color to live . Panda still got the cheek to bargain diamond size w me.. Tat 死肥子！I complain his fren diff frm mine, coz tat guy is rich so she would stick w him. I m taking a huge stake anyway ,either I gain a marriage or lose a family .. Or continue to suffer in Loyang

Wrote complimentary letter to bus 3 driver Mr Lau Teck Huat 8571S

Had he not help me to hand it promptly to the interchange officer, i might have lost my important text book on the bus on 15 Feb 2011.. due for exam preparation this sat.. so grateful to Mr Lau Teck Huat bus 8571S & Mr Goh frm Tampines interchange.. wrote them a complimentary letter to SBS transit to comment on their exceptional service...

after the catch up w tb.

well.. everything happens for a reason.
solutions and back up plan has been put aside .. The domestic issues has been bugging me for a while so while i revise, it has been toiling me. Marriage to me means nothing more to get out of the house. which ever it is . I hope when Dad's $ is depleted after "helping" e others . he wouldnt be thrown ard like a ball n thats the fearful factor which i hope it would not happen.
very soon Geylang Babru blk 96 would be history and the veri table i m sitting at now would be discarded and the original house would most likely be cosmetic renovated by the indian spr buyer.
till this day my Dad still holds some trump card.. part of the reason, A.may refuse to let my dad touch his profits to support my studies. which i tink i would just let it be .
After all i would set up my family ..get my own house n commitment.
If one day the $ gets spilted n due to the bad blood between bro 1 n 2.. that leaves me w bro 3 n joanna n so be it ..
I have foreseen the circumstances .. & i would be mentally strong to accept it ..Everyone thinks for themselves. The value of kinship is veri small to me now.
If one day I should be homeless , i believe there would also be other people there to lend me a hand. people like Joanna who s willing to take me in..
wataspp bro 3 from kuching n he thinks i tink too much.. But then realistically its happening... bro 3 even mentioned he finds its a constraint w 2 kids 1 maid car n house to support. n bro 2 has higher commitments than that. so w me out of the picture. i guess it just relieve him some of the burden.. before our relationship turn sour n we refuse to talk to each other in the house. i rather it maintains like a weekend sibling affair.. coz i dun want to argue or fight unnecessarily due to our differences. 10 yrs ago we had issues staying together.. now come 2011 10 yrs later. we still have issues irreconcilable differences. Its mentally challenging to wake up at 6.45 in the morning to travel that long, n after a long day to face domestic issues at home.. my own port of clientele gives me considerable amount of stress as well as assignments. if family oso is a source of issues, i wonder how long i can gain my cool in the wooden house.
eventually when the $ is depleted. i believe the true colors of the true self will eventually emerge n those involved just becomes another cost element in the picture so before it becomes into this kind of situation, its then better to make some precautions. I m merely protecting myself. n by not just rushing into marriage or thinking that marriage solves such issues could possible salvage the situation. What i m thinking of now is bro 2 needs $ n dad 's $ came just like a contingency plan just in case tings crops up like either of them unemployed or simply no one to fetch the kids. so with me around a not , its secondary. and the reason y i m relocated is just because i tag along coz i m homeless in fact. N i dun think i m pitiful, while bro 3 comments my plight is.. I tell myself. this 9 months it would be over soon. n veri soon i would climb my way up n see the light after the tunnel n those who have scorned me or give me the wet bucket would jolly well c w their own eyes hw i will succeed and get this bloody cert. n with my own capability , i would stand strong and overcome the current obstacles n stand on my own feet without despising or demeaning my own confidence. bro 2 is riding the fact that i have not much choice due to my study commitment, n the veri fact i wont settle just to settle. what other people are doing may be just doing the flow or wats best thing for them now. $ will be my driving factor n it would be my motivation to pay off the $11,984 loan from RHB. it would be the determining factor to result in my future failure or success.
I hope that my domestic affairs would not affect my academic or work performance although i know i m disappointed by some of the prevalent events which prove me just right. Some things cannot be pushed. it would happen while there are some events which are within my control .
whatever it is . i hope for the best.
always a optimistic person at heart.
if only mum was around, perhaps things would be much different from now. unfortunately things dun happen your way all the time. no wrong to have some of the nonsense event n some adversity. it just toughens me more. n more time to belittle or to despair only more time to look forward. n when i did it. it will prove that i done it. n i can give myself some credit to it... 0056 18022011. 1 day to LM305 n 2 days to LM 200 international marketing n marketing behavior.. at least a credit... nt a pass to justify $2996 per sem.. inclusive of gst..

元宵节快乐 to me.. Happy new year in my old house.

Tonite's dinner was red stove hockien mee which I have been craving for 1 mth..
unfortunately the old house does not have a fan but thats fine becoz its my house n nt someone's house no creaking wood sound.. n everything I do here is paid by myself. no need to see people color face... n although these few days got to sleep on sofa i oso feel quite happy finally.. got some peace n quiet in the house.. later i m meeting tb.. i need to c some old frens.. before my sanity gets looser n i turn into a green eye monster for being such a terror.. wahhahahha

Back to old house @ gb from 17-21 bi guan for exam

hahaha i m so fucking happy to be back at home my real home.. n o one to disturb me.. 2 toilets all serve for me.. no need to walk 10 min for food.. n best can watch tv until cows come home. sleep everywhere anywhere.. e luxury is limited till latest Apr 12.. anyway my lifestyle in loyang is like a tenant anyway.. wahahahhaha.. go back tostudy... smoke whole day oso no one care... even better than sex.. although e cab fare back cost me $12 i thought it was well spent... definitely..

Hope e not so good day of e curse ended

When I thought my day of errand ended.. My textbook was missing must b becoz I was too tired b grouchy . First instinct call 100 to check pasir ris interchange followed by tampines , Mr Goh was kind enough to n e driver who passed to him I must really thank him
Mr Lau Teck Huat bus 3 8571s the feedback w me perhaps I would drop him e feedback form. Total cab fare for yesterday on e few trips abt $40 each $10-$15 avg frm Panda 's place to mine coz it's 45 min bus ride n kallang to pasir ris $13 off peak peak period frm town back home avg $25 .. Damn bloody heart pain. Shld have eat restaurant or go shopping . So to avoid much conflictual effect I decide to stay outside to revise for e next 2 days as yy . Rena n baby Corliss are really distracting n noisy.. Koon commented he didnt expect my condition to b e same as of a tenant except fact I pay 60% lower a room in pasir ris is $600 n I m just paying $200 no wonder my landlord is "concerned of e utility bill" even toilet paper black rat aka stingy bugger bro 2 had to comment veri fast use finish .. Feel like telling them no need cook my share if toilet paper is oso an issue. last nite I was complaining to Panda n Tb tat it is so regretful Blk 96 is sold can only suck thumb play dumb till degree finish less stress tuition fee loan settled. lucky Rhb Alex did not insist I go down to Cecil street to change address .. I love iPhone just take pic forward n hard copy to him. I m so looking forward
Today ends n if possible feel like going old home to revise n nap
. Miss my days of sleeping without noise n disturbance
n my unlimited usage of my tv . occasionally throwing my underwear ard n nt subject to seeing other pp.'s faces at home . Even if I rent room outside oso nt so difficult

HDB first appt. Submit title deed to hdb

to me getting married is the idea of moving out legally
to have own matrimonial asset
n to have some form of freedom
avoid conflict at home
changes after i became a " tenant "
ground rules no
snacks in the fridge
no cola.
no excessive candies
no bubble tea for kids n ah gong
no messy table
no more personal toilet
Last sun i was awakened by some freak bus again aft TPE ppl like to accelerate n try to show off n the loyang ave resident here needs to listen to ipod to have some sleep
roll down blinder.
n on the very first nite on 15 Jan 2011 when i shifted in . i was truly unaware of all the ground rules so on sat night.
i happily watched incredible tales & then kids follow . family was in in disequilibrium just becoz i watched tv. e baby refuse to sleep n cry until 1am odd ..
n so happen on my veri first nite as a pasir ris resident.. my stuffy room has 2 lights on. the side light outside my bro's room and the altar light.
so as a result my room became a light bulb and then with the baby crying + a stuffy game = a beri and fed up
" tenant "
on the veri next nite.. i did not on the tv after 10pm anymore n i stick to streaming tv via tudou and mobtv... with foc wireless and that's e only happy ting ard coz i find that my bro under utilize the internet service at home.
Therefore i promise myself
no wood furniture in my own house
my own tv in my own room for my drama
windows is a must in my house.. no stuffy rooms like a mini storeroom
crap the rule of n o snacks
i want cola in my fridge
i wan junk food everywhere
i wan my table big n nice
i wan my cupboard perfect no shaky cupboards
i would not buy a house in front of a freaking bus stop that has bus sounds from 5am in the morning n till late in the morning coz there are night riders.
lastly less of clean freak brother. a nagging father n neighbours who have dogs that bark whenever i pass by my unit.
n that will make me quite happy to stay in the house
out of the 13 hrs i counted 7.25am - 8pm when i reach little woody hill house in Loyang.
after running errands since 8.45 am since i left e house. e room is so freakingwarm that i cant nap for my usually 2-3 hrs kinds of beauty sleep. even 30 min is a luxury now.. i lost my way when bus 3 went up to TPe to Punggol prive. n i was half hating mys3elf for wats-apping n complaining.
there are 2 hrs of travelling time inclusive of abt 1 hr lunch time n abt 10 hrs working time."
n there's this thing that annoys me even till now when the "landlord" passes remark like y aren't u sleeping
y did u switch on so many lights
y must u open the side door ( still in the mini store room)
y u so late still watch tv
y u eat so much
n the remarks on the co landlord.
if i wait till your daughter get married. my kids would no longer require people to fetch them around. and this sentence still bugs me to the core.
i was tin king if i propose to the old man that I m staying w my husband n co habitat . would he have any violent objection.
i haven't had a good nite sleep since i swop in this room either. I EITHER get wake up by buses or baby crying non stop with no snooze function
reason 1 : I m a light sleeper, sensitive to noise.
reason 2 : the bus is just endless with motor and airplanes
reason 3: its exam week. i need a quiet room
reason 4 : the kids like to buzz ard in my room
reason 5: my room unlike my dark room in my old house has less of such noise and I do not have to share toilet w 5 ppl
n on sundays i do noT need to walk 10 mins to get my dump AT LOYANG PT
n becoz of this.. i m still veri pissed off n regretful my Dad still choose to give in n sell the house becoz of the grandchildren
Ultimately it does not benefit me at all. except perks like free meals
n partime nanny
n my bro likes to pass this remark,, its good training for u when u have kids in future. its like this
my remark was.. i m still not ready for kids. n clearly my quiet room of 2 occupants when multiple to 4 times of 8 ppl is 4 times my threshold
n the record is I m free to do anything in the house. n tats includes lying on the floor to watch tv. or just simply lying around.
although i pay a premium much more than i m paying now. the daily to n fro of 1 hr ride do not seem to justify the travel .
I want to get married but then not becoz i want to get out of the house. i would prefer it to b i m ready to settle down n start a family
n the above mentioned obstacles just hinder me to get a house.
the hdb ruling states if i m staying with a sibling as a Singaporean sibling i cant get hdb until i m 35 so till i m freaking 7 yrs in this house . then i can releASE MYSELF OF ALL THIS NONSENSE &CRAP.
Buying bubble tea for my own dad n niece oso stirs some issue frm the landlord..come on la its not as if no TV produce scholars in the house.. Dream on..
N if everything is as planned as you think so , hire police for wat ...
Back to books less of grumbling n fuck tat noise.. ya i believe nt many ppl can stand sleeping a room with moving cars all day long.
IN SHORT I HATE EVERYTHING ABT LOYANG AVE. PASIR STREET 13 N I DISLIKE N DREAD STAYING IN MY ROOM WITH ALL THE " NOISE. DURING MY EXAM WEEK
N THE THOUGHT OF GOING BACK TO SCHOOL AFT 10.30PM FROM LITTLE INDIA TO LOYANG AVE IN MAR FOR CONSECTIVELY 4 DAYS IN A ROW DOESNT REALLY MAKE MY MOOD ANY BETTER.
12 apr 2011 e old house will then belongs to another owner.. wat a sad thought.. my toilet is gone.. my room. my childhood n my home.

Things I miss at Geylang Bahru

Hockien mee. Oily chicken noodle
Duck rice , fishball noodle, e cheap mixed rice, western food , wan ton mee' my fav
Ntuc , 3 stops away frm office. Able to nap whenever I could，shit whenever I wan, cheap cab fare back home $8 frm sch compared to $23 frm kallang leisure park. my childhood , my frens, my messy room , small but cozy
My freedom to watch tv whenever I wan.. Looking at my mum n lau pei title deed dAted 1978 !
$17,500 n Nw sold $300,000 almost 10 times more.. N my dad so blur lost mum's death cert.. decide to set at 5Am tis week to revise .. too tired to read thru.. Till I get a house of my ownwould I enjoy e above benefits again.. If nt if possible I shld get. A place of my own 1) no wooden furniture , nt next to bus stop, n closer to town, e cars make so much noise u
N kids.. Losing my mind soon.. All e deadlines work.. Assig ... Exam.. 4 more hrs beauty sleep till another working day.

Each time i think of giving up.. or less pushing of myself.. i would look at Kaplan 's invoice due date

Each time i think of giving up.. or less pushing of myself.. i would look at Kaplan 's invoice due date. n thats hw i keep myself sane of all possible distractions with my bonus next month i could have pamper myself and go to the next holiday in Aust.. or even induge in expensive massages..
In today's context everyone works equally hard to provide a living.. yes a diamond ring may mean something.. but to me diamond or no diamond.. its a gesture of the sincerity that counts. When a man puts down himself to strive hard to provide for a family and to be man. Other examples quoted of men who take relationship lightly are lightly to ask the gal to look for a better man out there which is a sign of cowardness.. immature enough to take up responsibilities man should embark on. And of course, with dual income, it makes things easier. its then no longer a man's role to provide for everything. after the house hold is after a family n family shoulder all the pain n woes together. And that to me bonds a family together. Unfortunately i think thats not true for all because not many people think like that. Some may be more self fish and some may fend more for themselves. In 2 yrs time.. i would be 30.. by default wedding bells should be ticking n also maternal instincts should b mugging my hormones. strangly.. I dun feel any ting but ready for it.. On the other hand.. panda finds that having children complete the picture.. i dunno how to bridge this gap.. perhaps staying w e 3 kids would help to fuse this dissonance behavior eventually...time for mugging..

V Day.. in advance.. 3rd V day w Panda

Its my 3rd V day w Panda. No flower, no fancy dinner just a simple Sizzler dinner and a movie by Jack Neo's Homecoming..
List of movies.. watched
Great great world.
Homecoming
All's well end well
No strings attached
Green Hornet...
Its been almost 4 weeks since I became a Pasir ris resident. would only comment I m gradually adapting to 1hr bus / train journeys back n forth paying more to SMRT.. 18km away from town.. in the far eastern point.. loyang ave..
travelling to work has been a toil as well. except for adapting, its still adapting till panda & i source for a nice. cheap. comofortable cozy love nest of our own.
We have grown out meagre start up of a $200 each start up till more 0000s at the back. Its a great start, exam is out next week. Joined Landy in tampines library for a short revision. Done up some clue cards and summarizes chapt 1-12 for international marketing for reference..
so far.. so good. scored a rare distinction for the marketing behavior assignment.. a mere credit for international marketing.
During project submission week. we had a clown who backed up on us. Nevertheless we managed to complete the assignment within the stipulated period of deadline. I cant be confident that we will score again for these 2 assignment. but i could safely tell myself i didnt copy from tat idiot's sample.
A LAZY BONE WHO EXPECT TO PLAIGERISE N SCORE... no sense of shame n her famous quote would be
I QUIT.. i really dunno wat to write.. dunno wat to do.. n thats her method of handling stess in the assignments.. n it kinda aggravated our wrath.. 3 days before submisson for assig 2. i made the decison to" kick her out of the 4 ppl group n did most of it sadly on my own. coz the other remaining 2 did not contribute much..

My stomach is rumbling now.. n i farted non stops mostly due to the higher portion of raw vegetables ate earlier.. and the salads.. perhaps i m not as herbivore as what my blood sign A should indicate.

Next thur would be the 15 th day of CNY which is yuan xiao.. or hockiens refer it as chup gor meh.. It a day of reunion and family bonding.

On work.. its never been easier.. got to try harder with new sign ups. renewals.. impeccably no major screw ups.. no commission though a big pushy.. try my best in pushin the campigns. looking on the bright side, it does toughen n beef me up to strive hard n stretch ...

Count down to nov 20.. n I can breathe lower.. n focus solely on career... n plans of settling down n be of a less party chick. time to mug textbook.

2am dessert assignment due in 3 days... still doing it at 2am on sun moring.. due wed..

again another rough week. assig due. the house is noisy. i m irritable. grouchy and deprived of sleep.due to anxiety in work, house, environment & school work. I know panda gets it when my short temper gets e better of me. 2 weeks in a row. n usually i dun sleep more than 6hrs daily.. i get so freaking pissed and stresed during work.. its pushing me more n more . n the more i tink abt it. the worse it gets
4 ppl in the team.. but only 2 r doing it.. 4 gets distinction while only 2 ppl contributes. tell me abt it . life is unfair but who cares. its e pt when we achieve at the end of the day.. slacker 1 & 2 must be happily sleeping for this rainy chilly night. but at the end of my head. i cant wait to get it over n done with n enjoy cny on wed. wed nite is the submission n we r nt even 80% since we got 2 slackers sitting on it ..
i m sick of complaining n complaining and complaining, when e other responsible one goes back to malaysia.. its only left me myself n lonely Samantha to edit compile, apply and upload file to swinburne blackboard. n tis time if we did well i should "grade" slacker 1 n 2 fairly n then reconsider if i want to continue working with them on future assignments. Can cny come soon... i need a breather n some quality work frm my fellow slacker group mates to furnish me w some encouragement.. n aft tis week its loan repayment week again..

2011.. One week staying the the little woody house under 1 roof

its been a tough week at work, for school assignment,adapting in the new house. accepting new roles and changes in the the scope of work tasked.
Going out for appointment with boss has also been enriching. The task assigned were challenging. so many first time for a start . All this has been much of a toil for me. Days of unpacking is finally over.
Had a heated argument with panda.. n he almost want to throw me one corner at bedok camp.. The joys of parenting.. tell me abt it.. kids whine n cry. buses horn n go.. first nite was a nightmare at the corner mini storeroom.
with the room switching.. its getting better.. gradually from one 2 person household.. it grown to a 8 ppl household..
we had a surprise cake for Joanna. n frankly shes like a second mum cum da jie with a respectable role in my heart as we wrote the messages on FB.. it teared her.. i guess its been lying there at the bottom of our heart its just nw we as Asians stay more traditional and subtle..


Tks to all my dearest ex bro in laws n Sis in laws for giving me a surprise today. A bday cake to celebrate my 40th bday in advance. Tks all I love u all still the same. To me, we are forever family
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Tks to all my dearest ex bro in laws n Sis in laws for giving me a surprise today. A bday cake to celebrate my 40th bday in advance. Tks all I love u all still the same. To me, we are forever family
In this photo: Chong Moi Jan (photos), Samantha Sng (photos | remove tag), steven sng, May Chea (photos)
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Joanna, I still remember the days u taught and share with your experiences when we needed u most...I will never forget this gratitude and kindness in my life..Looking back, I would not have done it without u during my difficult times... On ...this occasion, I wished u advance happy birthday, happiness and good health...
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Samantha Sng Yo da jie , we known each other more than 20 yrs. Tis yr 22th yr .. Time flies fast, I was 8 when I first met u.. do hope you find ur own happiness one day. The pics are well taken as well, depict many pictures and scenes of my family, we are and always be family despite all.Apologies for e disfigured cake, happy birthday in advance. you are definitely looking gd n glowing well done ! .. Stay chirpy always n may 2011 b an amazing yr ahead & wish that you would meet ur prince charming soon!
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Samantha Sng Yeah i agree w my bro 3.. it was indeed one of our most difficult moments, & u were there to assist us. Without you, i guess we wont have coped so well. To recap, I remembered tat during my short stay @ ur place, I might have got married frm that veri room i stayed. & of course it was indeed memorable, e 4 mth stay .. waahhahahah... where would i have stayed if no one offered me a shelter previously... n above all u still have a "significant role" and respect as a senior to me..
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Joanna Ng Wow my tears role when I see all this posting. So touch by all this. It was very difficult for all of us. But glad that despite all this we are still together n I thank you all for the respect n concern n care especially towards Rick. Not forgetting the support my sisters n bro has given me. U all are always like brothers n sister to me I will never forget the good time together.
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Karen Ng Wow Jie, so touched for you too! So glad that your past deeds were not forgotten by the people around you.
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A good way to reward myself.. Cycling by e park n enjoy cool sea breeze..
5 hours ago ·Had always stayed in town, did not realize the beauty of nature could also be equally captivating and alluring. First time for everything perhaps. Starting to begining to like Pasir ris with the beach n cycling track. birds chirping n all.. n friendly fellow cyclists.

time to complete assignment.. wahahahaha no more emoing..

last day of 2010 & many recap n oso new tings to look forward to 2011

2 of my best frens, their husbands have proposed to them. i like to describe the 3 of us , small medium large.. our choice of men differs.
from a teddy, mouse & panda.
i manage to do a presentation with confidence despite all the initial hurdles.

new room 2011 before renovation

very soon in 1 week, bro 2 is getting the keys for the new house. The contractor visited the house and getting doors for the little room and some slight renovations.
this month is the 10th month with DP information.
The new room is a humble square room.

yup sunday almost coming to an end

Having able to attend panda 's convocation was a milestone for him and hopefully when i complete my studies . he would also be there to tidy my robe for me.
lunch was lovely. when i go over to bro 3 house for lunch..
even bro worm came over. slowly.. my bro 2 also started to chat up a little with my him.
the photo session was fun. today is the 10th of the October 10/10/10.. many couples getting married.
when will be my turn then.. its a lot of commitment preparation and $ to gets things work out.. time for dinner..

happy news at work

after 2 months of persistance and stress from my boss. we manage to clinch the deal from global data company.. it brings in significant amount of revenue and clearly my boss was happy about it .
the challenges faced was the level of english for my correspondence. used to sound amateurish and unprofessional. the conference call was challenging. calling someone from the states and the actual buyer is from australia.drafting the terms and conditions was tough . n so was the interface of the results for kyc. compliance and verification of consumer data.
i m glad the deal is clinched. my boss was beaming away when she saw me walk past her on my way back home.
it was a relief after submitting my weekly reports and the necessary to be handed in.
had dinner at ishumura.. this stone bowl rice. not totally fantastic.
just as i wanted to be in bed. my phone rang and he was mingquan. he was whining to me about baker tilly the mid range tier accounting firm he faced. His manager was not happy with his performance and passed personal attacks like the choice of his perfume.
I learnt new terms today as well. owner. charter and agent from lsb. on the issues of her shipping brokerage trade..
something happy to look forward to..
today is sat.i can choose to nap after work. or acc panda to the studio for his shots for his gown n his uni mates.
D & D in november in grand hyatt..
exciting month also includes new school term with kaplan startin 27 nov 2010.. orientation..
9 dec first lesson. n birday week.. 16-19 dec for another unit.
if all should end smoothly .. convo in 2012 mar..
completion by 20 nov 2011..
quite a list of things to look forward n plan ahead..
dec is also the month for the results on sale of balance of flats. n if i should b so lucky.. i should gain a chance to lay my hands on my first asset. property with panda.

6 oct 2010 double bliss

today is panda 's convocation. class of 2010. when i first knew him he was only in 2nd year and then shortly after 1.5 years. lots of grueling and hard work.
behind the glam and the glory of the uni robe and the teddy bear or even the uni cap..
today after attending it and the speech of the fellow student tells a lot of stories.
unisim graduates are mainly working adults and some even had kids. gray hairs falling apart. It was equal, some were working mothers, parents and had to study during the wee hours after the kids were asleep and they did what was necessary to complete it.
i was proud of panda as well. when i saw his transcript, he also had his fair share of failure, he knew he had to make it if not it was a waste of his efforts. n together with his bunch of studying khakis they strive and motivated each other to soar high and endure the trials and challenges. One of the deans took 12 years to complete from a diploma 5 yrs . step by step. even with a family from a basic engineer assistant to the director and the md of the company.
It was not one of the best speech i ever heard. occasionally i hear some singlish or some awkward pauses. Nonetheless it was someone who had great perseverance and determination. To be able to go this far is something that i hope to achieve too.
it was a long ride and quite a full day from unisim to aloha chalet. wang wang was also present. i had a good time mingling with panda 's family, cousin, bla bla.
zhu zhu also introduced his girl friend who turned out to be the gal next door. quite different from the sister though.
hopefully things work out well for zhu zhu . she is shy , domesticated. seems like a good wife material.
another 1 month to school.
i am not particually excited or worried now, but completing it seems so far away.